I've Had Bad Dreams...

i am sooo tired!!!!

2008-05-09T06:55:29Z

just came back from a double shift at the bar. 15 hrs. but it was fun. now only if i could get insurance from this job!!! LOL!

I'm feelin' sick right about now....

2007-10-24T06:16:19Z

It is about 2:15 am NY time & I should've went to sleep by at least 10pm b/c I have to be out of my mother's house by 6am to get to jfk by 9am to get to Seattle..... but i'm soooo nervous. DAMN I HATE PLANES!!!!! I think I'm gonna vomit!

are ya surprised?..... anyone?...... ANYONE!!!!?

2007-09-05T05:34:22Z

i have finally heard the new alicia keys' song "no one" & i can't get enough of it! i even put it on my myspace page! damn i love her!!!!!

wish me luck......

2007-08-31T03:44:24Z

I JUST FILLED OUT AN APPLICATION FOR LONG ISLAND UNIVERSITY (THE BROOKLYN CAMPUS). cLASSES OF COURSE FOR THE SPRING OF 2008 FOR RADIOLOGY. I'M SO EXCITED.... NEW SCHOOL, NEW PEOPLE, NEW EXPERIENCES

a lil' bit of love for the letter W.........

2007-08-26T04:47:00Z

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queer_theory

ten songs i love that begin with the letter W.... Alright so it was supposed to be 10 songs but i was going thru my zune & come on a lot of great songs begin with the letter w so i ended up with 24.... sorry!!!! :)

1. Where Did You Sleep Last Night by Nirvana

2. Waiting for that Day / You Can't Always Get What You Want by George Michael

3. Warning by Incubus

4. Walking the Cow by Daniel Johnston

5. The Way You Move by Outkast

6. We Belong Together by Mariah Carey

7. What Goes Around Comes Around by Justin Timberlake

8. What I Got by Sublime (one of the most underrated bands ever!!!!)

9. When Doves Cry by Prince

10. Whiskey in the Jar by Metallica

11. Who Would've Thought by Rancid

12. Why Bother? by Weezer

13. Why Can't This Be Love? by Van Halen

14. Why Do I Feel So Sad? by Alicia Keys

15. Wild Horse by The Rolling Stones

16. Winter by Tori Amos

17. Wish Fulfillment by Sonic Youth

18. Wish You Were Here by Incubus

19. Wonderwall by Oasis

20. Wolly Muffler by Harvey Danger

21. Would? by Alice in Chains

22. Wouldn't It Be Nice? by the Beach Boys

23. Wrapped Around Your Finger by The Police

24. The Wrong Way by Sublime
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I'VE BEEN TAGGED BY.....

2007-07-11T04:19:23Z

alias_aquarian)

OK SO I'M GONNA LIST 7 SONGS THAT I'M RELIGIOUSLY LISTENING TO. NOW PLEASE DON'T MAKE FUN OF ME!!!

1) CRAZY FOR YOU - MADONNA (AKA MADGE OR ESTHER THE MOLESTOR!) ok on this one i'm just gonna say quite catchy, no!!!?

2) FALLING FOR YOU - WEEZER (AKA THE WEEZ) aha!!!! c'mon now the weez! acutally pinkerton is 1 of my all time favorite albums

3) ARRESTED IN SHANGHAI - RANCID "my only weapon i call poetry" what a great line! i love it!!!!!

4) YOU - LLOYD FEATURING LIL' WAYNE another case of the catchy!!!

5) RIGHT BACK - SUBLIME this gem comes from another 1 of my all time favorite albums 40oz to freedom. can't go wrong with that album!

6) BECAUSE OF YOU - NE-YO this ne-yo is an amazing writer. he can't be more than 24 yrs. old & he's out there writing songs for older singers

7) LITTLE RED CORVETTE - PRINCE (AKA SEXXXY MOFO!) um on this one, or any kinda discussion that has to do with the PURPLE ONE i don't think i need to explain ;)

THERE ARE MY 7 SONGS BUT I'M GONNA ADD 1 MORE IF THAT'S OK:

8) I DROVE ALL NIGHT - CYNDI LAUPER this comes from the gay man that's buried inside me ;P

my beloved sister got me a pink ZUNE for my birthday....

2007-07-10T05:04:32Z

IT HOLDS 7,500 SONGS, HAS A RADIO, PHOTOS & VIDEOS. IF YA CAN'T TELL I'M OVER EXCITED!!!! I'M PUTTING ALL MY CD'S ON MY ZUNE , WHICH, BELIEVE ME, IS A SHIT LOAD. HOW IS EVERYONE OUT THERE DOING?

taken from texas mamasita.....

2007-07-04T20:18:44Z

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next 4-7 sentences on your LJ along with these instructions.
5. Don't you dare dig for that "cool" or "intellectual" book in your closet! I know you were thinking about it! Just pick up whatever is closest (unless it's too troublesome to reach and is really heavy. Then go back to step 1).
6. Tag five people.

