It's All More Than A Bit Much

 I decided to devote Sunday Morning to pricing Inventory rather than going to the Gym before Work that Evening.  I have finite energy and motivation for doing too much before I know I also have to go to Work, so, am delaying the Gym until Monday Morning when I have nothing extra on the Calendar.   So many Co-Workers aren't showing up lately that you never know who you'll actually be working with either.  I like knowing who I've got to Work alongside, some have a good Work ethic, many do not and are Slackers.   Some are nice enuf to be Friends with, just not Work with.  I can have a great Personal Relationship with someone I know I would not want a Professional Relationship with ever.  *LOL*

So, I did Price some Autumnal and Halloween Merch to bring in and restock my Seasonal Display I have going on for Fall.   And it took me all Morning so I wouldn't have had Time to fit a trip to the Gym in too.  I'm not even sure what I want to eat for a Meal before going in, I don't feel much like Cooking either.  In fact, I don't feel much like going in to Work, but I will.  {Explanation further down...}  Just a general feeling of malaise has been over me lately, it hasn't helped that people I Care about have been Dying and the Grief of that can be quite a broad range of Emotions, ups and downs.  So, I've felt melancholy and disinterest in doing things while I Feel so Emotionally Raw.  The Youngest Granddaughter in Mexico Shared some of her Feelings on FB about her Abuelita's Death, and Photos of the Funeral, it breaks my Heart.

They're all Alone now and fending for themselves and none of them is an Adult yet.    So I've got that Anxiety heavy on my Heart and Mind for their Safety and Welfare too.   I don't Trust any System in place to protect or care for them, I'd rather they be here with us if that was at all possible, which, it hasn't been and is a protracted international process with loads of Red Tape to wade thru and get past.  I'm just not up to it nor do I have the financial resources to fund a big fight for Custody, it would likely take longer than it will for them to reach the ages of emancipation.   We spent a fortune last time we tried to get them and it was for nothing, we couldn't prevail and the extortion is very high due to corruption on both sides of the Border.

I made myself an Asian Sweet Bean Dessert Drink, usually I Buy it at my Fav Vietnamese Restaurants.  But when I was at the Asian Grocer I bought the ingredients to make my own, it turned out Okay.  The ingredients aren't inexpensive tho', so really it's just as much as Buying it, but I didn't want to go anywhere to pick it up.   At least now I know how to make a Homemade version of it.    Usually it has ingredients like Azuki Beans, Red Kidney Beans and Red Bean Paste, Mung Beans, Coconut Milk, Tropical Fruits, Pandan Jelly, Agar Agar Powder and Crushed Ice.   It's very refreshing, filling, and like a Dessert Drink perfect for Hot Days, it's sometimes referred to as Three Color Vietnamese Drink. Other Asian Cultures have versions of it too.

I watched a good NetFlix Movie HOW IT ENDS {2018} starring Theo James and Forest Whitaker.   James is that new Young Greek Heartthrob I think is the Sexiest New Leading Man IMO.  *Smiles*  It was an Apocalyptic Movie, quite suspenseful and thought provoking.   I didn't go to Work after all, every time I ate I felt Sick and I had to eat before going in since I'm a Diabetic and can't skip Meals.  So, I ate and then felt really ill, no way I could make it thru a Shift like that.  I'm beginning to think my Nerves and Stress are taking a physical toll.   Yes, the Rhubarb Binge didn't Help, but, it's clearly more than just that.   When I called in, my Friend Anthony told me things were chaotic again so it's just as well I wasn't coming in.  I could tell he didn't even wanna be there... and if it was Chaos and Drama, I really didn't wanna be there not feeling 100% as well.

 

The Daughter has been getting Good News and Bad News out of Mexico since her MIL's Passing.   On the Positive side, some Family of her Ex are fixing up Maria's Home for the Kids and bringing CARE Boxes of necessities and Promise to do that regularly.  One of those Relatives called us Today to bring us up to speed, but also had Bad News.  On the Negative side, The Daughter had sent our Money to the Relative that has the Youngest Child in her Care and found out that she failed to distribute 1/3 each of it to the other Two like she was supposed to.   She was to Keep 1/3 of it for having the Youngest with her, but make sure the Older Two got the other 2/3 of it, they didn't.   So, now The Daughter and I don't Trust her to send Money to and all the Kids are too Young to send Money to them directly, it's a dilemma for us.  You have to be able to have no broken Trust with the Adults in the Family.

So, The Daughter was crying off and on all Day after that Call.  Another reason I stayed Home from Work, since, she'd be the one looking after her Dad in my absence and it might have been too much for her right now.   I suggested she do her Hair and Makeup to feel more Uplifted, which she did.  Then a Dear Friend of hers came by also, Steven, to Cheer her up, he's someone who can always make her Laugh and he's a good Guy and is someone she can Talk to about stuff troubling her.  He can be objective about it all and is a good Listener.   I can't be very objective since it's too Personal for me too, so I do feel some kind of way about how some of my Ex-SIL's Family are being right now.   We don't mind sending Money for the Kids so long as they will benefit from it and receive it.   But if they aren't, we'll cease and desist, so we made that abundantly clear.

