~Into the Den of Woe~
First, lets set things straight. NEITHER of us have gone anywhere near your bloody journal Nia. We've been having a real life outside of the internet and made a point of avoiding your journal because neither of us wanted anything to do with you. So don't start throwing around accusations at people without proof. After all, wasn't it you who told me that you "keep your friends close and your enemies closer"? And from statements you made you have a lot of enemies so don't point fingers. We haven't even been within computer access until just today because we were out of county visiting with friends and family throughout christmas and newyears.
And I'm just so sure you think you know that this is my mother posting and likewise it's not. >_> It is me, I guarantee you and to prove it I'll leave a phone post at my convienience. Maybe tonight, maybe the next, depends on what my friends are doing and what my schedule is since I have things to do outside of proving my existance to a bunch of lj whores. Also, for a little initial proof though I'll throw out a little fact that only I would know that you told me in an aim conversation.
I believe you told me that Mel's nickname for Citan was Tinkiewinkiemufufruit? Or something along that innane line of crap. Or what else... Ah, that you can't get to sleep at night ever without masturbating. Perhaps that will suffice for now until I can find the time to phone post.
Moving along, there's something you need to get through your head. You would've been better off siding with my mother when I broke up with you because SHE was the one questioning me at the time to make sure I REALLY knew what I was doing. She was the one who said she'd open up her home and you could move down here with me. And I was the one, through no ones influence or decision, who decided I was done with you forever. And if you blame her for showing me Michelle and Talyn's letters that they wrote her let me clear up another thing. At the time she did not force me to read those letters, she hadn't even read them herself at the time so for all she knew they could've been letters of praise for you. But she asked me, verbatum, "If you want to read the replies I've gotten from Talyn and Michelle you're welcome to but I'm not going to tell you to do so. It's your decision." And I agreed because I wanted to know just what the fuck you were doing behind my back. So get it through your head, the ONLY reason I dumped you was because I couldn't tolerate you any more. I would go insane if I spent one more breath of my time dealing with you. Not my mothers influence, not anyone elses. MY DECISION TO DITCH YOU! Hopefully that will hammer the point home so you stop casting blame on my mother.
As far as my death goes that was my decision too. You're such an idiot thinking that she tells me what to do when it's the other way around. I tell HER what to do and I am the one who told her to fake my death. And if she hadn't done it I would've just taken her journal password because she trusts me with her passwords, and have done it myself. Why? Why would I want to fake my death?
Because you were STALKING ME! You even publically ADMITTED when I faked my death that you had been stalking me and reading what I was posting with my buddy Lee at the time before that. You found my journals that I tried to make in secret, you tried to lure me in by adding fandoms that you knew I was involved in to Squenix Uni (I.E. Baten Kaitos), and generally just wouldn't let me go and leave me the fuck alone. I heard from a trusted friend, when I left a post unlocked accidentally to Dizzy you told her not to roleplay with me in order to segregate me from her. So I thought if I "died" you'd finally give up on me and let me go. But NOOOO! From all I've heard from my spies you still post about me like some pathetic, clinging, sickening venereal disease that I can't seem to kill off. And I understand that you keep my name on your userinfo as well. So finally, since my death doesn't work maybe making you realize that I absolutely hate you more than anything I have ever hated in my life will get you to let me go, take my name off of your userinfo, and quit it.
And you want to talk about cutting wings? The only one who EVER cut my wings was you. You caged me away from everyone I knew and was friends with on livejournal and tried to turn me against my mother. You didn't want me to talk with Dissonanceburn, rehteah1, rociel, and others because you were jealous and feared that I was cheating behind your back. And unlike you, and I know you rp'd with others no matter HOW much you deny it, I remained completely faithful to you. So who cut whose wings?
Tch.... You SICKEN me..
And as for you and Fox_reed, SHAME on you for accusing my mother. I mean, what kind of sick fucks accuse a (as far as you knew) grieving woman whose daughter died less than a year ago of hacking your journals and persecuting you? Seriously ladies. And maybe shame on me for saying I died and I take the blame for that and really don't give a damn what manner of emotional angst you two suffered over it. So I'm not a sweet and kind person, I'm a vicious bitch. Good for me.
And seriously Nia..? My "Emo" moments? O.o OMGBBQWTF HOW many times did I listen to YOU emo-angst about Mel, Michelle, your grandmother, your abandonment fears, how horrible of a husband alexi was, how tragic your life was. WHO plotted out all the angsty emo-bullshit suicide roleplays? And you're calling me Emo? >_> That's the pot calling the kettle black. Who has spent the last year emoing over me (to gain pity and attention from your fellow lj sluts) while I've been moving on, finding real life friends and a real life relationship? I think we can see who the emo queen is here, Nia. And it's not me.
*shrugs* So I lied about my death, I never said I was honest and it's not like anyone else is honest in this sadistic pus-drenched pandoras box of a website. Nor are you the virgin mary or mother teresa. *snerks* So, it just shows that I'm human and not the "perfect" girlfriend you've tried to immortalize me to be.
Which brings to the point about how you tell EVERYONE the same thing. The same tired old pickup lines. "You're the only sigurd to my citan" "You're the only chaos to my jin" COME ON! Michelle's heard it (cause you told me before we were in a relationship that's how you felt about her), you told the same thing to me, and I know you're telling the same thing to this Mish person or whoever the hell they are. The most recent girl-bait you can get your pedophile hands on.
