It's hard to believe that in only a few weeks, I'll have been here for nine years. I really thought that this was going to be a hard to write but in reality, I realize that this was a long time coming. I always said that when the time came, Jesse and I would go together. Him and I, off into the sunset, together, forever. And though he might have went a little sooner than I had hoped, I know it was the right time, if not later than it should have been. I told him I always just wanted us to have the fairy tale story and ending that I saw in my mind but he was right when he told me that we actually did have all of that. I couldn't have asked for a better partner for all of the time that I've had here, in good times and bad.

I grew a lot in the time that I was here and I'll be the first to say that in the beginning, way back in my younger days here, I said and did some really stupid things. Didn't we all though if we think about it? We were all really inexperienced and made mistakes but it was part of the experience, part of growing up in this game. And while I wished for awhile that I could erase a lot of it, now I realize that it just taught me more about how to weather the bad with the good.

People always say this but I really wish that I could have gotten to know more of the people on my friends list that I never did. Some of you are some of the most amazing writers ever and I just have to say that I always read everyone I have friended, even if I couldn't ever find the right response. I wish that certain circumstances wouldn't have gotten in the way of me knowing people that actually seemed pretty cool, like Zac. I'm sorry for all the shit through the years and for the wedge of Jesse or whatever else that was inbetween us. There's so many other people that I love that probably don't even read this journal anymore, like Chris, Bryan, Clay, David, Hayden, Eric - I love of all of you guys and have missed each of you more than I can say. And Fiona, Jay, Kristin, Jaime, Rose Byrne, Sophia, Andy (R.I.P), Christian, Hilary, Colin, Jennifer, Michelle Williams, Michelle Kwan, Tom Lenk, Amber, Penelope, Noah, Katie, Lance, John, Nick, Dakota, Taylor, Gerard and Frank, and Anais and Joey - you guys were all amazing friends and there's too many things I could say about all of you and what I miss. Mitch and Will - I love you two, thank you for both keeping me sane for the past several months and giving me shelter when I needed a hideout. Elizabeth, Amy, Rose, Valo, Emily, Gerald, Jennifer Aniston, David, Romola - thank for the comments and being so kind to me through everything while being here. I know I'm forgetting a few people and for that I'm sorry, feel free to kick me or something.

I'm not picking my replacement, if for any actual reason someone wants to play Marc. He honestly is a great guy who is doing amazing things right now and I'm only sorry I haven't been playing him with the justice that he so rightly deserves. I also am not playing anyone else around here and if for any reason I decide to, I doubt that I'll tell anyone because I don't really want the stigma of how I played Marc to bleed over into a new person. I'll be unfriending everyone except for possibly some people listed above so please let me know if you'd like to stay on or what not. All comments are screened.