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'Many Happy Returns' (Snape/Harry) PG

2013-01-10T01:08:25Z

I haven't posted in gosh, almost a year and a half. But since it's Severus's birthday and I wanted to post this over on the archive anyhow, I thought, you know what? Let's!

Many Happy Returns
Snape/Harry, PG, 590 words

Unmitigated SCHMOOP that I have been meaning to do something with for a very long time indeed. Birthday cake fluff, for Severus, which makes me happee!

Severus Snape stepped gracefully past the grate into Number 12 Grimmauld Place and sniffed the air with interest. Something smelled … delicious. He rose his not inconsiderable nose into the air a bit and inhaled deeply. Yes. Delicious.

Now, that couldn’t be right. There shouldn’t be anyone in the house other than Harry. Well, Lupin perhaps, but they had seen neither hide nor hair of the werewolf in over a week. Not since he’d got that dreamy look in his eyes and mentioned something about ‘the Riviera in spring’. Severus had only been too glad to be shot of him.

He removed his traveling cloak and hung it on the gleaming silver stand that stood beside the fireplace. Harry’d been getting a bit cabin-feverish of late and Severus had arrived home at least twice just this past week to find him slumped over the kitchen table, covered in Mrs. Minniver’s No-Scrub Silver Polish, a plethora of Black Family heirlooms scattered around him, some shining with polish, some tarnished with fifty years of neglect.

But tonight, there was no scent of chemicals bracing the air and no softly snoring Potter when he entered the kitchen. Instead there was --

‘Cake!’ Harry’s cheeks were lightly dusted with flour and there was a smudge of batter on his glasses, as well as the corner of his mouth, none of that though, did anything to dim the smile spread from ear to ear.

‘So it would seem, Mr Potter. May I inquire as to the occasion?’

Harry gave him A Look. Snape ignored it and leaned down for his welcome-home kiss, licking away the batter.

‘Coconut?’

Harry grinned and nodded.

‘That’s --’

‘Your favorite?’ Harry said, looking pleased.

‘It is. My first year at Hogwart’s, Albus celebrated my birthday with me early, before everyone returned from Christmas hols. Just the two of us down in the kitchens, he’d had the House Elves prepare a coconut cake. Just for me.’ Severus could hear his own voice grow wistful and cleared his throat a bit. ‘How did … ?’

Harry smiled softly at him and laced their fingers together. ‘Albus.’

‘Ah. Of course. You haven’t been to Hogwart’s for weeks, whenever did you have the opportunity to interrogate his portrait for recipes?’

Harry blushed a little. ‘I’ve sort of … been planning this for a while.’

The corner of Snape’s mouth turned up just a touch and he gently rubbed his knuckles across Harry’s smooth, blush-warm cheek. ‘Indeed.’

He was rewarded with another of those soft smiles; they were his favorite. They made him feel … warm inside, he supposed, in a way few other things did.

‘It’s nearly done!’ Harry told him, clapping his flour-dusted hands together eagerly and moving back toward the oven. ‘Just a minute or two more and a Cooling Charm, and then we can start frosting! What do you want to have first, dinner or dessert?’

Severus moved closer, in behind Harry where he stood peering through the little window of the oven. ‘Oh, I think you know me rather well enough by now to know I’ve never been a particularly patient man, Mr Potter. I’ve never been any good at waiting for my dessert.’

‘Point,‘ Harry said, smirking a little, and turned to face him, moving warmly into Severus’s arms. Where he belonged. Severus smoothed a lock of hair off Harry’s forehead; wide, green eyes met his own steadily.

‘Happy Birthday, Severus,’ Harry whispered, and - letting himself smile, just a little - Severus bowed his head to captured the boy’s lips in a kiss.

end.

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Hope everyone out there (is anyone still out there? :D) is lovely and having a marvelous new year. ♥!!

sat by the river and it made me complete

2011-07-15T18:54:02Z

*peeks through fingers*

So. Hi!

I haven't posted in forever but I couldn't let today pass with nothing said at all.

I'm a member of this thing we call fandom, whatever fandom it may be at the moment, only because of a boy called Harry Potter. I wouldn't be the writer, reader, fan, friend, person that I am today were it not for him. Before HP, I never even knew such things existed! That people wrote stories and talked and discussed and expanded completely upon a universe. It was ... magical to find that sort of community, especially at that point in my life when I needed something special so badly. Reading HP and becoming involved in the fandom opened up two whole new worlds to me when I was just sixteen years old and I am eternally grateful for everything both the wizarding world and online fandom ever gave me.

I won't say anything about the film, other than that for me, it was perfect. I left the theater completely fulfilled and satisfied after having invested ten years of my life in this one thing, this one set of characters that I have come to love so dear.

I miss you guys. I'm so glad we all went through this together. I couldn't have asked for better people to know and grow close to and enjoy this with. I love you all.

Happy Potter Day!

♥ ♥ ♥.

won't you let me into the garden?

2010-08-25T22:51:30Z

So hell froze over and I got to go out of town for the first time in FOR. EV. ER. to lovely Lake Tahoe with my mom, my sister, and my niece just this last weekend and it was awesome. I won money and drank way too many Shirley Temples and got to take a long, luxurious bath in a ginormous bathtub the likes of which are seen only in hotels. Also, there were blueberry pancakes. Win, win, win.

And then of course, there was this:

Me: *watches Supernatural whilst getting ready*

Family: *inexplicably follows suit without complaint (!?)*

SPN: *angst, brother-touching, you know the drill*

Sister: They look like they're about to make out.

Niece: ... they are.

Me: *CHOKES OMG WTF* Hahaha OMG, whatever guys! *awkward laughter, deep shame at denial of, you know, REALITY BASICALLY*

Mom: *oblivious, thank God*

Sister: *arches eyebrow at television and not at me THANK YOU, LORD* Incestuous brothers, hm?

Me: *DYING ON MY INSIDES*

Sister: *shrugs, continues watching*

And ... that was the end of it. I just. WHAT?? I do not have a family that would be at all okay with my fandom side, honestly. Well, not the slash part anyway, which. What is fandom without slash!? Pfft. So yeah, that happened. It was a crazy mixture of 'omfg have they been reading my diary?!' paired nicely with 'ha, even people who are this far removed can see this shit on their first viewing!!'. CANON ALREADY, SHOW! Okay okay, more canon, already! :D

Sigh. Yeah. I go back to making birthday cake now. Carrot! With walnuts. Urgh. Walnuts ruin everything.

friday i'm in love // the cure

keep it light, keep it bright, keep it gay!

2010-08-05T01:24:54Z

PROP 8 OVERTURNED AND RULED UNCONSTITUTIONAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holy fucking shit. AT LAST. I am just. Unspeakably overjoyed. I don't even know what to do with myself. My niece just ran in and told me the news and just the fact that she was so excited to be able to tell me that gives me such hope for the future.

It's silly, but I totally want to write copious amounts of Shassie marriage fic, mostly of the 'Lassie it is now your LEGAL OBLIGATION to make an honest man out of me' persuasion!!

I just. Wow. I don't even know. This is huge.

*DANCE PARTY*

let's hear it for the boy // katty b

you're the perfect lullaby

2010-07-16T22:32:42Z

Inception. Let us talk about it!

