smoke and mirrors or teeth
Jul. 15th, 2026 06:35 pmNew hygienist, who started out by telling me how inadequate my tooth care was according to her views before even looking at my teeth; I called her on it and she stopped, but it wasn't a good start. She's new there, or at least new to me -- and the last of the phalanx of extremely competent blonde employees that office has had for 20 years is gone. No objections about the new people, just something I noticed. She did a competent job at cleaning my teeth, though.
Then the dentist came in, said my teeth looked fine, and then started pressuring me about getting either braces or a retainer for my lower teeth. I said no. I continued to say no, and got a bit louder when she kept pushing. I really hate being bullied. I stuck to my NO.
It's possible that the office is having money trouble; there was no separate office manager there handling the payment. I ended up paying the receptionist, which was a first.
I've been going to that office for 20 years, through 3 different dentists. I may well start looking for a different one, since my NO is not respected. I do have some coverage under Kaiser; it's time to look at their lists.
And then another hour's drive home in the heat, though less smoke.
just in case you were wondering
Jul. 15th, 2026 11:01 pmthe England men's football semi-final, during a heatwave, is a terrible time to have a migraine that you refused to medicate until rather later on in proceedings than Might Have Been Wise.
nevertheless SOME GOOD THINGS:
- finished sorting through all the redcurrants, and also, fridges are Magic actually
- quantifiable Gym Progress, and also I am pretty sure the hair tie I found at the bike racks is the one I lost at the bike racks on my way out on Monday
- tinned pears and almond butter; strawberries
- temperatures finally starting to properly come down
- found the hairbrush that has been missing since last event! ... at the bottom of the backpack I apparently never fully unpacked.
Bundle of Holding: Thrones & Bones
Jul. 15th, 2026 02:26 pm
Beat the heat with this all-new Thrones & Bones Bundle featuring Norrøngard, the tabletop fantasy roleplaying campaign setting from novelist and designer Lou Anders at Lazy Wolf Studios.
Bundle of Holding: Thrones & Bones
In which there are a barren place, fallow reading, and the heron of denial
Jul. 15th, 2026 05:49 pm- Books: if you're wondering why I haven't been posting recently it's because I didn't read any books worth reccing in May and then read no books at all in June, due to being out and about having fun (which I'll try to post about some time).
- Birbs
Me: Oh, look at the perfect weather next week! I'm so glad I have to be near the seaside. I think I'll go a couple of days early....
::checks accommodation availability in town that is never ever full::
Me: Not even a grotty caravan on the site 15mins uphill from town?!
Western reef heron: /evil laugh in rare bird
(Don't bother googling - it's the most monotone dark grey heron on earth. Anyway, apparently the twitchers booked all available accommodation within driving distance. To paraphrase Greg Davies from series 5 of Taskmaster, "Beaten by a -king heron!")
Wednesday has had a haircut
Jul. 15th, 2026 05:03 pmWhat I read
Finished Poor Caroline which is one of those novels - ?I think they went on being a thing beyond the period when this was written? - where you have several ill-assorted people's stories through them being brought together through some reason cutting across their usual associations, in this case, via the eponymous Caroline who is a dotty and determined ageing spinster who is trying to set up a Christian film company. And everyone has their own motivations, and so on, which have little or nothing to do with any stated purpose. Not a top Holtby but has its moments.
Re-read of NK Jemisin, The City We Became (Great Cities, #1) (2020) and The World We Make (Great Cities #2) (2022) - slightly less whelmed by the first perhaps but still gripped by the second.
Started to re-read KJ Charles, Copper Script (2025) and realised why it had not made much impression upon me. Well off-form - clunky, sluggish and has a lot of one of my pet peeves, very distinctively of-the-present-day expressions and word-usage in a period setting. Decided not to continue.
On the go
Foluso Agbaje, The Talk of the Party (2026) a mystery/thriller about wealthy socialite family in Lagos. Just started.
Up next
Have not yet got to Literary Review.