AND YOU, EACH OF YOU, WERE WITH HIM. AH, HOW WELL YOU KNOW IT, FOR IT WAS YOU WHO ESCAPED TO FREEDOM. AH, YES, AND YOU KNOW THE STORY."
I SAW HIM RESTING NOW, AND BEAMING OUT ACROSS THE CHAPEL, HIS HUGE HEAD TURNING TO ALL ITS CORNERS LIKE A BEACON, HIS VOICE STILL ECHOING AS I FOUGHT BACK MY EMOTION. FOR THE FIRST TIME THE EVOCATION OF THE FOUNDER SADDENED ME, AND THE CAMPUS SEEMED TO RUSH PAST ME, FAST RETREATING, LIKE THE FADING OF A DREAM AT THE SUNDERING OF SLUMBER. BESIDE ME, THE STUDENT'S EYES SWARM WITH A DISTORTING CATARACT OF TEARS, HIS FEATURES RIGID AS THOUGH HE STRUGGLED WITHIN HIMSELF. THE FAT MAN WAS PLAYING UPON THE WHOLE AUIDENCE WITHOUT THE LEAST SHOW OF EXERTION. HE SEEMED COMPLETELY COMPOSED, HIDDEN BEHIND HIS BLACK-LENSED GLASSES, ONLY HIS MOBILE FEATURES GESTURING HIS VOCAL DRAMA. I NUDGED THE BOY BESIDE ME.

SORRY FOR SUCH A LONG ENTRY BUT INVISIBLE MAN BY RALPH ELLISION WAS NEXT TO ME (PERHAPS THE GREATEST BOOK EVER!)

I WON'T TAG ANYONE SO WHOEVER WOULD LIKE TO DO THIS YOU'RE MORE THAN WELCOMED!

dear mama trucker....

2007-07-04T15:55:24Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LIL' ANGEL!
I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WOULD'VE BEEN 5 YEARS OLD TODAY!
I MISS YOU SO MUCH
& THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY!

XOXOXO
MOMMY

my first few days in cumming, georgia....

2007-06-25T21:24:55Z

I ARRIVED ON WEDNESDAY & ROY PICKED ME UP AT THE AIRPORT. MY GOD I GOT LOST TRYING TO FIND HIM. TURNS OUT I HAD TO TAKE A SHUTTLE TRAIN A COUPLE OF STOPS TO GET TO WHERE HE WAS. THE RIDE BACK TO HIS HOUSE WAS CLOSE TO AN HOUR BUT IT DIDN'T FEEL THAT LONG.
WE STOPPED TO GET SOME SALADS FROM BURGER KING & OF COURSE COFFEE FOR MYSELF. THAT NIGHT ROY WENT TO BED EARLY, WELL 11:30, WHICH IN TRUTH IS REALLY EARLY TO ME. I SPENT THE REST OF THE NIGHT IN PAIN FROM MY ROOT CANAL AND THE TALK I HAD WITH CHRIS HELPED TO EASE THE PAIN A BIT, BUT I NEEDED TO GO TO BED BY 3:30AM I WAS SOOOO TIRED