I just got back from the theater and just. Wow. That was one hell of a movie. I just kept finding myself so ... impressed with what film can do these days, what it can be. How grand a scale things can be on. It was marvelous and I loved it. I don't quite know how to organize my thoughts on it just yet, there are simply too many of them. Though I continue to want Ken Watanabe's babies like burning. My gosh, he is so beautiful. Guh.

Is it too early to go hunting for some undoubtedly amazing Arthur/Eames? I feel like it might be too early, but a girl can dream. Ha, pun intended. Those two were so much fabulous.

It is hotter than balls here omfg, but I am off to make homemade pizza and contemplate my own psyche! Win? WIN. \o/

Dream a Little Dream of Me // The Mamas & the Papas

gonna love you with my hands tied

2010-07-04T22:59:39Z

Happy 4th of July, America!

Also, uh, hey. :D

It feels crazy strange to be posting, but something about today just really made me want to. Maybe it's that I'm mega bummed that I don't get to see fireworks tonight and fireworks are probably in my Top Five Favorite Things Ever. Or maybe I just really wanted to use my Shassie popsicle porn icon, as it is both summery and made of win. Either way, here I am!

I swear, it feels like every time I post randomly I've got a new fandom. Though I've been watching Psych since it started and only in the last few months did it decide to go BOOM and start slashing itself for me. So ... yeah!

Anyway! How the hell are you? I miss you guys. Fr rls.

Party in the U.S.A. // Miley Cyrus

this ain't a fairy tale

2009-09-18T05:38:12Z

Dean's amulet. Dean's amulet. Dean's amulet. Dean's amulet. DEAN'S MOTHER FUCKING AMULET. FINALLY. I just. IDEK how long I have been waiting for it to be fleshed out on the show and have some meaning (beyond the fact that Sam gave it to him when they was just Weechesters, which, believe me, I flailed about) and now it does and I am just so freaking excited and fulfilled about the whole thing and I can't wait to see where it takes things and when he gets it back cos he better fucking get it back or I'm cracking SKULLS. And omg Dean immediately being all 'No, fuck you!' to Cas when he asked for it was awesome, and how he ordered him not to lose it and feels naked without it just GAH. THANK. YOU.

So that.

And also, heart to heart on a picnic table. It was so cute!!! Why they had to ruin it with soul-wrenching pain and intolerable brother splitting-upness I will NEVER know. But still, cute. It's probably going to have to be my new header, something I actually need pretty badly. Sigh.

Oh show, you hurt so ~~good~~ ~~bad~~ good.

Cheesecake Factory tomorrow. My tummy is pretty stoked about possible strawberry shortcake-ness. Nom nom nom.

Fearless // Taylor Swift

them wild-eyed boys that'd been away

2009-09-11T19:37:18Z

So. Supernatural, you know?

I got to watch real time for the first time since Heaven and Hell last night and I had honest to goodness forgotten how fucking magical it was to be able to do that, I think. It had been far, far too long since I'd flailed around like a crazy person. It felt right. :D

So yeah, YAY SHOW!!! To say the least.

Dean knows ANGEL MAGIC NOW, THANKS BYE. I don't know why that makes me so excited, only that it does and just. Yeah. I like. I'm interested to see if that goes any further. If Castiel has anything else to teach him. Without that sounding dirty. For once I don't want it to sound dirty! Cos no. Just no.

Dean kinda. I was so hardcore with him all last season cos he was trying so hard to figure things out and save Sammy and I was right there with him the entire time and then this episode he just felt so ... distant. So far away from what I'm used to that it made me kinda sad, like I missed him. Like I could feel Sam missing him. Which is super cheesy but when you take a look at Sam's face throughout the entire episode, I mean. He is just so lost and needs his brother and he can feel Dean pulling away from him and it is nothing short of heartbreaking.

Sam Face. So much Sam Face. I feel like it's been forever since we've gotten to see Sam's face that open. Where we could see all of the emotions run across it and he wasn't hiding it from Dean or Bobby or anyone, he was just feeling, and it was so nice but so sorrowful. Sigh.

Jared though. Fucking hell, with the pretty. I mean, I always expect it with Jensen, and the cute from Jared, but then the pretty just comes out of nowhere and slaps you in the face extra hard cos it's been ALL SUMMER. I feel like we should be issued special glasses to safely view all the combined pretty our show has to offer, honestly.

So. Now we're even more canon than we were before. I. I don't even know. It doesn't bother me that we're in it, it's just. So surreal that I kind of don't even know what to do with it. It's like it's all just some kind of fever dream. The funniest thing is that when Becky was sitting there typing and reading her story aloud as she does it took me a minute to realize there was something wrong. That maybe Sam shouldn't be caressing Dean's clavicle (heh, clavicle) and telling him that if loving him is wrong, he don't wanna be right. That shit's my day to day! And then all of a sudden I was like, wait a fucking minute, I'm watching the actual show, aren't I? Oh fuck. *rewind rewind rewind die*

CHUCK!!! My love for Chuck knows no bounds. The end.

I'm not one of those people who like, try and guess what's going on as things are unfolding. Maybe my brain is just lazy, but I like to just sit back and watch it all unfold. So the whole Bobby being possessed thing caught me by surprise and was like, the biggest fucking relief in the world because I was a mess of tears and Bobby!hate when he told Sam to lose his number. I was worried they were just going to leave it at an assumption that it hadn't really been Bobby talking when he said that, so I was super glad that he made a point of telling Sam how he really felt. Sammy needed that. Sigh. Also, BOBBY! \o/ ILU! Him yelling at the doctor was priceless love.

Is that girl playing Meg gonna be back? Her voice was kinda sexy, man. I dunno how I feel about Meg being back in the picture though. I guess we'll see how that plays out. Makes me miss Nicki though. :(

I really thought the circling of Lucifer's vessel was like, beautifully done. They didn't go all crazy and dark and sinister, but they didn't play it light and funny either. I felt like there was this really happy medium that made it all the more ... real, I guess. It was creepy and so believable that this poor guy would just, slip over to the dark side so willingly. I thought it was awesome. And I'm excited about seeing his Lucifer, I think it could be good. Well done, show. Also, 'Do me a favor there, Satan?' I died. So funny.

So obviously I knew Castiel wasn't really dead once I saw Misha's name in the lead credits (not the guest starring, oh shit!) but it was so badass when he just appears and takes those mother fuckers DOWN. Gah. The moment he tells Zachariah to put those boys back together I was like OKAY, CAS, LET'S DO THIS THING. I AM ON BOARD. Even though 'Cas' as his nickname really kind of annoys me. But anyway, hell yeah! I'm excited to see a little kicking ass and taking names from him this season. Should be good times. And seeing Zachariah looking scared was just, so so satisfying.

'What I do have is a GED and a give 'em hell attitude, and I'll figure it out.' OH DEAN. There you are! I missed you!

And then the boys walk out to the car and everything goes to hell. I just. That broke me. I need them to put me (and themselves) back together. I really think they're going to but the meanwhile is going to be painful and I can't take it, not where they're concerned. SOB.

At least I have next week to look forward to. I love knowing we still have the whole season out in front of us for things to unfold *glee* And next week? ELLEN. ELLEN ELLEN ELLEN ELLEN ELLEN. And Jo. And Rufus. BUT MOSTLY ELLEN. *FLAILY* I can't freaking wait.

Wow. I really let that get away from me. But it has been too damn long since I have gotten to do one of these things. Go big or go home, right? Right. :D

Welcome back, show. I missed you so much.

