I am a 45 year old female. I do not date(anymore) because, I hate sex, it is gross bad and dirty, (for me anyway) if you other people like it congratulations! I was sexualy abused. I am celebate, as of 6 years ago. It's just not my thing.I'm what you call a born again virgin. LOL But I do hang out with my gay men alot because I trust them!
I'm am a Wiccan/Pagan. (Also kind of atheist/agnostic to any and all bible based religions) But, I do not worship or belive in Satan.I prefer to say I have not just one religeon, but parts of many!
I am diagonsed with these following things. Don't ask me to explain them.I do not have the paitence to go into them. You can look them up please.
I had hydrocyphillis/meningitus as an infant, but no longer have that now. But I do have these::
Many heart issues including - Mitral Valvue prolapse,Tacticardia and Arythmea, palpataitons/mummer, and others.I have several physical health issues, face/head deformities. Slurred and odd very low deep sounding speach. Many skin cancers.I lost nearly my entire scalp to skin cancer and had a skin graft from my leg to replace the lost skin,so I have little or no hair. I never had much hair to begin with. Other cancer too. One breast lump removal. All the women in my Mom's family including Mom herself have had breast removals or died from those cancers. Mom is still alive.As are two of her sisters, but I rarely speak with them so I dont know if or what cancers they have.
None of these conditions are related to mental retardation. In other words don't call me a "retard" I am mentally normal, intelligent and articulate,and indpendent.
But I tend to not do doctors visits much anymore, because well just becuase...I’m sooooooo done with doctors now, and hey if I die well then I die so be it.
45 years of examining, experimenting and embarrasing questions and procedures,pain and anxiety I've had it! I just can't handle more tests, surgeries, enough is enough. I may live for quite a long time still, or I may die at any time. But that is my decision and mine alone. I have had it suggested to me that I change my eating habits and start an excercise program but what point is there in that? Living longer with all those restrictions is not worth living longer for. I'd rather enjoy my life as it is and pass on in my own terms, than to suffer and be miserable having the things I like taken from me.And being forced to eat or do things I hate.I need to do what is right for me not what other people want for me.I don't do. I just am!
sisterelwood
This is me with my darling cat Marie.
Marie being "Marie"
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