WENT TO ATLANTA WITH CHRIS, OUR TALK CONTINUED, NOT ONE DULL MOMENT IN OUR DISCUSSIONS. AFTER WE PARKED THE CAR A WOMAN, WHO WASN'T BAD LOOKING, APPROACHED US AND ASKED US TO SIGN OUR EMAIL ADDRESSES FOR INFORMATION ABOUT THE BREAST CANCER WALK. SHE SEEMED SO NICE AND KEPT SMILING AT ME, I'M FINALLY REALZING WHEN PEOPLE ARE ATTRACTED TO ME (DAMN IT TOOK LONG ENOUGH!) WENT OUT SHOPPING FOR ROY'S BDAY PRESENTS BEING THAT IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY AND HEADED OUT TO LUNCH. WE ORDERED SEVERAL APPETIZERS & SALADS FOR OUR MEALS. IT'S WEIRD BECAUSE WE WEREN'T STUFFED FROM ALL THE FOOD & DIDN'T EAT LIKE PIGS... WE WERE BOTH SATISIFIED.
AT ONE POINT I WENT TO TAKE A PICTURE OF A BUILDING WITH MY CAMERA WHILE CHRIS WAS ON THE PHONE WITH ROY & AN OFFICER STOPPED ME FROM DOING SO, TELLING ME I WASN'T ALLOWED TO TAKE PICTURES OF BUILDINGS WITHOUT PERMISSION B/C FOR ALL THEY KNOW I XOULD BE A TERRORIST. WTF!!! I TAKE PICS IN NYC ALL THE TIME & JUST TOOK PICS ON THE PLANE. HE WAS NICE ABOUT IT AND TOLD US IF I HAD A DISPOSABLE CAMERA & WAS TAKING A PIC OF CHRIS IN FRONT OF THE BUILDING IT WOULD ALL BE GOOD. I STILL DON'T GET IT BUT WHATEVER!
THAT NIGHT ROY, CHRIS & I HAD THE PRIVILEDGE OF ATTENDING THE TRUE COLORS CONCERT IN ATLANTA. WE PARKED A BIT FROM THE PARK BUT IT WAS SUCH A WARM & LOVING ENVIRONMENT. PEOPLE BROUGHT PICNIC BASKETS WITH THEM AND BOTTLES OF WINE. WE BROUGHT NOTHING WITH US!!! WE HAD NO IDEA YOU COULD DO THIS, I KNOW IN NYC YOU WOULDN'T BE ALLOWED TO DO THIS!
AT ONE POINT I WENT TO THE BATHROOM AND ROY ASKED IF I WAS SURE I WANTED TO GO BY MYSELF I REPLIED WITH: "WHY NOT, WHAT IS A GAY GUY GONNA DO COMPLIMENT ME ON MY DRESS!?" THEY BOTH LAUGHED AT THAT.
MARGARET CHO WAS THE HOST AND CAME OUT BETWEEN EACH ACT. SHE'S A FUNNY MOFO! DRESDEN DOLLS OPENED AND WERE ACTUALLY IN THE MIDDLE OF THEIR PERFORMANCE, WALKING THRU THE CROWD, GETTING HANDED BEER FROM SOMEONE IN THE CROWD. THEY WERE QUITE INTERESTING, I BELIEVE A WHILE AGO I SAW ONE OF THEIR VIDEOS AND WANTED TO CHECK OUT MORE OF THEIR MUSIC BUT NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO.
NEXT UP WAS DEBBIE HARRY, WHO DIDN'T SEEM ALL THAT MUCH INTO THE CROWD OR THE PERFORMANCE, WHICH I FOUND SURPRISING B/C I SAW BLONDIE BACK IN 2002 AND SHE WAS AWESOME. MAYBE IT WASN'T HER NIGHT! (MEAR THE END OF THE CONCERT ALL THE BANDS GOT TOGETHER TO SING A SONG & IT SEEMED LIKE DEBBIE DIDN'T KNOW ANY OF THE WORDS). SHE DIDN'T DO MANY SONGS & DIDN'T DO ANY BLONDIE SONGS.
ERASURE CAM ON NEXT. ANDY BELL HAS SUCH A DISTINCT VOICE. HE WAS VERY MUCH INTO THE CROWD AND THEY PUT ON QUITE A PERFORMANCE. EVERYONE WAS GOING CRAZY FOR THEM.
IN BETWEEN EACH SET WE WENT WALKING THRU THE PARK. I BOUGHT MYSELF A STONY BEAR, A TRUE COLORS CAMOFLAGUE HAT (WHICH I LOVE) & A RAINBOW BOA (WHICH I SHOULD'VE BROUGHT WITH ME TO THE PRIDE PARADE- MORE ON THAT IN ANOTHER POST)
THE FINAL ACT OF COURSE WAS NONE OTHER THAN MS. CYNDI LAUPER. I MUST SAY IT WAS QUITE A THRILL TO SEE HER VERY ENGAGED WITH THE AUDIENCE & SHE SOUNDED GREAT. AND TO TOP IT OFF SHE TOLD THE CROWD IT WAS HER BIRTHDAY, ROY LOST IT "WE HAVE THE SAME BIRTHDAY!!!".IT'S FUNNY HOW NOT LONG BEFORE SHE SAID IT WAS HER BIRTHDAY I WAS WONDERING TO MYSELF IF SHE WAS A CANCER JUST BY THE WAY SHE IS.
WE LEFT THE CONCERT AS SHE DID HER LAST SONG "TRUE COLORS" (WHICH HAPPENS TO BE MINE & ROY'S SONG FOR THE LAST 5-6 YRS.) B/C CHRIS WANTED TO BEAT OUT THE CROWD. (CHRIS & I MET ROY AT HIS JOB & WE FOLLOWED ROY THERE). THE WHOLE NIGHT WAS GREAT UNTIL WE WALKED OUT OF THE PARK AND HEARD THESE DRUNKED MORONS MAKING FUNNY OF THE TRAFFIC OFFICER & CALLING HER A BIG OL' DYKE. WHAT KINDA SHIT IS THAT? WE'RE ALL GAY COMING FROM A ERASE HATE CONCERT & THIS ASSHOLE, WHETHER DRUNK OR NOT, NO EXCUSE, HAS TO BE A PRICK! I JUST DON'T GET IT. BUT THAT'S NOT WHERE IT ENDED.
IN BACK OF US WE HEAR ONE OF THE ASSHOLES GOING ON ABOUT THE GUY IN THE HAT (WHICH WOULD BE ROY). HIS FRIENDS EGG HIM ON BY SAYING "OH PLEASE HE'S NOT EVEN PAYING ATTENTION TO YOU" UPON HEARING THAT HE COMES UP BEHIND ROY AND PUTS HIS ARMS AROUND ROY'S SHOULDERS ROY'S NOT HAVING IT. ROY TURNS AROUND AS I PUSH THE PRICK OFF HIM. ROY TELLS HIM "DON'T TOUCH ME" AND CHRIS GETS IN BETWEEN THE ASS & ROY. CHRIS LOOKED SO PISSED AND I DON'T BLAME HIM. THEY START TO GO ON AS WE'RE WALKING AWAY ABOUT HOW MUCH THEY STILL LOVE US AND YADDA YADDA YADDA.
WE'RE NOT FAR FROM THE CARS AND HE YELLS OUT "THE WHITE BOY IS CUTER ANYWAY!" ROY AND I HAD TO HOLD CHRIS BACK FROM GETTING IN A FIGHT. WE TOLD HIM IT'S JUST NOT WORTH IT.I GOT IN THE CAR WITH ROY AND WENT HOME.
BUT OVER ALL WHAT A GREAT NIGHT! MORE ON THE REST OF MY STAY LATER! </div>

i was told recently not to let opportunities pass me by sooooo....

