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Monday, March 27th, 2006
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8:48 am
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Well Hello everyone,
I'm sure half of you don't even remember I once existed, but here I am alive, (sort of) after a hell of a cold, for those who live in England it will make sense, is now 6 months of bloody winter, with sun spells in between, I mean in one day you wake up to 2 degrees by miday is 12 degrees then by noon is -3 degrees, how can your boddy resist such changes??? even the flowers are confused and the birds wondering what the hell is going on!! we supouse to be in spring but hey, guess what, we are not, is horribly cold, gray and wet...
OK so as any other British citizen I just complaint about the weather.... and that I will tell to my boss who is less than impressed with my sickness records which indicates I get a cold nearly every three months, reason why I'm visiting the doctors today, perhaps is that this caribbean body is trying to tell me that this weather conditions are not for him? tough!!!
So, I guess the reason why I don't write that much with passion is because life passed from ups and downs to a serenity, I have now a normal job, I sleep 8 hours a day, I do what all mums do, and by the time I finish is bed time again! weeeeeeeee so there is no complains, and nothing meaninful to say, so shall I bored you telling you what did I have for dinner last night?
I guess...........
Never mind, I am ok, alive, working, leaving....
Love for all!
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| Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
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6:27 pm
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MY GOD, MY GOD, MY GOD....
I tryed 3 times to log in because I couldn't remember my password .............. I just remember I had a journal....
SO HOW ARE YOU PEOPLE!!!
I've been ok, life is sweet this days, I came back from Thailand a month ago, I had a hell of a good time there... work is ok, I just came back from Germany last week as I was meeting colleagues from Germany and learning new things and stuff... hehehe
Kids are big, Gabriel is in High School now :( he has he's own key to get home alone :( :( :( Fiona is just huge!!!!!!!!!!! she should be in season very soon yupiiiiiiiii so we'll have puppies which I'm planning to keep one and sell the rest for a little small fortune ;) so I can repair everything she has destroyed at home ;)
Everything else of course remain the same, I've got quite nice pictures from Thailand which I would love to post but I can not remember how to do it, so if any of you can tell me how your help would be more than welcome ;)
In the meantime.......... hugs.........hugs....... and a bit more of hugs ;)
A.
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| Saturday, July 2nd, 2005
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9:07 pm
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| Saturday, April 2nd, 2005
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9:15 am
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Well, Well, mind you I fell like I have lost my ability of telling stories, so much time has passed since I last wrote, but then here I am lost of words, how can I resume two months in few words?
Ok I can start by saying, bussy with work, bussy at home, as ussual I am painting and changing stuff around, half of my house is for auction, I mean, just the furniture ;) I normally give stuff away but not anymore....
Do you guys know that Tori Amos is touring again? aja! and guess what? I'm one of the lucky ones with tickets, to see her on the 4th of June in London!!! yaiiiiiiii .... have you guys had the chance to listen to her new album? one of my favourites is Picis! I love the song....
My dog is up in Wales on boot camp... hehehehe well is not really boot camp, but a dog's school, I miss her she will be there for three long weeks, lets see if she learns to be civilized :(
Gabriel has being accepted in the High School we chose for him yaiiiiiiii another reason to be happy, and to celebrate we taking them to see the WWE reseling stuff, they are like me waiting for Tori's ;)
On another note, I lost my mobile phone :( so I have a new number, if you wish to call let me know and I will provide the new number, just not to go so public in here ;)
What else......... ahhhh Andres & I join the gym hehehehe to fight against the big belly years can give you, saying that I have only been at the gym a couple of times because I've being ill with the flu, and then Andres went for his introductory session and he couldn't do anything because they find him high blood pressure :( I wonder if I got anything to do with it? it could be, he said I never stop, I shall take life slowly........... well.............
Apart of the all above, everything seems going ok at the moment, work is fine (I think) kids are fine and finally we are fine too, so this is all for me.........
Love for all!
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| Saturday, February 12th, 2005
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9:14 am
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So here I am again, I can not believe how long has taken me to find this little piece of time to write some words, and if I want to be honest I was really listening to the new songs of Tori Amos, yeap, she has a new album coming out soon and a new book, will be intresting to read it!