This song feels so appropriate: ♥ Boys Boys Boys // Lady Gaga ♥

blood is as sweet as moonshine whiskey

2009-08-08T01:55:29Z

So I've been watching since season one, and thoroughly enjoying it for all it's insanity and cheese and drama and lack of Jason Stackhouse wearing clothes and general awesomeness and fun, but season two is now, what? a little more than half over? And I am like, so beyond screwed because this show is owning me far more than I ever thought it could. Chiefly, for two reasons. Jessica. And Hoyt. Hoyt's been adorable since the beginning, I mean, he just is. And it took me actually looking him up to finally figure out that he's the freaking guy from Sex & Violence, which is just sad and also a testament to how distracted I was by his adorableness.

And then there's Jessica who I was a little iffy on in the beginning, because I knew if they didn't develop her character she would just end up annoying the crap out of me but then they did! And they gave her Hoyt! And they are hands down my favorite favorite favorite thing about True Blood. The end. I just. I could die from the cute. Which is the best. And just. SIGH. More of that forever. Plus Deborah Ann Woll is just, the most gorgeous creature and I have such a thing for redheads, which is well-documented I think :D Anyway. Love love love love LOVE. I can't get enough, Sundays can't come quickly enough. I swear it, along with American Idol (♥Kris♥and♥Adam♥), have made summer hiatus fucking FLY by and I can't believe there's only like a month left to wait. Eeep! Of course, the last thing I need is a new fandom. SIGH!

And then there's So You Think You Can Dance. I can't believe it's already over!! I haven't posted about SYTYCD in SO LONG. Not since last season. This season flew by and then there's gonna be a NEW season in like three weeks, which actually feels kinda anticlimactic in a way cos, as much as I hate waiting til next summer for the new season, it's also that much more exciting and satisfying when it FINALLY gets here. JEANINE!!!!!! \o/ \o/ \o/ THE END. OMG I'm so happy for her. I love Jeanine. She came out of freaking nowhere and was so fabulous and so much fun to watch and even though I liked her well enough at first, I think that it took the uhm, Broadway? Jazz? routine with Phillip and the couch and the feathers to make me really love her, and then I was rooting for her (and my Kayla, who incidentally kiiiind of reminds me of Jessica from True Blood, if she were blond and could dance her ass off. I think I may have a type. Heh.) from then on. Kayla, whom I actually looooooathed at the very beginning, is just. So undeniably talented and gorgeous. And just. Yes. Please. More of that.

I think I wanted Kayla to win just a little bit more, honestly, but the fact that Jeanine did is fabulous because she's completely wonderful and a craaaazy dancer. I really really just wanted it to be between my girls because this season really became all about them for me. I loved Evan in the beginning, but that kind of wore off after he was the same every week. And then there was Kupono (OMFG Mia's addiction piece nngh) but that was mostly because he was so pretty. (Dude, Kayla and Kupono prettiest fucking couple in the history of ever. Unless at some point Kayla and Danny from season 3 dance together, cos then I will just implode from sensory overload.) But yes. The girls rocked it. 'Twas a good season. Though I'm still partial to last season because of all the epic epicness that it contained, probs always will be. (OMG Will!!) But I loved this season just like I'll love them all. 's good stuff. *satisfied*

Wow. Doing a post that was neither 'Hey, I'm leaving!' nor 'OMG I'm back!' feels ... strangely comforting. Like my life's finally developing some semblance of normalcy. Good times. Here, have a song :D

Creator // Santogold

and there you were

2009-07-19T20:21:52Z

Hey, guys.

Oh man, this feels weird. I feel like I've been gone for a lifetime. I haven't posted since, gosh, since January when everything decided to go abruptly to hell on me and even though I've missed you guys SO SO MUCH I just ... haven't been able to make myself post. It's been kind of a rough time for me, the past few months. Moving back to California was really hard and it hasn't been all that shiny since.

However, I miss you guys. And Half-Blood Prince just came out! And today's Jared's berfday! There are things to discuss! But just. I think I just finally decided that staying away when I didn't even really want to was lame and pointless. I don't know how much I'll be around, but I'll be around, and that's something, right? I love you all and I hope that your lives have been gorgeous since I last saw you.

*snogs wildly*

How Sweet It Is (To Be Loved By You) // Kris Allen

Also, can you perhaps tell from the song and the icon that I kinda sorta picked up a new fandom somewhere along the way? *hides*

just snap your fingers and i'm walking

2009-01-16T04:56:32Z

So ... hey! I'm backish. I've actually been home for almost two weeks now, but haven't had time to do anything but lurk. Yeah.
So originally I left wayyyyy back in November to visit with the family for a few weeks and be out there for Thanksgiving and my niece's birthday and all that good stuff and then come back at the beginning of December. Needless to say that did not happen.

When we got out there, within just a few days, my grandma, who just turned 90 in October, had her health take a turn for the worse. Sigh. It's actually pretty insane how bad things got and how fast they got there. It was like one day she was my normal grandma and the next she was barely there at all. She passed away on December 10th, complications from all the health problems she's had over the years becoming insurmountable, and probably just from old age. She was an amazing woman. She lived a good, long life. I love her so much that it's hard to comprehend her just being ... gone from my life. We didn't agree on a lot of things, politics being one of the major ones, but it always made me so happy that we could discuss them openly and without compromising how we felt about things to make the other more comfortable. And all the old stories she would tell me about her life were so good that it didn't matter that she'd already told them to me a million times before. It was like hearing them for the first time every time. I miss her. A lot. But it still feels so surreal. So ... untrue. This is the first time I have ever lost someone that I was so close to and I guess I'm finding myself at a loss as to how to handle it. Sigh. Yeah.

So that happened. And it's hard. But one bright spot in December (well, a bright spot as far as my folks are concerned) is that we finally finally finally sold our house here in New Mexico. Of course in this economy, the people buying it got it for a steal and it's a shitty situation in every way except the fact that my mom and dad won't have to worry about their mortgage payment anymore, which is a huge load off their minds, and so I am grateful. But now it's back to California for me. Which, kiiiiiind of sucks and I was so happy to be rid of my shitty little town, but I'll be back with all of my family and that'll be good. I think it'll be good to have some stability back in my life again. *breathes out*

I've been back since around, uhm, the fifth I think? But have had pretty much zero time for internet things (other than the porn I have been able to pack into my late-ass nights) as we are packing our ASSES off so that we can get out of here by the 23rd. It's not pretty. Things are a mess and now my (pregnant) sister and her husband and their little girl are here for a quick visit before we go and just ARGH! Life, she is hectic.

I miss fandom like, fuck, like SO MUCH. I dunno how the internet situation is going to go out there but once that's resolved and I (hopefully) have access, at least I won't be heading out of the freaking state every five minutes, which will be nice.

So yeah. HI. I miss you guys. I hope everyone is fan-fucking-tastic. And I wish I wasn't leaving again in, shit, six days? I swear, this is a hello and goodbye post in one. That is how much I suck.

However, for once, I do not suck at being caught up on Supernatural. Thus,

I feel like I shouldn't even be cutting for spoilers here cos like, it's nothing specific except like, FLAIL COS OMG IT WAS A SAMANDDEAN-ISODE AND I WANTED ONE OF THOSE REALLY REALLY BADLY!!!!!!

*cough* Okay, some specifics.