2007-06-23T19:52:21Z

Saturday, June 23rd, 2007 PST

Click here if today is your birthday.

[Personalize]

Cancer (June 21 - Jul 22)

A variety of opportunities come at you from different directions and it can make you uncertain as to what to do next. With the Sun and Mercury in shy Cancer, you may be afraid and want to give in to your fears. Remember, hiding in your room under the covers won't solve anything. Do something radical and try something totally spontaneous

NOW IT'S ABUT THAT TIME TO PARTY FOR OUR B-DAYS & TO GO OUT AND GET SHIT FACED BEFORE HEADING TO A HOTEL IN ATLANTA AND THEN TO GO TO PRIDE TOMORROW. AND JUST THINK I WAS ORIGINALLY SCHEDULED TO LEAVE TOMORROW AFTERNOON!!! WHAT AND MISS THE PARADE? I'M AFRAID NOT! LAST YEAR WAS MY FIRST PRIDE PARADE AND IT WAS IN NYC, THIS YEAR IN ATLANTA AND NEXT YEAR? WHO KNOWS MAYBE MIAMI OR SAN FRANCISCO!?
ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND
XOXOXO
JO-JO

here's 2 my first time flying!!!

2007-06-22T05:57:42Z

I GOT TO THE AIRPORT AND DIDN'T HAVE ANY HASSLE UNTIL I SET THE ALARMS OFF & I HAD TO BE SEARCHED BY A HOTTIE, BUT WHAT KINDA HASSLE IS THAT. I ALSO WASN'T ALLOWED TO BRING THE COLOGNE I GOT ROY FOR HIS B-DAY ON THE PLANE BUT I WAS ALLOWED TO HAVE T GIVEN TO MY MOM.
I PARTED WAYS WITH MY MOM & JOE AND WAITED ABOUT AN HOUR BEFORE WE WERE SCHEDULED TO TAKE FLIGHT. THEY TOLD US 15 MINUTES BEFORE TIME THAT WE WOULD BE ON DELAY TIL 4:30 DUE TO MECHANICAL DIFFICULTIES. I GOT NERVOUS. YOU SEE I HAVE 3 BIG FEARS: PLANES (SINCE I WAS 3), FIRE (AGAIN SINCE I WAS 3) AND WATER (YOU GUESSED IT SINCE I WAS 3). IF ANYTHING HAPPENS ON THAT PLANE I'M SCREWED WITH ALL MY FEARS!
4:15 WE STEP ON BOARD. I'M ALL ALONE, MY LEFT SIDE OF THE MOUTH IS KILLING ME, BOTH ON TOP & BOTTOM & I'M A LIL' SHAKY. I SIT DOWN AND CONVINCE MYSELF TO RELAX. OH HOW NICE I HEAR MUSIC... WOW THIS SOUNDS LIKE THE THEME SONG TO SIX FEET UN...... OH SHIT THIS IS THE THEME SONG !!!!!! RIGHT THEN AND THERE I CALLED MY SISTER WHO WAS AT WORK. SHE'S 10X MORE AFRAID OF PLANES THAN ME AND PROBABLY WILL NEVER GET ON A PLANE. I TELL HER, WHILE I'M CRYING (BUT I DON'T THINK SHE NOTICED), WHAT WAS BEING PLAYED. SHE TOLD ME "IF I WAS WITH YOU YOU KNOW WE WOULD BE GETTING THE HELL OFF THAT PLANE, RIGHT!? SO TRUE!
NOT LONG AFTER A WOMAN SITS NEXT TO ME. A LIL WHILE BEFORE TAKE OFF I ASKED HER A QUESTION, WHICH I FORGOT WHAT I ASKED HER AND I LET HER KNOW IT WAS MY FIRST TIME FLYING, I STARTED TO SHED A LIL BIT OF TEARS AGAIN. THIS WOMAN HELD MY HAND THRU IT ALL! WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SOUL! BEFORE I TALKED WITH HER ANOTHER LADY ASKED HER WHAT HER SEAT # WAS AND WHEN SHE TOLD HER THE LADY LET HER KNOW SHE WAS IN THE WRONG SEAT, BUT THANKFULLY LET HER STAY THERE!
TURNS OUT SHE'S A MAKE-UP ARTIST NAMED LISA FROM SF BUT CAME TO LIVE IN NYC, SHE HAS CHILDREN AND MOVED WHEN THEY GOT OLDER. SHE'S AN AFRICAN AMERICAN WITH GREY DREADS AND SO BEAUTIFUL, KINDA REMINDED ME OF AN EX. WE TALKED THE WHOLE FLIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING! SHE'S A SCORPIO WHICH IS COOL , A FELLOW WATER SIGN. I GAVE HER THE # OF MY ACUPUNCTURIST & MY #. HOPEFULLY WE WILL STAY IN TOUCH. SHE WAS TAKING 2 FLIGHTS AND HAD TO RUN FOR THE 2ND FLIGHT WHEN OUR PLANE LANDED TO GO TO JACKSONVILLE MISSISSIPPI, OH FUN!
BTW THERE WAS A REALLY FUNNY MOMENT WHEN SHE ASKED ME IF I REQUESTED A SEAT BY THE WINDOW. I SAID YEA, IF I'M GONNA EXPERIENCE GOING ON A PLANE I WANT THE FULL EFFECT. SHE TOLD ME EVEN THOUGH SHE TRAVELS ONCE A WEEK SHE HAS NEVER AND WILL NEVER TAKE A WINDOW SEAT B/C THAT TOO MUCH FOR HER TO HANDLE. MY REPLY? "WELL NOW THAT I'M EXPERIENCED WOULD YOU LIKE TO CHANGE SEATS, I'LL HOLD YOUR HAND?" WE BOTH LAUGHED. NOW I ONLY HOPE MY SECOND FLIGHT IS JUST AS COMFORTABLE!</div>A LIL WHILE BEFORE WE LANDED I TOOK SOME PHOTOS BUT THE WINDOW WAS KINDA DIRTY, AND I THINK I WOULD'VE BEEN EVEN MORE RELAXED IF I WAS ABLE TO DRINK BUT THOSE ANTIBIOTICS HAS DISABLED THAT, WELL UNTIL TOMORROW NITE THAT IS ;)
I'LL POST MORE ABOUT MY STAY IN ANOTHER POST.
ENJOY THE WEEKEND
XOXOXO
JO-JO

