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BERJAYA
Friday, June 24th, 2011
7:46 pm - spending time with my little sister Danielle
BERJAYA
crookedfingers
Jonny and Danielle

current mood: BERJAYA contemplative

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Monday, November 8th, 2010
10:05 am - Call for Submissions- Muzzle Magazine
BERJAYA
fallenangel0502
MUZZLE is a quarterly online magazine that is run by a bunch of hooligans and publishes poetry, art, book reviews, performance reviews, and interviews. Additionally, we are interested in collaborative and multi-media pieces.

With each issue, we aim to bring together the voices of poets from a diverse array of backgrounds, paying special homage to those from communities that are historically underrepresented in literary magazines.

We are currently taking submissions for our third issue, scheduled to come out February 15, 2011. Submissions will close for this issue on January 15, 2011.

For the complete submission guidelines, please visit the website:
http://www.muzzlemagazine.com/submissions.html

Also, please check out the latest issue to get a better idea of our aesthetic:
http://www.muzzlemagazine.com/fall-2010.html

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Friday, July 16th, 2010
8:14 am
BERJAYA
crookedfingers
candles

current mood: BERJAYA contemplative

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Thursday, December 10th, 2009
10:12 am - updated Jack Kerouac collection
BERJAYA
crookedfingers
lonesome traveler[ edit | delete ]
March 9, 2007 | At: 8:27 PM | Permalink
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[ my mood: exhausted ]
Angelheaded Hipster [01 Mar 2006|04:45pm]

Crookedfingers

Kerouac collection
King of the Beats[ edit | delete ]
posted 10/29/04 (edited Friday, Oct 29, 2004 07:14)

an old diary entry Friday May 18, 2001 titled Jack Kerouac

Yesterday I was down in the basement library study messing with my Beat Collection-I put in two piles the books with Kerouac in the title or books written by Kerouac here is the list (I love lists)---
"Mexico City Blues [242 Choruses]" by Jack Kerouac
"Lonesome Traveler" A Novel by Jack Kerouac
"Atop an Underwood: Early Stories and Other Writings" by Jack Kerouac
'Jack Kerouac King of the Beats" a biography by Barry Miles
"Good Blonde & Others (the uncollected writings)" by Jack Kerouac
"Kerouac" a biography by Ann Charters
"Desolation Angels" a novel by Jack Kerouac
"Jack Kerouac" a biography by Tom Clark
"Kerouac And The Beats-A Primary Sourcebook" Edited by Arthur and Kit Knight
"Kerouac's Crooked Road: The Development of a fiction" by Tim Hunt foreword by Ann Charters
"Desolation Angel: Jack Kerouac, The Beat Generation And America" a biography by Dennis McNally
"Memory Babe: A Critical Biography of Jack Kerouac" by Gerald Nicosia
"Jack's Book: An Oral Biography of Jack Kerouac" by Barry Gifford and Lawrence Lee
"The Town And The City" a novel by Jack Kerouac
"On The Road" a novel by Jack Kerouac
"Visions of Cody" a novel by Jack Kerouac
"The Dharma Bums" a novel by Jack Kerouac
"The Spontaneous Poetics of Jack Kerouac: A Study Of The Fiction" by Regina Weinreich
"Jack Kerouac Angelheaded Hipster" by Steve Turner
"Subterranean Kerouac: The Hidden Life of Jack Kerouac" by Ellis Amburn
"Jack Kerouac Selected Letters 1940-1956" Edited by Ann Charters
"Jack Kerouac Selected Letters 1957-1969" Edited by Ann Charters
"Some of the Dharma" by Jack Kerouac

I also have the box set containing all of Kerouac's recordings "The Jack Kerouac Collection"-also Graham Parker reading selections from "Visions of Cody" [Penguin Audiobooks]-and Allen Ginsberg reading Kerouac's "Mexico City Blues".

One of the best things to come out on the life of Kerouac is the "A Jack Kerouac ROMnibus The ultimate multimedia exploration of the Beat Generation [Penguin Electronic]-then there is two CD's I have "Kerouac kicks joy darkness" and "Jack Kerouac reads ON THE ROAD"-there is more coming out by Kerouac-Penguin plans to publish Kerouac's notebooks and a new biography based on the notebooks.

I always found Kerouac an interesting-a tragic figure-well I will close to put away the books-no one is home but me-the house is quiet-the morning goes by-so much on my mind!

TODAY is October 29, 2004
I should add to the above list these books---
"Windblown World: The Journals Of Jack Kerouac 1947-1954" Edited with an Introduction by Douglas Brinkely
"Offbeat Celebrating with Kerouac" by David Amram
"Book Of Dreams" (unedited edition published by City Lights Books) by Jack Kerouac

TODAY is March 1, 2006
I should add to the above list these books---
"Empty Phantoms: Interviews And Encounters With Jack Kerouac" Edited by Paul Maher Jr.
"Conversations with Jack Kerouac" Edited by Kevin J. Hayes
"Departed Angels: Jack Kerouac The Lost Paintings" text by Ed Adler
"Maggie Cassidy" a novel by Jack Kerouac
"Book Of Haikus" by Jack Kerouac Edited And With An Introduction by Regina Weinreich
March 9, 2007
"The Dharma Bums" by Jack Kerouac [Penguin Classics Deluxe Edition] introduction by Ann Douglas

music: Prolapse "Ghosts of Dead Aeroplanes"