I am also escaping my reallity.... my house it is more or less destroyed by my "Wonderful" dog the repairs now are so expensive that I wonder if I will ever finish, she eated the stairs, the phone cables, my MP3, my shoes, my jewellery, yeap! I want to kill her too, it was different back in Venezuela, the dogs used to live in the sunny garden all year round, but here in this shitty weather the damn beast has to be inside, this is the time when I hardly got nothing left when I normally would say to my family, this is the end of the dog, but I just can't do that again to my kids, so I'll try to be patience and see what happens, I suppouse the first year is the worse, it will come down ..............
At work I haven being promoted, yes, already, after 4 months in the job they gave me a promotion, and yes I do not sound exited, because pretty much, this is how all my troubles started in my last job, I had so much responsability that I lived for my job and not for myself, and well, is not that it is the same, but I am also not happy with the money they pay me, so I am waiting to sing my permanent contract, hopefully by the first of March, to ask for more money, if they say no, then I'll look for another job! I'm not prepared to do it for free this time!
Andres & I are also looking for a second job, we realize that if we ever want to be debt free, this is the only way, what we have now it is only enough to live, but not to do extra payments, or savings, or traveling or anything like that. The problem here is that it is not easy to find work after work, so I have even contemplated to call my old job and ask them, so I could work from home in my spare time.... and yes I know, I have enjoy all this freedom I have since I left, but freedom is not paying off my debts, so I better do it now while I am still young, instead to be old and nothing in my bank account.
Well I better start my never ending cleaning.... I may have some free time to keep on watching 24, I just finished the first series and now I've got the second one, and I am really addicted to the damn shit, I'll go to bed so late every day, but I just cant wait to see what happens next!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok my love to all!
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| Monday, January 10th, 2005
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1:36 pm - Winter blues
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Yaiiiiiii it hasn't stop raining in the last 5 days or so, this has not being a proper winter but it is so windy that it feels so cold, I mean I can not explain, but it is like we have being in autumn since summer time and it doesn't CHANGE!!!!!!!!! today I finally realize that I've got winter blues and I feel so down :( I mean is just the temper in which I am everything else it is going very well but I need to see the sun!!!!!!! the clauds are so grey and low waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I want to cry I can't cope with it anymore......
Mind you I have something good to say, I'm going to Germany at the end of the month, the company is sending me on a business trip all expenses covered!!! how's that? flying to Munich and from there drive an hour to ....... I can not spell the name of the city starting with an "N" so should be an experience :) wayhooooooo I just smiled? well not good enough, if you could see trhough my window now perhaps you could understand what I am going trough now :(
Bye bye..............
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| Monday, January 3rd, 2005
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9:40 am - Happy new year to you all!
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So today is my last day holidays waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I feel like I can stay at home and be a mum and a house wife, I have enjoyed all this time so much that my heart feels sad just to think I have to go back to the office tomorrow... oh well that's life.
Mind you I haven't done that much, I painted my room it looks girly now with a sort of pale lilac colour, I washed all the cloths, I went trough my recipies book so many times that we eat like royals! now I have to start running to seriously get this weight out of me, it's stupid like I loose and put weight back all the time, I wish I stayed not super dupa slim all the time, but you know? like normal without any thing sticking back out of my cloths... oh dear god when I think how hard it is to lose it, I feel like craying!
Well this is a new year, I hope it is a good one, I don't ask for more I just want spiritual peace which I haven't had in a very long time, and now that I'm starting to enjoy that I want it to stay so badly that scares me!
I wish you all and wonderfull 2005, hope all your wishes come to reality and you all be very happy people.
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| Tuesday, December 28th, 2004
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5:22 pm
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By the way........... will you guys be so kind to tell me about new music in your lives? I'm fed up of listen the same over and over again, and when it is time to choose my mind goes blank I can not think about any artist, song, or album that will be good to have.........
Any ideas please????????????????
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5:01 pm
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So Finally... Christmas it is gone and a new year approaching fast! I will not start shouting about if it will be good or not, what it will be will be and there is no reason to declare something different.
I just can say that I will do my best to make it good, I do have some resolutions, real resolutions, not like I'm not smoking or drinking or none of those shits! hehehe will all know that's a waste of time, mind you I'm trying to smoke less every new day! ha!
I'm working tomorrow, but then off again on Thursday until the 4th, I have being so lazy this days, just eat and watch TV, it is time to do some painting and things like that before my holidays are gone for good.
