About a week ago, I ran into Mrs. H in the produce section of the grocery store. Mrs. H and her husband have lived a few doors away ever since I moved into the neighborhood. Now both retired, Mrs. H was a stay-at-home mom while her husband was a bond trader for a large financial institution. Mrs. H proceed to tell me about her family’s ten-day trip to Tuscany for American Thanksgiving. I heard about the villa she rented which slept twelve, the delicious food, the day trips to various towns and museums visited. She went on and on while holding a stack of coupons in her hand. I thought it was odd that a woman who could afford a trip like this was clipping coupons. Does saving a few cents here and there change her life? Apparently, it helps her afford vacations.
Since retiring, I’ve lost count of the number of people who have asked me if I’ve done any traveling. It’s as if the benchmark of a successful retirement is taking many trips. I was well traveled before I retired. I’m not in a rush to jump on a plane.
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It was a meal thrown together a few days before Thanksgiving, but it turned out to be one of best dinners of my life. Just the basics with one dessert along with good liquor. Only four people, which allowed for hours of conversations covering intimate events in our lives. The bond between us was strengthened. I feel these people will be in my life until I die.

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Northern New Mexico

Downtown Santa Fe alley view

Downtown Santa Fe

Chimayo

View from a friend’s portal

Santa Fe suburban sprawl

Santa Fe sunset
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Two weeks before my trip to Missouri I spent six wonderful days in Santa Fe. Mister D hosted a cocktail party on the Sunday I arrived. All the usual suspects were there. It was a very festive evening. Natalia’s husband was trashed and had to be escorted home next door.
Early fall is one of my favorite times in Santa Fe. The light is simply glorious. I don’t know how to describe it. You must see it to believe it. Artists who have experienced the fall light in Santa Fe can relate to this.
D and I had lunch and dinner out almost every day. Lunch with Cindi and the Girls at the Tea House on Canyon Road one day after touring the galleries. A most leisurely lunch was enjoined in Taos with Cindi and our mutual friend, Mark, on another day.
D and I spent one morning on a docent lead tour of the newly opened Vladem Contemporary Art Museum in the Railyard District. After the tour, we hung out and talked with the docent for another hour. After the museum we had a long and most enjoyable lunch with Natalia at La Choza. After a few margaritas, Natalia opened up about her years in Los Angeles when she lived in Laurel Canyon and managed Ed Ruscha’s studio. She hung out with the artists and musicians who lived in Laurel Canyon at the time. Natalia reminisced about having her art featured in a Whitney Biennial and having works acquired by the museum. Sadly, she feels her art career peaked in her 20’s. The final round of margaritas was ordered after that statement.
One afternoon Cindi, D and I drove to El Santuario de Chimayó, commonly known as the church with the holy dirt. On the drive up we passed Embudo Station where years ago I spent one of the most memorable afternoons of my life. I was with Cindi and the ex that day. I think fondly about that day every time I pass Embudo Station.
It was off-season in Chimayó so there were very few tourists and pilgrims milling about. Cindi lit a few candles before dragging me into the gift shop to peruse the various religious paraphernalia and assorted red chili mixes offered for sale. After church, we had a delicious dinner at Rancho de Chimayó. The drive home offered views of an iconic sunset so common in the region.
On my last night in Santa Fe, I had drinks and dinner with Madame and D at Horno. It was another wonderful evening of good cocktails, delicious food and interesting conversation. The Heiress was too tired to join us as she had been meeting with lawyers and financial advisors in the afternoon. The Heiress and her sister have assumed control over her mother’s affairs and the various trusts because of her mother’s rapid descent into the hell of Alzheimer’s. It’s all too tiring for the Heiress. She has never had to work. Dealing with lawyers, accountants, bankers and financial advisors needed to manage a vast fortune is the first time she ever had to do anything remotely similar to work. It just zaps all the energy out of her. It was so much easier to simply wait for a monthly check. The rest of us really don’t relate to her situation. All of us have worked most of our lives. The Heiress has had fifty-nine years of freedom. A few meetings every month will not do her in.
My craving for green chili and good margaritas had been satisfied. Thanksgiving discussions have begun. Madame is offering to host at her secluded house nestled among pinyon pines in the desert. I may find myself back in the land of enchantment in a few weeks.
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A recent trip to visit my family in Missouri confirmed what I had been told. My father, who will be 97 next month, should not be living alone. He can’t do two things at the same time. He can talk or walk but not at the same time. He really doesn’t walk, but rather shuffles along. He will not use a walker my sil bought for him. He can’t clean his house but will not hire a housekeeper. His house is a filthy mess. He still refuses to move to a senior living center mainly because he believes most of the staff are people of color. He only wants to be cared for by white people. His mind is still sharp, but his body is wearing out.