PS THE TRUE COLORS SHOW WAS AMAZING! I WILL ALSO WRITE ABOUT THAT!!!

and so it goes another day another frickin' bill!

2007-05-17T12:23:53Z

A lot has been going on since i got sick. i've been trying to get medical insurance from healthy ny. the other day i called to get the fax number only to learn the next day that they didn't give me the right fax number (and yes i did repeat the number to the lady who gave it to me just to verify it was right & she told me that was it) i found out thru my father's close friend that it was the fax number to a jewelery store, hey at least both blue cross blue shield and the store are located in manhattan ;)
so i have the right number, faxed it and mailed it out. i also got the bills for the first night ER visit where they sent me home only to call my mom 2 days later to say they made a mistake and i had to hurry up back to the hospital.... to find out..... they didn't know what was wrong but it wasn't spinal meningitis. oh i got a bill for that visit as well... something like $1400 each visit and i didn't get the ambulance bill yet.
i called the financial assistance number from the hospital and it went to voice mail, left my name and number... no call back. go figure!
but despite the foolish stress i'm pretty happy b/c i could've died. thank god for the holistic doctors that took care of me in a way that the hospital docs couldn't. my back is still bothering me here and there but spirit told me not to worry i'll feel that way for about a month or so but to still let the hospital be aware that i'm in pain.
i hope everyone out there is doing well

jo-jo

i won't be needing a bike anymore.....

2007-05-10T06:47:24Z

Thursday, May 10th, 2007 PST

[Personalize]

Cancer (June 21 - Jul 22)

Everyone may be pushing and pulling you to do things you would rather not do. Unfortunately, the energy you put into resistance will likely take its toll, making you even less comfortable. Keep in mind that this is an opportune time for change; you'll reach your goals if you remain open to the possibilities

THIS HORORSCOPE IS WEIRD BECAUSE JUST LAST NITE I WAS TALKING TO A CLOSE FRIEND OF MY DAD'S ABOUT HOW I NEED TO MAKE MANY DIFFERENT CHANGES IN MY LIFE. THIS IS SOMETHING I HAVE KNOWN FOR SO LONG AND ALL I DID WAS RECOGNIZE THESE CHANGES HAD TO TAKE PLACE BUT I PROCRASTINATE ACTUALLY CHANGING THINGS. ONE EXAMPLE IS THAT I HAVE BEEN LOOKING TO GET SOMETHING AS SIMPLE AS MY DRIVER'S LICENSE. I GOT MY PERMIT IN 2002 SHORTLY BEFORE THE CAR ACCIDENT AND JUST KEPT IT OFF. TONITE I TOOK THE NEXT STEP TO THE 5 HOUR CLASS. THERE'S SO MUCH MORE THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE BUT I MUST SAY THAT I'M PROUD OF MYSELF FOR FINALLY MOVING A LITTLE CLOSER TO GETTING SOMETHING DONE!! :)

nothing much on this end.....

2007-05-09T18:48:50Z

Wednesday, May 9th, 2007 PST

[Personalize]

Cancer (June 21 - Jul 22)

You might feel as if you don't have enough of what you need now. On one hand, it might be a lack of money that is stressing you out. On the other hand, it could be your self-esteem that's in short supply. Either way, don't get discouraged, for this is not about defeat. This is your chance to show your strength by doing the best with what you have.