Don't get me wrong, I like having all the people there and the intricacies of the story lines and all that, but sometimes a girl just needs her boys and that's it. I start to miss the stand-alone eps after a while, and even though technically this one wasn't one what with all of Dean's hell guilt, it was more about the hunt they were on than anything else that was going on in their lives.

Things I Loved:

Sammy lying down in the back seat!!! We've never seen that, right? It seems to me we haven't and it like, made me all warm and fuzzy I DON'T KNOW.

The fact they've been on the road getting things done, kicking ass and taking names, for like a month. And Sam is just. Trying to take care of Dean the only way he knows how, the only way Dean'll let him. Hee, that sounds dirty!

'Know-it-all.' *grumble grumble* I love those random little bro-ments that they just throw in there. Hee.

I love love LOVED that they had their tools taken away from them. And were left with the only thing that really ended up doing any good anyway, their flash lights. But just. I loved how Sam's face was just like 'DUDE, WE ARE FUCKED.'

Humans! I love throw-backs to old eps. I've actually been meaning to rewatch The Benders lately ...

This is the first ep in a long time that has like, kind of freaked me out a little bit. I was fine until I heard the licking. And I was just sooooo freaking squicked and cringing and going 'OMG OMG NO I hate this urban legend! Fuck, girl your dog's not in the ROOOOOM!' and then when Dean and Ted are in the walls just before he gets stabbed and he's looking around with the flash light. Gah. The tension is so much worse that any blood and gore for me, dude. Eeep. But I love the creepy ones, so YES!

I usually rewatch as I'm writing these things up but there is a sleeping baby next door and I don't wanna chance waking her up, so I'm sure there's like 50 more things I wanted to flail about but can't remember off the top of my head. Suck.

So long story short (too late) I loved this ep, like I tend to love all eps, but I really loved having it just be the boys. I think we needed one of those. And next week! Eee! And THE WEEK AFTER THAT. OMFG. I can't wait. I really really can't. I'm pining and completely not avoiding spoilers like I should be. \o/

OMG I know it probably makes me like the hugest ball of schmoop ever, but I cannot physically stop listening to this song and I don't really want to: 1 2 3 4 // Plain White T's Gah! So CUUUUTE!

♥.

lights that keep the streets on

2008-11-14T01:50:26Z

Even though I managed to talk my mom into leaving a couple days later than scheduled so that I'd be here for tonight's SPN, odds are I won't get a chance to do a lovely long flail-post as per usual. Which makes my pants pretty sad. But at least I'm here! \o/ I'm trying to take good news where I can get it.

So yeah, leaving in the morning for California (where else?) for the next THREE WEEKS. That's such a long time, man. But I get to spend some quality time with my nephew and nieces (the little one is starting to walk omg!) over their Thanksgiving break, which will be nice.

I can't believe I'm leaving RIGHT before con reports will start rolling in. And also when I am in the middle of an epic phone sex J2 au. YEAH. Life is unfair. Sigh. Anyway, leaving. Back soon I hope! Love you guys.

If I Were a Boy // Beyoncé

♥.

and the sunday sun shines down on san francisco bay

2008-11-07T04:54:38Z

I CANNOT PROPERLY CONVEY HOW FUCKING MUCH I ENJOYED THIS EP. OMG. Disjointed squeeing ahoy!

Their waiter! I love that they had an annoying nerd of a waiter for once instead of a piece of ass for Dean to ogle. Yeah, I loved it.

Dessert time, am I right? HEE!

Also, SAM. PRETTY. NNNGH. I can't get over how ridiculously pretty Jared insists on making Sam. I mean, hell. It's mind-boggling.

What is it you're calling your book?

Oh, well, uh the working title is ... Supernatural.

This is where the laughter began and I don't think it stopped until our Big Emotional Moment at the end.

There's a Bigfoot out there dammit and he's a sonofabitch!

*DIES*

Okay, so Teddy Bear was without a doubt my favorite part of this entire ep. Just. THEIR FACES. Even before they find out what it is and the little girl returning the porn and the booze with the 'Sorry' sign attached to it and the girl herself, omg I adored her, she was freaking PERFECT and AWESOME and again, THEIR FACES. I love that they are at a complete loss as to what to do and it's so much harder for them to lie to a little girl than to anyone else they deal with. I love that for once a little girl didn't mean evil, it was just funny and she was so frustrated and desperate for help and and understanding and patient just OMG I loved this whole thing, how ludicrous it was that it happened at all.

Uhm, little girl--

Audrey!

LOVE HER.

Sam and Dean discussing possibly having to off the teddy bear and T. Bear's wounded cry ('Tea parties ... is that all there is!?) and Lollipop Disease and just. I thought I was going to die. Awesome and hilarious. <3333333

SAM FACE. DEAN FACE. THE END.

The restaurant owner! He's so adorable! I want him to be real. The secondary characters in this ep are rocking it.

It's too late to go back to our old lives, Dean. I'm not that guy anymore.

I kinda want to write schmoopy Dean POV about how much he needed to hear that and how secretly happy it made him. SIGH!

Sam's disciplinary face with the peeping tom! Also, holy shit that kid was so pale I didn't get it at first that he's supposed to be alive. Geez.

And then Teddy tries to kill himself. All I could think of as I watched him put the gun in his mouth and then pull the trigger was KRIPKE. And how he must have danced around in glee like the insane little elf that he is that we are watching a teddy bear COMMIT SUICIDE ON THE CW. I just. I don't even. Why is this so fucking hilarious?? Am I a bad person or is it really that funny? I prefer to believe the latter :D

Any slow pan from Sam to up Dean's body is good times in my book, especially when there is whimpering involved. I'm just going to pretend it was non-hell and entirely Sam related.

You know, I think I realized with the whole couples therapy comment and the 'pleeease?' that followed that they really aren't even trying to dispel the fact that Sam and Dean are completely married anymore. I think they've just accepted it, maybe even embraced it to some extent, and they've just moved on and are glad we're happy. Which, you know, it does make me happy. I mean, come on. :D

Also, the closeness of their faces while Wes and Hope are making out? GAG REEL NOW PLEASE. That is all I could think about. Cos if they are that close in the final episode cut!? Holee shit. Yeah. Again, they're not even trying to pretend anymore. *dances*

The joint ranting in the car! We so rarely get to see them AGREEING with each other in an argument!! It was awesome. And Sam's just so little brother about it like 'Yeah, what he said!' Gah. Love.

KNEEL BEFORE TODD! Todd's whole storyline reminded me so much of The Neverending Story. I was just waiting for Falkor to appear, honestly.

Okay now we've seen Dean AND Sam being electrocuted to death (twice with Dean!). NO MORE, OKAY??? Enough! I can't do it anymore. Also, Sam has the worst luck holding onto his shoes. Hunted, Bad Day at Black Rock, and now Wishful Thinking!? Plus ones I'm probably forgetting. It's become a thing. Strangling and shoe loss are apparently not the least of Sam's problems.

I should stop rambling now, but I really loved this episode. I really really did. I love the funny ones and I love how even in the funny ones there is always a vein of something deeper running through them because it's impossible to get away from when you are dealing with Winchesters.

Oh, Dean. He just wants to make you better. YOU KNOW WHAT THAT'S LIKE. LET HIM TRY. Gah, boys! They kill me but I wouldn't have them any other way.