My sil visits him once a week to take my father grocery shopping, to the bank, the post office, or any other errand he needs to do. This is to keep him from driving as he still has a valid driver’s license. My father lives an hour away from any family. My sil spends most of her day helping my father. If my sil must change the day she visits, my father complains about the inconvenience to him, and that changing the day has messed up his whole week. My father must have a set schedule and refuses to be flexible. He doesn’t realize that he is the inconvenience.
I was in Missouri for six days. I saw my father once. It only took one visit to confirm my father is still a racist and stubborn as the day is long.
My father has been told that he is one life-changing event away from assisted living or death. He will probably fall, or have a heart attack, or a stroke. He refused to wear any type of life alert device. He’s fine with dying alone. I have accepted the choice he has made. My father will not change his mind. Sadly, my sil will probably be the one to find him injured or dead.
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Here’s an update on some of the people who help make my life interesting.
Double A is very active in his retirement with several volunteer gigs. He continues to be a man magnet. Sadly, he’s not usually interested in the guys who are interested in him. I see Double A at the gym at least once a week. Unfortunately, our gym routines are not compatible. Double A is looking for a larger condo but continues to suffer from sticker shock.
JP is looking for a second home in the high country. He made most of his money flipping real estate for 30 years. Thankfully, he knows how to play that game well as his career as a cater waiter never provided a high income. Since he sold his rental unit in Denver, most of his monthly income comes from his late husband’s Social Security. Double A and I have noticed JP seems to be developing memory issues. We’re slightly alarmed but remain cautiously optimistic.
Mister D is still mourning the loss of his partner of 30 years. He has more good days than bad days. D has started to socialize more. I’ll probably spend time with him in Santa Fe this fall.
Cindi is now a published author. One of her short stories was published by a literary journal. She’s still working on the final edit of her book, which two publishers are interested in. In the meantime, Cindi seems to have 17 different jobs to support herself. She works in a winery tasting room one day a week, tends bar at the Sante Fe Opera, bartends at private parties, does special event floral décor for a party planner, sells her art, teaches special needs children how to ski when the resort is open and gives horseback riding lessons. Somehow Cindi still finds time to write.
Madame, the wealth manager, just turned 65. She has no plans to retire. Madame does very well as she spent the last 40 years building her book. Her job now mainly consists of servicing existing clients by liquidating portfolios and handling RMDs, which allows her to spend several afternoons a week on the Las Campanas golf course. Madame invited me to her second home in the Florida panhandle this winter. Madama and the Heiress are still going strong. They started redecorating Madame’s house so it will be more theirs than hers. Madame and the Heiress are planning a furniture buying trip to Denver this fall. They hired and fired one interior designer so far.
At age 59, the Heiress is finally in control of her own financial destiny. For the first time in her life, she has her own money due to an inheritance. And there’s more on the way after a house in Palm Beach sells. The Heiress still receives a monthly check from a trust. She’s represented by three galleries but there’s a small market for pricey fine art photographs.
With the death of Mister P, I became closer to the Girls. The Girls are Mister P’s ex-wife and her wife. Both are retired successful executives based in Sante Fe but are often found traveling the world. Their recent trip was cut short when their RV caught fire just south of Taos. Mister D was dispatched to rescue them.
Kelly was laid off a few months ago. She’s been searching for a new gig. She’s now 58 which is not helping her search. Kelly lowered her salary requirement to $25k a month. She’s had a couple of interviews but no offers. Kelly and I try to meet once a week for an urban five-mile walk with her dog.
Miss Y finally landed a job with a nonprofit at a significantly lower salary. The gig helped her avoid foreclosure. She’s now living with the woman she started dating after her divorce from her husband. Things have been off and on with the woman, but they seem to be on steady ground now.
And then there’s Bruce who’s been spending time in the Hamptons this summer. We maintain a social media relationship but have not spoken in months. He occasionally slides into my DMs. I don’t initiate contact. The last time we spoke he told me his CFO ex-boyfriend put him on a budget as he was down to his last $150k. He burned through almost $2m since I met him. I expressed my disappointment with him for his out-of-control spending. I asked why he didn’t cut back when he was down to a million, or 500k or even 300k. He never answered the question. That question changed our relationship. I can only assume he didn’t want to be confronted as he usually tries to avoid conflict. There’s a lot less drama in my life now.
