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MCU - Sam Wilson/The Falcon - Help is On the Way

mezzasol — Mon, 30 Jun 2014 13:23:31 GMT

Medium: Movies
Fandom: MCU
Subject: Sam Wilson / The Falcon
Title: Help is On the Way
Warnings: Extremely vague spoilers in lyrics for The Winter Soldier.
Notes: Listen at 8tracks or DL from box.

THEY SAID THAT HELP IS ON THE WAY!

Born to Die (You Saved Me); Minako/Rei

mezzasol — Fri, 20 Dec 2013 15:13:42 GMT

SAILOR MOON is another of those "baby's first animes" that aired on Cartoon Network way back in the day. It inspired the kind of cult following worldwide that probably should have concerned someone, but it was the diverse cast of characters, the light hearted feel, and the ultimate good vs. evil theme that really created such a huge fandom for it. To this day, Sailor Moon is still well loved and respected by its fans, who are legion.

Rei is the hot headed senshi of war, and Minako is the flirty, fun loving senshi of love. Their personalities differ between incarnations, but ultimately they are both dedicated to their princess/cause, willing to sacrifice anything for their duty, and ultimately the most passionate people you might ever meet. Togther... well, they could build or destroy anything. Good thing they're good guys. This mix focuses on their relationship in the modern day, with hints of what's to come in the future.

o1. "Lover to Lover" by Florence + the Machine
-Minako image song-

And I've been taking chances,
I've been setting myself up for the fall,
I've been keeping secrets,
From my heart and from my soul
Going from road to road,
Bed to bed,
Lover to lover,
Black to red,

o2. "Set Fire to the Rain" by Adele
-Rei image song-

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me
My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak,
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

o3. "Love They Say" by Tegan and Sara
-Minako falls in love-

You don't need to wonder
If love will make us stronger
There's nothing love can't do
The first time you held my hand
I knew I was meant for you
The first time you kissed my lips
I knew I was meant for you
Love, they say there's only one
Love, the kind that's not undone
Love, I know you are the one

o4. "I Run to You" by Lady Antebellum
-Rei falls in love-

I run my life
Or is it running me
Run from my past
I run too fast
Or too slow it seems
When lies become the truth
That's when I run to you

o5. "All You Wanted" by Michelle Branch
-Minako on Rei's life/saving Rei-

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away
I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the time comes
I'd take you away

o6. "Breathe Me" by Sia
-Rei on being saved-

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me

o7. "1000 Words" by Sweetbox
-Minako on doubt/being protected/commitment-

"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore to hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

o8. "Safe and Sound" by Taylor Swift & The Civil Wars
-Rei on protecting Minako-

I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, "I'll never let you go"
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

o9. "Cups (When I'm Gone)" by Sam Tsui, Kina Grannis, Alex G, & Kurt Schneider
-Minako on endings/never ending-

I've got my ticket for the long way 'round
The one with the prettiest of views
It's got mountains, it's got rivers
It's got sights to give you shivers
But it sure would be prettier with you

1o. "Tug of War" by Carly Rae Jepsen
-Rei on doubt/commitment/never ending-

Tug of war
Sweet as sin
I let go
I fell in
Feel the pull
Call your name
I'm alone
Once again

11. "Amaranthine" by Amaranthe
-Minako as the soldier of love/her love for Rei-

Time
Is the reason why we fight to stay alive
Until the morning comes
It's a strife
But the shimmer in your eyes just makes me know
That you and I belong
And you can light the dark all by your own
So let us show the world our love is strong

12. "Born to Die" Gemini Remix by Lana Del Ray
-Rei as the soldier of war/her love for Minako-

Come on take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane
Choose your last words, this is the last time
Cause you and I, we were born to die

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SHIELD/Inception Crossover Prompts

mezzasol — Tue, 30 Jul 2013 15:17:57 GMT

Natasha	Clint	Arthur	Eames	Cobb
Saint.	Tragedy.	Carelessness.	Observed.	Penance.
Light.	Sinner.	Wisdom.	Seduction.	Courage.
Comfort.	Sloth.	Crisis.	Addiction.	Paternal.
Journey.	Worse/Better.	Water.	Hurt.	Leader.
Savage.	Follower.	Destruction.	Forgetting.	Pride.
Morning.	Sky.	Gray.	Solitary.	Obsolete.