BY THE WAY IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN DISTURBIA YET YOU NEED TO!!!!!! THAT IS ALL :)

would ya look at this!!!!? my god too hot!.....

2007-05-03T00:06:11Z

I'M REALLY HAPPY SHE DIDN'T FALL AT THE END :)

what a week it's been!

2007-04-24T16:35:02Z

I HAVEN'T BEEN ONLINE IN THE PAST WEEK BECAUSE I WAS REALLY ILL SINCE LAST WEDNESDAY. THAT MORNING I WOKE UP WITH WHAT SEEMED LIKE A HANGOVER, YET I DIDN'T DRINK THE PREVIOUS NIGHT. MY HEAD WAS HEAVY & I WAS REALLY TIRED. SO I WENT TO BED AND EVERY SO OFTEN I REMEMBER JOE COMING INTO MY ROOM THROUGHOUT THE DAY AND AFTERNOON BUT I WAS TOO WEAK (YET SOMEHOW SATISIFED WITH THE REST I WAS GETTING) TO REALLY GET UP. AT ONE POINT I WOKE UP AND WAS VOMITTING VIOLENTLY, SO VIOLENT IT WAS WHILE I WAS STANDING UP. I WASN'T COUGHING, WASN'T SNEEZING, NOTHING THAT WOULD SEEM LIKE YOUR NORMAL SICKNESS.
I CALLED MY SISTER AT WORK AND AT THAT POINT I THOUGHT I WAS SPEAKING SO COHERENTLY BUT FROM WHAT SHE TOLD ME I WASN'T MAKING ANY SENSE EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT I LET HER KNOW I WASN'T GONNA BE ABLE TO WORK THE NEXT MORNING. NOT LONG AFTER I GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH HER MY MOM CALLED. I TOLD MY MOM LET ME COME OVER & TAKE CARE OF ME. SHE HAD OTHER THINGS IN MIND, LIKE SENDING ME TO THE DOCTOR!!!! I WENT TO HIM AND AS SOON AS HE SAW I COULDN'T PUT MY CHIN TO MY CHEST WITHOUT SCREAMING IN PAIN AND THAT MY FEVER WAS 100.3 HE WANTED ME TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL. HE FEARED ALL THE SYMPTOMS WERE THOSE OF SPINAL MENNINGITIS.
I GET RUSHED TO THE HOSPITAL, MY MOM FILLS OUT PAPERWORK THEY TAKE MY TEMPERATURE & I SIT IN A WHEELCHAIR FOR THE NEXT 2 HRS. I WASN'T COMFORTABLE UNLESS I WAS LAYING DOWN. IT HURT TO STAND, TO SIT UP. I COULD LOOK AT THE LIGHT BUT COULDN'T TOLERATE MOVING MY HEAD AT ALL. I WAS CONSCIOUS OF EVERYTHING THAT WAS GOING ON AROUND ME BUT IN TOO MUCH PAIN TO RESPOND.
WHEN I FINALLY GOT CALLED INTO THE ER THEY TOOK MY TEMPERATURE WHICH WENT UP TO 103, YEAH RECTAL TEMPERATURE (I EVEN JOKED WITH THE NURSE ABOUT GETTING HER NAME AFTER SHE DID THAT, SHE WAS SO NICE). THEN THIS YOUNG ASSHOLE OF A DOC WAS TRYING TO TELL ME I NEEDED A SPINAL TAP (OOH MY FAVORITE MOVIE, HE DIDN'T FIND THAT FUNNY) I ASKED HIM IF HE COULD TALK TO MY MOM ABOUT EVERYTHING BECAUSE I WAS SOOOOOOO OUT OF IT AND HIS RESPONOSE WAS "WHY YOU'RE 27!" WHAT A FUCKIN' PRICK AND HE WAS OVERTANNED AND WALKED LIKE A PENGUIN. THAT BASTARD HURT ME WITH THAT NEEDLE, I WAS SO OUT OF IT I THOUGHT I WAS PARALYZED.
2 DAYS AFTER THE HOSPITAL VISIT THEY CALLED MY MOM AND TOLD HER THEY WERE MISTAKEN, I DID HAVE SPINAL MENNINGITIS. WE GET THERE, I'M QUARANTINED FOR 3 HRS AND THEN THEY TELL ME YOU DON'T HAVE IT. WE DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE BUT THE CHEST XRAY & THE CATSCAN DIDN'T SHOW ANYTHING. BUT B/C I DIDN'T HAVE INSURANCE THEY SENT ME HOME, AW NICE PRIVATE HOSPITAL.. THIS DOCTOR WAS ACTUALLY VERY SWEET BUT HE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I HAD, JUST THAT I DIDN'T HAVE SPINAL MENNINGITIS. OH THIS BILL IS GINNA BE LOVELY!!!
EVERYDAY WENT BY AND I WASN'T AWARE OF WHAT DAY IT WAS. ON SATURDAY MY UNCLE SUGGESTED TAKING ME TO THE ACUPUNCTURIST AMD THAT'S WHEN I STARTED TO FEEL BETTER. BUT THROUGH ALL THOSE DAYS SINCE THEN IT WENT UP AND DOWN. I FELT LIKE MY HEAD WAS GONNA EXPLODE. EVEN THOUGH I HAD A HORRIBLE HEAD INJURY I HAVEN'T HAD A HEADACHE IN YEARS. THIS WAS UNBEARABLE AND IT DIDN'T GO AWAY FOR 6 DAYS. IT WASN' T UNTIL SEX AND THE CITY AROUND 11PM IN MY SISTER'S LIVING ROOM THAT EVERYTHING CHANGED A BIT AND I FELT A LOT BETTER. AND THEN IT WOULD COME BACK. 2AM IT WAS ALL GONE AND I HOPE IT NEVER COMES BACK. I NEVER SUFFERED A VIRAL INFECTION LIKE THIS.
NOW I'M OFF TO THE DOCTOR, MORE NEEDLES, MORE LOVE!!!
XOXOXOXO
JO-JO

