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Today is it. I find out about the house. Did I get it? Will I be moving soon? Do I need to keep searching for a new home? 21 and buying a house is exciting. Finally puts me in line with how I pictured my life going. Now if only I didn't have to lose that lovely little raise I had... but that's another story.






I suppose I should get dressed for work. I like having more time in the morning. Friday we're going to Arkansas for my step dad's family reunion.. First time in like five years. Should be interesting. I'm sure it'll be fun. It'll be the first time I get to see my mom's new house. And hopefully I can hit everyone up for a housewarming gift *wink* that's the plan anyway.

Well toodles .

*hugs to my heros*

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So I am quite alive, and extremely happy in my life.


Things are going pretty good right now, my only complaint is I don't get paid enough, but who ever really does? Other than that everything is wonderful. I am finally going to have a good birthday, my sweetheart is taking me out for my birthday -- a double celebration, my 20th year, and him (hopefully) passing the series seven (which he takes that morning). I want to get him something to congratulate him... but I don't really know what would be appropriate (and relatively inexpensive) I want to get him a nice watch because his is falling apart, but I think that will have to wait until his birthday because those can be pricey.

I want a dog, and next year when I get in a house (or duplex... remember Kay, baby steps) I will get one, we found one on-line, a german shepard/basset hound mix that is adorable but he's in Ohio. Derek said he'd buy it for me if I'd pick it up or have him shipped... (Eighty bucks to adopt vs. hundreds to ship) we joked about heading up there to pick him up... I seriously would if I had a house to keep him in. Either way it's fun searching on-line for a puppy and talking about it... we were supposed to go to Petco Sunday to visit the animals but we had too much to do that day so I said next time.

He moves tomorrow into his new place, I'm happy for him, because his dog gets to stay inside... I think he'll be bored but happy at the same time.. we went furniture shopping Sunday for his new place, then he rode with me over here (to the grandparents) to meet them for the first time. He was very charming and I was a nervous wreck... I don't have a reason to be I just was.

Anywho, that's all that's new...


*waves* adios

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so apparently I steal bandwith and I'm gay, who knew?




where the f did that come from? I haven't a clue, oh well.

I don't know how to get it off so I'm prolly just going to delete this LJ.


to update... I got a second job so four days during the week I'm working from 8-5 then 6-10 then whenever they call me in on the weekends, yesterday was 5-10 and today was 8 to 7. I'm about to die. I told her I was getting sick from exhaustion and I needed to cut back my hours drastically...

My doc put me on Paxil, not for depression because I'm perfectly happy -- more so than I've been in a long time, but to help with my panic attacks (caused from the mitral valve) so far I hate it, it makes me tired and sick to my stomach, so hopefully that will pass.
Last sunday I managed to get off work(they changed my schedule at the last min) so me and Derek went to the zoo in Atlanta. It was so much fun, we stayed all day and it was a blast ( I love PANDAS!)

Other than working a million hours and hangin with my homey (we're just friends) nothing much at all has been going on. so I guess I"ll end this here....

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today was kinda strange. Good --it's been a good quiet day. I took out my city of angels sound track a few days ago and I've been listening to it when I go to sleep... I grabbed it today to listen to while I drove to the grandparents... just to relax me... try not to think about some things. I've just felt calm today, almost completely at peace, it's been wonderful. I got on here and checked my horoscope (a silly tradition I do) and it was so strange it talked about the movie City of Angels and how it will seem as though one will be with me today. Odd. yet comforting.

It's been cloudy and threatening to rain all afternoon, so I didn't try to sunbathe, but I did go down to the beach area of the lake nearby and sit, it was wonderful, the water is so beautiful and comforting. I love it.

The guys are at the beach this weekend, I hope they don't get rained on. I'm sure they'd still have fun, but it's dangerous when it's raining and I worry. Derek wants me to watch the fireworks with him on Monday, that should be fun. I love fireworks. Amongst my favorite memories are watching the fireworks over the lake from the boat when we were little, and then fireworks at the Levy in Baton Rouge when I lived there. It's been a long time since I've gotten to see something like that, so I'm looking forward to it. I try not to make it too apparent to him though.

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First off I want to say Happy Father's Day to all you daddy's out there...

okay, now that that's outta the way... things have been good lately, I was sick last week so that sucked, and my car is falling apart so that REALLY sucks but if I can get it to a Mitsab(whatever way you spell that damn car) dealer it should be under warranty, so I'll prolly end up in Montgomery tomorrow after my doctor appt... if my car will make it that far and I've decided.... yes it is time to trade. if I've only had this for a year and it's already starting -- I don't want to wait four more years... I'll look into it.

Anywho, about the good part.... Friday night I went out with my buddies, we went to Outback then me Derek and Alton went to Highlands and I had a BLAST! I danced all night it was awesome, great music.... sooo much fun....


anywho, I spent too much money on a bathing suit yesterday, so I am going to use it to get some sun.... going to the lake with the family..... toodles all.

