That Crimson Flow

Subject:	tryin so hard
Posted by:	dying_angel101.
Time:	7:21 pm.
Mood:	guilty.

wow im tryin so hard to stop but sum thing always happens to make me start again and well i wanna stop. i mean for the most part all is good in my life yet im still stratching and well i jus wish that i could tell matt but i kno that he would be mad @ me for this and well i dont wanna lose him again and well maybe jus chillin with him will make me stop a/b bein that is wat did it the 1st time ~*~Zoi~*~

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Posted by:	broken_wings818.
Time:	8:19 am.

Its Holli again. I am now 15 and I feel no different which is alright because I dont like change. Change causes things that nobody likes. I am really stressed out right now but I am refraining from doing anything that will hurt me or my family. My mother and I made a deal. She will diet and exercise to help her health if I start dressing nicer, eating, and stop cutting, burning, scratching, etc. So now I have more than my health riding on it. Now I have to be string.

NOW-- the pressure is on.

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Subject:	jus bleeding away the pain
Posted by:	dying_angel101.
Time:	10:28 pm.
Mood:	bouncy.

hey every one its been like for ever since i updated last time well wow you the high that u get after u si. well i've got it. well my and my friend got in this fight and he started telling me that im jus the annoying poser. well so i took a stright pin and scratched and well i feel better now. ~*~Zoi~*~

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Subject:	hey ppl
Posted by:	dying_angel101.
Time:	9:09 pm.
Mood:	relieved.

hey well i feel like better after wat happened now that its for the most part outta my system. well Darren asked me today if ihad even none ne like that and i told him and well it felt good i mean not to lie to be open w/him it made me really happy. well that it for now later ~Zoi

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Subject:	i went bac
Posted by:	dying_angel101.
Time:	10:06 pm.
Mood:	guilty.

hey ppl well it was to much for me to take after 3 months of nuthin, and then i did i scratched myself and i feel worst than i did befor b/c i kno that i shouldnt have. but it killed me almost when i lost my best friend and my boy friend all n the came day.

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Subject:	soo happy
Posted by:	dying_angel101.
Time:	5:36 pm.
Mood:	finally happy.

well i told my dad that i had sied and he was fine. he told me that if i ever felt like that to jus talk to him and that he luved me. well im bored and i hope that my mom will take me to the book story becuz i really need a good book to read well i read "Cut" this week omfg is it ever good but i didnt really get the ending. well that it for now.

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Posted by:	kattlady.
Time:	12:03 pm.
Mood:	uncomfortable.

Self-Injury Quiz
Created by 4got10 and taken 227 times on bzoink!
How Long Have You Been Self-Injuring?	around 7 years
What Type Of Self-Injuring Do You Do (cutting, burning, hitting, etc.)?	picking
What Triggers You Do Harm Yourself?	I have anxiety and depression
How Do You Feel As You Are Harming Yourself?	regretful, compulsive
How Do You Feel Afterwards?	relieved
Where Do You Usually Harm Yourself?	face, shoulders, chest, knees, back, scalp, feet
Have You Ever Needed Medical Attention After Harming Yourself?	mental, not physical
Who Knows About What You Do?	my doctor and my mom
Why Do You Self-Injure?	it makes me feel better/I do it without thinking
Think Back To The First Time You Did It, What Made You Do It?	I just started getting acne, I picked prior to that, but it made it easier and more normal to do
Does Harming Yourself Really Make Everything Better?	it makes me think everything is better for a while
Are You Currently Seeing A Therapist, Phsyciatrist, Or Any Other Doctor?	yes
If So, Is It Because You Self-Injure?	no
What, If Anything, Would Get You To Stop?	I have no idea. I've tried different things.
How Often Do You Harm Yourself (Daily, Weekly, Monthly, etc.)?	daily, all day
Do You Know Anyone Else Who Self-Injures?	yes
Do You Have Any Scars From It?	yes, mostly on my face
Do You Harm Yourself Even When You're Happy Or Have Had A Good Day?	yes
Do You Isolate Yourself From Others Because Of What You Do?	yes
Does It Help To Talk To People About It?	no, it makes me more embarrassed, and then more anxious
When Was The Last Time You Harmed Yourself?	right now
If You Found Out Your Best Friend Did It Too, What Would You Do?	I'd feel sorry that anyone else suffered because of it
Do You Do It For Attention?	NO
Have You Ever Been Confronted About It And Lied About What Happened?	yes, I used to put bandaids on my face after a long session
Have You Ever Tried To Kill Yourself?	yes
Are You Suicidal Right Now?	no
Are You Angry Or Depressed More Often?	yes
What Would You Tell Someone Who Is Thinking About Hurting Themselves?	don't start. It makes everything worse.
Does Time Really Heal All Wounds (Both Emotional & Physical)?	no.
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Posted by:	dying_angel101.
Time:	12:50 pm.
Mood:	blank.

