~♥HIDDEN PARADISE♥~

Finally

blue_moons169 — Tue, 13 May 2014 22:53:13 GMT

I have a JOB! Yes a J.O.B!!!! I'm getting PAID!!!

Finally it has happened to me
Right in front of my face and
I just cannot hide it!

Okay that was ner- dork- loserish.

I feel like I accomplished something.... Now it's time to get everything else situated

Because I can....

blue_moons169 — Sat, 04 Jan 2014 19:36:46 GMT

What to write about, what to type...

This sickness is killing me.... I don't know what to do with myself! I'm wandering aimlessly... where's my fucking path!

Subject No Subject #2 (Held In Anger)

blue_moons169 — Wed, 29 May 2013 01:14:00 GMT

SHOUT. calm, stay calm. YELL. breathe, breathe deeply. SCR/silence/EAM. you're strong, stay strong. RO/muscles twitch/AR. punch. Jab, HOOk, UPPERCUT! There's peace. No negativity lingers, only tranquility...

Subject No Subject

blue_moons169 — Sun, 26 May 2013 21:12:29 GMT

It's a humid summer morning, my body is sticky with sweat. I turn over kicking the rest of the comforter to the floor, fighting to go back to sleep. I groan cursing the heat that has settled in my room and turn over once more to find relief. Of course that doesn't happen. Finally I give up on my journey for more rest and blink the haze of sleep from my eyes. My eyes focus on a crack in the ceiling, a thin jagged crack that leads to the ceiling fan. The barely moving, three winged fan that is supposed to help me out, isn't doing it's one and only job. My eyes narrow, giving the fan the dirtiest look I could muster, as if that will get it to move.
"My sleep ended because of you," I hiss out. With a sigh, I roll myself off the dampened sheets and make the wise decision to take an hour long cold shower.

Random Sh*t

blue_moons169 — Thu, 23 May 2013 20:08:11 GMT

Why do I insist on doing this to myself. I actually feel sorry for myself... I can't see the future but I feel like it's a bleak one... You know how you can just picture yourself doing something and usually go and give it a try, well I don't try. My dreams just feel out of reach, yet I'm not taking the steps to get any closer to them... I don't know, I just weird. Like I want to move forward and leave but my resolve is crumbling and I'm only 18, like what kind of shit is that. Just sitting here letting time pass me by... I always say I'll do it...It'll happen, but who am I kidding; shit won't change unless I make it, which is terrible for someone who loves to scratch that has a disturbing habit of procrastinating! I'M HORRIBLE! This can't be good for my health. Ohkay now I'm being over-dramatic and not making any sense. Maybe I should start writing poetry again... It might help be a stress reliever. SHIT SCRESSFULL SON!

Strongest urge to play in the rain!

TEEN WOLF!!!!!!!

blue_moons169 — Tue, 05 Jul 2011 04:42:33 GMT

I JUST WATCHED TEEN WOLF ON MTV..... I AM TOTALLY SHOCKED AND PISSED AND SAD!!! THEY BETTER HAVE NOT KILLED DEREK HALE!!!! I SCREAMED AND MY EYES ARE STILL WATERY.....PLEASE LET DEREK LIVE.... :( OR I WILL STOP WATCHING THIS SHOW...(ohkay that was a lie) BUT I WONT CARE SOO MUCH..... IT'S ALL STILES AND SCOTT'S FAULT!!! GRRRRR........THIS RANT DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE ANYMORE.... OH WELL... ARE THERE ANY TEEN WOLF COMMUNITIES???

1 more day of Summer b4 school starts!

blue_moons169 — Tue, 31 Aug 2010 13:09:53 GMT

OMG I like didnt even post at all this summer. I feel like I have been neglecting LJ, lol. I had a serous case of writer block but now I'm back and I'm gonna start writing as soon as possible. But I dont know if I'll be able to write as much as I want to because school is startin in 1 day for me :( ! Oh well. I'm planning on doing big things this year for myself. I'm taking Bug Time Rush's advice, Im gonna live my life big time cause it's the only life I go, lol. I love BTR soooo freakin much. I wanna see them in concert sooo freakin bad. Carlos nd Logan are my favorites. They are so good looking and ahmazing!!!!!!! I'm gonna write a fanfic about them.