it's so crazy outside right now....

2007-04-16T03:22:51Z

WOKE UP TO POURING RAIN THIS MORNING. WENT TO WORK, WALKED MAYBE A MILE, TOOK THE BUS TO THE TRAIN. GOT TO WORK AT 11:30AM & WAS STILL QUITE DAMP AT 3PM. IT'S SO CRAZY OUTSIDE, THE RAIN HASN'T STOPPED. AND I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT REGULAR RAIN.... IT IS POURING... NONSTOP!!!! AND IT WON'T END UNTIL WEDNESDAY.
TOMORROW I WAS SUPPOSED TO HANG OUT WITH A CUTIE (WE'LL SEE ABOUT THAT) AND GET MY COMPUTER CHECKED OUT BY MY FRIEND. BUT FIRST I HAVE TO GO TO THE VET WITH MY MOM B/C HER CHIHUAHUA DUSTY IS PEEING BLOOD & I IMAGINE THAT CAN'T BE SO GOOD. THE PROBLEM WITH THIS DOG IS YOU CAN NEVER TELL IF SHE'S IN PAIN B/C SHE HOLDS IT ALL IN... IT'S AS IF NOTHING PHASES HER! I REALLY HOPE SHE'S OK.
ONE OF THE CUTE THINGS ABOUT DUSTY IS THAT SHE HAS THE SAME EXACT MARKINGS ON HER FACE AS JAMAICA ONLY DUSTY IS GREY (OR BETTER KNOWN AS BLUE).

IN OTHER NEWS I PURCHASED MY ROUND TRIP TICKETS TO ATLANTA FOR JUNE20TH - JUNE 24TH TO HANG OUT WITH MY ROY BOY & HIS BOYFRIEND CHRIS IN THEIR NEWLY BUILT HOUSE IN CUMMING, GEORGIA. THE TRUE COLORS TOUR IS STOPPING THERE ON THE 21ST & WE'RE GETTING TICKETS. SHOULD BE FUN ESPECIALLY B/C IT'S ON ROY'S B-DAY & TRUE COLORS WAS ALWAYS MY SONG FOR HIM :)
THE THING THAT SUCKS IS THAT I'VE NEVER BEEN ON A PLANE BEFORE & I'M GOING ALL ALONE. I KNOW I'LL GET THROUGH IT, IT'S ONLY 1 & A HALF HOURS OR SO. AND FROM WHAT I HEAR THE $233 I PAID FOR THE ROUND TRIP TICKETS FROM PRICELINE.COM AIN'T SO BAD :)

This is something you should all read....

2007-04-13T16:18:58Z

'SEX' JOCK A 'CRUEL CAT KILLER'

'EX-MET' ACTOR BASHED GAL PAL'S PET: DA

By PHILIP MESSING

TRAGIC TAIL: Ex-Met farmhand Joe Petcka (above, with Kim Cattrall in "Sex and the City,")allegedly killed Norman the cat.

April 13, 2007 -- A former Mets minor-leaguer was so jealous of his girlfriend's pet cat, Norman, that he shouted, "You love that cat more than me" during a drunken fight - then brutally beat the tabby to death, prosecutors said yesterday.

Joe Petcka - who was drafted by the Amazin's in 1992 before taking up acting and getting a bit part on "Sex and the City" - savaged the helpless animal two weeks ago in a downtown apartment, authorities said. The violence stunned even hardened animal welfare agents.

The 6-foot-3, 205-pound bruiser allegedly punched the orange-and-white, 71/2-pound puss numerous times, leaving it with a cut lip, broken ribs, fractured teeth, a split tongue, torn lungs and blood in its chest cavity, said Robert Reisman, a veterinarian with the ASPCA.

"This pet's injuries reflect true, ugly violence," said Joseph Pentangelo, an ASPCA spokesman.

According to authorities, the trouble started on the night of March 27. After some drinking, Petcka, 36, and his girlfriend, Sports Illustrated reporter Lisa Altobelli, had a rip-roaring fight.

"You love that cat more than you love me," he shouted, before leaving the woman's Greenwich Street apartment.

He allegedly returned the next day when Altobelli wasn't there and launched his sick attack, officials said.