I don't know a lot of his Family so I have no idea how much Trust can be instilled in any of them actually?   I have to leave that discernment up to The Daughter.   I just don't want her being upset and taken advantage of since she is a vulnerable Adult and she doesn't have Custody or any Parental Rights being afforded her about those Children.   So, Legally the Ball is in their Court to make adequate provision for those Kids unless and until they give up Custody to me.  Which they won't do, and have refused to do, so... they have to watch how they behave and act.  Otherwise I've told them to not expect any Help from this side of the Border and they can Deal with it all, since, Legally they have the responsibility and obligation to.  

Naturally I want the best for those Grandkids too, and I totally Trusted Saint Maria for their Care and Well Being.   But, if the Law isn't on our side, and the Surviving Family isn't cooperative or trustworthy, then my participation is strictly voluntary.   I'm our Daughter's Full Time Caregiver now... and the Kiddos Older Sister Princess T's Legally Blessed Parent.   So, I look out for their best Interests first and foremost.  Anything detrimental to their Well Being I'll cut loose and drop like a Rock, so I made that abundantly clear to the Aunt that Called, so she can pass it along.   The Daughter translated what I said in Spanish fluently too, since, that Aunt's English is limited.  So, now they know where the Bull sits.   We won't be Played.   And I did find it Odd that Saint Maria always wanted those Kids in MY Care should something happen to her and NOT in the Care of her Son or other Relatives, that spoke volumes about HER Trust and who she Trusted most with her Beloved Grandkids.

 I appreciated this Aunt's Candor, I doubt the others know she's been so forthcoming about the Family Drama ensuing after the Old Lady's Death.  I rather expected it actually since, when everyone thought Salvador was possibly Dead, similar shit happened.  And then he turned up Alive and threw a Monkey Wrench in the Sale of Maria's Home, which that Plan had to be quickly aborted.   Since, he's her Only Child and tho' she has many Grandchildren, she only Raised The Daughter's Three Youngest ones and apparently made some Legal maneuvers to protect them as Co-Heirs, which was Wise of her.  Her Wishes were for me to gain Custody if something happened to her, but, I don't know that Legally that ever got arranged... seems not.

If indeed the Home is being fixed up, I am suspicious if it's being done for the benefit of the Children or to force a protested Sale, since, Salvador is incarcerated and now his Mom is Dead?   It's really the only place the Older Two have to Live, the Youngest has been living with the Relatives she's with for some time now.    So, we don't mind helping them with her expenses, but they can't keep it all, some has to go towards the Two they won't take in and we have to Trust them to Honor that Agreement if we send the Money directly to them.   Once the Oldest is 18 in December, we should be able to send her and the Middle one's Money directly to her for them and ensure they receive it.  I am just concerned Family are trying to Sell the Home out from under them?

We keep in close contact with all Three Children and The Daughter speaks with numerous Relatives and close Friends who are nearby to check on the Kids.   That's all she can really do from this end.   So far the Kids seem to be holding up better than expected.  But, it's all still so recent it's hard to tell if they'll display more trauma once it all really sets in that she's gone and they're Alone and quite vulnerable?   Or, if they can't or can Trust the Adults they'll depend upon?    Anyway, we just Hope the Adults who are currently appearing Helpful have good intentions, only Time will tell. 

I have an Update on that Lume Deodorant.  Worked like a charm for a couple Months and then quit working to conceal odor!   And it isn't an anti-perspirant so you still sweat... and so when it quit working to prevent odor, it's completely expensively useless.   I Googled to see Reviews and see if I was the only one who had this happen, I wasn't, seems just about everyone had it happen.   So, I have to assume however it did work is temporary and then you would have to switch back to your other Deodorants and Anti-Perspirants.   I don't know whether switching back at some future date it would work again, but, I'm disappointed in the product's short term effectiveness.   For some leaving Reviews it never worked, so, I was fortunate it worked so well for at least a couple Months before becoming ineffective.

 

Timmy had asked Princess T to go with him on a Day Trip up North so she has.  I told her she could delay putting in her application for a Day, if I hadn't given her permission to she would have told him she couldn't go.   She's still good about asking my permission for everything, tho', technically she's an Adult now and really doesn't have to, she appreciates my Wisdom and Opinions about stuff and that's Priceless to me.   She's a really good Kid and she tries to make good decisions on a consistent basis and I know how rare that is when someone is so Young.  Usually you're Young, foolish and sometimes reckless, with the illusion you already know everything.  *Smiles*  She's never been THAT Kid and since I've Raised THAT kind of Kid before, more than once, she's been a LOT easier to Raise.  *Smiles*

One of my Granddaughter's back East, the Youngest of the Trio, whose still Single, was showing off some Halloween Baskets Online.  I think she has been Creating them for People, she's particularly Creative, and I particularly liked this one.   The Kitchen she Photographed it in is so much like ours.   She actually has a steady Boyfriend now, which was a Surprise, since, for a long time she's identified as Gay, but, perhaps is Bi, so, can't say I expected the Boyfriend.  It seems they have a lot in common and when I told The Young Prince, he suggested his Cousin is probably like him, Gender Fluid?   Since, he felt he could end up with a Wife or a Husband actually, he didn't really Care which, Gender to him doesn't matter.  There were Gals he knew who he felt he could Marry and truly had a great Relationship with... and he said they were like him too and didn't mind how "they" are... even his Female Alters.