It is TODAY December 23, 2007

Yesterday I picked up a new book on Jack Kerouac titled "Beatific Soul: Jack Kerouac on the Road" by Isaac Gewirtz. I could not locate my most recent list of my Jack Kerouac book collection. I do not SEE above these books on my Kerouac List---

"Kerouac, The Word And The Way: Prose Artist As Spiritual Quester" by Ben Giamo

"Why Kerouac Matters: The Lessons of On the Road (They're Not What You Think)" by John Leland

"On the Road" a novel by Jack Kerouac [50th Anniversary Edition]

"Action Writing: Jack Kerouac's Wild Form" by Michael Hrebeniak

"On The Road: The Original Scroll" by Jack Kerouac

"The Subterraneans and Pic" by Jack Kerouac [with a new Introduction by Ann Douglas]

TODAY is August 31, 2008

"On The Road: The Original Scroll" by Jack Kerouac (Penguin Classics Deluxe Edition) paperback
"Big Sur" a novel by Jack Kerouac

Today is December 10, 2009
"The Awakener: A Memoir of Kerouac and the Fifties" by Helen Weaver
"Visions of Cody" Jack Kerouac (Penguin Book edition-paperback)
"And The Hippos Were Boiled In Their Tanks" A Novel by Jack Kerouac and William S. Burroughs
"Wake Up: A Life of the Buddha" by Jack Kerouac
"The Book Of Sketches" by Jack Kerouac
"Book Of Blues" by Jack Kerouac
"The Subterraneans" by Jack Kerouac (Grove Press Edition-paperback)

music: Sun Kil Moon "April"

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Monday, August 3rd, 2009
8:27 pm - An Author Without Borders
BERJAYA
crookedfingers
a picture of the writer William T. Vollmann

William T. Vollmann

http://www.nytimes.com/2009/07/29/books/29vollman.html?_r=2&ref=books&pagewanted=all

current mood: BERJAYA contemplative

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Tuesday, April 21st, 2009
4:18 pm - Invictus by William Ernest Henley
BERJAYA
proof

In Honor of April 2009, National poetry month

I present Invictus by William Ernest Henley by youtubers:

(See poem in the youtube description)




I am doing another poetry Collab
check my blog for details
http://proofalist.blogspot.com/

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Wednesday, January 21st, 2009
7:27 pm - hi!
BERJAYA
eurotrashkiss
Hi I used to belong to this comm.
then i just started a new LJ and decided i would come on here and make some friends into the same stuff I am!Im 31 from Seattle,WA published author interviewer and reviewer of a music magazine in LA.

I post a lot,i don't judge,i post a lot of art/poetry etc..
and in really into britpop and music of all sorts!

read my profile for more detailed interests and feel free to add me if you wish...hope this is ok to post:)
x posted (cos im trying to build up new people)

PEACE!

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Saturday, January 3rd, 2009
3:06 pm - poem
BERJAYA
popscene_horror
"Repeat,Rewind"


Mad genius in all his glory falls to the somber ground like sugar glass
Beautiful boys with magic in their eyes suffer from abandonment and lack of a love life
He rewound his dreams of the girl until her mind was pregnant with his obsession.
Cigarettes and Hot coffee is his chosen feast

You repeat your trashy affair into the ears of tramps turned delicate

I can see through the shimmery lies and sullen whispers from your lips

Time is a place that will not end

sensitive red lipped boy you've gone to see forever

is there fame there?
is there fame there?
repeat,rewind
repeat rewind.

He kisses the passion with mystic obsession
she never looks away,just closes her eyes

shards of lost memories float through space with grace

is there fame there?
is there fame there?
repeat,rewind
repeat,rewind

creations of lost gods develop in her mind
she cheats on you in a daydream of a black and white movie
you fall asleep with your new wave love affair

is there fame there?
is there fame there?
repeat,rewind
repeat,rewind (c)Kim Acrylic

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Wednesday, December 31st, 2008
10:24 pm - Where's Kelly?
BERJAYA
crazyjustin1685
Where’s Kelly?