*draws hearts all over*

In other news, I am not feeling the new profile page whatsoever. I can't be alone in this right? Someone make it better!

sun is in the sky, oh why, oh why would i wanna be anywhere else

2008-11-03T23:34:50Z

OMG some beautiful, insanely generous person out there surprise anony-gifted me with a YEAR of paid account AND extra userpics. Yeah. My jaw seriously DROPPED when I saw the notices in my inbox. Whoever you are, please please let me know so that I may thank you properly (wow, that sounded dirty)!! <3

So. Tomorrow. It's the oddest feeling in the world that for once Thursday is not the day that I am most looking forward to this week. Weird. I cannot believe that it's all about to end. Tomorrow (barring any disasters, please please no) we will know who our next president is going to be.

Eight years and now it's tomorrow. It's a heady feeling.

Suffice to say I am EXCITED. Okay, excited (even in capslock) really doesn't even begin to cover it. I'm planning on eating enough sugar tomorrow to hopefully dull my senses into some sort of sugar coma though, so that'll help.

Yes, I'm having an Election Night party. Yes, there will be cupcakes (hopefully) and Barack-late chip cookies (definitely). Yes, I know I am a major dork. But this is BIG. Like, BIG BIG. We're all allowed to be dorks. :D

OMFGTOMORROW. \o/

VOTE! ♥.

and some don't even wear their skin

2008-10-31T22:57:29Z

So tonight I'm handing out candy to the neighborhood kids for literally the first time in my life and I'm like, dorkily excited about it (living in the sticks for most of your life will do that to you)! Costumes! Candy! Doorbells! I mean, what's not to love?

Most of today has contained those Scariest Movie Moment countdown things on Bravo that I can't manage to not watch and tonight will be all about candy, House of Wax, Dead & Breakfast, and Devour. Cos you can't watch only one terrible horror movie with the boys, you just can't!

OMG I love the episodes that are like, stuffed full of lore like last night's was. They just make me happy. Sam met Castiel!!!!!! OMFG! And it didn't happen at all like I thought it would, I was expecting more build up to The Meeting but then BAM! Sam just enters the motel room and pulls a gun on him and then he was just. Knocked on his ass to see him in the flesh and Dean's all calm as can be but Sam's fucking reverent and just. Wow. And then when Castiel hesitated to shake Sam's hand? I was like FUCK THAT, yelling at my tv 'You better fucking shake his hand you fucker, don't you DARE do that to Sammy!' Gah. So yeah.

Okay, one thing. When Sam is purging the demon down in the cemetery and he's straining so hard (*whimper*) to keep him back and exorcise him, do his ... eyes go black? Cos I've watched that part several times and I JUST CAN'T TELL if they do or it's a trick of the light or WHAT. And I have had like, zero online time to read other people's reactions so it's KILLING me! I need to know these things! Oh man, and the look on Dean's face as he's watching it happen just. My heart. BOYS!!!

So anyway, yeah, loved it. I have been wanting a Halloween episode basically since I saw the pilot and we finally got one and it was awesome and yeah. I am a happy girl. \o/

I hope you all have a fabulous Halloween night and are safe and careful and all those important things what with the crazies being out! I'm off to make popcorn balls and maybe fit some non-Supernatural-actor related gore in. Woo!

Happy Halloween!!!

ain't nobody cryin'

2008-10-26T22:20:56Z

OMG so I'm back (yay!) in NM and my bed is glorious and the internet is even better and I suck and am still TWO eps behind on Supernatural (woe) but it's okay because even though I was supposed to catch up on those two episodes last night, I was busy doing something else AMAZING.

Namely, standing shoulder to shoulder with 45,000 other people (no lie, holy shit) to hear Barack Obama speak at UNM in Albuquerque!!!!!!!

Most of the night was spent getting to the end of and then waiting in the longest line I have ever seen in my life and about halfway through we began to hear cheering coming from the far away Johnson Field, and I was flailing cos I was sure we were gonna miss it, but then by way of nothing short of a miracle we (my mom and I) made it onto the field THREE MINUTES before Barack came out.

It was amazing. Amazing amazing amazing. Hearing it with my own ears, standing on tiptoe and finally catching a glimpse of him with my own eyes through the sea of people in front of me. This was the first political rally for both me and my mother and I love that we're at a point where we could share it with each other and both be on the same page about how important it was. I could go on and on about every single bit of it, but suffice to say, it was incredible and I'm so glad I got to be there for it. I'm even glad I could be there to wait in line, because there is just something so uplifting and inspiring and exciting about knowing that you're all there for the same reason, that you're in line with thousands of people who want to make a difference. So awesome. One of the best nights of my life.

The news said afterward he spoke for over forty minutes, which blows my mind because it absolutely flew by, felt like he was there for maybe fifteen minutes. Sigh.

I just. I can't wait for him to be president, you guys. Seriously.

*hope hope hope hope hope*

OMG my account totally died while I was gone! 6 userpics is ... so depressing. Wow.

Anyway, yes! I's back. And I'mma finish catching up on the last two eps TONIGHT cos I can't STAND not knowing what's going on, guh, it's killing me. How awesome has this season been? Like, holy shit. It's amazing. I love my show. And I love you guys! *MWAH*

his eyes are as red as the sun

2008-10-01T23:20:33Z

It's been FOREVER since I've done a list and since I am leaving well before the unforgiving bastard that is the asscrack of dawn tomorrow (urgh) for at least a week of quality California family time and no internet (double urgh) I thought I'd better do a list of Things That Make Me Happy. If only so that I can look back on better times. :P

1. Jared and Jensen live together. Yeah, I know it's old news but it seriously never fails to bring a smile to my dorkass face. It's my instant pick-me-up. I mean, THEY LIVE TOGETHER. Like, for reals and not only in our fevered imaginations. Hoo boy. Also? If someone writes present day J2 and in it they DON'T live together? IT'S AU. HA!

2. Womanizer // Britney Spears I seeeeeeeriously cannot stop listening to this damn song. It's been stuck in my head for the past two days. I have this thing for songs with obsessively catchy choruses that make you wanna dance and this fulfills both areas nicely. I'm gonna end up making myself sick of it cos I'm listening to it so much but I DO NOT EVEN CARE. LOVE.

3. I got a phone call from some random company a while ago on our house phone and when it lit up with the caller ID it said 'J2 Global Commu'. Seriously. And while I'm sure it was some innocuous organization trying to offer me a free cruise to The Bahamas or a really great rate on my auto insurance and 'Commu' probably stands for communications, I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IT. It was clearly the super secret (or, you know, not so) J2 GLOBAL COMMUNITY reaching out to like minded individuals. I still haven't deleted the number. Seeing it on there makes me happy. :D

4. Nap Partners. And lazy_daze's J2 fic based around it. OMG I hadn't seen this in forever! It's such a precious little happy place.

5. Sunrises. Seriously, they're the best. They make everything happy and bright and new. I love sunsets too, so so much, I'm kind of a dork for pretty things the sky does in general, but I'm becoming better acquainted with sunrises and sigh. Yeah. I'mma miss these New Mexico skies SO HARD, y'all.

6. Hollywood Declares Themselves. I really kind of love these things. I'm a big old voting nerd and am UNSPEAKABLY excited about November. So, yeah.

