This morning, one of the most inspirational and influential men in my life passed away suddenly from a stroke.

I love you Granddaddy, you will never be forgotten.

Dear Employers of the Southwestern Region of Wake County,

I understand that I have a limited availability, and I am forward enough to explain when I am not available.  I DESPERATELY want a different job, but I CANNOT miss my current job to go to an interview.  I CANNOT miss classes during the day to go to an interview.  I need a full time position, and $9 is not too much to ask for it.  In fact, that's the BARE MINIMUM that I can take because I have bills to pay!  I would prefer to be working $12-14 an hour, because that is what I'm qualified for, but I know that won't happen while I'm still in school.

I'm willing to work ANY position, and I have ALL EVENINGS and ALL WEEKENDS available.  PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SOMEBODY call me for an interview.

 

Desperately Yours,

Emily



Yes.  I know, it looks silly.  But out of 50 resumes/applications, I've gotten one phone call and one reply.

Something doesn't add up here.

Is it unprofessional to buy your coworker (who also happens to be your friend) a pregnancy test (from Dollar Tree) on your break (clocked out, mind you) while at work?

Does it constitute a formal write-up?

I need a new job.

Good:  Just joined a gym on a whim, and it turns out I LOVE it.

Bad:  After joining the gym, I find out I only have enough in the bank to pay rent.

More Bad:  On the way home from the gym, Stephen's air conditioning goes out.

Even More Bad:  Stephen's car breaks down while he's on the way to a job fair.

Good:  Stephen's parents loan him money to help pay bills this month.

More Good:  Body Pump class at the gym kicked my ass, but I stayed with it.

Even More Good:  I get the email that a spot in the Massage Therapy program opens up, and I'm in!

Bad:  I have to pay for tuition out of pocket while my financial aid is processing, and it could be October before I get reimbursed.

More Bad:  I'm starting to dislike my job again.

Even More Bad/Worst News Ever:  Stephen's radiator in his car is cracked, so he needs a new one.  No clue on how long it'll take, or if we'll have a car for the rest of the week.

Why is it always me?

Quick update:

Yesterday, I went over in calories, and I didn't eat ANYTHING healthy.

Today, I drank lots of water, ate well, and even prepared breakfast, lunch, and dinner, AND got a shower within 45 minutes.  I call that productive.  Work was... well... work!  I don't think I like working on Sundays anymore.  It's just that all the negative things happen on Sundays.  A month ago, someone was shot at Target.  On a Sunday morning.  WHO SHOOTS PEOPLE AT A SUBURBAN TARGET ON A SUNDAY MORNING??  Usually, I get stuck by myself or with one other person.  Today, Chelsey was sick with some stomach bug, and Chris called me at 8:30 this morning to tell me he'll be late for work.  Awesome.  And on top of that, we were fully booked.  That usually means everyone and their MOM calls in to get a massage every hour ON the hour.

Anyway, lemme just say this:

Having a crock pot FRIGGIN ROCKS!!  I put two frozen chicken breasts in, topped with a cup of salsa and cream of mushroom soup, and kept in on low for eight hours.  A cup of rice and a bit of refried beans later, DELICIOUSNESS!

I love being domestic!

Well... I started Sparkpeople today.  Again.  I started out great with some oatmeal and blueberries.  Then about five hours later, we had lunch.  At the Chinese buffet.  Good thing I don't really trust much as far as Chinese food goes.  And thank goodness for the massive bloat that comes from that time of the month, because I could only eat half of what I put on my plate.  Too bad I felt awful afterward.

I went home and instead of napping, I studied Anatomy (Geek alert).

Well, LJ, I'm about to tackle a 2.5 mile trail around the Lake.  :D

Let's see if I can do this!

So, I'm going to start updating these more... again... I think I said that last time!  Anyway, where do I begin...

I'm a co-manager at Massage Envy.  It's fun.  I'm full time.  Being a full-time student and a full-time manager is definitely a challenge, but I got all A's last semester (FIRST TIME EVER) and I have been bitten by the massage bug.  I'm going to massage school in the fall.  I have my orientation tomorrow.  I'll be going to Wake Tech because even with my Pell Grant, I'll still be able to afford it.  YAY FOR NOT NEEDING STUDENT LOANS!

