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Sunday, 2 April 2023

The Ponies Return

 
BERJAYA

The ponies are back on the field.
Just before Dawn , I noticed their large dark shapes shifting from leg to leg by the gate and I walked over to say hello .
I adore ponies noses.
Soft and pink and hairy and all smelling sweetly of fresh grass.
I dropped my head against the first pony’s muzzle and inhaled loudly, 
My nose against theirs and we stood like that for a while saying hello.
I dropped my head at the others in turn and did the same 
It felt as though I was being polite and friendly 
And so were they

Saturday, 1 April 2023

Lovely Zombies

 
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I found a new zombie tv series on Netflix yesterday. This won’t interest anyone but I rather enjoyed the Canadian filmed horror Black Summer.and binge watched it last night in bed from 6 pm. 
Something I never do. Perhaps it had something to do with the Hispanic leading man Sal Valez

I’m working days all this weekend. 
And I can’t be bothered to light the fire as I’ve not long got home and will be in bed in half an hour. 
I’m still eating very healthy but for a treat I’d plan in  having a miniature gin with ice and two Jacobs cream crackers with white crab meat for my supper.

This time it was  mary who stole the crab off the top of the crackers without moving the crackers from their plate….which in my mind was pretty nifty  so it was the neat gin and licked crackers.

I ate the crackers.
Fuck it

Today was busy as we admitted a very poorly patient from the Hospice at Home team but I was on with a great bunch of staff  so all went bloody well. 
When work goes like that, it’s a tiring pleasure to do what I do.

I’ve just made a chicken salad for lunch

Time for bed

Friday, 31 March 2023

Friday

 I met my friend Faisal for coffee this morning. 
He was, you may recall at the first LGBTQ book club a few months ago.
He is the politest man I’ve ever met and soon will be moving back to his family home abroad, where he will help with the family business which is a garage and convenience store. He is in his forties and not out to his family. 
I like him. He speaks carefully and with much thought and never rushes an answer, which is always considered and balanced. 
He’s never had a boyfriend, but seems not to mind this fact explaining he has only been out with his friends for just under a year. 
We have lunch from the Thai on Thai and I was made up as the owner came over as were were eating to tell me how good my technique with my chopsticks was. I was eating rice traditionally with the bowl up to my mouth and she gave me a toothy thumbs up which really made my day
It’s funny that I’m so clumsy with eating my food using a knife , fork and spoon but give me a pair of chopsticks and Im a wizz…..

This afternoon I took Roger to the groomer and he’s looking mighty fine when returned 

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Just after we got home I got some beautiful roses delivered. 
A surprise gift from Nu 
She does this from time to time

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Thursday, 30 March 2023

Venice

 
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Thank fuck for that ….covid neg today.
I was out minutes after the swab and with my friend Colin in Liverpool within an hour where I soaked up my weight watchers extra points on a fab Lebanese lunch ( no pud)
It’s so nice to sit in a window of a nice cafe and talk and eat and talk more.
We gossiped like old ladies do in Central Park on a Sunday.
Towards the end of lunch Colin turned to me and said 
“ Do you know what, I really fancy going to Venice for a few days do you want to come?”
I said yes before he could take another slurp of his foul mudammas
How good is that ?


Wednesday, 29 March 2023

Spring Flowers

BERJAYA

On the back of the feelings of springtime this morning
I had a mooch in the garden at dusk to look at the spring flowers
Which are just showing their faces to the sun.

Pink ribus, miniature daffodils and grape hyacinth are valiantly colouring patches of my borders 
And I filled an old cut glass ink bottle with a bunch and listened to The Archers as the dogs turned slow circles in front of the fire and Albert sighed in the middle of them stretching his bad leg slowly towards the heat

The flowers are next to my bed
On the blue pained Lloyd loom table
And they look cheerful 
As I wanted them to 

Lily

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 I lowered Bluebells’ windows wide and drove down the A55 at a pace.
What covid I breathed out soon was blasted out of the car in an instant and soon I was feeling cold but exhilarated by the wind. 
that’s cleared the old tubes I thought
I drove to Colwyn Bay and sat on the beach with my flask of coffee
This was 9 am this morning and I had already walked the dogs.
Women were wild swimming in the sea and I could here them laughing from where I sat.
It’s always nice to hear laughter no matter where it’s from

It’s been a long and fairly miserable winter all told
I’ve never experienced one so long, except in lockdown 
And with spring here things seem to be on the up. 
They feel better? 
Don’t you think? 