Disposable Friendship.

blue_moons169 — Wed, 19 May 2010 21:18:37 GMT

I don't understand my closest friends or should I say ex-friends. We got into an argument about our dance crew for the talent show. They couldn't do it so that meant that everybody else couldn't either. they told everyone the group was over. Eveyone else laid down and took it. I didn't. I still want to do the dance.They didn't want me to. Words were said and the phonelines went dead. They are mad because I got mad because I still wanted to do something I love to do and that is dance. However, the next day I put their feelings into consideration and didn't dance(but I did sing). They are currently still not talking to me.

They really need to get over it. A lost friendship over stupid SH*T. It just goes to show that are friendship was so disposable, it's not even funni.

TOUCHY FEELY = IN2 FEMALES??????

blue_moons169 — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 23:38:52 GMT

OHKAY SOOO, I'M A TOUCHY FEELY PERSON. IF YOU LET ME TOUCH YOU, I'LL DO IT MORE THAN ONCE AND SOON IT WILL BECOME A HABIT. UNFORTUNATELY THAT HABIT HAS SOME OF MY FRIENDS (mainly girls) THINKING. I WONDER HOW MANY OF THEM I MADE UNCOMFORTABLE? NOW I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO RECEDE INTO MYSELF (fovever). IT DOESN'T HELP THE FACT THAT I COULD REALLY USE A HUG RIGHT NOW!!! OH WELL.....LIFE GOES ON!

I'm back, but I was never really gone. :)

blue_moons169 — Mon, 22 Feb 2010 20:07:56 GMT

WOW I finally posted again, it has been sooo long. Anyway I wonder what I missed? Proabably nothing much. Oh I saw Wolfman this past weekend it was okay and also the third movie that I saw so far this year. On scale from one to ten I give it an 8.5. Benicio Del Toro is kinda hot in some strange way to me or maybe I'm just weird hehe.

BOOK OF ELI

blue_moons169 — Sat, 23 Jan 2010 23:37:16 GMT

I just saw the Book of Eli. It was great. It is a definite must see. The movie gives the viewer something to think about. The action is also on point. I would say more but I don't want to ruin the movie for anyone who might want to see it.

Lyrics, Videogames & Movies

blue_moons169 — Sat, 23 Jan 2010 16:19:12 GMT

Yesturday I finally finished the remix lyrics I wrote for Travis Garland's song "Stranger". It's called "Your Lady." I probably post the song, just not right now I'm to lazy. Anyway I also played Bayonetta yesturday night. The game is sooo much fun and over the top. Its like of Devil May Cry and Gungrave. Bayonetta is soooo B.A, she is my new Videogame Idol, but Nina Willams will forever hold the top spot.
I'm going to see the Book of Eli today, I hope it's good. If it is, it'll be the first good movie that I've seen this year so far. Well TATA FOR NOW!!!

TRAVIS GARLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

blue_moons169 — Sat, 16 Jan 2010 00:41:23 GMT

I FRIGGIN' LOVE THE MAN KNOWN AS TRAVIS GARLAND. IT'S TO BAD THAT NLT BROKE UP(yeah i'm saying it now even though it happened awhile go lol). I WAS LOOKING AT OLD FOOTAGE OF THEM AND THEY JUST MAKE ME HAPPY. I WISHED I COULD HAVE MEET THEM BUT THERE IS STILL A CHANCE I COULD MEET TRAVIS GARLAND. I IMAGINE MEETING HIM ON A PLANE(yeah a plane. don't ask why). HE'LL HAVE A SEAT RIGHT NEXT TO ME AND WE'LL EXCHANGE NUMBERS AND BECOME BEST OF FRIENDS. HOWEVER THAT IS JUST MY GREAT IMAGINATION AT WORK. IF ONLY MY IMAGINATION COULD SEE THE FUTURE.

ARGGGGH!!!!!! SCHOOL!!!!

blue_moons169 — Fri, 15 Jan 2010 22:42:13 GMT

I hate MID-TERMS!!!!! !They are killing me right now. My mind has turned to mush!!!! I have 3 more left. I also have to update a story and finish writing one. I have so much to do I can't stand IT!. I think I'm stressed. I need warm milk and a nap.

whoa 2010!

blue_moons169 — Sat, 09 Jan 2010 23:19:54 GMT

Wow it is 2010! I wonder what things will happen this year. I hope it will be better than 2009. I saw my first movie of the new year today. Daybreakers. I'll just say it looked promising and it was until about the turning point of the film. It went from a to b. It was alright. 3 1/2 stars.

What's the worst that could happen.........?!

blue_moons169 — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 23:36:30 GMT

What is the worst that can happen......? Well the worse thing to me right now is being heartbroken. I thought there could have been something to work with, but I guess it was just senseless flirting. I really liked the guy but he was still in love one of my BEST friends and as if it were a dream come true for him, they began dating again. The news was sort of like a stab to the heart. But what can I say I was the one setting myself up for heartache. Though everything isn't all bad. Christmas is almost and that will take my mind off of school for the time being. At least the candy-gram is a secret.