So you people!!!!!!!!!!! how your christmas was! it's like everyone still recovering for a good time? I haven't heard that much except for a couple of emails! well my best wishes then, hope the hangover is not too bad ;)
Kisses for all!
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| Monday, December 20th, 2004
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12:56 pm
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I'll start saying how sad made me feel that most of you forgot my birthday last Thursday waaaaaaaaaaa!!! mind you I have forgotten some of yours, but still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! HAPPY 33 shit that's a lot of age, the age when people start having heart attacks and stuff like that, when you don't lose weight quickly and your knees hurt when you're dancing!!
Dancing....... yes last Friday I had Christmas party, I took some pictures but this last weekend I was lazy as cow so I haven't even load them in my computer, so keep on checking until they come!
I will be on holidays from next Thursday yehaaa cowboy!!!!! hehe not that I'm going anywhere but I don't have to set my alarm until the 4th of January which it is quite good ;)
I'm reading Inside out from Mason (Pink Floyd story) I've got for my birthday which I asked for, so far so good, it is a really nice book full of pictures that take you back in time even tough I wasn't even borned but, for me it is quite facinating as my dad when with Roger Water to the univeristy here in London and there are some pictures from that time, so next time I see him, I'll take the book and show it to him so I can have his side of story which is really good, so, once more!!
I have nothing else really to say, isn't that funny, when you're sad and unhappy you keep on writing how stupid life is, but, because I haven't cried in more than four months, and everything seems to be ok, I am actually out of words which it is weird on me! maybe this is way I hardly ever wrote in here anymore.
Either way, same message as always, love for all, hope you all are doing fine, I hope also you have a lovely christmas and hope that santa give you everything you wish for, as per myself I have a huge list, we'll see what he got for me this time! mind you his christmas present for last year came quite late, but the best ever!.
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| Thursday, December 2nd, 2004
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1:29 pm
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Wow I can not believe it is nearly a month since I last wrote?!?!?! well I am on my lunch break, it is too damn cold to walk around so I remembered that I had once a live journal which I used to love, what happened with those times god only knows, the truth is that my life is in a more complicated state at the moment, I believed before that once I changed jobs I would have all the free time in the world but that never happened....
Me as me everything fine.... I guess, sometimes I have to wake up myself at my desk as I said once these peoeple have no idea what the word stress means, obviously I have to keep it to myself I don't want to let them know that I'm suffering laps of sleepiness? hehehe
I really don't have much to say really, when I am not at work I am at home cooking, cleaning, and when time it's kind to me I try to stock myself in a book! Christmas it is coming also and then I will have few days to myself """"" yeah well I'm sure by the time my head will be full of plans I can not keep it steady I am still an ant!
Future plans = none and apart from that I miss everyone so much recently, I am in the I want to be alone state, meaning away from people who surround me recently = new peoeple at work, with so many bad experiences in my last job it has take time to rebuild my confidence in human beings = sad really!!! still out there are few people I trust but I can count them with one hand = sadly again....
Either way, my lunch time it is nearly gone, I think I'll smoke a cigarrette and the put my head down on things I have to do around here.
Love for all!
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| Friday, November 5th, 2004
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5:07 pm
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Usual Friday, lunch time, three girls wondering what to do.... Well we finally decided to go to the pub for a glass of wine, but no, the other two decided a glass wasn't enough so in a girly mood "Can we have a bottle of white wine please" yeah just imagine a Venezuelan a South African and an Slovakian drinking wine in England heheheehe, after we finished the bottle we hardly remember our way back to work, between laugh and more laugh it was hard to complete any task given..........
So how are you guys????
Well I will not bitch about not hearing or hardly do about any of you because I am recently known as the comet ;) only so often show my beautiful face :) no I'm not under the alcohol effect it's long gone since I had to stayed until late finishing a damn boring job at work...
Nothing really it is brand new that I should say... so it's a short entrance so you see it's me alive, around still and with a somehow happy Friday feeling.... oh by the way........ Congratulations to American people for voting again for such an interesting, intelligent and damn good president! ehehehehehe and yes I'VE BEING IRONIC ;) it's ok you can have a go at me for our wonderful Venezuelan president they are head to head....
Ok I'll stop because next time I'll login in; there will be tomatoes and eggs all over my screen........
BYE BYE LOVE FOR ALL.......
