I somehow got stuck in a permanent circle of "life suck."

So... I'd like people (aka: you all) to submit questions to me for me to answer on my vBlog (http://www.Athena007.com). I'll answer as many as I can in under a certain time period (perhaps 5 minutes, shrug). So there will be a vBlog dedicated to your questions, and I will probably end up doing a couple of these Question vBlogs over next while...

Submit questions now... preferably just add a comment below. Thank you!

I have come to this horrible realization that I am extremely needy. o_0

How do certain people become important to me so fast...?

"You're awesome... but you're not good enough."

I really want to start a video blog... been wanting to do so for the past year and now Amy is working on starting hers and I think I just need to do it even if I think I'm going to b e a bore. I think I'm a lot more exciting in text... we'll see... I'm pondering how to start it.

You know what really grinds my gears...

When someone starts a charity organization to collect donations to fund their own medical expenses. I mean come on people! I could use my own charity too... I have medical expenses and things that I've not had done because I don't have the money and things that I have to have done which are getting put on my credit card. Where's my charity? Where's my charity for helping me pay for my school loan? Where's my charity to help me pay off all my debt from getting laid off and being out of work and homeless etc. This just pisses me off actually and I'm not sure why. Don't start a charity to sucker people into funding your medical expenses, take responsibility for yourself.

I've always wanted to try that thing where you ask everyone you know to send you $5 in the month of (let's say Dec). I know more than 100 people. And 100 = $500 at $5 a person. I mean that would help out so much seeing as I know more than 100 people. But no, you can't ask people for money like that, it's rude... unless you have a charity organization. BS!

*sigh* Just frustrated. *tempted to send out $5 e-mail*

Have you ever wanted to kill yourself after waking up from a dream? Well, ya... last night's dream was more than a nightmare. I woke up feeling like my insides were ripped out and crushed. I wake up feeling sick and like my insides had been crushed to peaces. Physically and emotionally. Almost literally like how you would feel it the man you loved with all our soul told you he was in love with another woman and you wanted to kick his arse and end your life (basically exactly what the dream was without all the details). Ya... it was that bad. I don't ever want a dream like that again... never... and never in real life either.

Someone that you think that you can trust... is just another way to die!

Waiting is painful.
Forgetting is painful.
But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.