Tonight: Studying. Taking tests. Looking at community college stuff for next month.
I am currently enrolled in "Magickaschool" and "Witchschool." These are online courses which offer free first lessons, and then aren't very expensive to continue on with after those initial lessons. It's totally worth it if you are interested,as they put up more and more information as time goes on, and they also put up new lessons that you don't have to pay for on top of them. A good choice for the solitary practitioner.
I think I am registering with CCP, but haven't come to a decision on that yet... maybe Temple.
I am going for Criminal Profiling. Looking for the best school for this field in my area which I'm not going to have to put out TOO much money for...
Very exciting path I am taking now.. I am really looking forward to learning and experiencing more. =)
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ALSO, more encouraging and helpful responses from people who are going through or have been through what I currently am!!! Very interesting!
Again, names have been removed for privacy and safety purposes. I am taking a risk by having any of this public, but WILL NOT put others at risk and drag them with me!!!
Cross posted for answers...lol
Alright, so ever since I began practicing whyte magick, psionics, meditation, and "sensory training", as I'm going to call it, my instincts have been strengthened and my mind has been working double time to fix things, and not only that, but I am now feeling what people would call "spirits" or "energy" wherever I go and my dreams have suddenly become more and more intense, realistic, and horrifyingly questionable.
I have been following several murder and missing person cases and ever since I have really felt like I was connecting with the victims, my animals and fiance have noticed a change in the air, like something is lurking.
We have also found out that the person who lived here was a sex offender, so it may have something to do with that, but my dreams are going more toward these cases...and I'm seeing symbols that may or may not have had anything to do with the crimes.
Well, the problem is that I don't know what to think now.. I don't know what to do about any of it or where to take it that can even be helpful. I am trying to avoid any negative attention, but if there is something trying to get me to help, I WANT TO HELP! My dog is barking constantly in the room I keep going in that feels like something powerful is there.. it doesn't seem bad, but then again incredibly eerie and it frightens all of us a little bit...
I'm lighting white sage it seems constantly to clear the air of negative energy and using salts, candles, and incense to try to calm whatever it is down.
Nick's family once had to have an exorcist come into their old house to deal with a very powerful BAD spirit and he says this is nothing like that, but there is something here now. There are a BUNCH of orbs in the pictures I took a few nights ago, and they are all very positive looking colors.. I just am really unsure of what to do now. What steps do I take and how the FUCK can I ignore this now???
I don't want to exactly ignore it because it is really intriguing in a way, but I am not going to lie.. this is scaring the fucking shit out of me.
I need to figure out the deal with spirit guides, I think..
I have a tarot meeting tomorrow at 5 p.m... I guess they would be good people to present this to, instead of most of my lj acquaintances who have nothing or close to nothing to do with this. I am very new to all of this, honestly. I have sensed things, but it's never been so ingrained in my mind that what I am feeling is real. Please, any help on how to look at this and deal with it would be very helpful. My books only go so far into things... (My money is only going toward my apartment and my next move at the moment. Fiance and I need to control spending, but it looks like it's going to be REALLY important to pick something else up. Any good suggestions would be MUCH MUCH MUCH appreciated!!!!!)
Love and Light,
Gen
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Response 1!
"Your post is intriguing - I can only imagine what it feels like. Well, kind of - in a way I think I know how you feel. I had some strange things happen when I was in high school similar to this, although back then I knew little of what I know now, and I was only beginning to understand things I had experienced beyond the five senses. Have you incorporated shielding techniques? Obviously you are doing something with the sage, and I have found that it does help clear the air, so to speak. But another thing that I've found living through experience is that we often are afraid of things we don't understand - it might be freaking you out right now, but don't let it get the best of you. If you're not already doing it, try writing your experiences in a journal. If some imagery comes to you and you don't know what it means, write it down. This is the only way I think you're going to be able to verify things later.
I'm curious as to how your tarot meeting goes. If you feel like posting it, I'd love to hear what they have to say. It's possible that another facet of what's going on will be revealed. Good luck!"
Response 2!
"I often have had clairvoyant or sensitive dreams where I have seen frightening things, but I have never had anything to string together. I am not sure what to tell you to do. You might want to talk with professional psychic and ask them what to do. They might have some advice of where you could go to report the things you have been seeing.
Orbs in a house could be spirits following you. Often when a person has clairvoyant abilities spirits will seek that person. It may or may not be related to the dreams you have been having. I have plenty of orbs in my pictures, which seem to be floating around. Orbs can also be created by some kind of living energy. A strong feeling, emotion, action can create an orb. They are not always the spirits of the dead. Sometimes they are energy imprints left by the living.
Good luck figuring things out. I hope your dreams will prove themselves helpful and you will be able to solve some of these cases you have been seeing."
Response 3!
"i've experienced something similar to this and also had very awful dreams of murders, rapes, and suicides. some were horryifying and very disturbing, so i can understand how bizarre this is for you.
however, i don't think the spirits in question are negative. when people pass over quickly/intensely they often become trapped in a kind of limbo where they have unresolved emotion. they don't quite understand where they are, how they got there, or how to let go of their earthly existence. the orb's are probably that trapped energy. also, these spirits often don't realize they're causing any upset, nor wish to scare anyone. some of them want to be noticed. some of them don’t even realize they’re being noticed.
when you sleep, you’re obviously entering the astral plain, as i did. it’s easier for spirits to connect and communicate and show visual scenes/images/symbols etc because you’re in a natural in a state of relaxation and your awareness is heightened greatly.
i can only advice that you keep cleansing the air with sage. singing bowls, burning incense, drumming etc also good for space clearing. keep the energy in the house fairy clear and ‘high’ so that your own energy is not depleted by their urge to communicate.
another important thing is to adknowledge them. it sounds a bit daft, but try saying {out loud... or mentally, it doesn’t matter} that you’re aware of their presence and that you wish them love and healing. ask them to step back and let go a bit. usually this promps them to cross over into the more peaceful state of death rather than remaining in the confused lower level zone.
lastly, try a white light grounding/protection technique when meditating. {
http://www.spiritjourney.co.uk/psychicprotection.html } ask your guides to help you keep focused and grounded. it's a good idea to spend 5 mins doing this before bed to help ease the intensity of the dreams.
i hope this helps.
with love
xoxo "
At the end of the week or when my schedule clears up a little bit more, I will be compiling an entry of my dreams and experiences of the week. This should make my journal a little more organized and take away the annoyance of seeing so many entries from the same person!
Take care, everyone!!!