Two women passed me , they were talking about Paul O’Grady whose death was announced this morning
“ I loved him as Lily Savage” one said to another and I wondered if O’Grady knew just how affectionately he was thought of I thought.
I loved the story about him when he was comparing a drag show in the 1980s in London and the bar was raided by Policemen all wearing rubber gloves ( HIV protection) because it braking section 28 rules, Lily Savage called out to the punters that they were there to help with the washing up.
Thanks to O ‘Grady we now have drag Queens in our libraries reading stories to children. 
With his Liverpudlian wit, amazing legs and fuck you attitude that never lost a little warmth, he endeared himself to the majority that met him. 
He did a great deal for the  LGBTQ+  Community 
And he loved his dogs.
You were a class act Lily …..a real class act








Tuesday, 28 March 2023

Zoom

 
BERJAYA

It was skills practice in college tonight , so I played the counsellor (on line )which was interesting.We are a group of three and this evening had an opportunity to honestly share why we picked each other to “ do” therapy .
I like my fellow students and I guess that is why we were all there …for we like each other. 
Donna is a fast talking , nervous Social worker who loves her cats, is theatrically and constantly irritated by her husband and who laughs without a filter. 
Caroline is deep, a saleswoman who is good at what she does but who needs to change her career 
And there’s me 
Three different people who bonded over Carl Rogers, CBT and Maslow’s Hierarchy of needs 

Tonight we did skills practice and I talked about my weight and it was important and supportive and caring 
We also talked about other things not for Going Gently to share, but I must say that we left tonight’s session each feeling we’ve made two new friends.

Otters


My WW app gave me a round of applause this morning.
It sent me several ❤️❤️ a bit of 👏🏻 But it wasn’t the same as 14 overweight ladies giving you a standing 
ovation next to leader Irene in her pencil skirt
I’ve lost 4 .8 lbs 
An ok start.🥰

I’m reading Tarka The Otter by Henry Williamson today .
The 1927 novel I picked for Gay Book Club 
£2.99 from eBay 

I feel a bit washed out

BERJAYA


Monday, 27 March 2023

Goddamm.

 

BERJAYA

I met a similar looking guy on Saturday night who I had a lovely long chat with
Unfortunately just found out that he is straight 
Bloody hell lol,
What a bugger……some straight guys flirt with everyone 

Trash

 
BERJAYA

For some this will be a boring ‘ bad” blog
No long conversations. No long replies. No in depth recognition of the merits of off the wall films. 
No discussions on everything important.
So be it. 
I have covid again and I’m grounded from a much anticipated cinema trip.

Apart from feeling I’m swallowing ground glass when I sip my coffee I’m fine.

My back garden looks like the stink bombs front garden. I realised that yesterday. Now the “ stink bombs” were a family who lived in a rough looking council house near my primary school. The hedges were unkempt, and opened up wide enough in one side to allow the Ford cortina to park up to the living room windows. Scattered around would be a skip load of mostly broken plastic toys , a deflated paddling pool and beer cans. 
Even as 8 year old children , we were snobby and judgemental. 
Not nice eh? I only turned into Anne Shirley Cuthburt when I was a teen.

My garden has a look of the stink bombs and it’s all Roger’s doing
Empty milk cartons and plastic bottles, lie around next to bits of solar lanterns and  pieces of paper lie sodden after being gleefully held aloft like a fluttering flag and thrown in the air like a shuttlecock. 
An old lasagne container, parts of an old lead, a used coffee bag, the contents of a small houseplant pot.
He’s been skipping around with an empty coke bottle stolen from the recycling bag for the past half hour.
Bless him

Sunday, 26 March 2023

Testing testing 1. 2, 1. 2

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By eleven I thought my hangover was too bad to be true
I had a sore throat which rang alarm bells 
So I tested myself and yeap covid positive 
Bollocks

 

Pissed

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The ukulele band gave a “spirited” performance and won over the local crowd quite magnificently 
I was on the door , selling raffle tickets and window panes and did well at both. Suffice to say I was busy And had to keep sending friends to the bar for a beer….
Over 150 people turned up including lots of old faces  

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And would you believe it 
The lovely Chic Eleanor ( centre) 
Turned up 

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Affable despots Jason and wife claire with Claire’s dad 

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Gwawr and the lovely Tracy Manchester 

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Locals from the village  Turpins  et al 

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An action shot of Velvet Voiced Linda , Village leader Ian and bouncy Bridget 

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Neighbour Sailor John and  Med…

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Hattie and Adam 

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The object of the night was to publicise the TCA and not to make a profit 

But with food sales ( all my chilli sold) raffle tickets and pledges for the window panes as well as the band donating their gig to us for free we made a rather impressive profit 

I got home to walked the dogs around 11.30:…..I was pissed and walked  into the garden arch without a clue….big laceration on forehead  lol 

A great night ….of a place …we all felt a part of /