My ranking of the Hugo Award for Best Short Story
Jul. 15th, 2026 09:46 amThis year’s Hugo Awards will be presented at the World Science Fiction Convention, LAcon V in Anaheim, California, USA, on August 30, 2026
I’ve read all the short fiction finalists, which has some overlap with the Nebula finalists. This is my ranking of the short stories — but there are other opinions, too. I wouldn’t mind if any of my top four stories won the award. Overall, I thought this year’s finalists represent a good overview of the current field with its strengths and faults.
6. “Laser Eyes Ain’t Everything” by Effie Seiberg (Diabolical Plots, May 16, 2025) — A woman who uses a wheelchair discovers that superpowers will not overcome indifference to accessibility needs. Although the story won this year’s Nebula Award, I think it’s almost a rant and adds no nuance to ongoing concerns about accessibility.
5. “Missing Helen” by Tia Tashiro (Clarkesworld, Issue 226) — Slim SFnal thread but deep characterization. A woman and her clone meet in adversarial circumstances, although I wonder how the narrator knew all those things.
4. “In My Country” by Thomas Ha (Clarkesworld, Issue 223) — In a strange country, people are permitted by law to speak plainly or not at all. This story is sort of a parable, and its telling is not plain, and it holds a lot of unspoken but deeply felt feelings.
3. “10 Visions of the Future; or, Self-Care for the End of Days” by Samantha Mills (Uncanny Magazine, Issue 63) — In the end, this is a very short love story, or rather a story about how love can endure along with survival. Grim and yet humane.
2. “Wire Mother” by Isabel J. Kim (Clarkesworld, Issue 229) — A teenage girl is blamed because she cannot love AI “people.” She can sense the harm they’re doing to her world, but she has little means besides her own fury to fight back. A close second.
1. “Six People to Revise You” by J.R. Dawson (Uncanny Magazine, Issue 62) — Liza is sure she needs to change to find peace because a corporation is persuasively selling its services for change to vulnerable, anxious people. But what to change and why? This was also my choice for the Nebula Short Story Award. The story may be a hard to understand at first because Liza is self-deluded, a truly unreliable narrator who reflects our times where ads and influencers try to convince people they are sick when they are not.
Five SFF Works Based Around Sleep or Sleeplessness
Jul. 15th, 2026 10:27 am
Be it a supernatural curse or ennui-driven insomnia, messing with someone's ability to sleep can have dire consequences...
Five SFF Works Based Around Sleep or Sleeplessness
Teddy Bears Never Die By Cho Yeeun (Translated by Sung Ryu)
Jul. 15th, 2026 08:56 am
A young woman and her possessed, hatchet-wielding teddy bear pursue great justice.
Teddy Bears Never Die By Cho Yeeun (Translated by Sung Ryu)
Helen Macdonald on M John Harrison
Jul. 15th, 2026 07:05 amReview of M John Harrison's new book The End of Everything, but also a reflection on Harrison's work in general, with some suggestions on where to start depending on your literary interests.
Beautifully-written and worth reading if you love Macdonald's work, even if you have no interest in Harrison per se.
I am somehow deeply unsurprised to learn that like me, Macdonald ran into Harrison's writing (and J G Ballard's The Voices of Time, which they also mention here) at an impressionable age.
(I got very flappy-handed with glee when Macdonald mentioned The Voices of Time on Bsky, because the reference to it in a word you've never understood had been in the draft for a long time at that point, and it made me feel I had successfully tuned into the right wavelength.)
Sought: tonal descriptions of spooky writers
Jul. 14th, 2026 04:40 pm(Cf.
Could also be for a specific book ex. a "Shining zone" but I really like this device as also a diagnostic of a writer's preoccupations over time; both a tiny critical appraisal and a fun story element.
Anyway what I am looking for, should you have opinions and enjoy sharing them, is your thoughts on writers of horror or ghost stories who
a) have a characteristic vibe across tales that you feel you can approximately describe and would enjoy attempting to approach in this way (ex. melancholy yet mordantly funny body horror; chilling, wrong-footing, and profoundly alienating ghost stories; etc.)
b) are generally not straight(ish) white cisgender guys, for lo I have beaucoup d'exemples historiques of those fellas (if you have a really good one, okay, I don't want to miss out, but I am trying to cast a wider net)
So it's both a hopeful reading recommendation request (who are your uncanny faves? ancient or modern) and an opportunity to suggest a possible type of uncanny effect that a group of eager/weary young bureaucrats might encounter and geekily name after their favorite writers. (Tell me about a Carter Tide, or Due Architecture, or a Gilman Loop.)
