Illumination Speaks

I see the holy Eather all around me… living water of energies flow around every movement and every breath. The wavelengths and cosmic grids flow into my irises to awaken every molecule and memories at astounding speed. I grasp on to the wisdom… but my desires still flourish.
What some may call déjà-vu is more and more intense and familiar everyday... even to the point of remembering having these dreams at these moments. I just come to the light that it’s just heaven and a familiar life I have lived before and will live again….

There was a time not long ago in this particular reality and life that I was in hell, fighting demons, watching invasions (skin-crawlers is a loose term but it works) getting tempted by devils and whatnot. When I was at the bottom of the blackest pit before hell devoured me eternally, a dove descended upon me and was given the drink from the holy grail….living water… giving me enough strength to pull myself out and heal…. It’s been a long path for me, and with heavens help I cast my demons out. As I like to say, fear made me a villain and love made me the hero.

I still battle with fear, and a profound doubt, but have come to realize that these are there as a tool and strength for realizing my power to conquer and overcome.
There is so much pent up inside me and so much I want to say… my everyday life is growing more and more into awareness. I have memories of past lives, of the embrace of Yeshua (Jesus) and the interactions with Buddha.

When I get enough courage to say more and give more details on my encounters, visions, and experiences I will……it’s just hard for me to put into words and in a way which others can understand. And I must be careful not to relish the facts or twist the truth

I will always be here…. And the time is coming for us all to know

My eyes feel heavy... sleep seems to want to devoure me and never let me go.... not an option......
but dreams are something different.... and something is in retrograde....

The comfort of pain eroded like embroidery loosely sewn..... I curl up in the warmth of my blankets letting peace consume me like a subtle wave. Sunlight weaves through my blinds..... washing my eyelids with golden haze.
I stare at the backs of my eyelids, watching the secrets unfold. Plutonic solids dance with nebulous wonders as my optic nerve strains to see through my skin...... I switch the reel to recall my dreams... faint whispers in the background today. No worries....... My lids lift and my irises fluxuate to focus in the day.
I choose to live today... to its fullest

Little glimpses of realities above and beyond drift down on me like grace. I look, trying to stretch my vision, seeing patterns of energy everywhere, all the time. The seeds planted within all struggle to grow in my self proclaimed savage garden. Some of the weeds are dying......
I look at my palms, eyes peer back at me telling me secrets.... the tattooed spirals on my hands spin, as the flower of life inked on my chest whispers me wisdom with every breath.
I Breath deep with in my soul as I jump to the rhythm of the universal drum beat....
I’ve ridden many spirals, and I want more..... I want more.... I seek wisdom within awareness
But I must be careful to word my way carefully.... the universe listens
I traverse the currents with the song of praise upon my lips

The metamorphosis of transmutation ebbs and flows in tides. Just as the cosmic waves caress my face, I relax joyously the best I can.
I have been learning to sit with my emotions and through observation of why these came about; I am able to start digging through my shadows.
I feel as if doors are being unlocked, but they try so hard to shut again. Nothing likes to "die".
I hope to come here again, on LJ, soon. I was at a roadblock in writing (but all the time exploring the back alleyways of self) for a while, but the path seems to be clearing up!
Love is in the twilight and praise is upon the dew!
I have a new lover that has helped me out in magnitudes in healing and self discovery.
May we all be happy in the dawning of the new day!

Within the confines of my brain I seek revolution, twisting and turning away from what was set inside long ago. The miseries of the past come to plague me, creating more recent traumas to feed the destruction beast. The chains are tightly wound around my every move... my innocence begs to break free and become whole once again. I pray the traps I have set up to bind me yet again never come in to fruition. I WISH TO BE FREE!

With the many folds of space and time,
I see your work oh so devine.
My eyelids close, and I see
The cosmic faces of destiny
Dancing in paints and spirals galore
You’re an angel with a brush… need I say more?
Many gratitude’s your way
And many blessings each day!

i want to crawl out of my head

As the tides come and go, I sit here, hoping for resolution. What am I to say, where am I to go? I have come in to this world countless times, on countless tides, but where I am now I must begin anew. I have been injured and broken, but now I am trying to mend. What was my life is no more, and now I must discover myself yet again. Although I am 24 I feel as if I am thirteen, new and full of angst with many ways for me to explore and find myself. This is hard, and I hold many wishes of me keeping with that or doing that but here I am, almost hopeless.

i wish i was still on that pink cloud, the one of enlightenment. maybe i still am, but i fell like i am in a grey area(and have been for some time) and it seems to be getting greyer, darker, and more bleek.
fuck, i wish this would just end, but i know i must be patient
oh well
what is, is. what should be, should be.