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| Saturday, October 16th, 2004
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8:36 am
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Hello you guys........ I feel like a comet now days, very rarely to see ;) I'm doing ok, like a normal human I suppose, on stories to tell I've got few things to say... If I go back on time about three weeks ago I went to the theatre to take the kids to watch Chitty Chitty Bang Bang in London, it was pretty good and they enjoyed the time there, last weekend we went to France and last week we went to see Rod Stewart in concert, I will be attaching pictures at the end of the entrance.
About France I've got not much to say... we just crossed to Cale, mingle with the French, had French chips, bought some food, lovely cheese and wine also that wonderful French bread and so we came back, the concert was also good the first 1 1/2 hours, after the break the man started singing songs from 1940's... and everybody was like what the fuck it is wrong with him, when he finally got back to rock and roll he sang a couple of good songs with the company of the guitarist of the Rolling Stones (Ronny) and suddenly he said good night and disappear, all the people start it shouting for more, it felt like the theatre will collapse... this happened for long ten minutes even the band was a the stage waiting for more, and then a voice said.... LADYS AND GENTELMAN THE SHOW IT IS OVER WE HOPE YOU ENJOYED........ oh dear god, everybody was so disappointed the cheapest entrance had a price of £75 and he didn't even came out of a couple of extra songs for this amount of people??? Well that you can do when you have the amount of money he has in the bank, one thing for sure is that I will never spend my money again on a Rod Stewart concert.... so here I was back home like Cinderella before 12.00am on my first night out since who know when.... hehehe yeah this things only happen to me.... of course that's the beauty of my life.......
I didn't want it to make any plans this weekend because for once Christmas it's coming and my kids have a huge wishes list so I want to save some money.... two I haven't being at my house for a long weekend in ages so I just want to chill out here, also it's pretty cold outside so my plans for later are to sit in my sofa with a glass of wine and read a new book Andres bought me about the Queen Elizabeth's life... shall be interesting, she really trill me out, a Queen who had to rule on time of Men.... where did I heard that before mmmmmmm ?!?!?!?!?!
The other day I was downloading the new version of Kazaa, with all this stuff of being "Legal" so for once I don't like it because it's very little what you could find and if you find the file do not work, also they now have this gold files which you access with a "licence" but then you can not recorded on a CD?!?! Damn!!! Either way the story of Kazaa came along because while looking for some files I found gold files of a apparently a new band called Moses and funny enough I loved them... they sound really really good, so I download they only 4 songs I could find and tried to copy them into a CD and it was impossible, so I like them so much I said well fucked I'll buy the CD, but hellooooooooo I can not find a damn copy here in England waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I tried Amazon in USA but hellooooooooooooooo they must be brand new people because I couldn't find them there either so... if you Americans there who read my diary please could you be so kind to research this for me ;) I just need a link to buy the CD that's all ;) ;) ;) ;) please???? hehehe
And this is it for today .......... oh yes the pictures........ Lets see..........
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Love for all.....
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| Saturday, September 25th, 2004
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10:25 am
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Morning all... I know today it's Saturday but I'm not sure of the date :( noooooooo I haven't drink, It's just that I no longer work with newspapers and so I can not keep on with the calendar... but anyways.. I haven't got much to say apart the fact that I'm still in my learning journey at my new job, I'm not sure either how I am doing in there, it is so completely different from my old job... some days I love it and some other days I hate it....... but I don't want to talk about that now...
No that I have a topic in mind either I guess I'm just writing about anything that pop's up in my head. So we had the first day of autumn already, it's chilly already too, I turned on my central heating last night for the first time since March... and soon enough we'll have ice I'm sure this winter it will be heavy, I am planning a short break soon, not sure yet were to go, here are my preferences, if you have being there please give comments to help me choose: Check Republic (Prague) Norway, Moscow, Germany (Black Forest) Venice or Switzerland.... orrrrrrrrr I may use that money to buy ski's and go to Scotland where we could drive and take the dog at the end of December........... In any case Prague it is jumping inside my head, saying pick me! Pick me! Pick me! I wonder whyyyyyyyyyyyy.
The rest it's ok in my life.... I'm experiencing later an internal peace I haven't had in a very long time, once again I thank my hours of sleep, also to be out of that damn job, spending more time with my people at home and the dog, I want to make plans, I feel like living again, it's such a weird feeling, not feeling tired, by all means it's the opposite, see, I don't even know how to explained, but something has change....... oh well I will not keep on going in circles about it!
