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I never know what to do or say anymore. Do I do anything right anymore?

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I must be the world's biggest loser.
I am 29, I've been through 5 years of college, I have put up with people's bullshit all my life, and now I have to work fast food again. I have people telling me to look up and it's going to be better.

I bet they wouldn't fucking trade their job in for fast food.

Now would they?

I fucking hate the world today.

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Well...
I've decided to move to Norman for a while. I'm just bumming beacause my family and fiancee are so far away and neither really knows how much I miss them. The only contact I have with SAmi is over the internet and that gets really hard. Not that I'm ungrateful to be having s roof over my head. It's just...

Isn't there more to life than this?

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I gotta make a decision today.
Go back to Missouri which made miserable in the first place or try and stay in Norman, Oklahoma?

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Ugggggggggghhh
The toilet n the motel room I've been staying at was running all night long (no jokes necessary... you know what I mean) and I couldn't sleep or do anything about it 'til this morning. It drove me nuts. Nuts I say!

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I'm bummed out
What's up y'all?
Oh I guess few comment here.

Well I just wish I could learn to D.J., but with my equipment so far away... I can't bust my shit. It's kinda depressing, but I can't let it get me down.
Fuck! Why does it have to be so hard?

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I'm bummed out
What's up y'all?
Oh I guess few comment here.

Well I just wish I could learn to D.J., but with my equipment so far away... I can't bust my shit. It's kinda depressing, but I can't let it get me down.
Fuck! Why does it have to be so hard?

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I have moved on...
I am now living in Norman, Oklahoma. I can't wait to get a job... being without work to do is boring as Hell.

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What to do? What to do?
There comes a time in every man's life when he has to make a life altering decision. I might have to make two in as many months. It's begining to look like I won't be able to stay in San Francisco affordably unless I jump off the Golden Gate bridge. For those not in the know... that was a joke.

I have far too much to live for.

Like a certain lady living in Canadia.

Anyway, I have to decide if I risk it here or take less of a risk and move to Oklahoma, near my best friend in Dallas.

I just don't know.

Current Mood: confused

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Grey grey grey...
It has been overcast for the last few days. It's really murky looking. It is kinda like England and that's cool, but the sun would be nice.

Current Mood: meh

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Superfantastico...
I got to go to the Hospitality House and paint today for free.

They are having an art gallery showing for the homeless at the City Hall.

Yeah!!!

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Stupid G.A.!!!
Simple title for a simpleton... just kidding.

Uggggggggggghhhhhhhhh!!! I just went to the orientation for G.A.

Burueacracy sucks so bad. That was the single worst hour of my life as of recent.

I'm ok Im okay, just frustrated by their b.s.

Current Mood: annoyed

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Fixed income...
I got my food stamps in. I should be eating a little better. At least I don't have to stand in lines any more.

Current Mood: accomplished

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Must... eat...food... must...
Just jokin' y'all.

I got my food stamps and am going to see if they work with my new friend Anthony.

Current Mood: hungry

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Begin the Begin
I am now halfway home on the recieving of General Assistance... won't give me a place to stay, but will help with stuff. I go to get food stamps at 1:00 p.m.

Thanks for commenting Kelly. I am honoured by what you said. :)

I will be doing mostly clean up and helping with the phone list and bathroom list, but every little bit helps. Right?

Current Mood: hopeful

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Tom's diner...
I love that song, so I titled this post that.

You gotta problem with it?

Take it up with Mad Dog (SAmi).

I found out there is a free section at the Giants' stadium so I am going to a game now.

Current Mood: artistic

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Looking up? Perhaps?
I went to SSI yesterday and they said I might be able to get on, but it's a long process so we'll see. I have my medicine and now I'm feeling better. I am now on a new medicine called Abilify.

Today I wnet to an orientation meeting for Tenderloin Aids Resource Center (Tarc) so I am now a volunteer. I might as well feel useful when I am homeless.

I was talking to a French couple who just invited me to have a coffee, so my day seems to be going well.

"Everything in it's right place" as the RADIOHEAD song goes. :)

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It is dark, but also not...
Well it's been a rocky three weeks, but I'm making it. Homelessness is not all it's cra**ed up to be.

I have seen all the things that make me sad. Muggings, beatdowns, people injecting her**n etc.

I have a song playing over and over in my head which is D.J. Shadow's "Fixed Income" if you hven't heard it I recomend it. It has the desperation and hope in the instrumental. It is what I would call a "walking song" it feels like the streets. It also has the sample which wasthe title of this Journal.

For those who do not know, Sami Kelsh is my only love. You might know her as special_patrol. I know her as the most lovely person I have ever had the priviledge (I probably spelled that wrong. Didn't I?) of knowing. I have made some mistakes, but have never fallen short of that fact in my mind. I only want the best for her and she deseves it.

My name is Jesse Jones...

I trust I can rely on your vote.*



*I'm also a huge RADIOHEAD fan. ;)

I can't believe they edited " ed up to be". *rollseyes.*

Current Mood: awake

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