An Invincible Summer - A Woman's Journey

trust noun 1 . firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something. "relations have to be built on trust" synonyms: confidence ,  belief ,  faith ,  certainty ,  assurance ,  conviction ,  credence ; reliance "good relationships are built on trust" 2 . LAW confidence placed in a person by making that person the nominal owner of property to be held or used for the benefit of one or more others. Trust is the foundation of every healthy relationship. For those of us who have been damaged by betrayal in our distant or recent pasts, trust has to be a deliberate choice. It doesn't come natural; it requires vulnerability and a transparency that can be hard to give to others. It can be even harder for some t...

My program is not working. Not today. I've forgotten I am powerless. I've forgotten no expectations. I've turned my back on the idea of turning my life over to my Higher Power.  I've stopped "T.H.I.N.K.ing and thrown the "Q TIP" in the trash. My STEPS are moving backwards.  Tomorrow will be better. 

This realization has hit hard. Not only due to the fact that I need to be more accountable to myself about how I spend my time but also because it is a tool that, if used properly, gives deep insight into others and who they actually are. The truth is, no matter what the words are, no matter what I tell myself is truth, my actions are what counts. Actions are what counts. ACTIONS ARE WHAT FUCKING COUNTS. Words are empty without the actions behind them. Our main focuses are what is defining us ... whether that be out of self protection, deflection, discovery, metamorphosis or just pure LAZY ASS nothingness. Filling our brain with garbage leads to fucking garbage! Filling our brains with; goodness, kindness, acceptance, authenticity,   benevolence,  determination, enthusiasm, forgiveness, grace, God, motivation, compassion, maturity, peace, wholeheartedness, truthfulness, trust, belonging, sincerity, kindness is the gold standard. A high and lofty goal. Excuse the la...