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Misophonia

I recently came across an article that mentioned a condition called Misophonia.

People with misophonia are affected emotionally by common sounds — usually those made by others, and usually ones that other people don't pay attention to - such as heavy breathing,  chewing, sniffing and throat clearing.  These create a fight-or-flight response that triggers anxiety or anger and a desire to escape.  Although not widely recognised, it is apparently a  real disorder that can compromise a person's mental health.

I have to admit to being amazed to learn that these sounds don't affect everyone as they do me.

Well, now I know that I have a disorder  that has a name and at least I am able to leave my hearing aids switched off most of the time.

BERJAYA


No Customers

Last week P decided to make a bird feeding table as we have been amassing a tubful of crumbs, sultanas and seeds over the past months. Scattering these on the ground attracts the unwelcome sort of wildlife.

Using one of the old fence posts,  some scraps of wood and leftover roofing felt from the shed repairs  he came up with this handsome creation,  which stands just a few feet from our front window. 

BERJAYA

Although well stocked with tasty morsels it remains forlorn and unvisited, although the fat ball and peanut feeder around the back of the house has plenty of feathered customers.

I was hoping to be able to sit on my recliner armchair, coffee in hand and watch the birds feeding right before my eyes.

Perhaps it is too exposed for them now that the Pittosporum has succumbed to the winter gales and there is less cover from the local buzzard and sparrowhawk. 

I shall remain patient and hopeful for a while longer.





The Dog Ate My Homework

Real Life seems to have reared its (sometimes ugly) head again recently so I have not been playing in Blogland for a little while.

I apologise for not replying to all comments on my last posts, and for not commenting on your blogs recently.   I blame that dog.

Today I had a 40 minute walk across town for a double dentist's appointment (lucky old me);  half an hour with the hygienist for a scale and polish then half an hour with the dentist to replace a broken filling.  Afterwards, as I stood at the reception desk to pay the bill and make my follow up appointment, I started chatting to the smiling and cheerful receptionist.  She was a real tonic and we talked about how much we enjoy living in the town, our seaside walks and the general way of life.  I had already had a very positive experience with the kind and gentle hygienist and similar with the dentist, so came away from a previously dreaded experience with a spring in my step.

I feel good today.

BERJAYA




Seeing Stars

I had difficulty sleeping last night, just dozing on and off for an hour here and there.

It was a cold, cloudless, still night so I was content to just lie snuggled up under the duvet looking up at the stars through the skylight above my bed, as I have done on previous sleepless nights.

Our bedroom faces north so Venus was clearly visible above the treetops.

Have you noticed that it is easier to see the stars if you don't look directly at them?  I let my gaze drift slightly to one side and could then see them all twinkling away.

Around 3 a.m. I became aware of a brighter spot of light moving steadily down, from the top edge of the window in a straight line down to the bottom edge. It was gone in less than a minute.

I am assuming is was the International Space Station so had a quick look at the online tracker map this morning. It does seem to have passed overhead at roughly that time.  I didn’t think to wave to the crew.

BERJAYA



I Missed You

It has only been a couple of weeks but I have missed my blog friends.

I am feeling a lot better, physically and mentally, and hoping to rekindle my friendships with everyone.

My blog posts and comments may be a little sporadic but I am still reading all your news.

This sight outside my front door cheered me up this morning.

BERJAYA



So Weary

Lately I have been feeling quite tired most days and lacking in much motivation to get started on all the little projects I had planned.

Today I finished my volunteering shift at the charity shop an hour earlier than usual as I was feeling tired. I walked home but my legs felt like lead.  After lunch I lay down on the sofa and fell asleep for two hours.

I know it can't be down to my thyroid problem as I had all the blood tests last month. Only a slightly raised white cell count but everything else was normal.  I am over last week's cold now so it can't be that.

Perhaps it is the gloomy winter season or just me getting older!

BERJAYA


Wishing For Rain?

Manx folk lore would have us all hoping for a rainy day on 1st February.

It was believed that the Caillagh ny Groamagh (roughly translated as ’Gloomy witch’) was thrown into the sea in Ireland and drifted here.

On the morning of 1st February she landed at Port St. Mary where she hunted for sticks to light a fire to dry and warm herself.  The area she landed used to be known as Callie or Caillagh Point, but has today become known as Kallow Point.

So the legend goes, it is hoped that every ditch will be full of rain or snow on the first morning of February.  This is so the caillagh cannot start her fire, and only then can we can be sure of a good spring.


Laa’l Breeshey, or Breeshey’s Day.

’Breeshey’ is the Manx form of ’Bridget,’ the Irish Saint who famously laid out her cloak, which miraculously stretched to cover enough land for her nunnery.