 

I know there were so many of his Female Friends that confided in me that they'd of liked to have been The Young Prince's romantic Girlfriend and not just a Friend, and possibly a Wife.  The Young Prince was always more popular with the Women than any Straight Guy they knew was, we always found that amusing, but, not Surprising, he treats Women exceedingly Well and totally Understands them.   He has so many Female attributes that he's not as Clueless as a Straight Guy.   Princess T actually is more fond of her Gay Male Friends and spending time with them than the Straight ones.   She prefers how they treat her and how much more fun they have when together, with no Strings attached.   So, if she ended up with a Gay Male Partner I wouldn't be at all Surprised frankly... Gay Men seem to be enamored with her too, even tho' she's Straight.  

 

 I don't know if that's becoz she has an Older Gay Brother?    They always had a good time together and he was very protective of her, especially around Straight Guys.   Her Brother often jokes that her Gay Guy Posse are substitute surrogate Brothers she replaces him with.  *LOL*   Timmy, Matthew and now Jaden are the same, they protect her Virtue around Men they know are Straight and probably after the usual thing.   She feels Safer around them and that there isn't the pressures about a relationship going further than it is and she's comfortable with.   She can look as attractive or Sexy as she just wants to around them, they'll tell her how Hot she looks, but, not come on to her at all.   I do notice around Straight Guys she attempts to look as plain and unattractive as possible.  *Ha ha ha*   In a way I understand, it's tricky and risky for Young Women and Girls looking too attractive. 

I had a Sexual Assault when I was 17 and back in those Days you didn't always report it since they vilified the Victim.  What were YOU wearing and shit like that, Victim Shaming as if you asked to be violated and brutalized by some Sex Offender Perv.   BTW Rape is never really about Sex, it's about Power and Domination, or a total disrespect or even Hatred for the Gender of the Victim.   The Law and Legal System needs to start getting that Right becoz it's far too prevalent and Justice is often absent for the Victims of Sexual Assault.   And often that kind of violent Crime escalates and can lead to Murder.  And another BTW for ya, most Sex Crimes Files I ever worked in all my Years at the DA's Office, the vast majority of Victims were Underaged and more Children than Grown Adults.   Or, the Victims looked Underaged.   Prior to working a Career in Felony Crimes, I assumed most Sex Crimes were committed against Adult Women, I was Wrong, the statistics proved otherwise.

  

Anyway, I went to that tangent coz it's really annoying the Fuck out of me that so many Americans are so willing to put a Convicted Sex Offender back in the White House!!!   Especially those who claim to be Christian Evangelicals, which makes me wonder how warped and twisted their Sexuality might be behind Closed Doors actually, to Justify that Support for a Convicted Sex Offender?   Among his other serious Crimes, that one is the most disturbing becoz with Sex Offenders, their Files are kept indefinitely becoz it's not a matter of IF they will re-offend, but WHEN?  Yes, even Homicide Files were only kept for a Decade before Purged unless the Perp was a Serial Killer, and lets be Clear, most, if not all, Serial Killers are also Sex Offenders.   And 45 will re-offend and has no remorse for how often he already offended, bragging in fact about being a Sexual Predator, he's dangerous in a multitude of ways.

Anyway, the Debate will be tomorrow and tho' I do have Hope Kamala will bury him during it, and he has more of a total unraveling, blathering, unhinged and cognitive meltdown than usual,  I doubt it matters to those who already made up their Minds to Vote for such a piece of work as he is.   Listen, they already know and see what and who he is.   They seem perfectly Okay with it or make moronic statements like they can "Excuse" his Crimes and Behavior, becoz they're convinced he'd do a good Job... and I'm like, were you fucking Asleep during his First Cluster Fuck Chaotic Shitshow of a Term and are you kidding me that a habitual Criminal and Convicted Felon of numerous extremely Serious Crimes, including Treason and Espionage, is better for our Country?!!??   Well, yeah, since being Woke is something most of them don't wanna be and the opposite of Woke is Asleep.  *Eye Roll and Snicker*   

But, a Cult is what it just is and Cult Leaders are usually that unhinged and dangerous, yet adored and even worshipped like a god.  So, most of them end up with a god complex since they're treated as a demigod.  And perhaps Religiously Extreme individuals are more susceptible to following someone they think is some kind of Messiah in their own Minds, even if it's a false god using them and weaponizing them for quite carnal and secular agendas.  Most who are Sold Out on whatever they Believe are willing to Die for it, even if they're being led astray and manipulated, by someone more devilish and evil than godly.   That's why Terrorist Extremists tend to make it some kind of Religious War, easier to get willing Martyrs since they think they're doing their god's work and are Chosen Ones.   So, no matter how unhinged or sinister it is, how many innocent Victims it racks up, they think it's for some kind of Divine Glory they've concocted or been convinced of and groomed for.  

You know I find it rather ironic that a lot of Religiously Zealot folks are more scared of Halloween and Decorations than they are of someone like 45 and his Sycophants.   They can't seem to recognize real Devils when they see one.   And when he'd even sacrifice any or all of them, they'd voluntarily be sacrificed too... it really seems to be quite the effective Mind Fuck he's got going on with his devoted Base actually.   And I do think that November, Win or Lose, it's not going to be Pretty.  I would Hope that things might Calm Down and have some semblance of Normalcy, with Normal People in Power making the best decisions for the entire Country, but I think that Train left the Station back in 2016 and has been going Wheels off the fucking Rails ever since.  Now it's constantly running damage control becoz he's already starting the same tired playbook of Lies and Conspiracy Theories, that if he Loses it's a rigged System, but if he Wins it's not... and they fall for it every time.