§rf§
PS Full credits obvs. should this actually go anywhere. Might make a fun shared world concept.
PPS I don't need to create a Lovecraft effect. People are ON that. It is COVERED.
PPPS Although. Having said that. A Lovecraft effect that was something like "a person is so bigoted and paranoid that they imagine uncanny effects where there are none" is kind of a fun idea.
some good things
Jul. 14th, 2026 11:46 pm- Temperature increase in the flat as a whole (... ignoring the study...) today was under 2°C! We have established that ratchet straps will indeed hold the cover on the study windows to at least reduce solar gain while leaving them open for air flow purposes!
- Achieved BLACKBERRIES for A. :)
- Relocated my garlic chives, which are still alive!
- I am continuing to get useful information out of the videos I took during yesterday's gym session. (Special interest continues interesting, at least to me.)
- A got me a wee handheld battery-operated milk frother (the tiny whisk-onna-stick kind) with a Travel Case. Presents for Alex! ... that I have promptly used to make a protein shake for, specifically, A, who has discovered over the past half week or so that They Are A Friend and now wishes to join me in consuming Protein Slurry. Hence Gift. I am very amused.
Are they even keeping it in suitable conditions?
Jul. 14th, 2026 03:57 pmOkay, maybe billionaires who can pay molto moolah for dinosaur skeletons have also invested in conservationally appropriate quarters to put them in, and they don't actually have them in wherever they receive company as a conversation piece?
And supposing - which is probably a bit of a reach anyway - that they give access to scientists to examine the bones -
Is that going to be once and done and nobody else gets a crack at it?
I'm just thinking of instances from my own sphere of historical documents, e.g. the scholar who was given privileged access to some private muniment, tough luck, subsequent scholars who want to check whether he actually transcribed the quotations correctly and got the dates right.
Or indeed, do New Research.
Dr Thomas Carr, a vertebrate palaeontologist and associate professor at Carthage College in Wisconsin, US, said it was not enough for private owners to allow scientists access to fossils.
“A private collection has no guarantee that a fossil will stay in a collection for all time, whereas a public trust’s mission is to maintain, conserve and curate its collection indefinitely,” he said. “Fossils need to be available to test previous observations and to make new insights; the fossils are the data so they must always be available for study.”
Museum loans were also problematic, Carr said. “The problem is that a privately owned fossil can be recalled from a museum at any moment back into an owner’s home, so the principles of availability and replicability are not guaranteed.”
Am reminded of certain cases that came up in the course of my professional career, not I think anything that affected anything in my care, but generally horrifying the profession, where some Posh Family had deposited/loaned its Family Papers to the local record office, or maybe university archives. Which had catalogued them, and possibly put in a certain amount of conservation work, and then a generation or so down the line, latest scion of Posh Family decides to take them back and send them to Sothebys....
Boy, did institutions start tightening up their agreements after that.
The Secret Of The Old Clock (Nancy Drew, volume 1) by Mildred Wirt Benson
Jul. 14th, 2026 08:51 am
16-year-old Nancy Drew resolves to find a missing will in a bid to deny the distastefully nouveau riche Tophams the elevated status to which they aspire.
The Secret Of The Old Clock (Nancy Drew, volume 1) by Mildred Wirt Benson
Amnesty International were just forced to pull down a report on "anti-rights" groups in the UK
Jul. 14th, 2026 10:57 amhttps://bsky.app/profile/esqueer.net/post/3mqhxbimgi22h
https://bsky.app/profile/rahaeli.bsky.social/post/3mqlokwyuvs24
It's also here, btw: https://web.archive.org/web/20260709084603/https://media.amnesty.org.uk/documents/Report_-_A_growing_threat__the_anti-rights_movement_in_the_UK_July_2026.pdf
You see, according to some people, it might be defamatory to call groups campaigning to take rights away from trans people "anti-rights", because the official line from people like Kishwer Falkner and Akua Reindorf is that trans people never really had those rights, they just imagined they did because of bodies like the EHRC officially telling them they did (prior to the EHRC being institutionally captured when Kemi Badenoch deliberately appointed a "gender critical" head).