Crossover Fic: currently untitled

blue_moons169 — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 21:28:20 GMT

I saw him. I saw a young flame haired man being dragged away. He wore a white tank top that was torn and soiled with blood. The same went for his gray sweatpants. His face was a mess. His right eye was swollen shut, his lower lip was busted and a deep cut laid above his left eyebrow. His head bobbed carelessly up and down as if he was drugged or just barely holding onto his consciousness.
The men taking him away were dressed all in black with a strange red crest of something I couldn't make out. As they took him away he mumbled inaudible. I read his lips. He said "Help, help Jin." A tear ran down a cut cheek. I didn't know why, but I was infuriated. Whoever this Jin person was, should have been there to help out his friend. Now I watched in anger as he was pulled to his feet by his fiery locks. He was slapped as a warning to pay attention. That's when a deathly pale man came into view.

His hair is jet black. His eyes blue and a thin scar ran from his upper lip to his cheekbone. His dress was one of an army official. The man was creepy. He forcefully turned the red-head's head and whispered something in his ear. The captive looked disgusted and spit in the others face, making the creeper smile in return. He was quickly backhanded for his actions. The hit caused his cheek to split and blood to spill from his busted lips. The dark haired man yelled orders in what sounded like Russian and marched off. Shortly after a short, hunched over white-haired man wearing a lab coat came over to the prisoner. He held up a syringe filled with a glowing blue substance. The man started to panic. He thrashed against his holders to try and break free. After that failed attempted at freedom he begin begging for mercy. I closed my eyes as he was injected. His scream brought tears to my eyes and made my heart skip a beat.
Once again he cried out for Jin and just like before no one responded. He passed out seconds later and was thrown recklessly into the back of a van. The vehicle started up and drove off. I wanted to run after the van. I wanted to see if he was alright. I wanted, no needed to beat the living hell out of this Jin character, but it was until a few months later that I realized I'm Jin.

Writer's Block: Name your passion

blue_moons169 — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 21:01:37 GMT

I'm most passionate about writing. I love to do it and it helps me relieve stress.

Life Goes On

blue_moons169 — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 19:35:32 GMT

I hurt you
You didn't hurt me
Never tried to show you any sympathy
Forcing my love upon you
You wouldn't accept
Exploding with anger
Leaving words discontent

Passing by eachother
Not even sparing a passing glance
By no means, speaking again

Saying sorry just wouldn't cut it
But I got to realize that......life goes on

TEKKEN 6

blue_moons169 — Tue, 03 Nov 2009 20:38:03 GMT

I got Tekken 6 on thursday and absolutely fell in love with it. I stayed up to 1 in the morning on friday and saturday just playing it and I hardly stay up late on the weekend. It's just that amazing. It's a must buy for anyone in need of a new game.

TEKKEN 6

blue_moons169 — Fri, 25 Sep 2009 20:59:07 GMT

Yay!! Tekken 6 is ony 32 days away. I'm soooo amped. This means everyone on the Playstation Network better watch out! :p.

Travis Garland

blue_moons169 — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 03:09:05 GMT

It just hit me. Travis Garland IS AMAZING!!! He can sing, he can dance, he is an amazing songwriter and he's good-looking. I want to cry, that's how great he is. I just wish that he could get the publicity he needs! All I can say that is I Love You Travis and keep on doing what you do! I can't wait to meet ya! :)

Writer's Block: Top of the Charts

blue_moons169 — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 23:07:31 GMT

The most played song in my library as of right now would have to be Travis Garland's Can Wait To Meet Ya.

OMG I'm Brain Dead!!!!

blue_moons169 — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 22:34:14 GMT

I started my second year of high school and already I know it's going to be a KILLER!! I hardly have any friends in my classes and I feel out of place. It's just awkward. On top of that I can't think of a good story topic and I still need to update Experimentation. I feel sooooo blah. But the bright side is in my own little dream world Travis Garland is my boyfriend and he sings to me all the time. If only I could meet him in real life. Maybe I could get him to sing for me on my 16th birthday but I doubt it :)!

Writer's Block: Tips for a Beautiful Body

blue_moons169 — Mon, 24 Aug 2009 15:25:13 GMT

Treat your body like a temple and only then it will be the purest most beautiful thing you and everyone else has laid eyes on.