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It's all more than a bit Much... Dawn... The Bohemian

An Epiphany... Better Late Than Never To Get One

 

I was in Sprouts buying the Groceries we needed and I had an Epiphany about Why I'd been so Sick!!!   Yep, I'd done it to myself, I'd gone on a recent fresh raw Rhubarb Binge, which I LOVE that stuff too much, so ate too much at once, and, it's a Natural Laxative!!!   And boy did it work overtime on what it does Naturally, it cleaned me out thoroughly!   Well, I'll be Mindful to never do that again, unless I find myself really constipated... better late than never to get an Epiphany like that, huh?  *Bwahahahaha* This is Why I also Love Dr. Google, I just plugged in:  Can Rhubarb give you the shits and/or Gastro distress?   Yes, Yes it can!  Mystery Solved!  *LOL*

The Man and I did some Environmental Cleanup really early, we also turned in our Aluminum at the new Recycle Center we're going to who isn't so picky about smashed Cans.   We bagged over 30 lbs., but since there was yet another Heat Advisory and it did get to 111 again Today, we quit early, but cleaned up the Nature Preserve around the River after Weekend revelers left it a mess.   We always feel good about that and I'm sure Mother Nature appreciates our efforts.   The Man absolutely Loves these outings, he's as much an Environmentalist as this Old Hippie is, so, he Partners with me to do these Volunteer activities with as much Joy as I get from the doing of it.   Sadly, our numbers are few and the Environmentally Unconscious are many.

We also hit a couple of the more obscure GOODWILL locations and I got some great Inventory for Resale that will have amazing Margins of Profit.  I Scored a Charmander Loungefly Pokemon Mini Backpack that Sells for $109 and got it for $30.   Even used they're quite a bit more than I Paid so great Margins for Resale even if Princess T or The Daughter doesn't beg to Keep it?  *LOL*   We also got a Pokemon Card Book that tells of the Value of these popular Trading and Game Cards, which really are madly sought after at our Antique Mall.   I Scored a large Gold Canyon Candle in Pomegranate Scent.   

And an empty Modern Alchemy Mystical Shine Ceramic Candle Holder with Lid {Above} that the Candle has been removed, but the Canister has great Graphics and is great Storage for Smalls.   The Eye Graphic is on the top of the Lid too in Gold. The Line is very expensive but the Porcelain Canisters their Candles come in are lovely Keepers, I liked the Graphics of the ones pictured Below too.   But, I like the Graphics of the one I Scored best.  I'd like to find the Candles to smell them and see if I like them, but, they are quite expensive for a Candle, so I'd have exceedingly high expectations.   I am a Sucker for great Packaging of any Product.

I got a great Vintage Grateful Dead Graphics Tie Dye T-Shirt in my Size, that's a Keeper for my own Wardrobe, it was only $1.99!  There were some Vintage Fiesta Ware Mugs with the Classic Ring Handle, in great Colors, but, they wanted more than I'd ever charge for them.   So, whoever was Pricing them knew what they were and expected a serious Collector of it to show up to Buy them.   Of coarse, Online, they go for a ridiculous amount, so, if the Goodwill Employee Pricing them was using that for a reference, hence why they had them priced more than twice as much as all their other Coffee Mugs.   They had a Mini Starbucks Demitasse Mug priced really high too.   So, I Passed on their Collectible Merch, no Meat left on the Bone for Resale.   The same could be said for their New Old Stock of Halloween Merch donated by Ross and Marshalls.

I must say they are Selling Out of their Halloween Merch so they're already rolling out their New Old Stock of Donated Christmas Merch now.  I'm just not ready for Christmas... so didn't spend any time purveying that Inventory at all.   Some of our Vendors do and they're already Selling a lot of Christmas Merch, but, I'm focusing on Fall Merch right now and giving it some appropriate Space for the actual Season we're in.   I've got to bring in more Halloween Merch Tomorrow during my Shift coz I'm Selling Out already.  Halloween is always very well received and I personally think it outsells Christmas as a Holiday nowadays.   I know that for Years now I've spent more for any Autumn Holiday than for any Winter one.   I've downsized most of my Christmas Decor and am loathe to part with my Halloween Decor.

I'll probably keep my Halloween Blow Molds, but, chances are, this Year, I may Sell Off some of my Christmas Blow Molds.   They take up a lot of Space, so do Spare Christmas Trees and Ornaments, so, a lot of them are going to be considered for Resale this Holiday Season.   I have a whole Storage Closet in the Art Studio that has nothing but Christmas Decor in it.   My Halloween is Stored in The RV Garage Mahal.  I try to make my Seasonal Decor accessible for easy access prior to each Holiday, so I've always been vigilant about where it's Stored and how it's Organized.   For some reason it's easy for me to detach from Holiday excess tho', no idea Why?  I tend to prefer Decorating with my Favs and the rest is up for debate on being Kept or even rotated.