Gabriel bring the other day a form to choose high schools, yes, my little baby it's growing up :( apparently we had to choose three different schools, but I only choose one, which is the one I want him to go, so, or they accept him or they accept him, there is not other choice for us, it's the best high school around, and if they don't then I will have to find a way to pay for private education, which it is not going to make my bank happy at all......... but well lets not worry about it yet, I have an appointment on the 7th of October to meet with teachers at the place, fingers crossed, also he started playing tennis, (with this stupid weather) and now both want to do Karate, sometimes I feel that they think I have a money tree behind my summer house ;)
Well I guess a run out of nonsense to talk about so this is goodbye for now, as usual, my love for all.
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| Saturday, September 11th, 2004
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8:33 am
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And finally some time to write.......... Of course I'll start telling you about the new job.... what can I say? it is ok, it's like going to a school when you're a teenager, you don't know anybody and each individual has it's own ideas about the world, you not only need to find out who's ok and who's not but you also have a long year ahead to learn all the subjects in order to get an "A" well that's how I feel!!!
I guess it will be ok, I hope in any case, there is so much I have to learn that I need to erase some files on my C drive to get space for the whole lot of new files, God there is so much I need to learn!!!!
The ambience it is quiet like a library, I can hear the guy next to me breathing, it's quite scary sometimes, saying that I feel like everybody it is minding they own business and they don't care who's at the next desk, which suits me fine in occasions for the long saying I am a bit of an individualist even though I have to look after this people, talking of which I wonder how they feel about me coming brand new to the job, not knowing what the hell to do while they have being for more than 2 years and in one case 7 years and still eventually I will tell them what to do... oh well time will tell...
Me as a person, the change has being huge, now I make breakfast in the mornings, clean before I leave, take a shower, put the make up, walk the dog, get the lunch boxes for the kids ready, drink coffee on a chair and so own, before I used to just rush, drink the coffee on my car while driving to work, no even time to see my kids who were asleep and no even dream to have time to stroke the dog.... Nights, well I have being watching TV until late ;) there is so much going on in the world I even didn't knew? hehehe it's like I just born and I am introducing myself to society... hey everyone it's me!!!! Anouk!!!! .............. Yeah well, something like that.
Overall, yeah I think it is good, surely I don't cry anymore before go to work, I think that's important, it is a good sign things are changing for good, I also feel more clear about other things, and all of these just adding a few hours of sleep? So there you go people, I DO RECOMMEND TO YOU TODAY TO HAVE A GOOD SLEEP!!!!
In the meantime, love, hugs, and I hope you're all ok!
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| Monday, August 30th, 2004
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12:01 pm
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I just came back from hospital, I once again cut my thumb, this time I did not escape stitches, but I escape a needle, only butterfly stitches, I cut my finger in the more stupid way, you remember my Ikea trip?? Well I but one of this half moon knifes, pretending to be a Chinese or Japanese chef, it was with the rest of the kitchen tools facing up, god knows why I did not see danger on that.... also you know that I painted and move things around the kitchen, so... I couldn't reach the coffee pot, instead of looking for a chair or something I took one of my largest tools to move it towards me, I then went to put it back and the bloody knife went in to my skin like a doctors knife, it was only a second moment, but enough to see through, I could see even my vain, it was freaky, freaky, freaky, so off I went to hospital to stitch my poor thumb, which have being subject to numerous cuts in the last few weeks.
I am really annoyed with myself! Soon when the stitches are out my finger will look like a Frankenstein finger, not to mention I can not get it wet for 7 bloody days, It's my right hand for Christ Sake!!! Oh well I guess I have to live with it, could have being worse now that I think about the whole situation together :(
Changing subject...... well not much to say, the sun it's shining and I've got plans to see the full moon tonight with my telescope, obviously I need to travel a bit in the car to find a good spot where I can catch her in all her beauty. One more day of doing nothing and I will be enjoying my new job.... I'm not feeling that scared anymore, I've being thinking of good friends examples where their life has change for good after a job change, and that had give me some kind of peace.
Ok, now you have the story of the right thumb, it's time for me to go ;)
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| Saturday, August 28th, 2004
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12:22 pm
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Last night went to London to one of my favourites shops Ikea, it's like being at Disneyland, I never went this late, nearly 9.00pm the traffic was wonderful, I never thought about it before, driving to London at that time, perfect, my surprise was that the store wasn't empty as the motorway, there were thousands, well no... Hundred’s of people shopping at late night like me... that place amaze me, no matter what time you go it's always full...