The Manx believed that Breeshey would wander the island on Oie’ll Vreeshey (St. Bridget’s Eve, January 31), looking for a place to stay, so people would make up a spare bed, leave out food and drink, and recite at the door before bed:

Vreeshey, Vreeshey, tar gys my hie, tar gys y thie ayms noght.
(Breeshey, Breeshey, come to my house, come to my house tonight",

In the morning, if the food and drink had been tasted and the bed slept in, it was a sign that Breeshey had visited and your house was blessed, so you could look forward to great luck and fortune ahead.

This was, however, open to abuse, as at least one story tells us.

Edward Faragher, the poet of Cregneash, tells of the woman of Earyween, a farm high up the Baldwin valley, who prepared correctly for Oie’ll Vreeshey.  However, unknown to her, a Jurby man was passing in the night and couldn’t resist the free food, beer and bed.  He had already gone by the time she emerged in the morning, allowing her to believe that Breeshey had visited and her luck was made. She carried this belief to the grave, as the man was too ashamed to tell the true story until after her death.


Ooh, look, it's raining!


Sound

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Yorkshire Pudding recently posted here  about the images and sensations that can be conjured up by certain sounds.

His post struck a chord with me (yes, I realise that is a bad attempt at a pun).   As I have a genetically acquired hearing loss my relationship with sound has changed dramatically over the years since I began to grow deaf in my late 30s.

As a young woman I loved to listen to music, visit the theatre, restaurants, pubs etc and watch films and TV.  Crowded places were of course noisy but nothing that caused any problems with my social life.

Once my hearing loss was properly diagnosed and I was fitted with hearing aids, my life began to change subtly as ordinary, every day sounds became less familiar, often distorted and frequently uncomfortable.  It may not be widely understood but hearing aids do not always provide the wearer with "normal" hearing.   For a normal hearing person, your brain will automatically tune out some background noise without you being aware of it, making it easier to listen to conversations for example. With a hearing aid that is more difficult as all noise is generally amplified at the same level, making it difficult to filter out unwanted background noise.  There are some very sophisticated "smart" hearing aids out there now which do have the ability to filter out certain background noise and adjust to different environments, but these cost several thousand pounds so are out of my reach.

I have found that I can no longer hear all the different frequency levels when listening to music so songs that I have been very familiar with now sound totally different, so much so that sometimes I can no longer identify them when they are played on the radio or TV.

Other sounds are very uncomfortable; I have become super sensitive to sudden loud noises, for example if an object is dropped onto a hard surface or a car engine revs or someone coughs loudly.  The sound of running water is for some reason another sound that can be very uncomfortable and will often drown out(!) all other sounds.

Reading YP's post made me a little sad that I have lost that wonderful ability to just let everyday, soothing sounds wash over me and conjure up memories, images and sensations that I took for granted in my younger days.

Enjoy what you have whilst you have it.  Some simple pleasures are well worth savouring.




A Break

 ... from the cold, rainy winter we have endured so far.  This week has been mainly dry and today has been bright and sunny. This is the view up at the mountain tram stop this afternoon...

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I decided to take advantage of the break in the weather to have a little day out on the bus.  All by myself.  I had some gift vouchers from my sister for Christmas and birthday so thought I would see what I fancied spending them on. P had planned to have a long run up on the fells so he didn't want to come with me.  No tugging on my leash as I browse the clothing aisles!

A two minute walk to the bus stop at the end of  Dog Poo Alley then hop on the bus, paying with my old fogey bus pass and a pleasant 50 minute pootle along the coast road.

I was out for three and a half hours in total, stopping briefly for coffee and a sandwich just before the office lunchtime rush.

I took advantage of the bus free WiFi to message P to let him know I was on my way.  

It was a pleasant surprise to see him waiting by the bus stop as I got off.  He must have missed me!




A Crackling Kettle

BERJAYA

For the past week our electric jug kettle has started making a very loud crackling sound as it starts to heat up.  It is so loud that I can hear it from the next room even without my hearing aids in.

I consulted Professor G and most online posts I found suggested that the heating element may be on its last legs.  P and I duly walked into town yesterday afternoon and I selected a replacement kettle which we purchased.

When we reached home P made a cup of tea, using the old kettle, as I started to unpack the new one.  From experience we found that our current stainless steel kettle needed to be boiled several times using clean water to remove the taint caused by the factory's protective coating on the inside, so I intended to do the same for the new one.

P stopped me from unpacking the new kettle as he said that he thought the current one didn't sound as bad and that perhaps we should take back the new one and get a refund.

Seriously??  I have boiled our kettle a couple of times now and it still sounds like it is going into orbit!

I think he just has second thoughts on spending the money and is desperate to get it back whilst the current kettle is still hanging on.  I think I need to point out to him that even if it lasts another month or so, we shall still need a new one at that point and the prices may well have risen  by then.

BERJAYA