Norah Johnson pulled into the parking lot behind the movie theater at Mashpee Commons. She slowly got out of her gold Saturn Ion because her body hurt all over. She may have looked like she was in her 30’s but she defiantly felt 40. Plus it was getting to be that time of the month, so that wouldn’t help her at all. A light winter rain was falling as Norah made her way past Siena restaurant where she had been trying to have her husband take her for the last month and a half. Arriving at the movie theater she went inside expecting her daughter Kelly to be waiting for her in the lobby. Only Kelly was not in the lobby, the only person in the lobby that Norah saw was a young male floor staff member of the theater sweeping up the lobby. Norah checked the time on her blackberry and saw that it was 7:05. Kelly said the movie got out at 7 didn’t she? Norah though to herself. Norah approached the ticket booth where a guy and a girl in their early 20’s were chatting.
“Excuse me?” Norah asked.
“Yes ma’am?” Said the young lady.
“What time does Yes Man get out?”
“It should be getting out any moment ma’am” Informed the young lady to Norah.
“Thank you.” Norah said making her way towards the hallway where the different theaters were. Norah checked her blackberry again which read 7:08. Any minute now Norah thought trying not to get nervous. A few minutes later after the crowd from “Yes Man” had come out and Kelly was not among them Norah began to get nervous. Well Norah thought maybe she’s in the bathroom, and I hope it’s her time of the month as well as mine. Norah made her way down a hallway to the right of the theaters to the ladies room. Norah noticed the oddly the door to the ladies room was propped up as she made her way in and called out.
“Kelly it’s mom are you in here?” No answer because in her growing nervousness Norah had not noticed that the stalls were empty. Norah did not wait for the silence to finish answering because she quickly made her way out of the ladies room and back to the lobby. Norah made her way into the hallway of theaters to theater #3 where “Yes Man” had been showing. She walked in and looked around the now empty theater only that was a lie on my part because Norah found Kelly’s jacket in one of the rows of seats. Now Norah really began to worry as she franticly called Kelly on her blackberry. She got only the voicemail and left a nervous message asking Kelly “Where are you young lady!?!?” and to “Call me or meet me where you were suppose to!!!!” Picking up her daughter’s jacket Norah made her way back out to the lobby and to the ticket booth.
“Can I help you ma’am?” Asked the same young lady from earlier.
“Yes I’m trying to find my daughter.” Norah asked franticly.
“What does she look like?” Asked the same young man that had been chatting with the young lady. In her nervousness Norah had not even noticed him standing off to the side, but no one ever seemed to noticed him is what he thought at times.
“She’s tall, slender, with brown hair in kind of a butch hair cut and glasses.” Norah said quickly but at the same time noticing a certain kind of shyness in this tall young man with brown hair and thick black rim glasses.
“No Ma’am I’m sorry I haven’t seen her, have you Heather?”
“No I haven’t either.” Heather said with a look of concern on her face.
“I found her jacket in the theater, would you mind if I checked the other theaters for her? I tried calling her but her phone is off.” Norah asked the nervousness really showing in her voice.
“Sure I can have one of the staff escort you with a flashlight. Hey Jack can you go with this nice lady, she’s trying to find her daughter.” Heather called to a young brown haired teenager in the concession area of the lobby.
“Sure.” Said Jack picking up a flashlight from behind the concession counter and making his way out to the lobby to help the lady check for her daughter.
“Well that’s kind odd don’t you think Justin?” Heather asked after the lady and Jack had gone down the hallway.
“Yeah very strange indeed.” Justin said.
About ten minutes later Jack and Norah after having no luck in the other theaters came back out to the lobby.
“I just can’t believe this, this is not like her at all!” Norah said almost yelling now. It was clear to Heather and Justin that this lady was very upset, but being the manager Heather was the one to handle it as she made her way from the ticket booth she said the following.
“Ma’am if you like I could call security to look for your daughter?” Only it would not be necessary because the door to the theater opened and Justin looked up and saw a girl with glasses and brown hair in a butch hair cut.
It was Kelly.
“Kelly!” Norah yelled making her way over to her daughter angry but at the same time somewhat relieved.
“Hi mom…” Was all Kelly could get out.
“Don’t hi me young lady you never leave the theater! Now where were you?” Norah said in a stern angry voice as Justin thought oh boy this lady is going to cause a scene. But Norah handed Kelly her jacket and took her by the arm leading her out of the theater.

Kelly would make up a story claiming that she was outside of the theater because she was on the phone and didn’t want to disturb the other people in the theater. The truth though is that Kelly is a lesbian and was meeting her girlfriend Filly on a secret rendezvous because Kelly has learned the truth that Norah and her husband Joe are homophobes. They believed that Prop 8 was a good thing to vote for and they would be ashamed if their child was gay.

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Friday, September 12th, 2008
7:00 pm - abstract and beat
BERJAYA
popscene_horror
my book just got published!!!


Click the link to order my book!



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Tuesday, September 9th, 2008
9:36 pm - from a letter written by Allen Ginsberg
BERJAYA
crookedfingers
So (experiments) are many modern canvasses as you know. The sketch is a fine "Form."]

W.C. Williams has been observing speech rhythms for years trying to find a regular "measure"-

he's mistaken I think.

There is no measure which will make one speech the exact length of another, one line the exact length of another.

He has therefore seized on the phrase "relative measure" in his old age.

He is right but has not realized the implications of this in the long line.

Since each wave of speech-thought needs to be measured (we speak and perhaps think in waves)-or what I speak and think I have at any rate in Howl reduced to waves of relatively equally heavy weight-and set next to one another they are in a balance O.K.

The tenchnique of writing both prose and poetry, the technical problem of the present day, is the problem of transcription of the natural flow of the mind, the transcription of the melody of actual thought or speech.

I have learned more toward capturing the inside-mind-thought rather than the verbalized speech. This distinction I make because most poets see the problem via Worthsworth as getting nearer to actual speech, verbal speech.

I have noticed that the unspoken visual-verbal flow inside the mind has great rhythm and have approached the problem of strophe, line and stanza and measure by listening and transcribing (to a great extent) the coherent mental flow. Taking that for the model for form as Cezanne took Nature.

This is not surrealism-they made up an artificial literary imitation.

I transcribe from my ordinay thoughts-waiting for extra exciting or mystical moments or near mystical moments to transcribe.

