I suddenly have the urge to open my blogger account and write about what's going on with my life lately. It's been a long time since I posted here and I even thought that I would never go back but here I am. Life has been fine- busy but fine. I long for the days when I worry about nothing. I miss my old carefree and laid-back life. Though there are still remnants of my past self, I can't help but mourn for the life I used to have, now that I scarcely have the time to do the things I like.

If you're reading this now, I bet you would've said that I could've managed my time better, but it's not that easy for me. This may sound like an excuse, but I'm never really good at managing my time even before- I always struggle. Mind you, this is not a cry for help but just me being honest with what I feel. Actually, I don't know what I'm saying (lol) because I intended this to be a review of some sort about the books, movies, and anime series that I watched ever since my vacation kicked off. I don't really know what I'm doing but I can't help it, words just flowed through me as I'm typing my heart out. 

It must have been because I actually miss writing—writing about myself, that is. This blog used to be my creative outlet from anime to fashion until it became a chore. The last time I wrote a proper a blog post about fashion was 5 years ago and the rest of the succeeding years up until the year 2022 were all about adverts- then I totally left my blog.

While I'm away, I was busy- really busy, but it's the kind of busy where I can still slack off and procrastinate, so I'm totally fine with it. But because I'm so busy and the worst when it comes to managing my time effectively, things were sacrificed. Watching anime became a chore and I no longer have the appetite to read anymore. The little time I had, I spent it doom-scrolling, be it on TikTok or Facebook. Though I watch anime from time to time, I can barely even finish a single episode without getting bored. So what did I do during those times? Well, I let myself rot, only functioning when I have to go about my day like a zombie. 

Even though I don't read as much anymore, I never stopped buying books; I still take a quick peek at my bookstagram from time to time. Feeling dull and uninspired, little by little, I started reading again but it was not easy. Words just slip through my mind and I have to grapple and piece them together- it's like learning to walk after being whellchaired for years. To tell you honestly, the book that got me out of the reading slump was a children's book which I got at an online store on a whim. Fantastic Mr. Fox by Roald Dahl was an incredible pick-me-upper, then I proceeded to read another 14 books until I'm out of commission again. 

Just this year though, I managed to finish Circe and I'm so proud of myself. It took me almost a month to finish Circe but I'm glad I pushed through. Currently, I'm reading The Quake by Haruki Murakami and it's so good. It's actually the reason why HM is one of my favorite writers alive. Aside from that, I finished watching quite a lot of anime eversince my sister sold me her ipad, it's now very easy and accesible. Whenever I have a lull time at work, I just whip it and watch. I will go deep dive on my next post about it. 

You know, I could've totally abandoned this blog since it's no longer a thing anymore. I could've just written this on my Instagram but it's too long of a caption; I could've make an essay video and post it on Tiktok, but I'm not comfortable doing it; or I could've just post this on  Medium but I offer no answer- save it to the people who actually has something to say. So here I am, in my old dusty blog- rediscovering the things that give me purpose of this little life of mine.

It feels good to do these things again without feeling taxed. How I wish I could do this every day without that sinking dread in the back of my mind. It must be great. I guess this is what reading can do to you- and hey, that's a 700+ words! Way to go!

Bye for now.

Recently, I started doing Zumba again after months of procrastinating and eating unhealthily. I have been under a lot of stress about the things I can't control. Funny how I know usually know what to do most times to get me out of my misery but for some reason, I just can't bring myself to do anything at all. Until I felt so disgusted with myself because it seems to me that there was no progress at all and I'm just wasting away. It doesn't help that I am always conscious of my body and most of the clothes I own don't fit me anymore, especially in my stomach area. 

Hello lovely people! It just occurs to me that I rarely share about bags. Since we are slowly transitioning to back to how it was 2 years ago, a lot of people are out and about looking their best, be it in the café catching up with friends or doing grocery shopping. Of course, you can't complete your whole look without a bag. It's one of the essential part whole outfit because that's where you can keep your valuables all the while looking fashionable. I don't know about you but I am someone who can't leave the house without a bag and it must go with my whole outfit and vibe. Are you that kind of person too?

It is not always that I get to share something about men's wear especially suits since my blog is mainly about women's fashion. Although I talked about Allaboutsuit in my previous blog post before, that does not mean we'll stop there, right? Especially if they have so much more to offer.

Being at home most of the time can be beneficial to us all if we know how to make the most of it. There might be some people who would roll their eyes because here I go again being weird about it. As an introvert who rarely enjoys being surrounded by people most of the time; finding myself getting lost in my own company while doing the things I love is something I relish and prioritized above all else. Actually, I am quite good at amusing myself with things that other people might deem as boring.