7. Sam and Dean. Also, pie.

And in the interest of being fair, Things That Do Not Make Me Happy (Well One Thing In Particular, Really):

1. I'm going to miss Supernatural this week. AND next week. YEAH. Because of course we're leaving on a Thursday, OF COURSE. Sigh. I am so unhappy about this. I hate being out of the loop but like, mostly I just really hate that as soon as the show starts up again I am being forced to leave, that we couldn't POSSIBLY have gone last month. SIGH. So yeah, there's that. And it sucks.

Gonna miss y'all so MUCH OMG. Squee extra loud and hard for me, okay? God willing, I'll be back for episode five!

*snogs and loves on*

in other words, until i die

2008-09-26T04:14:36Z

Fuck. FUCK! The low that smacks into me as soon as the preview for next week's episode runs is a MIGHTY LOW INDEED. I'm just so. Yes. I want next week to be here tomorrow, WHY DON'T I HAVE THESE POWERS!? Completely unfair.

So. A few things, y/y?

PIE. PIE PIE PIE PIE PIE. Also, PIIIIIIIIIIIE. Does Supernatural like, have a crush on me and I just don't know it yet? I was like, shaking my head with disbelief over how many direct references we got to the bulletproof and undeniable OTP of DEAN/PIE. Even Sam is like: 'DEAN I'M GETTING THE PIE, NOW STFU! Yes, I know you'd have sex with the pie if you could. No, we're not going to relive that one magical night in Tennessee, Bobby is standing THREE FEET AWAY.' I'm happy with pie references wherever I find them, I'm just that kind of girl, but dude, this was like, the pie-isode. Fr rls. Also, Dean's panicked no-pie!eyes are too adorable.

HA! Sam totally said strap-on. \o/

SAM'S FACE. I love it. This is no secret. But we got so MUCH of it tonight. Incredulous! Irritated! Amused! Impressed! Curious! Surprised! Scared! Determined! Happy! Sad! ~~Orgasmic!~~ My favorite though was Sammy's TRIUMPHANT LITTLE FACE when Bobby tells them that an angel is basically the only thing that could have yanked him outta hell. Priceless. Hee!

Scoot over.

Yeah.

Why does that make me as happy as it does? I just imagine how many times Sam must have accidentally headed for the passenger side, and hell maybe even got in on the wrong side a few times and had to slide over to the driver's side, while Dean was gone and it breaks my heart. He's gotta be so happy to have Dean back behind the wheel, doesn't even occur to him to argue. Sigh.

Mmm, Sam hands. They need to insert more gratuitous hand-washing scenes for the Sam hands alone. Also, Sam and Dean in a filthy roadside bathroom together? Is always a win in my book. I totally already have porn written for that. :D

Aww, I missed their little fights that aren't really fights when they're in the car. Sam being emo and Dean being DEAN. Oh boys.

I loved seeing Henricksen and Meg and RONALD *sniff* again. I really did. I'm such a big fan of characters from the past being brought into the present. Dude, Nicki Aycox looks like a different freaking person though. I remember when I saw her in the X-Files movie and I was like, nah, that can't be her, and yet it WAS! Also, Ronald totally scared the crap out of me when he was crouched on the stairs the first time we see him. I dunno why, but he so did.

'Bobby?'

'What?'

'You're awesome.'

*squeal* Even Bobby needs to hear it once in a while. *nod*

Okay, I really really really REALLY wanna write fic now that takes place after all is said and done, and before the boys crash on the floor and couch respectively, where Bobby waves them off and goes to bed and the boys SNEAK DOWN TO BOBBY 'I HAD A WEEKEND OFF' SINGER'S ADMITTEDLY AWESOME PANIC ROOM AND HAVE RIDICULOUSLY HOT, 100% GHOST FREE SEX PRESSED UP AGAINST THE IRON WALLS. And then maybe accidentally lock themselves in and have to yell and bang on the walls until Bobby wakes up and let's them out and grumbles about them being idgits and stuff. OR SOMETHING. Gah.

BUNNYRANCH! OMG. HI, THIS IS ALL I CAN THINK OF WHEN I HEAR THOSE WORDS. I flailed, to say the least. Also, Dean still wants to go to the Grand Canyon enough that it's in his top three. I so badly want the show to fulfill that for him. I'm a dork.

OMG I loved how Meg called Sam a monster and then he SHOT HER IN THE FACE. FUCK and YES.

DEAN'S HEART AND SAM'S NECK, I SWEAR! I don't question why it is so, I can only accept it is the way of the universe. Though Sam's neck makes me flail in a good way and Dean's heart, not so much. SIGH.

When Sam was trapped between the bookshelf and the desk and those creepy ass little girls are zeroing in on him he gets this little look on his face and I thought for sure he was gonna like, whip out some serious psychic mojo on them and poof! be gone! or something. And yet, no. Yeah, I dunno. It's all because I want Dean to know he's using them. I CANNOT STAND THE SECRET KEEPING, OKAY? *choke* But Dean told Sam all about Castiel, which. I was scared. And gosh, that made me happy.

We totally got sleeping!Dean AND sleeping!Sam. AWWWWWW. Too precious for this world.

Oh man, how much did I love how Dean told an angel he was gonna kick his ass? Only Dean Winchester. *glee*

Castiel. I really love Castiel. Mostly, I think, because I find him (and the whole Heaven/God/angels thing) so very very intriguing. And actually not, for once, because I think he's hot. I actually don't. Pretty, sure (though I do wish I was there to maybe offer him some lip balm). But more than anything, so damn intriguing. I'm so excited to see where all of this goes and what else it will all incorporate. Also, I love that Castiel is not to be fucked with. I liked how he was so much more hard-edged than last week and how he's not interested in sugar coating things for Dean. Good stuff.

You should show me some respect. I dragged you out of hell, I can throw you back in.

Eeee! Apparently Castiel has an uncanny ability to give me chills. And Dean's eyes, all wide and GREEN and clearly Oh, Shit! Gah. Awesome.

SAMMY LEGS! Is it just me or did they LITERALLY stretch on for the miles they are always said to in fic, especially when he sat down?? They so did. And socked feet! Kicking against Dean's makeshift pillow as he walks by! Why do these thing make me go AWWWWWW so hard? Guh. I love.

Wow, okay that was way more things than I meant for there to be. I maybe shouldn't rewatch as I write, cos then I just want to discuss EVERYTHING. It is so so awesome having them back WEEKLY I can't even wrap my mind around it. Or around how freaking EXCITED I am for next week's episode.

I want it to be Thursday. Maybe if we all wish really really hard, mm? In the meantime, Friday through Wednesday blues. Sigh.

i cannot stand the way you tease

2008-09-19T04:28:59Z

Dude, it's been FOREVER since I posted, but maybe you've heard, Supernatural's back. :D

So, I had to force myself to write this up before I went off to read any one else's reactions cos then I would be nothing more than a puddle of squee and flail (not that I'm not already) but then I would have zero brain power left to say anything about the premiere.

Where to begin? Seriously I'm just. I'm at a fucking loss. I'm shaking and grinning and dying inside and I can't believe that I actually just watched it. I mean, all summer long it felt like it was never going to get here and now I've fucking WATCHED IT. Now I KNOW. And just yeah. My mind is fucking blown.

I knew a few spoilers going in. Like, Dean waking up in a pine box and Sam hooking up with some chick and that the psychic lady's eyes were not to be long for this world. But that was all and just. I'm fucking reeling and I don't honestly know where to begin, so I'mma just start flailing and see where it takes me, y/y?

