LJ, why be like that for?

I don't want you to pretend you're twitter or whatever you're up to now, just stay the clunky home we grew to love!

Leave us to dwell in the dusty corner we've chosen, we like it here.

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Respect the hat!
I do not dress up enough anymore. I am remembering "dress for the job you want, not the job you have", so I am dressing like the Cowboy President of Space today.

And drawing, and listening to musics.

...and I will look for jobs...

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I bought a porcupine quill quill today. So that's pretty great. I'm going to use it for my new dream journal, which will, I have decided, only contain important dreams.

I am a little sad to not write every day, but need to do something to shake up my dreaming, as I have just about filled a really beautiful sketchbook with pretty dull dreams, and that just doesn't feel right to me. I am hopeful that this will help, and that my fun stripey quill and new pretty sketchbook will get much use.

Writin' wiith a porcupine, o yeah.

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Stuff (&things)
I am generally feeling pretty good about things. I am coming to terms with myself as not being a very tourist-y person, and putting less pressure on myself to go do lots of silly things, because truth be told I don't really care to. There is a cave near here that I want to go visit, but apart from that, I want to just be where I am and enjoy it.

I am beginning to feel like I am, like, the least chilled out person in Austin. It's a strange feeling, that everyone is just so casual and relaxed...It puts me on edge. Which makes me feel bad, like I am not trusting the world. It feels like I need to let my walls down like, severely. Because I do want to be trusting and open and happy. But it seems hard when you are in a new place and everything seems so...good. It's like, what's the catch? When really I should be going out into the sun and playing frisbee golf.

It is just weird to imagine everything being good. And I don't understand why that is. Just chill, Robert. Take it easy.

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I love Jeff Smith.

I read the first volume of RASL today and my love for him grew even morely.

It is so great that people can write and draw in such a tender and loving way. And that he puts such huge themes in such simple and powerful stories is so inspiring.

And he started out doing all of it independantly and has only ever done things that he was truly inspired to do. He is so a hero of mine.

I am very glad he exists.

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i bought a hat


Yeah I'm beautiful. Deal with it.

There is a tailor just down the road. They have many many hats. I was very impressed. This style calls itself 'godfather'. It's pretty sexy. They have some reeeeally expensive hats that I totally want too. The lady at the store was nice, gave me the hat for $40 instead of $65, and referred me to Texas Hatmakers or something. I will have to check it out. They also sell Clerical robes...resist Robert!

PS I live in a new house. There have been troubles and I am scared of the world, but getting over it...

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I have been doing my hair like this most days and drawing lots. Both of these activities are due to e being totally cool.

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Awesome in Austin
Moving is difficult. We found a great real estate agent though, and her and her husband have spent the last two days acting as agents/tour guides, and have taken great joy in driving us around the city pointing out all the things we should know about, such as this:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eeyore%27s_Birthday_Party

Austin seems really fantastic, there are so many colourful and awesome neighbourhoods, and all of the people we've encountered have been really fantastic. "Austin is different" is what they all say.

We are applying for a really cute old house owned by a retired professor who works on old cars in the garage out back, and the next door houses's carport has chandeliers in it! Just have to get approved, but I'm feeling pretty good about that. It has been a stressful couple of days, but pretty great at the same time.

We have made a good choice, and everything will be awesome.

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 ¹"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God^[a]; trust also in me. ²In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. ³And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. ⁴You know the way to the place where I am going."

Jesus the Way to the Father

 ⁵Thomas said to him, "Lord, we don't know where you are going, so how can we know the way?"

 ⁶Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the father except through me."

My great aunt, one of my grandmother's sisters, died during the week. That was the bible passage she wanted. I wish in a way I had the same faith as them.

My heretical viewpoint on that passage is that we are all forgiven, as even a perfect person would die, this is a great tragedy that God allows, his 'sin', so all of ours are forgiven. We all know our path, still have the choice of if we follow it or not. There are as many rooms as there are people, space for all of us as we truly are.

It makes me feel really far away still. I miss my family.

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Awesomenessness
After a week of feeling pretty bad about everything in the universe, I am having a much better time of it.

Feeling more creatively inspired, more capable of doing the difficult things I need to do, less whingey about the necessity of having to do difficult things in life, more like I have hair that is easily liveable for me, breaking my boots in more so I can actually live the cowbow fabulousness of it all, also feeling more like they do fit me and are not way too small and will never be comfortable.

Also feeling better about being in this country and excited to move and find a place and that that will all go well, and that everything is going to turn out well, and that this has all been a good idea, and that I am not only having dreams about reality TV.

