For the
December posting meme,
the_other_sandy asked, "What is a choice you wish you'd made in the past but didn't?"
I try not to think too much about what ifs, especially ones from long ago, because in most cases I can't do anything about them now. Plus, who knows if the good things that happened after my actual choice would've happened to me after the changed one? I might not even be happier. Or the same person.
Sometimes a "choice" I get isn't much of a real choice....
I also try to look for valuable things or silver linings in misfortune. I could wish I hadn't gotten into either of the two recent car accidents, but I did come out of them with some useful knowledge and experiences.
But I do have one I can't help thinking about sometimes: What if I hadn't tried to get down to the pit at the Nine Inch Nails show with my brother and his friend in 1996 and get my head and neck smashed and pressed hard into the floor under the weight of about 20 thrashing, panicking concertgoers? Because I do wonder if my Chiari might not have hit me so hard in my 30s if I
hadn't gotten that damage over ten years before.
(Btw, my brother and his friend, who'd quickly gotten separated from me, made it to the pit without injury and had a great time close to the stage, not knowing I was bound down in a big neck guard for hours in the local ER desperately hoping for a doctor to finally see me so I could be told whether I
needed to have a neck brace on, get the hole in my face stitched up, and leave.)
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I've been watching a lot of Todd in the Shadows' One Hit Wonderland series videos lately, and
his entry about Living in a Box's "Living in a Box" from the album Living in a Box had a few seconds of
a video clip and song that he didn't even mention the name of but said "Living in a Box" shared a genre (sophisti-pop) with... that took me back: Johnny Hates Jazz's "Shattered Dreams." I enjoyed most of the album "Shattered Dreams" came from,
Turn Back the Clock, which I owned on cassette in 1987 thanks to Columbia House's mail-order music club.
I liked "Shattered Dreams" partly for what I saw as a clever use of words that gives something almost like a punchline at the end of the song. It starts,
So much for your promises
They died the day you let me go
Caught up in a web of lies
But it was just too late to know...
The line
You said you'd die for me comes up a few times, but most memorably here, at the end:
You said you'd die for me
Oh-oh, you'd die for me
So much for your promises
So much for your promises+++
From
dine, who saw this meme on
bluesky:
Choose 20 books that have stayed with you or influenced you. One book per day for 20 days, in no particular order. No explanations, no reviews, just covers.