How are you all doing? Having a good weekend I hope...Not to be annoying but I really need advice and I dont know who else I can talk to about this...
 
My usband got the laundry from the community dryers and pulled a thong out of the basket to show me. It certainly wasnt mine (or his lol!) and put on this big show to say how it must have been in the dryer or washer when I put our stuff in there....

I know for a fact that i checked for clothes before I loaded it tho...he said it was in the top one which i cant quite see but still. I dont know what ot think...He could have pointed it out so i didnt jump to conclusions but I am

He has never cheated on me persay but there was an incident in the oast where he did the whole online sex chat room so I dont know what to believe. I dont want him to know i feel this way cause it is very possible it was in the dryer when i loaded our clothes.

Needless to say Im derpessed and there are certian activites i do when stressed and depressed (cutting and puking the most dangerous)...Ive tried so hard not to do either but its soooo hard today cause im home alone.

Ugh...sorry to vent but you guys are all i have

today is okay I am tring to stay strong and calm been off the meds for bout two weeks almost

list of meds

prozac
lamital
trazadone

wow huh?

kids r crazy today and wanting to go to get a bottle of patron and when they r sleep at nap drink it alll...but wont

Lily! This looks great!

Welcome everyone! I cant say my name (if anyone knows im on here my hubby will prolly divorce me) but I can tell you all a little about me

Ever since i was a senior in high school i have had body image issues. It started with abusing diet pills and grew into heavy restriciting and excercising. In college i stopped the pills and gained 25 lbs in stead of the freshman 15 with drinking. THis depressed me so when i moved home I cut myself off from people and heavily restricted and purged. I was seen by doctors tho none of them said i fit the strict criteria of ana or mia...more ED-NOS but that wasnt really well known a few years back i guess. I became a heavy drinker to deal with all my body and personal relationship issues which led to drugs, primarily coke. That helped me drop more weight. It has been 3 years since i last did drugs, id like ot say my husband saved me at the lowest point of my life.  This is what I call recovery...for the past 3 years on and off I have tried ot get better before falling abck into my habits) I still used diet pills when i met him tho...at that point i was kind of addicted to them you could say. My now-husband made me stop all that...we even stopped drinking.

Until about a year ago I was pretty comfortable with my life. I have been between 110-115 up until then. Now i am 134-135 and cant look at myself in the mirror. Im afraid all my old habits are coming back but at the same time I welcome. I have been a drinker, a cutter, had symptoms of eating disorders, and done drugs all to cope with life and relationships and reality.

I still drink to escape b/c i feel better about myself when i drink. I like the idea of this community so please dont ruin it by judging ppl...we came here NOT to be judge b/c is we cant talk annonymously to our online friedns who else can we talk to?

OK..LET ME START BY TELLING A BIT BOUT ME
I AM ONE OF THE MODS..

I AM 26 AND HAVE TWO BEAUTIFUL BOYS AGES 2 AND 4 ....I AM STILL MARRIED YET SEPERATED AND WILL BE DIVORCED SOON.

I HAVE DONE LOTS IN MY LIFE


I GET ADDICTED TO EVERYTHING TOO...NOT SEX YET I AM ACTUALLY NOT OKAY WITH MY BODY ENOUGH TOO.... I AM RECOVERING FROM BULIMIA AND HAVE RECOVERD FROM CUTTING ...
I DRINK ALOT I DRINK TO HID MY PAIN FROM MYSELF ONLY THING IS IT DOES NOT WORK ANYMORE AND I TOOK PILLS TOO AND NOW NOTHING HIDES IT....

I HOPE TO LEARN ALOT FROM YOU GUYS AND YOU ALL LEARN ALOT FROM ME AND THE OTHER MOD TOO...
PLEASE FEEL SAFE HERE NO BASHING IS ALLOWED AND ALWAYS ENTER WITH AN OPEN MIND .....

-LILLY

im a 27 year old girl from northern nj...i have been smoking cigs since 13...alcohol and weed since 14...purged from 16 till almost 4 months ago, but on and off...restrict but sometimes fall into binges...its like im okay if i dont eat anything but once i start i cant stop...i also used coke a lot more than i wish...it was social at first, like at clubs once and a while...then every sat...then fri and sat...then a random weekday...its been a while since i used it...i have been feeling like alcohol is a real problem...i cant have one drink...i need to keep going till there is no more or everyone else is done...i also recognize that drinking makes me binge on junk food in a way where i am helpless...ive eaten too much after drinking till i threw up without wanting to...i wish i could be the person who can go out, have one drink or none and still have a good time...never has been me...i also have been promiscuous when i drink...i have had a lot of one night stands and its almost like i dont even care sometimes...i try to tell myself im using them...but i know that isnt true :-(

Hello

I just opened this community for people to feel safe to talk openly about their addictions .......


Lets start by stating our addictions or telling bout urself