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I have a JOB! Yes a J.O.B!!!! I'm getting PAID!!!

Finally it has happened to me
Right in front of my face and
I just cannot hide it!

Okay that was ner- dork- loserish.

I feel like I accomplished something.... Now it's time to get everything else situated 

What to write about, what to type...

This sickness is killing me.... I don't know what to do with myself! I'm wandering aimlessly... where's my fucking path!

Why do I insist on doing this to myself. I actually feel sorry for myself... I can't see the future but I feel like it's a bleak one... You know how you can just picture yourself doing something and usually go and give it a try, well I don't try. My dreams just feel out of reach, yet I'm not taking the steps to get any closer to them... I don't know, I just weird. Like I want to move forward and leave but my resolve is crumbling and I'm only 18, like what kind of shit is that. Just sitting here letting time pass me by... I always say I'll do it...It'll happen, but who am I kidding; shit won't change unless I make it, which is terrible for someone who loves to scratch that has a disturbing habit of procrastinating! I'M HORRIBLE! This can't be good for my health. Ohkay now I'm being over-dramatic and not making any sense. Maybe I should start writing poetry again... It might help be a stress reliever. SHIT SCRESSFULL SON!

Strongest urge to play in the rain!

I JUST WATCHED TEEN WOLF ON MTV..... I AM TOTALLY SHOCKED AND PISSED AND SAD!!! THEY BETTER HAVE NOT KILLED DEREK HALE!!!! I SCREAMED AND MY EYES ARE STILL WATERY.....PLEASE LET DEREK LIVE.... :( OR I WILL STOP WATCHING THIS SHOW...(ohkay that was a lie) BUT I WONT CARE SOO MUCH..... IT'S ALL STILES AND SCOTT'S FAULT!!! GRRRRR........THIS RANT DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE ANYMORE.... OH WELL... ARE THERE ANY TEEN WOLF COMMUNITIES???

OMG I like didnt even post at all this summer. I feel like I have been neglecting LJ, lol. I had a serous case of writer block but now I'm back and I'm gonna start writing as soon as possible. But I dont know if I'll be able to write as much as I want to because school is startin in 1 day for me :( ! Oh well. I'm planning on doing big things this year for myself. I'm taking Bug Time Rush's advice, Im gonna live my life big time cause it's the only life I go, lol. I love BTR soooo freakin much. I wanna see them in concert sooo freakin bad. Carlos nd Logan are my favorites. They are so good looking and ahmazing!!!!!!! I'm gonna write a fanfic about them.

I don't understand my closest friends or should I say ex-friends. We got into an argument about our dance crew for the talent show. They couldn't do it so that meant that everybody else couldn't either. they told everyone the group was over. Eveyone else laid down and took it. I didn't. I still want to do the dance.They didn't want me to. Words were said and the phonelines went dead. They are mad because I got mad because I still wanted to do something I love to do and that is dance. However, the next day I put their feelings into consideration and didn't dance(but I did sing). They are currently still not talking to me.

They really need to get over it. A lost friendship over stupid SH*T. It just goes to show that are friendship was so disposable, it's not even funni.

OHKAY SOOO, I'M A TOUCHY FEELY PERSON. IF YOU LET ME TOUCH YOU, I'LL DO IT MORE THAN ONCE AND SOON IT WILL BECOME A HABIT. UNFORTUNATELY THAT HABIT HAS SOME OF MY FRIENDS (mainly girls) THINKING. I WONDER HOW MANY OF THEM I MADE UNCOMFORTABLE? NOW I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO RECEDE INTO MYSELF (fovever). IT DOESN'T HELP THE FACT THAT I COULD REALLY USE A HUG RIGHT NOW!!! OH WELL.....LIFE GOES ON!

WOW I finally posted again, it has been sooo long. Anyway I wonder what I missed? Proabably nothing much. Oh I saw Wolfman this past weekend it was okay and also the third movie that I saw so far this year. On scale from one to ten I give it an 8.5. Benicio Del Toro is kinda hot in some strange way to me or maybe I'm just weird hehe.