outta the blue....I'm pulling frozen veggies outta my freezer and my phone starts blowing up. the ring sounded weird. get to the phone and I have a missed fb msg call. huh? I hit call back....the answer is "WHY DID YOU CALL ME BACK?!?!?!"
uhhh....you called me and i'm being polite?
haven't heard from her in eight YEARS....we worked together at TMG.
we were supposed to hang out, but she was going to California and we lost touch.
over two hours on the phone. I learned a lot about the hellscape she lived. im not sure if i've ever said "THAT'S NOT YOUR FAULT" more in my life.
it's not her fault, and she deserves to be happy and not fear for her life.
"why are you still letting me talk to you???" because you matter, and I appreciate you as a human and you are not defined by the abuse you endured.
I neeeeeeed to go to bed, but goddamn, I don't regret this call.
there will be a hug in the future, lol
i am really glad I was able to compartmentalize this shit....
still can't listen to doves....such is life
Him: you really like them, don't you??
me: no, I love a handful of songs...and that's it.
Him: huh.....
had dental surgery. front top four teeth removed. given bone grafts.
3-6 months before they can go in and do the implants. I have a fake teeth mouth piece. it SUCKS. gonna get it adjusted on Thursday. currently using it, I have a lisp that rivals LB! I look like a gremlin.
04.19.25 i went to Wegmans to get kale so I could make kale chips...
I grabbed a basket instead of a cart.....thus setting myself up for failure.
two paper bags of groceries....so close to my car. then I fell. and destroyed my face.
I had very few things going for me...but I had a good smile. that's gone now. as if I needed another reason to be rejected.
i don't give a fuck about oasis....sold out and then overpriced. no thank you!
i'm just giddy to see JP again.
but, how much of a whore am I supposed to be? I'm ancient now?
it's weird.
who knows, I prolly won't be able to sneak in backstage. it was really fun when it lasted