This brings up problems of image, and transcription of mental flow gives helpful knowledge because we think in sort of surrealist (juxtaposed images) or haiku-like form.

current mood: BERJAYA contemplative

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9:30 pm - from a letter by Ginsberg to his father describing Kerouac's prose style
BERJAYA
crookedfingers
". . .Entry: Re Jack's prose, well I like it of course, my reason being that it has the same syntactical structure of fast excited spoken talking-this is an interesting event in prose development, and it's no less communicative to me than heard speech, mine, yours, his,-when you speak you also talk a little like that, especially when you're moved, excited, angry, or dizzy with happiness etc. etc.-heightened speech in other words. Normal conversation does not necessarily follow formal syntax, nor need it as long as it's communicative. So written prose. Perhaps you find it uncommunicated or uncommunicating because you expect to see a different written order of syntax. But it actually gets across very well, what he's describing, faithful to his own way of talk. It's obvious from On Road or Town & City that he can write normal prose, simple & straightforward. So if he writes experimentally one has to give credit for it being you know at least sincere & even intelligent, an approach, a try-most people don't even try-and it isn't as if he hasn't personally sacrificed a lot to pursue his sense of craft-that book was written long ag without a hope of publication-as On the Road was written 8 years ago. I do find it interesting though-I know the girl he writes about-who took off her clothes & flipped-I heard her story about it-that was the way she spoke, the syntax even, her style of speaking-a very common style-he's caught her very well-and if you add his interpolations & private thoughts which he records semi-simultaneously with her monologues, & their conversation-you have a very complicated but very real structure of events to try and get down on paper. Hemingway tried simplification & reduction (and was attacked for being too inhumanly stripped down)-Jack trying (as Proust & Celine) to include all the little private thoughts you normally wouldn't mention-so he arrives at a complicated sentence structure. It's not trying to be English sentence structure. It's trying to be American actual speech-and thought-reproduction. So it shouldn't be judged by standards of a high school or college grammar course. It's not meant to be grammatical that way, it's meant to be right another way. Nor can one say that standard English syntax is the fixed and only standard way of transcribing human thought-all languages have different syntax structures-the Latin ones are one group-the German type inflected is another-and many primitive cultures have approaches to syntax that are almost almost incomprehensible to us (but make sense to them-no verbs for instance in some languages, no adjectives in others). And there is Chinese syntax which I'm told is of a totally different order from ours. Sytnax is only a tool to speak with, there are many syntaxes, & many variations possible to our tongue, common in use even, in talk-English grammar is only the formal way tied to fixed habits of feeling & communication-Jack, broken free of these fixed habits of thought, has to think & write his own way, find a mode. Look at the sentence I just wrote-it's crazy, but it followed the spontaneous convolutions of my thought very flexibly-would I change my thought to fit the sentence structure better, or alter my thought & pare it down neat & leave out the hesitations, changes, and halts, interruptions, to make it fit a school copybook? I'd wind up writing gibberish if I tried to halt in midstream & box it up neat to fit some imaginary standard. The ideal is for me a sensitive prose or poetry syntax or metric that is practical & follows the changes actually going on in the process of thinking or writing-where a normal metric or syntax works, fine-but where it doesn't apply, why? I no longer worry about that so much-just go my way-that's all any man can do-live-and do what he thinks practical. And real. See now that that last bit, and real, added on to the sentence. I thought it up next and added it-you can follow my actual process of composition-what I mean is there directly no less and no more-I just thought to say, and real, and added it in, just like that. What freedom-and why not? Language is to use not dicate our thoughts. But so much of our lives & feelings are tied down to the limitations of what we're taught-this is the importance of striking out into variation & experiment-this is not nihilism but courage-not really that-Joy! Well I'll end on elevated note. Love to everyone-wrote Gene tonight-will try Warsaw yet see under skirt of iron curtain perhaps. There is no Beat Generation, it's all a journalist hex. Love Allen." pp. 185-187 from "The Letters of Allen Ginsberg"

current mood: BERJAYA contemplative

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Sunday, August 31st, 2008
6:58 pm - Beat Poet
BERJAYA
crookedfingers
It is 6:13 PM I have been searching through my JS blog for a list of books I have in my Allen Ginsberg collection. To my amazement I have not updated that list since January 2005! I have to go down in the basement soon and dig out all the new Ginsberg books I bought over the last three years. I was sure I had a blog entry with recent Ginsberg books. Strange.

January 7, 2005
Allen Ginsberg Collection
1. "Howl And Other Poems" Introduction by William Carlos Williams
2. "Empty Mirror" Early Poems
3. "Reality Sandwiches Poems 1953-60"
4. "Kaddish And Other Poems 1958-1960"
5. "Planet News Poems 1961-1967"
6. "Allen Ginsberg Journals Mid-Fifties 1954-1958" Edited by Gordon Ball
7. "Allen Ginsberg Journals Early Fifties Early Sixties"
8. "Allen Ginsberg Spontaneous Mind: Selected Interviews 1958-1996" Edited by David Carter
9. "Allen Ginsberg Deliberate Prose: Selected Essays 1952-1995"
10. "Family Business: Selected Letters between a father and a son Allen and Louis Ginsberg"
11. "Snapshot Poetics" photos by Allen Ginsberg [A Photographic Memior of the Beat era]
12. Allen Ginsberg-Holy Soul Jelly Roll-Poems and Songs 1949-1993 [ Four CD set box set]
13. "Ginsberg: A Biography" by Barry Miles
14. "Dharma Lion: A Biography of Allen Ginsberg" by Michael Schumacher
15. "Allen Ginsberg in America" by Jane Kramer
16. "The Visionary Poetics of Allen Ginsberg" by Paul Portuges
17. "America Scream: Allen Ginsberg's Howl And The Making Of The Beat Generation" by Jonah Raskin