I even gave some of my Holiday Excess to other Vendors when it didn't Sell after last Year's Holidays were a wrap.  Some of them have been fortunate to be able to Sell it this Year, I just didn't wanna Store it and take up Space, simple as that.   To me, if I've put it up For Sale and can't find a Buyer within a reasonable amount of time, and I knew I had it priced to Sell, I get rid of it as a Donation and be done with it.  I don't have the Time, Space or Patience to keep something indefinitely and Hope it will Sell if it's just dallying at turning me a Profit.   To me if you're not making Money, you're likely losing Money.  Retail Space Rent is very expensive, so, you can't be foolish or wasteful about it's utilization and what's occupying that Space.

I'm trying to convince The Man to come with me to the Gym this Morning and do some semblance of a Workout.   I appreciate that our Medicare Advantage Plan pays for Membership and want to use it as much as possible.   For The Man it's almost a waste since getting him to attend is a battle and when he's there he's like a Deer caught in the Headlights as to what he should be doing?   I'd even like to get involved in joining some of the Classes, but I can't get there regularly enuf, with my other Caregiver obligations and Work Schedule, also limited by the Gym's Restrictions on Senior Hours, to commit to a Class yet.   But, I like going and when I'm there I usually will spend 1-3 Hours there happily and feel Physically and Emotionally improved when I leave.

 

It would be even more beneficial if either of my Adult Kids could afford Membership {they can't}, and attend with me as a Workout Partner.  It's much better to Workout with someone, but I can only take a Single Guest once every 3 Months.  So far it's always been The Daughter, she'd attend a Gym more regularly than her Brother would.   She's more invested in keeping in Shape than he seems to be.   Princess T has zero interest in going to a Gym, too many other people, she has Social Anxieties galore, so it wouldn't be the right environment for her.  It's a big Gym on Two levels, so I don't think it's too crowded, but, for the Granddaughter, it might be.   She went as a small Child and enjoyed it there tho'.  We had Membership Years ago when we Worked our Careers and could afford it, The G-Kid Force loved going to the Gym.

Lifetime has a Daycare that also has Workout Programs for your Children and they absolutely loved all the activities they were involved in.   But, you can only utilize it until Age 12 and once her Brother turned 13, she wouldn't go by herself to the Children's Activities and he didn't want to Workout with his Grandmother as a 13 Year Old, which is understandable.   So, we let our Membership lapse and I only picked it up again when our Medicare Advantage Plan Home Nurse told me it was part of the Benefits we could qualify for on the Silver Sneakers Programs that most Medicare Plans now offer to Seniors.  I signed up immediately but it took me another Year to convince The Man to.  It doesn't cost you any more Monthly on your Plan to do it, so Why Not do it?  You're paying a Medicare Premium whether you have Extra Benefits or not.

I selected a Medicare Advantage Plan from The Jump of Qualifying to receive Medicare, The Man wouldn't join the same Advantage Plan for quite a few Years after Qualifying for Medicare.  He just wouldn't invest in doing Due Diligence to see what the Advantage Plan Programs would offer him for no extra charge that regular Medicare didn't offer at all for the same cost.   I finally coaxed him into changing to my Plan during an Open Enrollment Period when he had seen how much more I was getting with United Healthcare Medicare Advantage than he was getting.  I had scrutinized all of the Advantage Plans for Months before I ever Qualified to receive Medicare, they send you all the literature to pour over, so only laziness or skepticism would prevent you from looking at it all.

The Man is terrible about spending the Time to Investigate things.   He's really good about meticulous Records Keeping or Organizing for Trips and such, he just doesn't scrutinize things or People like I do.   So, I'm the one to Interrogate people about stuff and he doesn't feel comfortable doing that.  *LOL*   I have no problem giving anyone the 3rd Degree about anything and everything so that I've got all the Information I'll ever need about whatever it is or whoever it is.  *Smiles and Winks*  All the Kiddos know that when they bring someone "New" around, I'll end up knowing more about them than even they do, even if they have known them a long time.  *Bwahahaha*   Most folks do like to talk about themselves or whatever it is they are Career Oriented in and knowledgeable about, so it's not that hard to find out what you need or want to know.

And Note to the Wise, if someone is reluctant to talk about themselves or what they SHOULD be knowledgeable about, they either got something to Hide or don't know shit... mebbe both.  *LOL*   If you have known someone a long time and yet know nothing about them, my first instinct is, what ARE they Hiding?   What do they NOT want anyone to know about them?   Why all the evasion and Secrecy surrounding them?   Yeah, I'm suspicious like that about anyone whose intentionally reluctant to Share anything about themselves or what they do.  *Smiles*   I don't need to know anything legitimately Private and none of my Business about you, but, if I know nothing about you, I don't want you in close around me, you're too much of a fucking Question Mark.  Even if you Share some Unsavory shit about your Past, I could Trust you more than someone keeping shit from everyone and shrouded in Secrecy.