Self-Injury Quiz
Created by 4got10 and taken 228 times on bzoink!
How Long Have You Been Self-Injuring?	i did it 4 months
What Type Of Self-Injuring Do You Do (cutting, burning, hitting, etc.)?	scratching
What Triggers You Do Harm Yourself?	prombles with school and family
How Do You Feel As You Are Harming Yourself?	sad
How Do You Feel Afterwards?	better
Where Do You Usually Harm Yourself?	my sides
Have You Ever Needed Medical Attention After Harming Yourself?	no
Who Knows About What You Do?	8 of my friend
Why Do You Self-Injure?	it makes me feel better
Think Back To The First Time You Did It, What Made You Do It?
Does Harming Yourself Really Make Everything Better?	yea
Are You Currently Seeing A Therapist, Phsyciatrist, Or Any Other Doctor?	no
If So, Is It Because You Self-Injure?
What, If Anything, Would Get You To Stop?	my best firend did
How Often Do You Harm Yourself (Daily, Weekly, Monthly, etc.)?	it was weekly
Do You Know Anyone Else Who Self-Injures?	yea
Do You Have Any Scars From It?	no
Do You Harm Yourself Even When You're Happy Or Have Had A Good Day?	no
Do You Isolate Yourself From Others Because Of What You Do?	no
Does It Help To Talk To People About It?	yea
When Was The Last Time You Harmed Yourself?	3 months ago
If You Found Out Your Best Friend Did It Too, What Would You Do?	i dont kno
Do You Do It For Attention?	no and yes
Have You Ever Been Confronted About It And Lied About What Happened?	yea
Have You Ever Tried To Kill Yourself?	no
Are You Suicidal Right Now?	no
Are You Angry Or Depressed More Often?	depressed
What Would You Tell Someone Who Is Thinking About Hurting Themselves?	i dont kno
Does Time Really Heal All Wounds (Both Emotional & Physical)?	kinda
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Subject:	dying
Posted by:	dying_angel101.
Time:	9:23 pm.
Mood:	sad.

hi my name is Zoi,and im 14,i did si for 4 months,and i feel like i could do again every day of life.i guess that it was that then i could feel sum thing and now i cant,but i told a friend that i wouldnt and even through we arent friends ne more i feel like i would be braking a promise

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Posted by:	broken_wings818.
Time:	11:18 pm.
Mood:	Deeply disturbed.

HI, My name is Holli and I am 14. Ill be 15 in a couple months. I have done it all. Cut. Burned. Slit. Thrown up on purpose. And stopped eating for weeks at a time. I know this is all part of my low self-esteem but I would like to know why no one else sees what I am feeling. I hate myself. My mind, my body, my life. I hate it. And recently Ive been wanting to stay in a self-imposed solitary confinement... What is wrong with me?.. I know what is wrong. But why is it happening to me? And why did he do this to me?..

Thank you I feel better..

I think

Por Favor Socorro...

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Subject:	new person
Posted by:	firefaerie7.
Time:	11:09 pm.
Mood:	content.

hi i'm new. my name's katy. i'm 15. i used to burn. i've stopped for about a week now. i've been noticing that lately though i've been tearing my skin. i don't even know why. i haven't really been depressed any. well that's all i can think to say for now. bye bye
~katy

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Subject:	Welcome
Posted by:	suicidalangel16.
Time:	12:55 am.
Mood:	accomplished.

Welcome to Crimson_Flow15. My name is Natalie and I am 15 years old. I started SI when I was 11 years old. My mom was diagnosed with cancer and I began to pull out my eye lashes. I had pulled them out to where I basically didn't have them. A few years later when I was 13 the thought was put into my mind that I could be suicidal, because all my writings were drk and sad. After my 7th grade year in my Catholic school of nine years, I transferred to the local public school. There I was introduced to carving. When I first heard about it I was dumb-founded. I couldn't imagine hurting myself. not until i finally accepted that I wanted to die months later. I starting cutting because I was bored in math class. It then turned into cutting to feel better or good about whatever was wrong. I have had a problem with it ever since, the past year and nine months. I am learning to deal with it and cope, but I still have breakdowns and cut. I started again recently and my friends are helping me stay strong. If it weren't for them I would be dead right now. They went to my principal when I was 14 and told her that I was suicidal and that I was cutting bad. My friends believed I was in danger and they were right. So they saved my life. They still stand by me and help me and keep me safe. That is my story and I hope it will encourage and help some people. Please if you have any questions, any at all, just ask. I don't mind answering them.

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