OMG the date on the newspaper!!! I know I'm a major nerd but omg I fucking LOVED that it was today's date. LOVE LOVE LOVED! Eee!

GRATUITOUS DEAN NUDITY. Seriously, when was the last time we got a good look at Jensen's chest like that? I mean, as Dean, have we ever?? Cos even back in his sex scene we don't get to see nearly enough. So, you know, THANK YOU FOR THAT POWERS THAT BE. I seriously almost fell off the bed and then had to do the dance of gratuitous nudity. Our show needs more. Also, TATTOO. Gnuh.

OMG Dean's wrecked voice was the first thing that made me weepy. Like, it just sounded so destroyed and raw and what is Dean without his freaking VOICE. Oh man, totally got to me.

When all the windows started breaking and the screeching was going on I so so so wanted it to be Sam. As soon as I saw all the fallen trees I wanted it to be Sam. Even though I knew it wasn't, I WANTED it.

The second phone call to Bobby, where he threatens to kill him if he calls again? Hi, I'm broken.

I wanted Dean to find Sam first, before they went to Bobby, I wanted them to have their reunion separate, just the two of them, but hey, you can't always get what you want. And, you know, I will take an EXTREMELY LONG hug (with Sammy all fresh from the the shower, no less) and reference to the two of them being ridiculously gay for each other any time I can get it. The end.

I kinda wanted it to be a bigger deal that Dean was back cos it was just kind of like OMFG YOU'RE NOT DEAN! I KEEL YOU! and then OMFG YOU ARE DEAN, LEMME HOLD YOU CLOSE! and then business as usual. 's the Winchester way, I know, but still. *wants*

The necklace. Dear God, the necklace. See, Dean's amulet is something I have ... a bit of an obsession with and the one thing I always wondered about Mystery Spot, when Dean's dead for all those months, was FUCK, WHERE'S DEAN'S AMULET, PLEASE LET SAM BE WEARING IT. PLEASE PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF FUCK, KRIPKE PLEASE. And then No Rest For the Wicked happened and I was left all summer long wondering the same damn thing. And to have that payoff and actually get to see Sam take the necklace off himself and give it back to Dean? I cried a lot during this ep, as per usual, but nothing made me cry harder than that little moment. Made my fucking WORLD.

iPod in the Impala and Sam being COMPLETELY unapologetic about it FTW. What song was playing? I wish it had been something I know!!

Oh, Pamela. You are my new hero. THREESOME PROPOSITION. THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT. I just. OMG. I love this damn show.

You know, I ~~naively~~ honestly thought we were going to be gifted with a scene of the BOTH of them sitting in a diner together and actually EATING their pie, but no. Of course not. *shakes fist* Fuck, Dean was such a sexass with that demon girl though. Nnnngh. And the way they just walk out of there like badass mother fuckers? Yes and please.

I like to think it's because of my perky nipples. HEEEEEEEE!

Sigh. New Ruby. I just. Yeah. I'm not on board. I'm really kind of just meh about the whole thing, and that's mostly because I fucking adore Katie Cassidy and was so so bummed when I heard they couldn't bring her back and now having Ruby back and it not being her just feels weird. Plus the girl that's playing her comes across kinda ... wishy washy, which is, you know, NOT RUBY AT ALL EVER. But she says she's gonna take a step back and I'mma have to see where it all goes before I decide if I'm gonna like it or not. So yeah. Meh.

HOWEVER. I maybe sorta lost my shit when Sam started using his powers. Cos like, I reeeeeeally wanted that. Like ridiculously bad. And then when Sam's like dude it was your dying wish, of course not, I was all awww okay fine, I can accept it because he has a good fuckin' reason. But then he stretched out his hand and I DIIIIIIIIIED. Because FUCK. YEAH. Just. Fuck yeah.

And then we have the whole angel thing.

Angels and God and Heaven and divine power was really not anywhere I ever ever ever expected Supernatural to go, honestly. I mean it's gone there a little bit here and there and it's definitely hinted at, I just never thought we'd get to explore it. The line from Houses of the Holy keeps replaying in my head where Sam says how there's so much more lore on angels than the other stuff they hunt. And just. I'm really really really excited. That's all there is to it.

I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition. DUDE. CHILLS.

Yeah. IDEK what else to say. But I'm excited and all abuzz and this was one hell of an opener. And OMFG MY SHOW IS BACK!!!!! What more can I say except I can't WAIT til next week.

*jumps around like an idiot*

I love having Thursdays back.

when that day comes look into my eyes

2008-07-20T01:30:11Z

My favorite thing about one of the boys having a birthday (Sam and Dean included) is probably the inevitable daydreaming about what one is giving the other. It's not as though my mind isn't filled with ten thousand different dirty thoughts about those boys at any given time, but on birthdays? Shit, there's like twenty thousand.

So Happy Birthday, Jared. I'm going to want details on exactly how you and Jensen decided to celebrate. :D

Okay, so how awesome was The Dark Knight? I know I'm like two days late and the only person that saw it in the daylight and not at 12:01 am BUT STILL. I saw it yesterday and I'm still reeling. Gah. HEATH. I miss him. I miss all that fucking talent. I really really do. Damn, that was a fine movie. I can't even. Just. Yeah.

In other news, can anyone explain to me why I seem to love this song? Leavin' // Jesse McCartney It's troubling. Seriously.

i know it looks bad cos i kissed all your girlfriends

2008-07-04T23:34:37Z

Wow, it has bee such a long time since I've posted and I have absolutely no excuse. It's sad really, cos I've wanted to post a million times about a million things, and I just ... haven't. So lame.

But Happy Fourth of July!!! I just finished making peach cobbler and it's bubbling away in the oven and we have fireworks for when it gets dark, and the whole day just feels ... oddly patriotic. Which, I guess it's supposed to!

In other news, OMG WHY?!? I may be entirely alone in this but Kourtni and Matt were MY FAVORITE COUPLE. And like, half the time they were the only ones I bothered voting for and I love them and I'm probably biased cos they're so tall and gorgeous but STILL. Sigh. I'm very sad. I thought for sure that even if Matt went, which I kinda saw coming, the Kourtni would make it on the strength of her solo. But no. D: This is the first time my favorite people haven't made it to the final four, or hell, the final two. So much with the fail, America.

Like the rest of the free world, I'm in the middle of 'Do I seem bulletproof to you?' and it is currently owning my world. I almost resent today being a holiday because holidays mean time away from porn, which is so not on. But omg! I maybe want to live in this fic for the rest of my life. Every time I click over to it I marvel at the fact that it manages to not only be MASSIVE but also MAGNIFICENT. Something usually only achieved by the Padacock. True story.

Annnnd yeah, I need to go read more now. :D Hope today's awesome for y'all! *independence snogs*

I'm Yours // Jason Mraz (fuck, I love this song)

this could go on for quite some time

2008-05-21T21:55:46Z

I know everyone's losing their shit about the Idol finale, okay not everyone, but like, a lotta people. But dude, SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE! THURSDAY!!!

*MADFLAILS*

SYTYCD always manages to swoop right in and take over Thursdays to continue to make them my happy place once SPN ends. A fact which makes me very happy indeed. So excited!