If I don't know someone I'm constantly Evaluating them, listening closely to what they say and even closer to what they don't say.  Omission is often more Telling than what folks are disclosing openly.  And for the whole Political debacle unfolding around us these days, there's still a lot of vagaries I'd like more specificity about and we're not getting it.   On the one side there's just total Bullshit, Extreme Agenda, Lies and constant Political Theater... and the other side, tho' I do like both Candidates, I'm not getting specificity yet about how they Plan to implement the Ideas that sound good enuf to me, but, I got more Questions than Answers about.   How do you plan to do it, pay for it, sustain it if you do roll it out, shit like that.  I can have loads of lofty Ideology and no way in Hell to actually make it happen, ya know?   So, I could attempt to Sell you the Moon about my Ideas.  But if none of us can get to the Moon, what's the Point?  *Winks*

Becoz Yeah, I'm the Queen of damned near Everything on the Canvas of my very fertile Imagination, but if I can't Deliver, then, that's where it just remains and doesn't do anyone any good.   I'll still be Voting for Kamala, but, I am still trying to figure out Who she is and what she's capable of?   She hasn't done enuf Interviews for me to get a Read on her really, tho' Walz really seems to have his shit together when he's out there being Scrutinized.   But, let's face it, anyone NOT 45 would have gotten my Vote at this juncture in this whole Political shitshow that's been playing out since 2016 now!!!  Anyone NOT that Extremist Psychopathic Lunatic and his Fringe in a Position of Power doesn't unnerve me as much as they all do.   

And even if he FOAD's now, he seems to have spawned a Movement with momentum and his VP pick is more dangerously devious than he is IMO. That Couch Fucker has found a way to Weasel and Ass Kiss himself into a potential Position of unlimited Power and Corruption that has probably been his Wet Dream for a very long time.  Nobody knows WHAT he Stands For since it changes like the direction of the Wind constantly, he's like Water, he morphs and turns into whatever Shape you pour it into and whatever Temperature it is, then that's what it becomes too, fluid, steam or solid.   The fact 45 will Trust whoever flatters him most at the time means he can easily be manipulated by someone whose a better Shape Shifter than he even is. 

 He's so Addled right now someone behind the Scenes is really in Charge, his cognitive decline is too evident to think otherwise.  He can't even finish a Sentence, make any Sense or Hold a Thought now. I do find it Interesting that Age and Cognitive Decline was at the forefront with Uncle Joe all the time yet 45's more evident unraveling and serious Cognitive Decline is downplayed considerably, as if nobody wants to address it or pretends they don't see and hear it.   Every time he makes a Speech or does an Interview I have to Wonder how his Devoted can reconcile themselves to wanting a Leader whose clearly that fucked up and out of Touch with any Reality going on around him?   What ARE they Thinking?!  But then, after meeting many of them, I can certainly see what's IN them that attracts them TO him, it's usually easily revealed in fact... just sayin'.   The Company you'd keep, make excuses for and support tells me more about you than you think...

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It's a Hot, Hot uncertain Autumn still... Dawn... The Bohemian

Happy Autumn... Even With Heat Warnings Still In Effect

 

A Heat Warning is still in effect, we're having them every single day, so now it's just expected as the New Norm well into a Season that shouldn't still be high triple digit temps with consecutive crazy high 110+ Heat clear into Autumn.  *Le Sigh*  Well, it's been a tough Friday, I have felt dreadful and stuff runs right thru me, no idea why, it came on so suddenly at around 6:00 a.m. and I couldn't shake it all day.   I'm hopeful it's just a 24 Hour Stomach Bug, nobody else seems sick or has any symptoms and we all ate the same thing on Thursday, so I ruled out it being likely food related.  I'm the one with a Stomach like a Goat, everyone else has sensitive Stomachs, so, this is unlike me or my constitution to have Stomach issues and digestive sickness related stuff.   It sucks.

I like food, feel hungry, but have had to eat bland filling bits like flavored Oatmeal and some Mashed Potatoes that might stick with me, and can't even eat very much of any of that.   I'm an Insulin dependent Diabetic so you can't risk too much Fasting even if nothing you eat doesn't rush you straight to the Bathroom.   I did manage to rush The Daughter to a Wal-Mart to send the Money to the Grandkids there in Mexico to sustain them after their other Grandma's Death.   I wore an Adult Diaper just in case, The Man had some from his Hospital stay and they're actually very comfortable and make me feel more confident while I have the Trots.

Hope that wasn't TMI, but Stomach Bugs are brutal to get thru.  Even Burps right now are sulfuric and smell like a Fart.  *LOL*   Okay, so that's Funny becoz I've Burped a LOT and each time the Family looks concerned and asks if I shat my Pants?   Yeah, the Burps smell that bad too!  *LMAOROTF it's gross!!!*    So, pretty much everyone doesn't want to be in a Room with me coz I can clear a Room right now.   Even the Cat was looking at me funny and squinting his Eyes, then walking away with disgust and disdain!  *LOL*  Yep, Second Childhood kicks in and you start making Juvenile Jokes about Farting and Belching!  *Smiles*

The Daughter made a lot of progress in The RV Garage Mahal, we have yet another cleared area ready to be Staged and Decorated the way I want it.  She also deep cleaned the Bathrooms, in between me completely monopolizing one.  *LOL*  She is a Clean Freak and why she got Hired to Clean by so many folks she knows both sides of the Border.  She knew that would make me Happy and be a Welcome distraction for her not thinking about the current trials and tribulations we don't have any control over.  There's been a lot out of our control, as a Control Freak, that is HARD.  I'd like to think I have some measure of controlling outcomes, even if I know I don't.