August 30, 2008.
18. "Howl: 50th Anniversary Edition" by Allen Ginsberg
19. Howl on trial: The Battle for Free Expression" Edited by Bill Morgan & Nancy J. Peters
20. "I Celebrate Myself: The Somewhat Private Life Of Allen Ginsberg" by Bill Morgan
21. "The Book Of Martyrdom And Artifice" [First Journals And Poems 1937-1952] by Allen Ginsberg edited by Juanita Lieberman-Plimpton & Bill Morgan
22. "Letters of Allen Ginsberg" edited by Bill Morgan
23. "The Visions of the Great Rememberer"
24. "Collected Poems 1947-1997" by Allen Ginsberg
25. "An Elegy For Allen Ginsberg 1926-1997: No More To Say & Nothing To Weep For" DVD


music: Black Rebel Motorcycle Club "Howl"

current mood: BERJAYA contemplative

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Monday, July 14th, 2008
10:23 am - Willy Vlautin
BERJAYA
chidder
One should never meet an artist whose work one admires; the artist is always so much less than the work.
—HENRI DE TOULOUSE-LAUTREC

Last evening at WORD, a splendid little bookstore in Greenpoint, Brooklyn, Deb and I attended a reading by Willy Vlautin, whose first two novels, The Motel Life and Northline, are two of the best books I've read in years. In a blurb advertising the event, Time Out New York called Northline a "bleak novel... about a pregnant woman who, in moments of deep trauma, speaks with her idol, Paul Newman." Reducing the book to these two plot points is as wrongheaded as describing John Ford's The Grapes of Wrath as a "road movie about a family that can't get work."

In between playing a couple of songs on his guitar (he's also the lead singer of Richmond Fontaine, a fine band that's been around since '94 and have ten or so CDs to their name), Vlautin read a passage from Northline, introducing it as a "story about weakness, about the bad things you do when you're feeling weak, the sideways moves you do. You get out of one bad situation and you feel good that you've made a brave step. But then you're so worn out that you end up making the same exact mistake."

Both of Vlautin's books are in the literary tradition of Raymond Carver and Charles Bukowski. His spartan prose perfectly reflects the people about whom he writes: spare on the surface but ultimately strong enough to bear up under the lives they have made for themselves. Readers, like Vlautin's own characters, may be surprised to discover just how strong.

After the reading, we had an opportunity to meet Vlautin and have him sign our copies of his books. He and I both spent a chunk of our lives working in trucking out West (we were employed by competing companies), and we spent a few minutes talking about Reno and Portland and Salt Lake, about the Nugget Casino, and a legendary hamburger called the "Awful Awful." Deb and I left the bookstore with the feeling that—Toulouse-Lautrec be damned—Vlautin in person appeared to be as genuine and wryly funny as Vlautin the writer. It was a good night.

Willy Vlautin reads from Northline.

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Tuesday, April 15th, 2008
6:35 pm - im new
BERJAYA
popscene_horror
dont know if this is ok just let me know..i just wrote a beat-ish poem i'd like to share


"dreamed"
the manner in which i live,fuck or write is beyond the superficial glare of aging hipsters in LA.
i breath with the sun,moon and ink that come from my pen and spills to the paper.
no one knows me or my ideas of gratitude and brilliance.
i gravitate toward the deaf,blind and sullen creatures.
my higher power has been a slave to the grind and has not been seen in my town.
forever seems shorter as i sleep to dream of fantasies untold or rituals unspoken.
night life is habitual as is carnage.
sacred ruins and forbidden love are the destiny i pray to.
forgive me satan for i have dreamed.
lost and loathing i find a friend in my semi cautious mind.
lasting features and soft baby skin linger through space and religion.
i fear not who iam.

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Wednesday, April 9th, 2008
9:58 pm - Allen Ginsberg
BERJAYA
crookedfingers
Ginsberg's travels to India chronicled By DANICA COTO, Associated Press Writer
Wed Apr 9, 1:49 PM ET

"A Blue Hand: The Beats in India" (The Penguin Press. 243 pages. $25.95), by Deborah Baker: It was 1961, and Allen Ginsberg was in search of life's meaning.

His quest would lead him to the gurus and ashrams of India, to its streets and heady opium dens. It is a journey that Deborah Baker tells through journals, letters, memoirs and other documents collected for "A Blue Hand: The Beats in India."

Ginsberg's friends in New York insist that he travel to the East and explore the subcontinent with them, but he does not need much encouragement. Ginsberg had already heard the ancient voice of William Blake reciting poetry inside his Harlem apartment. He had looked outside the window and noticed how everything was created by a "living hand," how the sky itself was "the living blue hand."

"From that moment, Irwin Allen Ginsberg became a divining rod in the headlong and holy pursuit of God," Baker writes.

She weaves an intricate if somewhat tedious description of Ginsberg's travels through India and his quest for meaning while accompanied by his lover, Peter Orlovsky, and in the company of poets Gary Snyder and Joanne Kyger.

The adventure is slow to start.

We first meet Ginsberg's fellow Beat poets — Jack Kerouac, William Burroughs, Gregory Corso — and their stints in jail, mental wards and drug-infested apartments. The anecdotes flit from one character to another, causing confusion. The reader's mind wanders and wonders when Ginsberg will finally embark on his trip.

He leaves having already received widespread acclaim for his poem, "Howl."

Ginsberg arrives in India to discover that almost everyone has a guru and is on their own spiritual path. Suddenly, he feels out of place, and so do his ideals of remaining loyal to the Harlem vision, of laboring for the working class, of never reading poetry for profit.