I'm on a DIY mode, my old piano it's gone, :( it was a hard decision but I had to do it, it was a waste of space, and to expensive to repair, so god knows maybe one day we will have a piano that works, so.... I went shopping for shelf’s for the empty space, of course as I said it's like being at Disney, so yes I found my shelf’s and many many more.... my bank manager will not be happy with me ;)
Now the house it's a chaos, I'm not only putting new shelf’s I am also painting the kitchen, so all the kitchen stuff it's at my living room, and my living in my garden, and my garden on top of my living room, if that make any sense, in the middle of my chaos of course I just felt hungry, but who could actually cook in this conditions if I may ask, no one of course, not me at least, so I'm waiting patiently for a pizza before getting my hands in paint, so while I wait for Pizza man, I'm telling you my whereabouts ;).
Doesn't happen to you after you start doing all this DIY stuff you wish you never started? It feels like things will never came out the same way they where? Oh well it's a bit late for me now anyway....
Love for all
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| Monday, August 23rd, 2004
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11:10 am
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OK, so is almost a week since I haven't work, how weird... it feels weird to wake up at 8.00am or later ;) and have nothing to do but breakfast, for the kids and dog, ahhh the dog...she's finally here, quite smart, has learned quite a lot in little time, me, well I have take it easy since, I'll go on my own peace, I feel a bit apprehensive about the new job which still another week and a half to start, but I guess it is normal I only hope everything goes ok, and I ask why not?
I of course having all this time even after I start working decided to do few things I want it for so long but couldn't because a lack of free time, the first thing I have done it's to get myself in a English grammar course, it is no secret for anyone I have never study this language, I had learn thanks to my ears and eyes, but it is time do so, specially with this new job, it's big responsibility, so I'm off at nights to polish my English, once that work better, I finally want to do my law course, I mean, I know I'm not Jesus, I didn't came to world to save it, but to help few people will make me feel good, god knows I may end in Africa somewhere as an ambassador!!! hehehe... that's far too much day dreaming now.
Well, overall I feel good, once again a bit nervous, but good hope you all are ok, as usual I send my love...
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| Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
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11:12 am - I am a free woman
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I decided not to work my resignation period, for many reasons, one it's not a secret that this job really lowed my morale, they were incapable to look at me as a hard working human, regardless the colour of my skin, believes and from where I came, they only could see a foreigner who will not have the right to grow and be respected, I am hopping that not every place I'll go will be this way, would be horrible, I'm suffering a big depression, I never felt this way before in my entire life, and big part of this I owned to the present job I have, they did worked hard to make me feel low, useless and unwelcome, they pointed at me like any other foreigner that come to their land to take advantage of new way of life, but they were so blind and selfish for not noticing that the only thing I have done from the day I arrived here is worked hard and honestly for myself and family, I had never claimed a penny from the government, any kind of help, home, medicine, food, money or any other benefit this country have to offer to their citizens, I am a British citizen, not because I choose to be one, but because my father decided to go out of this land and have a life with a South American woman, have not the Europeans done this since always, the Spanish, the Portuguese’s, the British, they all are so rich thanks to America, and when finally the South Americans decided to get a bit of what it's being taken from them, they react nastily, in a racist way and overall very jealous of what they claim is theirs.
Well I proudly said today, that all I have achieved in this country it has being by my own merit, with my own work, and has never my intention to step in the head of anyone to gain anything, I of course can not say that everyone it is the same, because I have also meet good friendly people in here, but sadly I have to say is the minority.
I hope one day people stop being so selfish and realize how much they can harm other humans by their behaviour.
As for me, here I go in a new chapter of my life, surely I have learned a lot in the last five years, and I will be more aware this time and not let people not even once to take advantage, as soon people respect me as a human they will be receiving the same treatment from me.
current mood: determined
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I must tell you that I am so nervous, my stomach it is feeling funny, I'm scared of what it is coming, I don't want to go back to my old job, it's an awful feeling, I'm wondering what are they going to say to me, since I resigned I haven't being there, and I don't know what to do, I have a bunch of feelings running through, is like confront all I hate and still be cool and smile.... I suppose once I'm there should be ok, but.......... shit I don't know!!!!!!!!!!!
current mood:  nervous
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