*whimper*I no longer have waist length hair. The majority of it either fell out or broke off whilst I was in the hospital for those 5 months. I came home with a few scraggly pieces of long hair. I went ahead and let the hospice shampoo lady cut off the scruffy bits. *wah*It's to the bottom of my ears now.

My cats have not all accepted me back home yet. Particularly d.b. She won't spend any time in my room unless David is in there doing something, and she refuses to jump up on my hospital bed like the boys do. Cricket will sleep up there now and occasionally Patches will snuggle up to him, and sometimes Frank will spend a little time taking a wee nap. Cats! Go figure

I spend most of my time in bed, bored out of my head since we don't have a 2^nd t.v., nor the $$ to get a used one.

Btw, Friday, the 19^th is our 34^th wedding anniversary and I cannot get him anything with $7.07 left in my Amazon account. Ah, well, he can't get me anything either, not even a fancy steak dinner. My stomach is so shrunk that I can't eat an entire Happy Meal hamburger.

Most foods have no recognizable flavor, but I'm forcing myself to eat anyway, little meals at a time. It's taken 2 weeks for orange juice to not taste vile. (Thanks, Larien, for the green tea suggestion)

enough whining for now.

later...

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I WANNA KNOW YOU...I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine...You're on my list, so I want to know you better! BE HONEST!
Copy and answer in comments,then repost in your own LJ so others can answer.


1.) Can you cook? - (Yes)
2.) What was your dream growing up? - (To be a medical technologist)
3.) What talent do you wish you had? - (ability to heal myself)
4.) If I bought you a drink what would it be? - ( )
5.) Favorite vegetable? - (Brussel Sprouts)
6.) What was the last book you read? - (Book 3 of Last Mage)
7.) What zodiac sign are you ? - (Virgo)
8.) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? - (no Tattoos, have seven piercings in my left ear and five in my right)
9.) Worst Habit? - (procrastination)
10.) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? - (yes)
11.) What is your favorite sport? - (none)
12.) Negative or Optimistic attitude? - (both)
13.) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? - ( )
14.) Worst thing to ever happen to you? - (being told that my COPD & pancreatitis are terminal)
15.) Tell me one weird fact about you - (I sleep with stuffed animals)
16.) Do you have any pets? - (4 cats
17.) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? - (I would invite you inside, ask you to sit down and offer you a Kroger cola)
18.) What was your first impression of me? (I like your smile)
19.) Do you think clowns are cute or scary? - (Scary)
20.) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? - (I would be skinnier)
21.) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? - (Conscience..)
22.) What color eyes do you have? - (Brown)
23.) Ever been arrested? - (yes)
24.) Bottle or Draft? - (Draft)
25.) If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it? - (hire a full time, live in nurse and get a larger place to live)
26.) Would you date me? (no, I am married)
27.) Where 's your favorite place to hang out? - (Home)
28.) Do you believe in ghosts? - (Yes)
29.) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? - (Relax)
30.) Do you swear a lot? - (Sometime)
31.) Biggest pet peeve? - (people not working)
32.) In one word, how would you describe yourself? - (loyal)
33.) Do you believe in/appreciate romance? - (don’t know yet)
34.) If you could spend 12 hours with me and ask/do anything you like, what would it be? (go to Scarborough Faire again)
35) Do you believe in God? - (I believe there is a power out there)
36.) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same? - (yes)

tap,tap,tap *screech* testing, *squawk* (adjust some knobs) testing, one, two

Da Slayer is back home under Hospice care. The doctors released me Monday but I haven't had the energy or power of concentration to get up in my wheelchair until now. I'm not up to beta'ng yet, though. Sorry

My doctors decided that there was nothing more that they could do for my pancreas - it is ruined beyond healing. Final diagnosis - I am terminal. That is why the Hospice care. They come to the apartment a couple times a week just to see that I am comfortable. My nurse is named Cathy and she monitors my medications that their doctor, Dr Race, prescribes based on the meds I was taking in the hospital, even the Morphine. I have a gastric tube implanted in my abdomen that is draining fluids off the cysts surrounding my pancreas. Plus I'm on O² 24/7 and have a Foley catheter for my incontinence. Whee - NOT. I'm able to eat solid foods again after all those months of tube feeding, but my taste buds are shot.

I am rusty on the commands here so I won't be doing anything fancy. I feel as though my brain has been dormant all of these months so it will take me a while to get the old juices flowing again.

Anyway, I would like to thank everyone for their prayers, cards, flowers, plants, stuffed critters and support.

I've got a question for y'all. Does anyone know how to get the Social Security Administration to get off their butts and approve my claims for SSI, SSDI, Medicaid or Medicare? David has taken a 30 day leave of absence, without pay, to take care of me since I need it 24/7. He was able to put back some money from all the overtime they had him working at Kroger, enough for one month without any incoming money, but once the 30 days are up, we don't know what we're going to do. Any ideas or suggestions on where to get some financial aid?

later...

I won't be online much for a while because I am too tired & still in abdominal pain. I'll post longer & do some replies when I'm able to sit up for long enough to type something.