He realizes his conundrum: He wants to be a saint, but doesn't have a cause.

"'What's to be done with my life which has lost its idea?' is Jack drunk? Is Neal still aware of me? Gregory yakking? Bill mad at me? Am I even here to myself?"

We gain insight that Ginsberg wants a quick answer to his search for meaning. Not content with teachings such as, "The only guru is in your own heart," he asks the Dalai Lama if drugs can help him reach enlightenment.

The account of his travels through India draws heavily on the observations of Snyder and Kyger, and one yearns to hear Ginsberg's voice more often. The explanation for this lack of insight comes from an unlikely source, a police officer intent on terminating Ginsberg's visit to India:

"Why do you stay here in India so long? People come, see and they go. What do you DO here? There must be some reason for you to stay so long."

Ginsberg admits that he wonders the same thing.

current mood: BERJAYA exhausted

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Friday, February 29th, 2008
4:00 pm - Art & Poetry Contest ($500 Cash Prize)
BERJAYA
proof
Check out the Youtube Art and Writing contest




help raise awareness by rating and commenting on that video. BERJAYA

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Thursday, February 28th, 2008
12:04 pm - Kerouac film
BERJAYA
crookedfingers

This just popped up on the radar: a new Kerouac documentary produced by Jim Sampas et al. 

One Fast Move or I’m Gone: Kerouac’s Big Sur takes the viewer back to Ferlinghetti’s cabin and to the Beat haunts of San Francisco and New York City for an unflinching, cinematic look at the compelling events the book is based on. The story unfolds in several synchronous ways: through the narrative arc of Kerouac’s prose, told in voice-over by actor and Kerouac interpreter, John Ventimiglia (of HBO’s The Sopranos); through first-hand accounts and recollections of Kerouac’s contemporaries, whom many of the characters in the book are based on such as Lawrence Ferlinghetti, Carolyn Cassady, Joyce Johnson and Michael McClure; by the interpretations and reflections of writers, poets, actors and musicians who have been deeply influenced by Kerouac’s unique gifts like Tom Waits, Sam Shepard, Robert Hunter, Patti Smith, Aram Saroyan, Donal Logue and S.E. Hinton; and by stunning, High Definition visual imagery set to original music composed and performed by recording artist, Jay Farrar of Son Volt, with additional performance by Benjamin Gibbard of Death Cab for Cutie.



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Wednesday, February 13th, 2008
7:21 pm - Howl
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First recording of Allen Ginsberg reading poem 'Howl' found at Oregon college  By: THE ASSOCIATED PRESS PORTLAND, Ore.

- What is believed to be the first recording of Allen Ginsberg reading his iconic Beat poem "Howl" has been found at the library of a private Oregon college. For years, it has been thought the first recording of Ginsberg reading "Howl" was on March 18, 1956, at a performance in Berkeley, Calif. But researcher John Suiter has found a recording at Portland's Reed College that predates that by a month, The Oregonian newspaper reports. Suiter was at the college library in May to research a biography of Gary Snyder, a poet who grew up in Portland, graduated from Reed and was a friend of Ginsberg. On Feb. 13, 1956, Snyder and Ginsberg read to about 20 people at Reed, and on Feb. 14, they gave another reading that was recorded on tape. At both readings, Ginsberg read a version of "Howl," a few months before publication of the poem that was to make him famous. At Reed's library, a special collections assistant brought Suiter a box marked "Snyder Ginsberg 1956." In that box he found a 35-minute tape of Ginsberg reading the first section of "Howl" and seven other poems. "It was completely serendipitous," Suiter said. "I had no idea there was a tape." Reed has put the recording of "Howl" and the other poems on its website (www.reed.edu) but it won't be accessible until Friday, when the issue of Reed magazine with Suiter's article is published. "Howl," which was the subject of a landmark obscenity trial after its publication, has sold more than one million copies over the last five decades.




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Wednesday, February 6th, 2008
3:19 am - WEEKEND LONG NEAL CASSADY BIRTHDAY BASH
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Where: The Beat Museum 540 Broadway San Francisco, CA 94133
When: Saturday - February 9th 10 AM - 10 PM Sunday - February 10th 10 AM - 10 PM
Why: Because it's Neal!

http://www.thebeatmuseum.org/cassady_bash/press_release.html

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Tuesday, October 30th, 2007
1:30 am - Cut Up Poem #1
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crazyjustin1685
After
Sanctify
After
Shiver
Use
This
Above
Loathsome
A
Curse
Begins
Above
Old
Worlds
Tempt
A
Dandelion
Out
To
War

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Saturday, August 18th, 2007
10:05 am - the original scroll
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crookedfingers
The morning keeps going by. I took Rudy for a walk at Kollen Park. A beauiful morning by the Lake. A morning to lift up your heart in prayer to God the Father. On the way home from our walk we stopped at Reader's World to see if any of my Kerouac books had come in. Two of them had come in and I bought them. I bought these two Kerouac books this morning--- "Why Kerouac Matters: The Lessons of On The Road (They'e re Not What You Think)" by John Leland "On The Road: The Original Scroll" by Jack Kerouac BERJAYA Now I am home listening to Bob Dylan and feeling ok. While at Reader's World I also picked up the new issue of SKYSCRAPER a music magazine that I like to read while going down the road of existence. I like to keep up on the music scene. Do not know why? It is better than keeping up with the war going on in the slums of Grand Rapids. Well I will close to look at the original scroll and pray for universal peace. music: Bob Dylan "Highway 61 Revisited"

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Friday, April 6th, 2007
12:22 am - Quantum Consciousness and the Fifth Dimension
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indiriverflow
Quantum Consciousness and the Fifth Dimension

By Indi Riverflow




“Where ya comin’ from?”