Everything will be awesome.

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My new hat looks kind of like a pirate hat if I wear it with the brim like this. So needless to say I will.



And I cut and bleached my hair. It looks vaguely blue in some light and white in others. It is the shortest it has been in a long time. Tired of coughing. Chrissie is surrounded by a huge mound of tissues. It is very impressive.

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Spinning
I'm not sure what kind of year it's been.

All in all I would say pretty rad.



I've accomplished a lot of things I wanted to. Maybe not all, but I think I've done pretty well. I'm one week away from filling my dream/journal, need to buy another one. Had some odd dreams, wrote in it all but one day, the seventeenth of November.



I feel like I'm closer to enlightenment, whatever that means. I no longer think there is just one. There are as many as there are people, just like sexualities.

Next year will be awesome.

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Hells yes
Sitting on top of a large hill blogging over unsecured wireless connection. You know you dig it.

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Procrastionationing
I know what I should be doing, what I need to be doing, but I am not.

I'm going to do it now.

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We went to Paris, Texas, where Chrissie went to high school. I saw her old house, and we ate mexican food at the restaurant across the road. I bought cowboy boots from a place next to there, and they are super fantastic. They are plain black with black stitching and have a total cowboy heel and pointy r toe, or j toe or whatever pointy up toe thing, and have a little silver bit on the toe and the heel. Chrissie says I am not allowed to buy spurs because I would hurt myself. And look stupid. I am more worried about the looking stupid part of it. But my boots are pretty wonderful. I will for sure buy more cowboy boots. I cannot walk in them for shit yet though, because they are so tight and stiff, and the heel is so odd. I'm fine on most surfaces, but when I try to walk quietly on the wooden part of the floor here, it is the loudest thing ever.

We went to see 'Where the Wild things are' and it was totally amazing! I loved it so much. It made me want to cry at the end, and then I was on the verge of tears the whole drive home, Chrissie asked me if my mother used to read it to me and I said probably and lots of tears fell out. I miss my mum. I sent her an e-mail telling her that she should go to see it. I think it will end in Australia soon, so I looked up session times and told her when she could go. I didn't think I'd be able to see it at the movies here, because it came on ages ago, but then it started at the cheap movies, so we saw it for $1.50 for both of us. I love that cinema so much.

There were lots of kids in the cinema, but they all went totally quiet during the movie. I love it when movies don't patronize kids.

When we were waiting in line to buy tickets, I heard a child in front of me in line ask her mom, 'how does he ake his hair blue', and the mother said, 'ask him', and then the girl asked me 'How do you make your hair blue?' and I said, 'with textas', and everyone looked confused, and I said to Chrissie, 'that's not a word her is it. What is it?' and Chrissie told me it was markers. Everyone was extrememely confused. That poor child. Her native curiosity was met with oddness.



 

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Snow!
It may snow here on christmas morning! I am so excited! I have never seen it fall in my life. The whole thing sounds very magical, especially on christmas morning!

Please little baby jesus! Tell your papa santa to give me some snow! If it be his will and for the highest good of course.

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I love the future
I got my n900 from the UPS man today!

It is so freaking awesome!

I have never had a phone that can do anything other than send text messages, so am pretty easily impressed, but I am in so much love right now.
Now all I need to do is get a phone plan so I can use it outside...

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Cirque Du Freak!
Can I get a woop woop?

Or not.

We went to see Cirque du Freak: Vampire's Assistant today, and it was so great! I have a vampire crush on John C Reilly now, who'd have thunk it? So cute and over it all! And he wears fabulous vampire clothes but looks quite dorky! LOVE.

Plus we went to see it at the rad cinema, so it was 75 cents each. ZOMG

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Chrissie and I went to see 'everyone's fine' today.

I cried through pretty much the whole thing. I think it was a lot to do with being so far from my parents, but also I mean, all the years spent of like, hiding who I really am from them for fear of upsetting them. Like, they're smart people, they know what's really going on. I'm doing nobody any favours.

So I've just written my dad an e-mail telling him how much I love him and how grateful I am for him being the father he was and is. I'm still crying now. His father died when he was 27. Like, fuck, you know? I'm so so lucky that he is still there to be able to say it to, you know?

So then afterwards we went to see New Moon, just so we would have something to laugh about, and FTW shirtless gay disco werewolves that only kill wampires?? I nearly wet myself. Can that series water down the dark side any further?? Oh yeah, Mummies just love eating tacos!

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