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The bunny crisis is over... I woke last night to a frisky little bunny who had escaped the box (a tall box for such a small bunny) and chased her a bit around the room. So I figured if she was feeling well enough to run she was okay to go outside. I brought the box outside away from the house and left it so the bunny could leave when she wanted too.

This morning she was gone. I feel good knowing that I might have saved her. Well the puddy cat didn't get to eat her -- last night at least.

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A few minutes ago, I found a tiny bunny on the back porch being tortured by Gran's huge fat cat, and I rescued it to find out he has a big hole in the back of his neck, he's alive, and kicked a good bit when I first caught him, but I don't want to put him back out because I'm afraid the cat will eat him, or he'll die out there, so I decided against gran's wishes, to keep him. I put him in a box and put a bit of lettece in there, I know that's not good forever for it'll work for tonight, if he makes it thru the night, I'll get him a watering bottle and some rabbit food, but I don't know if he's too small for that, when I had a rabbit before he was a few years old and terribly overweight and this little fellow fits in the palm of my hand. I don't want to let him go, but at the same time... maybe he'd be better off outside.


Any help?!?

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So.. nothing exciting has been going on lately. I went to Baton Rouge this past weekend... BTW money wise, that was a horrible idea, it cost me almost ninty bucks in gas alone. Then again I did get to spend time with Maxine and see my old friends so that was great. Went to a club called SoGos.. had lots of fun... They need a club like that around here -- not that I'd go, because I've still yet to venture to any of the places they do have around here. I'm almost a hermit outside of work because I don't go anywhere or do anything.. aside from the occasionally movie night with D Rock.

I've pissed a few people off at work this week just cause they gave me attitude and I gave it back times ten. I can definetly be a bitch when given the opportunity, anyone who knows me can vouch for that fact. I try not to do it often, because I'd much rather be nice -- but sometimes I can't help it. I'm tired, cranky, broke, and if you're going to complain to me about something I do not have any control over, don't be shocked to hear that I don't care about it.

I'm still getting the occasionally depressed moments, but I'm trying to control them. I think movie night makes it worse. I like hanging out with Derek and it's great that we can hang out, eat, watch a movie or CSI or whatever and things are great... but I'm kinda wanting to get attached, and I know that's not what he wants. So I'm starting to believe that putting an end to movie night would be a good option. Then again, not hanging out with him would just suck. He's a great friend, he's positive, motivated and hilarious I really like hanging out. I don't know. Something to think about.

anywho... toodles.

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I'm here at the public library. Typing away this endless babble. It makes me feel good to write.

It also makes me feel good to have silent conversations with other drivers while I'm hurling down the interstate at 90 miles an hour... "why did you move in front of me? this is the fast lane sweetheart... pleeease move over... ooh that lane is free, com'on scootch over, you know you want to... thaaank youuu"

Yup that's me and all of my insanities.

It makes me feel good though so I don't mind. It doesn't hurt anybody so why sould it be wrong?

I got quite depressed the other day, for no particular reason -- I have to watch that. I cannot be returning to that state of mind... not healthy. I've been happy for a while and that's good. I'm proud of myself. I don't know what it was exactly... something about the grocery store... all the people in it... and shopping for groceries, for myself.

Granted I know it definetly has it's perks... no complaints about what's for dinner, or if I even cook dinner... that's alway nice. No one for me to tell to put up their clothes... and no one to tell me to pick up mine if I feel the need to strip and leave bits scattered about the house... but lonely sometimes.

No complaints... though. None.

That's good.

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So once again I am angered and annoyed.

Who knew a friendship could turn to this?

I really have a strong feeling of dislike toward you right now.



Oh well. Shit happens.

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So, I'm at the granparents house. We're moving them into their new house. We made a few trips today we got all the boxed stuff so I don't even know what we're going to do tomorrow. I've been happy lately. Had issues with Stuart, I don't take insult very well nor do I like being called a liar, anywho who knew me two years ago should know that well. I'll go ape shit if someone calls me a liar.

Okay, happy moment, my brother was diggin in the bar here, and behind the jack, gin, and all that good stuff he found a 2 liter of Mountain Dew and the date said best before Dec 5, 1994. How about that.

I've done good to be happy lately. I had a good trip back home, spent time with Amanda, it was good. She's going to have a baby girl in four months... so yay for that. I ended up seeing Arthur, because I sold him my washer and dryer, he tried to be nice but I wasn't falling for it. He asked about us going out or something, and I gave him a piece of my mind. Basically.... "ha, no way in hell will I ever put myself through your shit again" okay so not in those words, or even remotely close, but I made it clear that I wasn't going down that road. I wasn't very nice to him at all, but I don't think he deserves it. He only decided to be nice to me because he knew I was in town and he thought he was going to get some booty, but I cleared that up real quick like for him. I wouldn't even give him a hug when I left, but I hugged his mom and his dad. How weird is that?

I've gotten everything for my apartment now, I got my vacuum out of layaway last week, and oddly enough it was almost surreal, like all of a sudden, that's it.. I dont' need anything else. I've got everything I need.