Our worldview is largely a function of our location. The range of what we can experience and imagine is bounded by the culture that spawned us, and the place that we hold within it. Transcending locality is key to comprehending quantum consciousness.

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Friday, March 9th, 2007
11:17 pm - The Portable Jack Kerouac a review written by Ann Douglas
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On the Road Again Date: April 9, 1995, Sunday, Late Edition - Final Byline: By Ann Douglas;

Lead:

THE PORTABLE JACK KEROUAC Edited by Ann Charters. 625 pp. New York: Viking. $27.95. JACK KEROUAC: SELECTED LETTERS, 1940-1956 Edited by Ann Charters. 629 pp. New York: Viking. $29.95.
Text:

IS Jack Kerouac this country's most important critically unrecognized modern writer? He now is remembered (if at all) as, at best, a one-book wonder, the author of the novel "On the Road" -- the so-called "King of the Beats," a faintly ridiculous proponent of masculine irresponsibility whose ill-disciplined style mirrored the sad faults of the man. But Kerouac's work represents the most extensive experiment in language and literary form undertaken by an American writer of his generation. "On the Road" is only one of about a dozen major novels from his hand, all carefully designed to form a vast chronicle of American life in the mid-20th century.

The publication of "The Portable Jack Kerouac" (along with a selection of his letters) may serve to demonstrate Kerouac's achievement. This artfully chosen anthology makes clear, as perhaps only the anthology form can do, that Kerouac was a stylistic innovator whose work, as he put it, "comprises one vast book." In that regard it bears comparison with the publication in 1946 of "The Portable William Faulkner," edited by Malcolm Cowley, the book that permanently established Faulkner's reputation. Cowley a few years later became a qualified but real supporter of Kerouac's work; he persuaded Viking to publish "On the Road" and served -- not always to the author's satisfaction -- as its editor.

Kerouac's first, relatively conventional novel, "The Town and the City," won modest critical success upon its publication in 1950. "On the Road" rocketed him to notoriety seven years later. In The New York Times, Gilbert Millstein hailed the novel as "an authentic work of art . . . the most beautifully executed, the clearest and the most important utterance yet made by the generation Kerouac himself named years ago as 'beat,' and whose principal avatar he is."

His was a lone voice. Over the next decade, Kerouac's work was greeted by a barrage of incomprehension and vilification almost unparalleled in American letters. Kerouac, a self-designated "strange solitary crazy Catholic mystic," brought pacifist, celebratory and spiritual connotations to the label "Beat." It really meant "beatific," he explained; he was waiting, he told interviewers, for "God to show His face." Few listened. Critics attacked him as untalented, anti-intellectual, un-American, an apostle of mindless violence. Although "On the Road" appeared briefly on the best-seller list, none of his subsequent books enjoyed wide sales.

Kerouac's esthetic philosophy invited attack. He claimed that he wrote "On the Road" in a three-week adrenaline rush of inspiration; he insisted on "spontaneous prose"; he refused to revise. His stance was deceptive: although he had not exactly revised "On the Road," he had written it in three or four different forms, and he never slighted hard work or discipline. Rather, he believed that, like the jazz musicians and athletes he idolized, a writer must stake everything on the moment of performance. To Kerouac's way of thinking, a writer should be no more able to redo his work than a quarterback is to revise his last pass or a bop saxophonist is to delete his last solo. Each performance was a rehearsal for the next. Such opinions inspired Truman Capote's famous quip that Kerouac's fiction was not writing but typing.

Kerouac died in 1969, at the age of 47. He went to his grave believing that he had inherited what he once described in a letter to Neal Cassady as "the curse of Melville" -- the fate of a writer without an audience. Although Kerouac does not lack for readers and enthusiasts -- virtually all of his books are in print and Francis Ford Coppola is preparing a film version of "On the Road" -- he has been paid scant attention by most critics and academic departments of literature.

Ann Charters, the editor of "The Portable Jack Kerouac" and "Jack Kerouac: Selected Letters, 1940-1956," has been a scholar of Kerouac and the Beats for nearly 30 years. She visited Kerouac in 1966 while preparing a bibliography of his work ("I've kept the neatest records you ever saw," Kerouac told her). Ms. Charters, who teaches English at the University of Connecticut, Storrs, wrote his first biography, "Kerouac" (1973). She is also the author of a photographic history, "Scenes Along the Road" (1986), and the editor of a two-volume encyclopedia, "The Beats: Literary Bohemianism in Postwar America" (1983), and of another anthology, "The Portable Beat Reader" (1992).

Ms. Charters has selected, and meticulously annotated, nearly 200 letters written by Kerouac (along with nine written to him, principally from his mother), about half of the total available to her for the period from 1940 to 1956; she is preparing a second volume of letters from Kerouac's final 13 years. Included in the current book is a rich array of correspondence, most of it previously unpublished, to editors, family members and friends, especially important figures in the Beat movement like Neal Cassady, Allen Ginsberg, William Burroughs and John Clellon Holmes. While of great importance to anyone interested in the man and his movement, Kerouac's letters are not the strongest evidence of his gift. He saved his best prose for his books, using letter writing as he did his omnipresent notebook: as a backstage space to explore his art and the troubled sexual identity with which it was entangled. (His letters to Allen Ginsberg are full of uneasy, sometimes hostile, references to Ginsberg's homosexuality.)