 She gets worried when I'm not feeling Well coz I'm rarely ever Sickly, I have a good constitution usually.  When I consulted Dr. Google, it was said Stress can cause these Symptoms too.  And we sure have had a lot of that, so, I wouldn't be surprised if it's internalized and manifested into physical symptoms.  The Man will pretend he has the same Symptoms anyone else has, he gets Symptoms by Proxy, I swear.  *LMAO*   So, now he thinks he's had the Trots too, he hasn't, and Nausea, he hasn't, so he's insisting on taking any Medicine Cabinet Meds I've taken.  *Eye Roll... whatever*  So, he's been telling me he has whatever I have.  *LOL*

The Daughter and I have been binge watching a NetFlix Series called "Wentworth" about an Australian Women's Prison, very good, addictively so.  We're in Season 2 already.  I didn't know any of the Cast before, but they have some amazing Actresses and Actors in it.   A handsome Samoan, Robbie Magasiva, who plays Will Jackson, a Prison Guard, is very easy on the Eyes.  *Smiles*  Okay, so I have a bit of a Crush on that Character and we're glad he's not a villainous one on the Series, he's one of the Good Guys.  *Whew*  The Daughter and I joke that if we were locked up, we'd be flirting with Mr. Jackson.  *Ha ha ha*

Princess T went to First Fridays with Timmy and his new Boyfriend Jaden, my first time being introduced to Jaden.  *Smiles*  A very handsome young Man and I know Princess T approves of this one, she didn't like the previous Boyfriend I called Cali Boy.  *LOL*   She and Jaden get along really well and she was all dolled up as if she was going on a Date, which always Amuses The Man, that she goes out of her way to look Sexy when with her Gay Boy Posse, but Dresses way Down for her actual Straight Boyfriend.   Nope, Rusty does not get the Sexy Version of Princess T, he gets the unadorned Ultra Wholesome version.  *LMAO*

She had her Birthday Money for this outing, since her Mom had just given it to her, so the Guys shouldn't have to cover her expenses.  She usually does bring Money, but they usually insist on paying her way, very chivalrous like that even tho' they're batting for the other Team.  *Smiles*  I know they always have a big time at First Fridays and I was Surprised that this Month that Matthew didn't go with them.   He's going to College and Working, so perhaps he can't fit it in anymore, I dunno?  She really doesn't hang out anymore with Crazy Pamela, tho' they do keep in touch, she was a Friend from when we lived at the McManse.

Pamela drives and her Parents bought her a brand new VW Bug, but, she's only come over once.   I'd have to take Princess T out there to visit Pamela in Rural affluent Subdivision Hell, which we usually made the effort before Pamela Graduated and got a Vehicle.   So, now Princess T feels that Pamela could make more of an effort if they wanted to get together, since she has a Job and transportation.  Princess T Graduated much later and has neither a Car or Job yet, and doesn't Drive, so, I tend to agree.  Pamela knows she's always Welcome here and she has more opportunity to make the trek to visit our Granddaughter if she wanted to.

  They are still Friends, no falling out between them, but, not a lot of contact now.   Princess T prefers Male Friends really, less Drama and Headaches.  *Smiles*  Plus, she does not like any of Pamela's Bougee Pretentious Asshole Friends from the Old Neighborhood and Pamela needed to fit in there and find acceptance, so, there's that.  They are a bitchy bunch, even if Pamela never has been, and feels peer pressure to fit in.   She had a lot of insecurities and that's not something Princess T ever had, so our Kiddos never cowtowed to the people out there who were pretentious Assholes and not nice people.   The Young Prince had Friends out there, but they were a nice group of Kids who just had Asshole Parents, but didn't act like their intolerable Parents.  

The only Adults I liked and miss in that Community were a Lovely Young Childless Sri Lankan Immigrant Couple who'd moved there from Cali, John & Sophie.  I successfully helped them fight the HOA about having their Ganesh Home Altar in their Inner Courtyard.  John then Gifted me with an identical fabulous Wooden Ganesh from their Country, I cherish it.  It was a rather clean break for us moving from there, not much missed about it, so, no real need to return.  Out of Curiosity we sometimes trawl that area to see what else is being built... well, OVER Built I should say, they're still cramming in far too much dense Residential with very little infrastructure or amenities needed.  It's tragic to see what's been done to the Villa McManse by the Air B&B Party House Buyers of it, it's been molested.  They got the Solar Repossessed already too!

  I feel bad only for the House, not the Community... the HOA and Neighbors deserved all the good folks bailing out of there and be replaced by greedy Investor types from out of State or out of the Country... Bad Karma is indeed an ultimate Bitch.  *LOL*  Life and the Community is so much better and more enriching here.   We still have many Friends from the Historic Home's Community in Da Hood tho'.   They visit us often at this new Home, which is just Northeast in the same City as the Historic Home's Barrio was, but, a better area of the City.   I still miss our Historic Home and the Old Community, but know this is a better area to Raise a Family and grow Old in, yet still close to everyone we've always known and been familiar and Friends with for well over Three Decades.

