thanks for being a total skankbag you made it so easy for everyone to love me! anyways, alabama is pretty sweet. the wine is good and the ground's not even. OH and they have a huge ass statue of the god vulcan, and let me tellllllll you there should be a holiday dedicated to that ASS damn, that's the finest ass I've ever seen. and I miss parker. DONT FORGET ME LJ FRIENDS, I LOVE YOU GUYS! I'm sorry I suck at updating. I'm getting better
so here's a summary of my year. the good, the bad, the painful, the ugly
january: still lived on 41. started going out with devon again. I was really close with kaleigh. and we looked like this . judging by my paper journal I was becoming more and more aware of problems developing on that front.
february: I gave devon the kanye west cd for valentine's day. hung out with remi a lot.
march: turned 17, shitty birthday. started hanging out with calie more and more. oh, and of course I saw the format for the first time.
haha sam hates me
devon turned 16 and I gave him this shirt
I quit working at jack's. started talking to parker a lot more.
april: devon broke up with me. I started to swear to myself every day that things would fix themselves, I think I was going crazy about this time. I started working at sonic.
may: nothing exciting. alcohol. parties. stupid stuff. still trying to hold together peices of my friendship with kaleigh. still good friends with parker.
june: drama drama drama. note cards and scribbled names. roadtrips. awesome times.
july: the format again. started dating rodney.
the days of my fucking life. I cherish these summer months.
august: operationnnn
still talked to parker like every day. and calie too of course.
september: things had long since fallen apart for me and rodney, which is my fault because after my operation I didn't put forth any effort to talk to or see anybody. no hard feelings. and yes, I did start dating parker shorty after. healing from the operation... not easy. looked like this
october: returned to school. pretty much all healed from surgery. we met sonny moore this month. pretty much started visiting parker like every day. haha no more like every week end. november: boring month. calie turned 18. champaign in empty housesssssss december: lots of video games. lots and lots of video games. oh, parker's moving in to my house this summer. yay! the enddd
AGAIN with the fucking IVs and painkillers and hospitals. goddammit.
oh well, at least the format's new live EP comes out at exactly.... 12:01 AM tonight. will I be the first fan to get/hear? you better fucking believe it.
I'm going crazzzzzzzzy jsoijhgiuhgsg I want to go back to school. at least I have my new laptop to entertain me.
my mom says sonny moore is gross, I think its gross that she thinks he's gross. regardless of what she thinks I'm going to shamelessly mack all over him on october 18, fuck yes.
edit: these are from the hospital presurgery
stupid dress thing, I hated that. I would have saved that bracelet but this is my last memory of it, who knows what happened to it somewhere in the next 7 hours.
so surgery went ok, I'm really swollen and bruised and REALLY fucking sick of being on drugs but I'm starting to feel like myself again, which I'm so glad for. Its funny how I miss stupid things like driving and sitting around with people, but I really do. I got new painkillers tonight, the other ones made me feel sick and these are supposed to be better and I won't feel so fucking wierd and restless. its hydrocodine or something.
school starts tomorrow, I'm going for the first 3 days. I talked to my homebound teacher on the phone today, she seemed nice. This is probably my last update before surgery (its on monday morning). see you guys on the flipside.
the show was incredible. calie and I were the first ones there (2hrs early) and guess who we see strolling down the street? goddddd it was so hard to not go to pieces but I forced myself not to so that I could talk to him about his music, progression from EP to snails to interventions to dog problems, the humane society, their tour so far, their tour in the future.... he asked me what I wanted to hear and I named 2 songs that he played! god I was so fucking happy. we waited around and watched them pack up and it was so cool getting to see them all just hanging out. they're all so incredible.
ONE WEEK until the format, second time around. In one week I'll be in front of Nate and Same, again. It is kind of hard though, because I've honestly adored them with my entire heart for 2 years of my life and then I'm talking to them and can't think of a single damn smart thing to say. Oh well, all that matters is that I talk to him again.
Every time I start to think about it, I get so excited it almost makes me nausious. I went to Barnes and Nobles today and bought 2 more copies of the issue of AP they're in, just to make sure I have enough.
Oh, and I'm moving into my house halfway through august. I'll be painting my murals in my room soon, and I'll be posting pictures.
I can't stop having operation nightmares. I know that July 17 is getting closer, and I can't help but wonder if I'm doing the right thing and if I'll be happy with the changes after ward.
so yeah, its taken forever but I am starting at sonic a week from today. they do this nifty thing where my money goes right into my bank account, which is dank because that means no more racing to the bank and wasting gas to do so. love that.
I can't wait for the weekend, the next weekend, the next weekend, every weekend until SUMMER and then next year when kaleigh comes back to wando, CANT WAIT
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