So if you ban them from doing things they've been allowed to do for at least forty years (like using gender-appropriate toilets), that's not taking rights away. And this is a logical and reasonable argument and not jawdropping levels of gaslighting.
And it doesn't matter if a court would eventually decide that it is legally permissible to call these groups "anti-rights" if someone can pour unlimited funds into bleeding Amnesty dry dragging them through the courts, because English defamation law lets you do that.
Did you know the only anti-SLAPP law in the UK relates specifically to the disclosure of economic crime and not anything else?
Anyway, as someone governed by English defamation law, I cannot comment without conclusive and legally-defensible evidence on whether the removal of the report was connected to the billionaire who is offering to fund groups named as "anti-rights" to sue Amnesty:
https://bsky.app/profile/esqueer.net/post/3mqkm7t7pq22e
Unclear if I am legally able to suggest that the prominent group blaming George Soros for funding Amnesty might, perhaps, be a tad antisemitic:
https://bsky.app/profile/esqueer.net/post/3mqlarqvy422x
The other recent report Amnesty put out about the "gender critical" movement specifically is still up, though. For now:
https://bsky.app/profile/beesandrikishis.bsky.social/post/3mqlno4cbds2j
https://media.amnesty.org.uk/documents/Like_a_snowball_final_.pdf
I'd like to think we all know what to do:
Bundle of Holding: Orbital Blues (from 2024) & Orbital Blues Afterburn
Jul. 13th, 2026 02:03 pm
First of two Orbital Blues offers, this is a repeat of the June 2024 Orbital Blues Bundle featuring Orbital Blues, the lo-fi space Western tabletop roleplaying game from SoulMuppet Publishing (Best Left Buried).
Bundle of Holding: Orbital Blues (from 2024)

The second of two Orbital Blues offers, this all-new bundle focuses on recent supplements: mini-scenarios, a solo adventure, and the game's first major sourcebook.
Bundle of Holding: Orbital Blues Afterburn
latest scare
Jul. 13th, 2026 09:35 amAn informative e-mail prior to Iolanthe yesterday named some restaurants in the neighborhood recommended by theater staff. By far the closest was a ramen place. Ramen restaurants here do not serve the cheap hot-water-and-noodle dish loved by impecunious college students everywhere. This is a big bowl of really serious Japanese soup, and unlike much Japanese food it's been known to appeal to my tastes. I went by the restaurant, and saw on the menu posted outside that just about everything came with scallions. I like scallions, but as a garnish they're frequently served raw, and they're among the most frequent cyclospora vectors. So I passed, and ate somewhere else.
I don't advise resort to alchemy
Jul. 13th, 2026 02:58 pmI do wonder, given the way people think that there is some Natural Way Of Childbirth that awful modern life has overridden and they need to get back to (yes, screaming), whether there is a similar kind of myth about the potent sperm of Men In The Past?
‘Spermageddon’: is the world facing a male reproductive crisis?
It's not just thinking of the levels of various kinds of STIs swilling around, it's the effects of all sorts of other diseases (MUMPS, for instance), and if you are going to going WO WO about chemicals and pollution, I think you might give some thought to the kinds of exposure to chemicals going on in unregulated workplaces, the pollution that generated the Smoke Abatement Society in 1890s, all of which we feel probably had some effect on the male reproductive system even before they started chugging those remedies full of arsenic, strychnine, etc, to boost their manliness.
Fifty springs are little room to make a definitive argument about changes in male reproductivity.
And on boosting MANLINESS, I was thoroughly boggled at this guy who was actually injecting GOLD, which honestly sounds like Ye Olde Alchemy, no?
Though those of us who read The Nun's Story may recall that she was given gold treatment for her TB, but it was very carefully managed.
I also read a murder mystery once in which the method was poisoning by gold (I think actually by some doc or pharmacist's leftover vials from that era) by an author who had form for unusual mostly poison methods (and not a lot of human interest).