The letters to and from his mother are of special interest. Despite two brief marriages and the birth of a daughter Kerouac refused to acknowledge, he lived with his mother, Gabrielle, for most of his last two decades. In a passage from "Desolation Angels" (1965) included in "The Portable Jack Kerouac," he dismissed "my fellow writers" who profess "to 'hate' their mothers and make big Freudian or sociological philosophies around that." He declared "Mamere," as he called Gabrielle, to be "the most important person in this whole story and the best." Kerouac could not have become a writer without his mother's belief in his talent and her financial aid -- she supported him by working in shoe factories until sales of "On the Road" gave him a modest income. The stories she told him as a child inspired his narrative method; all great writers, he wrote in "Vanity of Duluoz" (1968), possess a "soft and tender curiosity, verging on maternal care, about what others think and say." A shrewd infantilism is at the heart of his special genius.

"The Portable Jack Kerouac" presents excerpts from all of the major novels as well as several short stories (including the superb "Home at Christmas") and selections from his poetry. Kerouac's meditations on Buddhism and his seminal statements about the Beat esthetic in literature, film and music are included as well, notably "Essentials of Spontaneous Prose" (1957), "The Beginning of Bop" (1959) and "Aftermath: The Philosophy of the Beat Generation" (1958).

Kerouac saw himself as a latter-day Boswell, and his novels offer brilliant portraits of his many friends, but the person who commanded his most complete artistic attention was himself. His "true story novels" are direct transcriptions of his experience, sometimes written just months after the events they describe. Kerouac's goal, as he wrote to Allen Ginsberg, was to "unleash the inner life in an art-method." Convinced that an American life described with total honesty could constitute art, even great art, he intended his books to form a single autobiographical legend. Ms. Charters has organized her selections from the novels in "The Portable Jack Kerouac" to illustrate how thoroughly he executed his plan: she presents the excerpts according to the chronology of Kerouac's life, not in the order in which they were written. She opens with "Dr. Sax" (1959), a rhapsodic chronicle of Kerouac's working-class boyhood as the son of French-Canadian immigrants in Lowell, Mass., and closes with the harrowing "Big Sur" (1962), the story of the dead end of his life four decades later in California.

THERE are piercing stories about Kerouac's saintly older brother, Gerard, who died at 9 when Kerouac was 4; about life in an impoverished industrial New England town; about high school sports (Kerouac was a track and football star). We follow him to New York, where he attended Columbia University on a football scholarship and began a happy collaboration with the sardonic William Burroughs and the wild-minded young Allen Ginsberg, to his service in the Navy during World War II, and on to his first, ecstatic encounters with Neal Cassady, the Colorado "jailkid" who served as the crazed "Holy Goof" hero of "On the Road" and "Visions of Cody" (1959). Finally, there are accounts of Kerouac's travels across the United States and Mexico during the late 1940's and early 50's.

In a 1950 letter, Kerouac described himself as a member of the " 'minority' races." The designation was not altogether fanciful. His great-grandmother was half American Indian, and as a French-Canadian he was one of the despised Canucks in his hometown of Lowell; he did not master English until he attended high school. His first imperative, he wrote, was "Study mongrel America." Kerouac was always drawn to the nation's underground life -- to Times Square with its drug addicts, prostitutes and con artists, to the remnants of Depression America that persisted beneath the surface affluence of the late 40's and 50's. In the underclass, Kerouac believed he had discovered the repository of the spiritual values mainstream American had apparently forgotten.

Kerouac chronicled the final breakdown of his quest as faithfully as he had documented its joyous beginnings. Through it all, he recorded a strangely persistent belief that "the only decent activity in the world" is "to pray for everyone, in solitude." In an essay published five days after his death, he asked: "Ever look closely at anybody and see that particularized patience all their own, eyes hid, waiting with lips sewn down for time to pass, for something to lift them up, for their yesterday's daily perseverance to succeed, for the long night of life to take them up in its arms and say, 'Ah, Cherubim, this silly stupid business . . . what is it, existence.' "

Existence, he continued, might be "a lifelong struggle to avoid disaster," a struggle in which, by his own telling, he met defeat. But Kerouac's work has survived the wreck of his life. "The Portable Jack Kerouac" should send us back to the books themselves, to appraise anew his genius for the innovative use of language, for what he called "wild form," for "telepathic shock and meaning-excitement." Jack Kerouac's road is worth traveling. 'A Young Jailkid Shrouded in Mystery'

With the coming of Dean Moriarty began the part of my life you could call my life on the road. Before that I'd often dreamed of going West to see the country, always vaguely planning and never taking off. Dean is the perfect guy for the road because he was actually born on the road, when his parents were passing through Salt Lake City in 1926, in a jalopy, on their way to Los Angeles. First reports of him came to me through Chad King, who'd shown me a few letters from him written in a New Mexico reform school. I was tremendously interested in the letters because they naively and sweetly asked Chad to teach him all about Nietzsche and all the wonderful intellectual things that Chad knew. At one point Carlo and I talked about the letters and wondered if we ever would meet the strange Dean Moriarty. This is all far back, when Dean was not the way he is today, when he was a young jailkid shrouded in mystery. From "The Portable Jack Kerouac."



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Monday, February 5th, 2007
11:32 am
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