I'm waiting on an Air Condition Company Rep to show up so I can Sign Off on the Loan Release.  They come to the house for me to Sign since I can never get an Acrobat Reader to work via my Computer and really have a strong distaste for how Loan Documents are done these days.  It's a Criminal's Wet Dream IMO and why Tech Crimes are continuously escalating.   Before I Retired at the DA's Office they had to open a Tech Crimes Bureau, that's how much Tech related Crime had escalated and I'm sure it's much worse now, since, that was Years ago.  Even the Bureau Chief of the new Tech Crimes Bureau got his Identity stolen!

So, I had to get up early on a Saturday since their Rep called by 7:45 to say they were already on their way.  I'm glad really they're showing up early so we're not ruining a Weekend Day waiting on them to show up, I got things we want to do now that I think I'm feeling better.   It seems whatever I had on Friday is settling down enuf I can risk leaving the House.  *LOL*   I'll see how my Stomach reacts to eating Breakfast and go from there.   Oddly the one thing I could keep in me Yesterday, the Adult Kids went to the Golden Arches and picked up a very late Meal of French Fries and a Caramel Iced Macchiato and Surprised me with it.  No problems... go figure!!!   Well, to be Fair McDonalds isn't REAL Food so it tricked my ailing Stomach perhaps? *LOL*

The Man has been itching to get out of the House so perhaps Today we can if my Stomach holds up?   I'll bring some Pullups with us just in case, since, not every Shop or Restaurant allows you to use their Restrooms if you're not a paying Customer these days and keeps them locked so that an Employee decides if they'll let you use it.   I know it's due to the Homeless, the Addicts and the Shoplifters, they've ruined it for everyone else being able to use Public Restrooms now.   Some Shops and Restaurants even put Signs up that they have NO Public Restrooms!  I know some of the horrific shit folks have done in our Antique Mall's Public Restrooms and we've had to clean up, so, I can't say I blame the Businesses.  At some point they have to send a Message that this is not Okay.

I'm looking forward to the Halloween and Autumn Themed Events that will begin this coming Week and run thru the end of the Month at various locations.  I've got to also renew my Desert Botanical Gardens Membership now.   I'd let it lapse thru Spring and Summer, too hot to go anyway, but, by Fall it's glorious there and they have Dia de los Muertos Events next Month thru the first Week in November.   The Daughter got all my faux Pumpkins out for a Harvest Theme on the Front Porch.  We'd emptied out some of the Steamer Trunks that Allen had put on my Back Porch from the Art Studio.  They held all my Fall Decorations.  They were too heavy to move packed, so we unpacked them and The Daughter and I moved them into The RV Garage Mahal now.

I'm going to Sell Off some of the Decor too, so it was handy to get it all out now and wade thru it early, at the start of Autumn.    For now I've just got the plain Faux Pumpkins out to Decorate with, closer to Halloween we'll put out the Jack O'Lanterns and Skeleton CarnEvil Theme we plan on doing.   She and I are working on segments of The Art Studio Space and RV Garage Mahal Space simultaneously now.  It's not been Cooling Off much, but, we pace ourselves and the Art Studio is Climate Controlled so we can get more done in there.  She's got good ideas we've implemented, she's got a more analytical approach to placement of larger furnishings to maximize Space it's in.  So, I like what she's changed and let her have free reign to make the decisions.

Nothing has to remain exactly as it now is, when we're done with everything, we can foof the Spaces and make it all more Editorial and maximize Function and Display impact.   Not everything will be Kept, but for now, we're mostly concentrating on just unpacking it all, sorting it all out, finding Placement for the largest items being Kept, and do a Secondary Sweep after it's completed.   I can detach from Stuff as we go and also later after it's Organized, looks good, and then I can Curate more ruthlessly.   My detachment from a lot of it has been easier once I can Eyeball what I still have and make more informed decisions about it, how much of it I own, how much of it can stay or go.   When I need discretionary Income, I can Sell Off what will Fund what we want or need.

The Kiddos of both Generations are having Fun deciding what they want to ask me for too.  I wouldn't otherwise know what they want to Keep for themselves and not have me Sell Off.  It's like a Treasure Hunt for them, or a Discovery of things I've Kept that they didn't know I still had and they have fond Memories of.   I am a Keeper Of The Past and I've Rescued many things never intended to be Kept forever by me.   But just Preserved so that they still Exist becoz of my efforts to Save them and recognize their Value and significance, otherwise they would have been Forever Lost or discarded.   I feel good about the amount of Historic items I've Salvaged over my Lifetime that might have been just Landfill bound or ruined by the Elements/Weather/Destroyed.  Now a lot of it has Trended and is in higher demand and harder to Source, becoz, a lot of it no longer Exists as prevalently as it once did.

The Daughter and I have a Project now of attaching fancy Wrought Iron Shelf Bracket 'Feet' onto Old Architectural Salvaged Doors and using them as Room Dividers in The RV Garage Mahal.   We're also installing the Antique Hardware from my enormous cache' of those, onto any Doors that were missing their Original Hardware.   I have loads of Period Accessories I've Salvaged over the Years too, I've gotten Hoards of certain items like Antique Doorknobs, Door Plates, Escutcheon, Skeleton Keys, Stained Glass Windows, Victorian Corbels and Wooden Gingerbread from razed Victorian Homes.  Yes, I Wish the Homes still Existed, but, most don't, but at least the items I Salvaged back when nobody seemed to be doing it here, still Exist.

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Blessings, Love and Light from the Arizona Desert... Happy Autumn... Dawn... The Bohemian