Stephen and I moved in together!  That's kind of big news!  :D  We have an adorable one-bedroom that's near my work.  We've been here a month, and we LOVE it!  It's definitely good for us.  I like learning new things about him, even though we've been together for almost a year and a half.  He sure likes to sleep, though!  I'm always up before he is.  He could probably sleep well into the afternoon if I don't wake him up when I get bored.

Tomorrow, I'm starting Sparkpeople.  Again.  Frankly, I hate how I look.  My clothes don't fit, and I can't afford to buy any that do.  I haven't felt well, and my asthma's been acting up... which is probably a symptom of acid reflux.  I think the best thing is to start off slowly and start working out when I can.  We have a fitness center here at the complex, and there's a walking trail around Lake Pine.  It's 2.5 miles, and my ultimate goal (once it gets cooler out, it's too darn hot!) is to be able to walk around the lake a few times a week.

I hate not loving myself.  I hate hating my body.  I know I need to do something about it.

Well, LJ, I'll take you along for the ride.  More to come later.

It's been three days into the new year, and I've yet to lend a comment on it. The new year is a chance to start carte blanche. Usually it's about kicking the last few pounds you need to get to the goal weight. Sometimes it's about staying organized. A lot of people try to spend less. But really, how long does it last?


It's been proven that in order to be successful, one must make smaller changes and smaller habits in their life instead of going whole hog into something.  And I've made that mistake before.

This year, I'm making baby steps.  I'm not making any concrete goals or resolutions.  It would be nice to actually meet a goal, but the baby steps would help.  Especially if I want to meet the goal, and maintain it.

I'm going to try and make it a weekly thing that I'll update.  Whether it be diet, family, boyfriend, rant related.  I've neglected livejournal in the past couple months.  It's been a little hard to manage my time lately.  Work and school are the bulkiest bits of my schedule.  Being a full time student and full time receptionist is a little challenging.

Tomorrow, I'm waking up early and cleaning my room.  Then I'm getting school supplies, lunch, maybe a movie (depending on time), and then I'm working.

Tuesday, I have a doctor's appointment, then I'm getting my hair trimmed, spending some much needed time with the boyfriend, then I'm working.

Wednesday, school starts.  I'm the geeky type who gets excited over first days of school. Then I'm working.

Thursday, ACTING CLASS!! :D  then I have the day off to spend with my boyfriend and our families.  Stephen and I are celebrating our 11th month anniversary (I know right, has it really been that long?).

Friday, school and work

Saturday, work at 4

Sunday, work from 9:30 to 6:15, then whatever.

I'm throwing in some light exercise.  Nothing extensive.  Maybe some toning bands, yoga, Shimmy.. who knows.  I don't expect to be back where I was over a year ago as far as being in shape goes, but I would like to get into more of a routine.

It's been said that 21 days creates a habit.  Here goes nothing.

Baby steps, though.

For the past 18 years of my school-aged life, it has been ingrained in my very being that school is important. Graduating from college will get me any opportunity I could set my mind to. I could do anything my little heart desired.

Why couldn't anybody tell me that this was a lie?

Why WOULDN'T anybody tell me?

I've been putting my energy into something that doesn't seem attainable. I have set a goal that will take me three more years to complete.

I'm fine with all that.

But no one else is.

Apparently my education is not a good enough priority when I still don't have a license and I still live at home.

So, after starting a new job last week, and after my first week of school, I just wanted to be lazy in front of the TV in the living room.

It's my ONLY day off this week.

"I just wanna sit down"
"Why can't she just take a nap in her own room?"
"You know I don't like sitting in your chair"

What am I?  I STILL feel like a visitor in my own home.

I don't get it.  I get a job so she'd stop bitching.  But she still bitches about having to find me transportation (when she specifically SAID that if I got a job, she'll find me the way to it) and she still bitches about me being lazy.

Okay, mom, listen to this:

I wake up at 6:30 every morning.
I'm in school from 8 am until 3:40 pm.
I go straight to work (usually without going home) at 5.
I get off work at 10.

I have 14 hours of classes (though I'm at Wake Tech for much longer than that), and I'm working 25 hours a week.  I just wanna veg.

There's no FUCKING way you can get away with calling me lazy now.  So STFU, and get outta my face.