I just spilled the entirety of my ginormous, 90% full Cherry Limeade from Sonic on my BEIGE carpet. I got most of it out but now there is this large faintly pink stain on my floor and in all likelihood I am gonna have to go BACK to Walmart and get something to make it come the fuck up. I was just there! Why can't these things happen before I run errands in the hellish windy hotness!? SIGH.

Also, my dvr just decided to stop giving me sound. And my internet keeps fuckin' disappearing. WTF? I feel like someone's trying to tell me something.

15 // Rilo Kiley

i'd drive all night just to get back home

2008-05-16T03:19:15Z

I. I just. I don't even know what to say right now.

Someone hold me? Please?

On the bright side, I found my new ring tone. *omfg sobs*

Fuck fuck fuck. It's just a show. IT'S JUST A SHOW. EXCEPT HOW IT'S NOT. FUCK.

I think I need to go watch it all over again.

More when I am coherent. So like, three weeks from now minimum.

How the hell am I supposed to make it through the damn summer?

i'd be safe and warm if i was in l.a.

2008-05-15T23:34:16Z

I can't believe season finale night is upon us. *whimper* I don't even know if I'm ready to watch it at this point, I'm just ... terrified. I seriously doubt there's gonna be enough kleenex in the house to cover this ep. D:

I'm gonna have to do some truly epic schmooping this summer just to keep me going, I know it. Maybe I'll even manage to force myself to finish some of seemingly endless fics I've started and inevitably drifted away from. Maybe.

It's all doom and gloom out here in NM, been raining all day long, clouds gathered dark and close. Feels appropriate. I feel like I should go emo in the corner in or something.

In other news, just finished watching The Last Crusade for the millionth time and I seriously cannot wait for next week to GET HERE ALREADY cos I needs me some new Indiana Jones so so bad. There's a midnight showing on Wednesday at the theatre that is literally five minutes away but I've got no one to go with. And who wants to go to a midnight showing alone? Not me. Sigh.

Also, I haven't been able to stop listening to Bennie and the Jets since I saw 27 Dresses the other day, so here, have that! :D

Happy Thursday, y'all. Hope everything and everyone's good. ♥.

i don't think that passenger seat has ever looked this good to me

2008-05-09T03:58:46Z

OH, SHOW. You please me greatly. Don't ever stop.

This was the first episode in a LONG damn time that I have actually watched in real Real Time, like, even with my hitting instant replay a bunch I had to sit through a few commercials. WHICH WAS MURDER. OMFG.

For me this was one of those eps where I just NEEDED TO KNOW WHAT THE HELL WAS GOING TO HAPPEN. It had this like, push, where I needed to see where things were going and like, couldn't even stop to delight in all the broments as much as I normally would. Okay, there was definite delighting, just not AS MUCH. :D

Where to begin? Oh! Okay so, Jared Padalecki has the prettiest neck in the history of necks. The end. I've been aware of this for quite some time but the sheen of sweat along the column of Sam's throat? YES and PLEASE.

BOTH boys were sweaty in this ep. Which is just plain old win. MHM. Dean drinking a beer and sweating from burying the body? Fuck yes.

OH BOYS!

We didn't get a hell of a lot of SamandDean in this ep, but what we did get really hit me. It was fantastic.

I love when Dean tells Sam they're leaving and Sam just really simply, quietly says no. It's got this beauty in it that I can't even explain.

'Not gonna let me?'

'No, I'm not gonna let you!'

'How you gonna stop me?'

The look of resignation in Dean's eyes and the shutting of the door between them quite literally breaks my heart. Oh man. I can't do it.

Seeing little peeks of who Sam is now, just tiny little glimpses of how he's different fucking rules my world. Just ... the casualness of his crossed arms during the exorcism. He never uncrosses them. And when Dean is pouring holy water down its throat Sam doesn't even flinch. Not even a little and it just. Yeah it does things to me.

The Latin. OH FUCK the Latin. I love the way it just flows off his tongue because it's become second nature at this point and it's so gorgeous and orgasm inducing I just can't even react to it properly anymore besides nnnnnnngh MORE.

And the little 'Should I?' just. Fuck. This show reduces me to four letter words every single week, I swear.

Heh, Sam's I'm totally a cop!banter amuses me greatly.

Sam. Sam Sam Sam Sam SAM. He was such a little boy in the majority of this episode for me. But like, in the best way possible. So hopeful and willing to try anything and so excited at the prospect of something ACTUALLY working and whipping out John's journal to tell Dean about his theory, oh gosh. *aches* His fucking EYES lit up. It was so beautiful but so painful to see the way they dimmed when Dean had to tell him no. Because of course Dean would feel like that wasn't really living, that it was just becoming a monster, and I love him for it. I knew from the get go this wouldn't be our way out, but I really loved seeing Dean say no to such a thing, even though we know how bad he wants to stay with his Sammy forever. Oh, Dean.

Jared's eyes were so green in this ep! I love watching them change from episode to episode, I'm like, an eye color geek apparently.

Dean. This is going to sound lame but I really liked Dean in this ep. I love him, he's my Dean and all that. But I just. I really appreciated who Dean was in this episode, the way he does things, what he believes in and what he believes in saving. I loved every single bit of it.

'No no, we're very smart.' HEE!

Plus Jensen looked particularly pretty in this episode. I don't know quite what it was but he was fuckin' workin' it. Mmm. Something about his legs maybe? IDEK! 's good though, real good. :D

'Oh, baby, I can't stay mad at you.'

I refuse to believe that Dean was actually talking to his food when he said that. REFUSE! And Sam's TOTAL little brother giggle when he thinks he's grossed Dean out good and proper? GAH SO CUTE!

There's a moment when they're poring over the maps on the bed and they look quite literally like they're going to make out with each other in like, the next three seconds. Maybe sooner. I need that cap, I need it now!

I love Bobby. I really do. I wanted more Bobby. I always want more Bobby. Have I mentioned I love Bobby?

The little girl that they got to play little Bela? Holy shit, she looked so much like her it was almost spooky.

Oh, Bela. I'm glad you're gone. I really really am. I never liked you, and I trust me I totally tried in the beginning, but yeah, you sucked. Maybe it was that Ruby stole my heart entirely and there was no room left for you, or it could be that you're a total twat and I can't stand you. The world may never know. However. I am a little sad for you.

When Dean says that if she had just come to them, asked them for help, I just ached. Because no matter how much they had hated her, they still would have helped her. Because that is who they are. And fuck, I love my boys. It reminded me of when Bela buys them off in Red Sky at Morning instead of saying thank you. Yeah, I'm sad for Bela. I really am.

I knew it was Lilith! I mean, we all did, but still! GAH!

I need next week's ep SO BAD IT HURTS. I almost didn't want to watch the teaser for it cos I knew it would just be an exercise in self-torture but who am I trying to kid? I'm on that shit like white on rice. And just. I was flailing and practically crying during those THIRTY SECONDS. I don't even want to think of what I'll be a week from now. I want it so bad except I want for it to be far far away because it's our last ep for SO LONG and this summer is going to be a bitch. I hate hearing the words season finale, I really do. SIGH.

Okay, that's all my poor headache ridden mind can even attempt to give. Except, RUFUS TURNER. CLEAVLAND STEAMER. *DEATH*

In conclusion: I love my show. ♥.

I really need to download a ringtone for my new phone and I can't for the life of me decide on one. I'm thinking Hell's Bells, because, well it's Hell's Bells, but I'm really quite woefully unable to make decisions. It's a problem. Suggestions?