by request of andrew, i am posting song lyrics.
this song has been an amazing help to me for years. whenever i am feeling far from God, or have questions, or i am angry...etc... i listen to this song.
it's called "hard to get" by rich mullins if you want to listen to it.
here are the lyrics::
you who live in heaven, hear the prayers of those of us who live on earth
who are afraid of being left by those we love and who get hardened the hurt.
do you remember when you lived down here where we all scrape to find the faith to ask for daily bread?
did you forget about us after you had flown away? well... i memorized every word you said.
still i'm so scared, i'm holding my breath
while you're up there just playing hard to get.
you who live in radiance, hear the prayers of those of us who live in skin
we have a love that's not as patient as yours was, but still we do love now and then.
did you ever know loneliness? did you ever know need? do you remember just how long a night can get?
when you are barely holding on and your friends fall asleep, they don't see the blood that's running in your sweat
will those who mourn be left uncomforted?
while you're up there just playing hard to get.
and i know you bore our sorrows... and i know you feel our pain.
and i know that it would not hurt any less, even if it could be explained.
and i know that i am only lashing out at the one who loves me most...
and after i have figured this somehow
what i really need to know
is if you who live in eternity hear the prayers of those of us who live in time
we can't see what's ahead and we cannot get free from what we've left behind.
i'm reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears,
all these words of shame and doubt, blame and regret
i can't see how you're leading me, unless you've led me here --
to where i'm lost enough to let myself be led.
so you've been here all along i guess...
it's just your ways and you are just plain hard to get.
God bless you all. :)
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