Musings of a Useless Elven Lord...

So I was just sitting here, waiting in anticipation for this year's My Slashy Valentine archive to open (yes, i know that's not until tomorrow, but I can always HOPE for an early release, right??), when I realized something:

I managed to make it through an entire swap WITHOUT having a screaming, mouth-frothing melt-down.

How the heck did that happen??? Yes, I did have a bit of 'empty document' frustration, but the raging wails of "OHMAIGOD I HAVE NOTHING WRITTEN AND NO PLOT I'm gonna DIIIEEE!" were absent this time around for some reason. It almost feels... incomplete? I dunno, I'm still waiting for it.

Oh! And here's a beautiful, squiggly Dahlia I found on Pinterest. No reason in particular, other than it's pretty and sunny outside.



So there!

Title: Shall We Play A Game?
Author: Nuinzilien
Type: Thranduil/Kili Romance
Rating: soft R
Disclaimer: I do not own them, nor do I profit from their use.
Warnings: Slash, Referenced/Implied Father-Son Incest, Non-Graphic Violence
Beta: Alexcat
Artist: Elladan's Girl
Characters: Thranduil, Kili, Legolas, Tauriel, Thorin & Company
Archive: OEAM, Ao3
Author’s Note: This is a prequel to my story On the Courting Habits of Dwarves and Elves
Spoilers: None that I know of (unless you haven't watched the Hobbit movies)
Summary: Thranduil has a pack of dwarves in his dungeons, one lost in his forest, and war on the horizon. The last thing he expected was to have his eye caught by a prisoner with more sass than sense.

OH.

My.

GOD.

I hate this story, I hate this story, I hate this STORY I HATE THIS STORY I HATE THIS STORY I HATE THIS STORY I HATE THIS STORY I HATE THIS STORY i HATE THIS STORY!!!!!

gyaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!

*gasps for breath*

Oh, um...hi!

Please? August has sucked. Sucked Sucked Sucked!

It starts out with my mother going into the hospital for a couple of days for chest pains in mid july. And then as soon as she's out, my grandmother goes into the hospital (her health had been going down hill progressively, but the hill got a lot steeper).

Then the doctors tell my mom that my grandmother won't be able to go home, that she is now full care and needs to go straight from the hospital to a rehab center. The rehab center works with her for a few weeks, and then says "okay, medicare says we can't keep her any more since she's not showing improvement, so you have 48 hours to find somewhere for her to go". Assholes. I understand that they need to use beds for people they can help, but 48 hours is NOT a lot of time to find a bed for an elderly now-invalid lady with Bipolar and Paranoid Schizophrenic issues.

Thankfully, my mom manages to find a nursing home. She's there for a week, and then goes back to the hospital for dehydration and infection.

I drove down from WI, and got to spend an hour with her before she passed.

So now it's not just the grief of losing my grandmother, but also the stress of trying to make funeral arrangements on a very tight budget, and the guilt that goes hand in hand with not being able to afford anything elaborate. We're already at almost 10K, and we're doing as basic as we can while still managing to respect ourselves.

And in the midst of all of this, I find that I cannot write. Deadlines for SiS and OEAM BigBang draw ever closer, and I am still so very far away from being anything close to complete. I have an idea for my SiS, and my Big Bang is still in the weeds.

I'm ready to stop adulting now, cuz this shit's for the birds!

Giving it a shot!

Big, huge, GLORIOUS happy birthday to my dear mdarkdreamer






(artwork beautifully done by Kagalin (http://kagalin.deviantart.com/)

So as usual, I take it right up until 20 minutes before the deadline to post before submitting my AinA, but it's in!

It's a bit on the short side, which is frustrating, but I thought it turned out well, and I think my recipient will enjoy it.

Another Successful swap! Bless the Mods for putting up with me (I know I must give them coronaries every year...)

August 30th can't come soon enough!!!

*spazz* WHOAMYGOD IT'S THE MIDDLE OF JULY AND I HAVE NOTHING!!!! NOT EVEN AN IDEA! *wail*

Aight, traditional AinA wailing has commenced. Move along folks, nothin' to see here!!

Do you think Elbereth lets it on the furniture?