Granted, when I go to rent a house or buy one I'll be missing my washer and dryer, but I feel it was best to go ahead and cut that tie with him and get that out of the way since I won't need a washer and dryer for at least the next year... and this way I don't ever need to talk to him again, unless he just happens to pick up the phone when I talk to his mom (she made me promise to keep in touch so I call her every few weeks).

The gang from work was all supposed to go to Six Flags tomorrow, but things kept coming up, and people kept backing out, until it was just three of us, then the weather channel said it was supposed to storm so we backed out too... oh well.. I spent the six flags money last night shopping I got the most comfy jeans and I think I am going to live in them from now on. I also got my hair cut again last night... I think I might knock off another inch from the bottom, eh, who knows.

So that's about all that's going on lately.

*Waves*

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so... been an awesome week. More little secrets to keep to myself. Let's just say I managed to relieve a little stress yay for that. I've had fun hanging out with new friends... work has been okay... brother is a pain in my ass... I'm ready for him to get his own place and quit eating my food and wearing my socks but other than that we're surviving.

Going home for the weekend to see my mom, I can't wait to see Amanda and Matthew... I'm excited.



Things have been gooooooood.

Kudos to happy times.

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So, here I am making my rare apparence. So come to find out my computer is broke, not just the monitor, and my brothers computer is jankey as hell so... no computer and no internet for Kay.

Everything is going good, I've been having fun, making my apparences at random parties, and being socialable. I haven't talked to Arthur since the day I found out Nanny died. I've called but he hasn't answered or called back, so I figured that was a loss cause. So much for being friends.

Been playing dodgeball with the crew from work which is great, I played earlier today so I'm tired and sore as hell, but it's good for me.

I'm going the Bainbridge next weekend to visit my mom and help her with the garage sale. yay. And I'll get to see Amanda and Matthew! So I'm excited about seeing them, not about the trip or going to that hellhole or a poahdunk town... but definetly excited about seeing them.


Anywho, that's all I have to say, I'll keep my secrets to myself, I don't want to jinx anything by letting out my secrets.


Bye all.

ohhh Gilmore Girls marathon was last night... I was planted on my couch for six hours straight watching like a lunatic

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So, I'm in my apt. all is well. I was a little sick yesterday, so it was a crappy way to spend a Saturday, but that's alright. Played dodgeball with the crew from work, it was a blast (my muscles hated me for it for day's afterward but that's okay) I got my cable hooked up last week and was supposed to get my Internet hooked up, buuuuut... My moniter got broke in the move because me step dad is a DA and doesn't know how to pack. So, I'm paying for high speed Internet, that I don't have... also when they hooked up my cable, something got screwed up, so instead of 70 something channels, I get like 20. Joy. NOT. So I called and pitched a fit about the cable, since I'm paying for the junk, I wanna get what I'm paying for. And my brother is supposed to bring me his moniter today, so when they come tomorrow to fix the cable, they can finally hook up my Internet. *fingers crossed*


Other than that, things are okay, I haven't really been looking for a part time job, I decided not to go work for Murphy Oil... I'll figure something out, but right now I'm not stressing too much about it. i'll stress when the bills come in.... joke.

Anywho, so I'm okay. I've met a few of my neighbors and they're really nice, I've decided that I actually like having to go to the laundry mat, because it's peaceful, and it is warm and it smells good in there. Also, it makes me more motivated to fold my clothes, because I cannot leave them in the dryer as I am nortious for doing at the house.


Arthur's grandmother died Monday night. Nanny. I was very upset about it, but I know she wanted to die. She was buried Thursday (arthur's birthday) and I couldn't go to the furneral because I took off two days last week, this is what I get for being a slacker. I guess that's good though, because I don't like funerals, but I loved Nanny. Arthur was supposed to get his license Friday, and I suppose he did because I haven't heard from him in a while, and he's been making a point of calling every few days. I haven't heard from him since Tuesday I believe. I called to tell him Happy Birthday, but he was gone. Oh well.



Well there's my update. I suppose I'm going to spend time with my Gran and pawpaw now, I've really missed them.

*huggles*

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yay. so quick update, I'm all moved in. I like it. peacefulness is gooood.

I forgot my dvd player and movies, so I came to get those... and I'm off again. *love*
byeeeeeeeee

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It is sooo gorgeous today. I got my stuff moved in and bought some groceries, and a rug for the kitchen. I should have bought the bigger rug, but I'll go back later and get the other one too. I still need a few more things but I'll wait until I get all my furniture in before I get more to stuff in there.

I'm going to uncle Rogers to eat fish tonight. Definetly a favorite thing to do. Then tomorrow, is MOVING DAY! I have to bring puddy, a few bathroom items (toothbrush and such) and my clothes basket, and that's it. I'll be all moved in. I met a neighbor, she was nice. The sheriff lives in the apt under me, so that's nice to know.

Anywho, nothing more to say.

Hm. That's all I have to say. Hm.