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Many times, over the years, I have often wondered what happened to bloggers when they stopped posting, or when blogs were deleted without a goodbye. Did they die in a tragic accident? Did they find a new love which consumed all their time leaving no room in their life to write? Did they go to prison for crimes not written about. Or did their life circumstances change which no longer made blogging a priority?
I fall into the last category. When I worked, I attended numerous conference calls every business day. Most of the time I only had to attend to be kept in the loop on various product changes. Other times, the egos of senior executives mandated all employees attend calls where they could extoll the virtues of their vision and mission. These calls enabled me to write a post while listening to corporate babble.
Since I retired, I no longer sit in front of a laptop for eight hours a day. I only spend a small fraction of my day using my computer. Instead, I’m enjoying life. I redesigned my garden. I tore up a large part of my lawn replacing it with mulch beds and drought tolerant plants. Oddly, my area is experiencing the wettest year in decades. I spend time with friends. Sunday afternoon day drinking with the guys at a neighborhood bar has become a ritual. Dinner out usually follows the drinking. House guests have come and gone. Hiking in the high country and urban walks with friends have become a regular activity. Friday nights are still devoted to gallery tours while the occasional Thursday night is spent at art museum openings. I haven’t taken any major trips but have spent time in Santa Fe.
I’ve also been reading a lot. After I retired, I reread all of Armistead Maupin’s books. I borrowed books from my neighbor’s expansive library along with checking out books from the public library. JP gave me a stack of art books from his late husband’s collection. I finally read Salinger’s “The Catcher in the Rye”, which was banned by my Catholic high school, and not required reading in any of my college courses. I read books by Jack Kerouac, Allen Ginsberg (a friend of the heiress’ mother), Henry Miller, Amy Tan and Charles Bukowski. I’m currently reading “The Year of Magical Thinking”, by Joan Didion.
Writing a blog post has not been a priority.
My life hasn’t changed much. I don’t have a love interest. I’ve given up on dating. While I still have a few online profiles, I seldom log on to the sites. It seems I’ve lost the spirit for the hunt. I may meet a guy along the way but I’m not actively looking.
I’ll probably post occasional updates. I’ll write a final post if I decide to euthanize this blog. Unless, of course, I die suddenly.
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After spending two days in Oregon the package arrived in Colorado Friday evening. I checked my email when I got home from touring the gallery openings. I received a FedEx email advising the package would be delivered on Monday between 9:40 a.m. and 1:40 p.m. Another email arrived on Saturday morning which stated the package would be delivered on Saturday between 10:30 a.m. and 2:30 p.m. The package arrived at 1:30 p.m. Wonders never cease.
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I placed an online order last Friday. The package was shipped by the vendor via FedEx. The package left Los Angeles on Friday and arrived in Memphis on Saturday morning. I received notification from FedEx the package would be delivered on Tuesday by 8 p.m. The package arrived at the FedEx Denver sort facility on Saturday evening. The FedEx tracking website showed the package would arrive early. It would now be delivered on Monday by 8 p.m. Monday came and went. The package was now sitting in the FedEx hub in Henderson, CO, just outside Denver. The package was not delivered on Tuesday. Wednesday morning the FedEx tracking site showed the package would be delayed. Late Wednesday afternoon the package arrived in Portland, OR, 1,200 miles from Denver. WTF. Instead of delivering the package to me, FedEx sent it to Portland. I called FedEx and opened a case. The agent could not explain why the package was in Portland, instead of being delivered. I was assured the issue would be investigated. I’m waiting for the agent to update me.
I ordered another item online in January which was shipped via FedEx. The package sat in the FedEx Denver hub for two days before I received an email from FedEx advising the package was delivered. The email included a picture showing the package on a porch. Sadly, the porch was not my house. FedEx was less than helpful. They didn’t know where the package was delivered. I was eventually told to file a claim with the vendor. I filed a claim with the vendor and received a refund.
What the hell is going on with FedEx? Is anyone else having issues with FedEx? I never have these issues with Amazon.
Update – Last night, I received an email from FedEx advising the package would be delivered on Thursday between 11 a.m. and 3 p.m. This morning I received an email from FedEx advising the package would be delayed. The package will now be delivered on Friday between 10:40 a.m. and 2:40 p.m. The FedEx tracking site shows the package is now in Troutdale, OR.
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