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Happy Kagerou Days/ Mekakucity Actors Day.
(Is it weird that I found it as Kagerou Daze, too?)
EDIT: NEVERMIND, apparently it was the 14th August, not the 15th.
I NEED to write three things, two of those short little things of not even 500 words (which I can knock out in half an hour on good days) but instead of doing that, first I thought of writing an essay for Fannish 50 with the title of "The Purification of Fandom" but the first sentence is already proving why I couldn't:
First, I must warn you that I am not actually qualified for writing about this topic as I have neither done research nor have I dealt with it internally.
Then, I saw that my last post was about Digimon and felt the need to search for people interested in Digimon and proceeded to, get it, actually comment on people's posts, even one that's almost 20 years old.
On another note, today's a holiday but I still worked from 11am to 4pm, and yesterday even worked from 9 am to 7pm without break, though my usual working hours are 8am to 5pm with a one hour lunch break.
Got the thing done. I'll probably work tomorrow again despite it being Saturday and me not actually working on Saturdays. ....It's becoming a pattern as I worked the last weekend, too, on Saturday doing both dog sitting and stuff for my actual job and on Sunday, I worked from 2pm to 8pm ....
It's typical for me to vanish for, like, half a year. Which sucks since I have signed up for Fannish 50, of which I've only done 1 so far. Might do a comparison of the How to train your dragon animated vs the real life action one, since I watched the the second one two days ago.
And I have thoughts.
That said, reason for not going on dreamwidth?
Man, the usual. Depression, not wanting to feel pressured, out of sight out of mind, forgetting my password .... and so on.
Otherwise? Just had my June month of the No Writing Academia discord server's fic fight, which I've just realized was a missed opportunity. I could have knocked off 8 of those 50 since I wrote 8 fics. That means this year has been my most successful NWA fic fight since 2022. I only wrote 2 fics in the NWA fic fight 23 and only one in the NWA fic fight 24. The NWA FIc FIght 22 I managed 76 fics. And in the first fight in NWA fic fight 21 , I wrote 90 fics in the span of six weeks ( it had been stretched to six weeks).
Imagine. 180 000 words in six weeks. Never managed that again, lemme tell you. NWA fic fight 22 was four weeks long and I managed 115 000 words across 76 fics then.
So 8 fics for NWA fic fight 25 isn't too bad.
On another note, though. Am I tripping or have all bnha fandom calendar / events blogs stopped their work? Like, bnhafandomcalendar on tumblr hasn't updated since November 2023. bnhafanevent and bnhafandomevents on tumblr both don't exist.
I even ventured to bluesky and bnhafandomevents hasn't updated since May 2024 there.
Hello Gentlemen, Ladies and Everything In Between and All Around,
it's the 7th January. I'd originally planned to sit down on the 1st, churn out a mini essay and post it along with a rec lit for My Hero Academia.
( Introduction )
( Recommendations )
Also, of course, spoiler alert.
One of the first things I want to do is a Fannish 50 post to start things off.
That wish sort of clashes with my New Year plans. You see.... I want to go to bed by 9pm aka in 1 1/2 hours cause I don't want to deal with New Years and the stupid amount of fireworks. I'll also be turning my phone off pretty soon because no. Just no.
It would be cool to post something for Fannish 50 as soon as the clock hits midnight, tho...
That's baffling, so, so baffling.
Like, there are till some founding members there. I've been friends with at least one of the other members for almost 10 years. It's astounding!
Like, I've been in every publication we did, all five of them. My fucking art is in the 3rd and 5th (the most recent one, the anniversary publication with 300 freaking pages).
It's just.
I'm near tears.
I also still adore the title of the first book because the name is from one of my poems.
(Pic of books under the cut)
( Books! )
I need to write. I don't want to leave it to the last second and I'm honestly excited about my prompt. It's just sitting down and starting.
Also original writing. Want to write a couple of pieces because on my writing group website I used to be in the top 3 of the people who have written the most pieces and recently I've been thrown off that pedestal.
But I don't want to just slap some heart- and soulless minipoems for the sake of my spot on the pedestal because honestly, what would be the fucking point? It wouldn't mean anything. So. Pieces that mean something to me. Writing.
(I actually do have an idea. A poem with 17 stanzas - 5 7 5 - with each stanza being a haiku, and the first five stanzas having a theme, the following seven stanzas having an adjacent theme, and then the last five stanzas having a non-sequestur twist theme as is Haiku nature.
OH! My writing group is turning 10 and I've been part of it for like 9 and a half years. I've been in each and every one of our publications - the 5th one being our 10-year anniversary one, that literally was sold for the first time yesterday!
I've also done art for the most three most recent ones, which. I'm sort of proud of. Like, both my writing and art are published, if self-published in a collection of various authors and pieces.
Doesn't detract from my feeling at all.
I might have remembered that I have a dreamwidth account ... after two and a half years ...
...
This is actually on track for me. I'm not good at journaling or doing something routinely (except for reading fanfics on AO3 and watching youtube ... go figure)
What has happened?
Still struggling with arting and writing and knowing that I'm not good at seriously doing either.
Still knowing that my mental, physical and emotional health is absolute shit but not taking major steps to fix that.
I did get a job, though!
....I remembered this existed in a rather convulated way. Was searching for new BNHA fic to read, saw one of these compilation fics with many fandoms, saw KHR, scrolled through the top kudo fics and realized that HEY, I've read a lot of those, then remembering that I had once started a khr fic based on a livejournal challenge, felt the urge to do one again but like hell am I going on livejournal.
So. Dreamwidth.
Hi. I'm back.
Can't promise for how long.