Get over yourself and get over your hurt. People get hurt all the time. I was hurt by you and you were hurt by me, and normal people move the fuck on with it and get on with their lives rather than angsting over it a year later. Especially over something as trivial as a break up. People come and people go, deal with it. Or do you just enjoy all the drama you can make to get people on lj to feel soooo sorry for you? And of course this will give you the ability to garner more sympathy and pity, but since the internet is all you have I guess that's what you live on. I moved on and have been having the most wonderful time of my life. I have great friends who I see all the time, a relationship with someone who honestly loves me, I'm getting back into college to get a real career, and I'm the happiest I've been. While you're still mired in the past clinging to a false idol of me that you constructed within your depraved mind. It's no different than how you talked about Mel and Michelle than when you mournfully speak of me. Or condemn me, because you had plenty of bad things to say about both of them and how the wounded you. And of course now I shall be raised into your hall of doom ex-girlfriends. And it amazes me that these lj morons honestly believe that you can go through SO many relationship breakups and yet it's NEVER EVER your fault. Of course not, because you're the innocent Nia. Of course maybe they're just to terrified to tell you they don't believe a damn thing you say because if they did you'd whine about it online and get everyone to come to your defense and bash them. So they know better than to challenge the almighty Nia, queen of lj.
Once and for all I want you to hear this and get it through your sick sick sick disgusting head: When I said it was over, you NEVER left me. I left YOU. You begged me to stay like a simpering mutt, you groveled, and tried to even twist things to keep me as a friend so you could rope me back into your game. You stalked ME. I didn't stalk YOU. I got a real life afterward. You continued with your bs on lj long after I was gone (and likely will until you die). I don't know how much more explicit I need to be to make you hate me and go away and never think about me or say another sickeningly loving thing about me again. But MAYBE if I'm lucky this will work. Just let me try to see if your brain can understand this: I HATE YOU AND WANT YOU TO GO AWAY. You make me sick, you're disgusting and pathetic. And, you're dead to me and despite my still drawing breath consider me as good as dead to you because that's what I am. Even seeing your name makes the bile in my stomach churn with revulsion for you. Remember what you said, you wanted time with your cats and lj? Well you've got all the time with your cats and lj that you can handle since you refused to give them up and come be with me. You may have them until your computer dies of having to put up with you and your cats smother you in your sleep. Thank god! I'm just glad you DIDN'T come here or I fear what I might've ended up doing to you or myself to get away from you.
There. Is that clear it out or do I need to sound it out phonetically for you? Or perhaps translate it into l337-speak, or lj moron-ness of OMG I teh hate u Nia? Whatever way I have to say it I will to beat it into your skull. Not to mention I understand you lied about your age in one of your drunken posts that my spies noticed. You're nowhere near your twenties and haven't seen them in decaded more like in your forties. What did they say you said... Something like you were 19 in 1979? That'd make you 45! Sick! Sick bitch! If I had any inclination an old hag wanted to get in my pants I would've fled like the hounds of hell were on my heels. And as always you'll deny this too as you've denied everything and so be it on the head of any idiot foolish enough to believe you. If they do believe you then they deserve you because they're cut from the same scab ridden cloth that you came from.
And that's why I left lj, and that's why I have to die, and it just shows your stupidity because the one person who would've opened her house and let you in is the same person who you've been saying nasty things about. Fool. Just goes to show your stupidity and poor judge of character. But that's why I did it all, because I hated you, still hate you, and wanted you to shut up about me (and you and the "wonderful" relationship we had), stop stalking me, and leave me the fuck alone.
And for the benefit of your friends I'll put this in caps:
I KEEP HEARING YOU TALKING ABOUT NIA'S SIDE OF WHAT A WONDERFUL RELATIONSHIP WE HAD. BULLSHIT! IT'S LIES ALL OF IT, IT WASN'T WONDERFUL, IT WAS A SICK AND TWISTED HELL THAT NEARLY WAS THE DEATH OF ME. LITERALLY, I NEARLY DROWNED BECAUSE OF THE BITCH. THERE WAS NEVER A WONDERFUL LOVING RELATIONSHIP. ONLY IN HER SICK DERRANGED STALKER MIND THAT REFUSED TO LET ME GO OR ACKNOWLEDGE THAT I DON'T AND WON'T EVER WANT HER. I DON'T NEED PITY, OR YOUR SIMPERING SYMPATHY. IF YOU WANT TO PITY SOMEBODY PITY HER, (which she'll enjoy), AND PITY YOURSELVES.
*takes a deep breath* -_- Like I said, I'll phone post. -If- I feel like it and -when or if- I have the time among my other responsibilities. And I'm sure you'll save that Nia and listen to it over and over because you're the same sick stalker bitch I broke up with a year ago. And as I said originally, get your accusations straight. I did fake my death, but not myself nor my mother hacked your journal, and you have enough enemies that it's not surprising that someone did. With all the things you do it's no shock someone decided to finally bite you in the ass. But I don't care that they did, I want nothing to do with you, lj, or any of it. You know what the only thing that bothers me is? Is that you made my mother cry because she trusted you and she said "I thought they were friends" about you guys. -If- I had the kind of power that your hacker had I'd have done the same thing to your bloody journal and worse for what you did to my mother, unfortunately I don't have that kind of skill. It pissed me off that you fucked with my life, and I could deal with that as much as it sickened me to the core. But when you start fucking with my mother and throwing accusations at an innocent woman that just does it. The only one who is involving my mother (or rather her name) is you, Nia! She hasn't even been online so wtf, bitch? And I know the only reason you're accusing her is because you're jealous of her, sick and jealous of my mother because you're just that messed up.
And while you may lay curses on no one, a curse on you and all who come in contact with you. And though you claim not to hate me or my mother, I'll be honest and say I hate you. Maybe you can stop clinging to your stupidity and hate me, and then get the fuck over me and shut the fuck up you lj-drama-slutting-emo-queen.
Sincerely,
Kurohyou a.k.a. Nooj Undying
My Angst Sound's Like: Down With The Sickness -Disturbed
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