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January 6th, 2010
06:17 pm
Is there anywhere in Bloomington to rent a room or a small apartment on a weekly basis? You know, besides a hotel. And cheaper than a hotel.
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September 24th, 2009
12:56 pm
i haven't written in this thing for months. weird. but i feel like writing in it now. and i feel like complaining.
seriously. there is cat poop IN THE BATHROOM. i f*%@ing HATE living with cats. especially when people don't clean the litter box and then the cats poop in the bathroom. which is going to prevent me from taking a shower. this is so disgusting and it makes me so mad. i have had to deal with an enormous amount of shit (no pun intended) since moving in here a year and a half ago. 7 different roommates, most of them have been slobs. i seem to be the only one who wants to keep a nice house. there are piles of dishes in the sink constantly and i am the only one who runs and unloads the dishwasher. WTF PEOPLE! respect your roommates!
i am really miserable living here. but my rent is so cheap and i have a giant room. and i couldn't afford to live anywhere else. i'm trying to just "deal with it" but i get so stressed out about it all the time. I AM LOSING MY MIND. i don't know if i can live here another year, but its like, what else can i do?? yesterday i actually started crying because i can't deal with cleaning up and then people always un-doing it.
end of rant.
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April 1st, 2009
06:44 pm
things have slowed down too much.
and it's forced me to make a decision.
well, kind of.
i'm giving myself a month. and in that month, i'm going to give it everything. i've devised a list of goals, ambitious ones. it will force me to be very productive. i'm going to make a certain amount of things each week. i'm going to update web things on a weekly basis. i'm going to try to sell more. i'm going to see if i can do this. and if i don't see results within a month, i'm going to quit.
well, not QUIT quit. i'm just going to have to get a crappy job somewhere. and it's going to make me miserable, because that's what jobs do to me. even if they aren't that bad, i still hate it so much. i hate spending so much time doing things that i don't care about. but my financial situation might force me to do that. i just want to see what will happen if i work a lot harder.
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March 30th, 2009
03:07 pm
hello. you've missed me.
here are some things.
i made 2 amazing shadow box pieces for this group show at the art hospital that happened on friday. this girl i know sort of formed the bloomington artists women collective, so that was our first show. i didn't sell either box (yet) but the turnout was totally amazing. it was also too crowded to take pictures. i'm really hoping that we do more stuff/shows.
that being said, i think i'm going to get a table at this thing called the luna festival. this is the description, according to the BAAC newsletter:
Luna Festival: A Celebration of Women in Business & the Arts. As in previous years, the event will highlight the talents and creativity of women in central and south central Indiana: singers, dancers, musicians, artisans, writers, and business women offering various products and services. In addition to approximately 70 art and business booths, there will be demonstrations in weaving, knitting, and other crafts, as well as activities for children. Live entertainment in various forms and tempting dishes from local food vendors will further delight the senses.
now, my concern is i have no idea whatsoever what kind of art is going to be at this thing. for all i know, it could be super left-wing hippie new-age tie-dyed crap. actually, i'm sure there will probably be at least one booth like that. i'm sure there will be a lot of jewelry. i'm also pretty sure there will be nothing remotely close to what i do there. which could work for or against me. in the past, i haven't done that well at art fairs. i've sold one or two things per fair, but always get a lot of positive feedback. this time, however, i am making more affordable and also functional things. so, i think i'm going to give it a try.
ALSO, i got into the Indieana Handicraft Exchange, which is totally amazing! it isn't until june, but i am super excited about it. i need to make lots and lots of functional wares. thinking about it is causing me to not sleep.
i just placed an order for some giclee prints. i ordered 1 print each of 5 different paintings. i only ordered 1 each because a) i want to see how they look because if they don't look good, i don't want to be stuck with a bunch and b) it is a little costly. $43 for 5 prints, which includes shipping. really, this is not bad because they are archival and acid-free, and the more prints you order, the less you have to pay per print. but you know, i'm not exactly rolling in the dough here. they should arrive in about 3 days. i am anxiously waiting.
i realize that this stuff is exciting to me, but might be boring to everyone else. nothing all that exciting happens to me.
so here is a panda mug, for your enjoyment. also, you can buy it.
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March 5th, 2009
04:29 pm - Fitter, Happier, More Productive
I don't know what happened, and it isn't every moment of every day, but I am more focused and finally starting to even out, I think. I'll blame the B-complex I've been taking. I haven't been wanting to just lay around all the time. I've been working, basically from the time I get up until the time I go to bed. I've got deadlines, and I've got bills, but even still, its like I've been WANTING to work. I'm doing some experimenting with new things (ie making "products." you know, functional art.) This is half because I'm applying for the Indieana Handicraft Exchange, but also just the need to branch out, and the need to make and sell less expensive things.
I've also gotten fed up with gaining weight. So I'm consciously eating better and have been exercising every day. I just need to keep all of this up!
My entries feel boring, so here are some jackalopes for you.
Brilliant and Cowardly
ink, watercolor, acrylic
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March 1st, 2009
11:56 pm
i am wondering, all the time, if what i'm doing is the right thing to be doing.
sometimes i feel like i'm cheating.
and sometimes i feel like i'm cheating myself. out of a lot of things.
nothing feels bolted down, and it makes me really uneasy. i wonder if i can just get used to it.
it feels like there is no solution to this problem, except for just getting used to it.
also
i hate this house. i won't be happy until i'm out of it.
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February 23rd, 2009
03:53 pm
my life goes up and down like waves. sometimes so quickly that i am easily confused and am not sure how to react or feel. i am in this state right now, but somehow i am on an upswing, i think.
1. getting a tax return, and relieving me of some stress for a little while
2. the above gives me some momentum, and when i have a small cushion of money, somehow i feel like i am able to be more productive.
3. a new best friend. a friendship that i know will last, makes me feel safe and open and brings out a side of me i wish could be present always.
4. going to spend saturday and sunday with candice and jill in indy. been planning this for weeks, cannot WAIT. these girls are kindred spirits. i lack those in bloomington.
5. the sun is shining. i can deal with winter as long as the sun is shining.
6. b-complex vitamins. seriously. help. so. much.
7. the prospect of making some giclee prints of my work. its exciting. i hope they sell.
still feeling like i need a therapist right now. still feeling unsatisified. but i cling to the thought that someday, somehow, things will be better, stable, and i will be happy. somehow.
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February 19th, 2009
02:13 pm
I am considering doing the Indieana Handicraft Exchange,which is a craft fair in Indy in June, similar to Renegade Craft Fair. The problem is that they want more crafty stuff and less fine art stuff. I've been thinking about this. I've been thinking about how to translate my work into function. There are ways to do it. The problem now is that, I am really not excited about doing this. I'm not excited about making my art into non-art. I mean, we can argue that it is still art, blah blah blah, but it's just different for me. I don't want to do anything that feels wrong or feels like a compromise. But at the same time, I'm wondering if this might be good for me. I've been wanting to branch out for awhile. Maybe if I just make a couple of things, I will get more excited about it. It's hard to say. So far the only ideas are have are pendant necklaces, cards, buttons, and clocks. The deadline to apply is in less than a month.
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February 6th, 2009
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