Actually since I made this first, you might as well get it too.

In an attempt to cheer myself up, I finally opened my IncrediMail to play catch up, sorta. I only looked at the recent stuff from the Y group, Leather & Lace. I simply must share these 5 with you, particularly the Fire Goddess.
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POM pomegranate juice I highly recommend, particularly the pomegranate-cranberry. Yummm. You should cut it a bit with some water since it is pretty concentrated, as in mouth puckering. The pom-blueberry isn't bad either but the blueberry taste lingers with me far tooooo long. *burp* The pom-cherry is verry tasty, too.

POM pomegranate peach-passion white tea, though, was a totally waste of money. I ended up pouring the final quarter down the kitchen sink, then proceeded to heave into the ivory throne. I thought the taste would never go away, even with teeth brushing and repeated gargling. I do have a nice sturdy glass (real glass) that works nicely for iced filtered water, though. Drink at your own discression, you might like the POM teas. *shudder* I'll never try them again. I couldn't even save the lid, which you press up to open or use a church key, as it was permeated with the odor on the inside. *pouts*

POM bottles are readily available in the produce departments of Kroger & Albertson's stores. Hear that, Chloe? No more hunting all over creation for pomegranate juice for your cocktails.

Onto another topic, yes, I am drinking lots of water since coffee and soda taste so foul right now. And I just broke down and made myself a cup of chamomile tea. After I'd finished it I nuked some more water to steep some of my winter brew Gypsy Cold Care. I was going to put some buckwheat honey in it (which is listed as the healthiest of honeys, more so that clover or orange blossom), but I couldn't get the lid off, even after soaking the jar in a sink full of hot tap water, then whacking the top against the counter (being careful to not be too loud and awaken David). *heavy sigh* I've left it soaking for him to open when he gets up. Plain water just gets so boring.

Bland food. Are ramen noodles and chicken wan-ton soup bland enough for you> I was eating ramen for lunch before there were microwave ovens, kiddies. I had the little coil water boiler that I'd use to boil a cup of water to pour over a 10 cent pkg of noodles in a lidded bowl. Ummm-mmmm, I do like the texture of those little noodles. You can't get much blander than that, can you? And in light of the new recall of chickens that were fed the tainted feed, I'm *not* buying any fresh chicken, I guar-on-tee.

later...

My birthday wish for you is that the next year be the most productive and fulfilling that you have had so far.

I am so addicted to LJ that I cannot force myself to go to bed. I need to be blindfolded and hogtied! But I am jammin' out to some mellow oldies - STYX!!! Queen of Spades, Crystal Ball, Snowblind, Suite Madame Blue, Renegade, Blue Collar Man, Too Much Time On My Hands.
See my purty Queen of Spades made by alleigh@blinkie_store

I had to let Wenchy know that I'd picked up the snarky icon that she'd made from one of my bitch ranting quotes. My keyboard had died deader than a doornail last evening and I was unable to get it working again for a couple of hours. Talk about tearing your hair out. I changed the batteries in the keyboard - nada. Then the mouse died too, so I put fresh batteries in it and - bupkus! In frustration, I just shut down and went grumbling to the kitchen to fix David's coffee (this was Saturday night). Seems our wireless setup has a connect button on the adapter that you push to get a blinking blue light, then you push the connect button on the bottom of the mouse to make a fresh connection, same for the keyboard. David got the mouse working withouth realizing that they keyboard was dead, since he didn't need it to read the news or play Poker. It took me almost an hour of fiddling about to make the damn thing connect. Grrrrrr, ARRRRggggH! Anyway, I'd almost forgotten to comment that I'd snagged & credited it, two days after the fact.

I also posted at iconz_anonymous to show off my stained glass icon.

Ok...once Crystal Ball finishes playing, I'll shut down. *cross my heart* nitey, nite

You WOULD Survive an Animal Attack!
	If you were attacked by a Rhino ... you would win.
'Would You Survive an Animal Attack?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Having worked at Lion Country Safari, I know about animals and how to *not* behave around the dangerous ones. Bears and cats climb trees and are not intimidated by you yelling at them, plus you cannot outrun them. Splashing water attracts sharks. Those questions are so lame, only the most ignorant of people would answer any of them incorrectly, even those who don't know jack shit about animals.

Well, now... an annony Mouse has given me a 4 leaf clover for good luck. Seeing how my luck has been so crappy, lately, this comes a good time for a superstitious person like me. This Friday, the 13^th, should be a good day for me 'cos they are usually good luck, not bad, for me.

, mystery Mouse, for the virtual gift!!! Cyber hugs to you!

"You have a shy personality. You tend to hesitate before trying new things or meeting new people. But once people get to know you, you open up and show the world what you are really all about."

I am a Violet What Flower Are You?

Yup, this one is right on the money.

You Are Basic Panties

You are a laid back chick with a real natural beauty. You can make unwashed hair and minimal make-up super sexy. Men tend to notice you show the "real you" - and they appreciate it. And while basic makes boring for some, it looks classic on you.

Yup, I loves my white cotton granny panties.( more mindless memes under hereCollapse )