When Altobelli got home she found her beloved Norman's brutalized remains beneath her nightstand. She took the cat to an animal hospital, where vets determined that it suffered a lingering, agonizing death.

"Because of the chest trauma, there was difficulty breathing," Reisman said. "The cat died over a period of 15 minutes."

Petcka was charged yesterday with a felony count of aggravated cruelty to animals. He faces up to two years in prison, the Manhattan District Attorney's Office said.

Petcka's lawyer, Charles Hochbaum, defended the actor, claiming that it was Norman who was the aggressor.

"I can say what we believe happened," the attorney said. "The cat bit him, then any injuries to the cat were in response to being bit."

The Wisconsin native was a fifth-round draft pick for the Mets, and kicked around their farm system for a while but never made it to the majors.

In addition to his one-episode "Sex and the City" stint, he appeared in the Mel Gibson-Helen Hunt film "What Women Want," in which he played the character "Man on Street." He now works as a waiter and does some set design.

Additional reporting by Laura Italiano

philip.messing@nypost.com

THIS STORY AGGRAVATES ME SO MUCH! I CAN'T BELIEVE IF CONVICTED HE WILL ONLY SERVE 2 YRS AT THE MOST!

a couple o' things...

2007-04-02T23:06:01Z

first off i feel like crap! my body is aching & i realize i must be getting sick. you can only dodge getting sick for so long. everyone around me gets sick & i don't get anything. well i'm paying now.

secondly i am proud to say i have come to the conclusion that i must quit smoking. i mean i hardly smoked to begin with, but i realized a lot of things while drunk on thursday (vodka has helped to awaken a lot of things, go figure). i realized i was given this life & that i should respect what was given to me & not go & look to harm it in any way. i'm healthy, i work out, i eat right so why should i put any kinda crap in my body, it makes no sense. and on top of that i gotta pay $8 a pack to get me sick. no thanks!

thirdly, i finally listened to lupe fiasco's FOOD & LIQUOR & i must say if you don't have it you need to get it, it's poetic & intelligent, especially "daydreamin'" with jill scott & "hurt me soul". quite movin'!

enjoy the remainder of your evening,

~jo-jo~

ps- i was wearing my rainbow ring on another finger, b/c my middle finger was a lil' swollen. it fell off my finger in subway & i couldn't find the red stone. my ring is busted!!! i had to order another one :(

yeah so....

2007-03-30T10:33:38Z

I DRANK LAST NITE.... I NEED TO LEARN WHEN I DRINK KEEP THE PHONE SOOOOOOOOOOOO FAR AWAY FROM ME!

Im so tired i haven't slept a wink, i'm so tired my mind is on the blink.

2007-03-29T05:47:17Z

Thursday, March 29th, 2007 PST

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Cancer (June 21 - Jul 22)

You could have a fantastic time sharing your feelings with someone special today, but you need to be on the lookout for hidden agendas. It is pleasant enough while you stay in the present moment, but as soon as you try to navigate into the future, you might inadvertently set a course for a conflict. Watch where you step for the next few days and let each situation guide you as you go.

HOW INTERESTING SEEING AS I WILL BE HANGING AROUND A SPECIAL SOMEONE TONITE & WE ALWAYS HAVE GREAT CONVERSATIONS. THOUGH, SOMETIMES I WONDER WHAT HER AGENDA IS. I GUESS I'LL FIND OUT IN DUE TIME, RIGHT?

this pisses me off.....

2007-03-27T13:40:19Z

If any of you out there are my friends, I ask you out of the kindness of my heart to repost this. If you're not my friend, I ask you search for the source compassion in your soul and repost this anyway. More importantly, if you're in a position to, DO something about it.

This is about California legislation being passed to exterminate pit bulls. If it passes in California, it could be on it's way to anywhere. Someone has to try to make a difference...what if it were your pet?

It would be great if this could be used for something good other than getting dates. Please pass the word along and post this...so as many people can see this as possible.

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This has to be stopped. We need to save these dogs.

thunder_rose @ 2007-03-27T01:43:00

2007-03-27T05:45:12Z

Tuesday, March 27th, 2007 PST

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Cancer (June 21 - Jul 22)

If you know exactly what you are feeling, then you won't let anyone talk you out of your experience. Your emotions are running deep now, and this is complicated when others don't seem to understand the subtler nuances of your heart. To them, it's just too much information. To you, it's the very essence of what you are feeling. Be open to negotiating a path between the extremes.

my emotions are running deep NOW!!!!? shit they're always running deep :)

thunder_rose @ 2007-03-25T10:34:00

2007-03-25T14:36:33Z

Sunday, March 25th, 2007 PST

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Cancer (June 21 - Jul 22)

Somehow you just know exactly what's going on as information comes to you through dreams and daydreams. You may try to resist your intuition, but you can touch a deep spiritual truth if you willingly surrender your logic. For now, accept any inconsistencies that arise in your imagination, even if they add confusion to your life. Just let the images unfold and figure out the meaning later.

"Somehow you just know exactly what's going on as information comes to you through dreams and daydreams. " hopefully this is not true b/c all my dreams are about losing teeth or death.