Rebecca Raven LeBeau [fanmix]: I'm not a glorious disaster

mezzasol — Sun, 14 Jul 2013 02:23:39 GMT

About the Girl:
Rebecca Raven LeBeau is a child of Marvel's multiverse. She calls Earth-41001 home, and she is born after the events of "X-Men the End". She is the second child of Rogue and Remy LeBeau (Gambit). In this timeline, Rogue gained full control over her powers and was able to have two children. Becka, and her older brother, Olivier. When she was a child, she and the Frost-Summers children were kidnapped by Mr. Sinister. During the rescue attempt, her mother was killed. Oli witnessed Rogue's death, but what made it worse was that Mr. Sinister had changed into Gambit's shape to kill Rogue. Oli could never get over seeing his "father" kill his mother, and he refused to stay with Gambit after all was said and done. Oli was raised by Scott Summers and Emma Frost at Xavier's. Becka, on the other hand, was raised by Gambit. She was the princess of the thieves' guild, and she was very good at what she did. A mutant as well, she's damn badass. Her personality has been shown to be rebellious and devil-may-care, though she remains the only connected between Oli and Gambit. For most of her run, she's had very little interest in joining the team of X-Men that her brother leads (GeNEXT), though she did eventually join. I tend to ignore that development, even if it gives her more screen time, because I prefer her previous claims to prefer independence.

Regardless, she's a tough cookie. She's a strong, independent, and if more than a little cocky kid who's been through a lot. I have a lot of headcanon tied up with her (I've RP'd as her for years), but at the core she's pretty simple. She's tough as nails, cocky, has a fun sense of humor, and she really doesn't care what you think about her. She's been accused of being a little too much of a bruiser, but she gets that from her mother, and that's all she really got from Rogue, so who can blame her?

About the Mix:
When I first started this mix, it was something completely different. I was trying to coax vulnerability out of the character, trying to paint her in something that she's not. She's tough, she's fun, she's badass. She has her vulnerabilities, but she's also young enough to show that with angry lyrics, yelling, and a general devil-may-care attitude. She's not going to break down crying on you because that's not who she is.

I tried to split this mix pretty evenly between songs "about the girl" (the first half) and songs "about the family" (the second half). All of the songs are rock, most of them are a little vulgar in language, and most of them don't give a shit. Still, they paint the picture fairly well, I hope.

Bleed It Out {Linkin Park}
PRINCESS OF THE THIEVES' GUILD

Mama help me I've been cursed
Death is rolling in every verse
Candy paint on his brand new hearse
Can't contain him he knows he works
Fuck this hurts, I won't lie
Doesn't matter how hard I try
Half the words don't mean a thing
And I know that I wont be satisfied

Still Swingin' {Papa Roach}
FIGHT SONG

Number one, steppin' up
Spit the fire, I'll back it up
Count me in, I'll turn it out
I'm killing it, you're burning out

Adrenaline {Shinedown}
DEFYING DEATH

Give me the wheel, so we can move a little faster
I make it real, I'm not a glorious disaster
What part of living says you gotta die?
I plan on burning through another nine lives

Absolute Zero {Stone Sour}
THE WORLD

My mouth is a gun I can shoot, I can show you the truth
And I don't need a reason to lie to you
No pun intended, no punishment
If I offended you, you needed it

Freak Like Me {Halestorm}
BEING A MUTANT

So shout if you’re a freak like me,
You were born to burn,
This is no disease you don’t need a cure!
It’s our time now to come out!
If you’re a freak like me!

Sinner {Drowning Pool}
BECCA TO OLI

You look at me but you don't see
Understand I'm a sinner
Don't corner me
Don't lecture me
Raise your hands you're a sinner

Fake It {Seether}
BECCA TO OLI

Fake it, if you’re out of direction
Fake it, if you don't belong, yeah
Fake it, if you feel like infection
Whoa, you’re such a fuckin’ hypocrite

Anti You {Blue Stahli}
BECCA TO THE X-MEN

A singular definition
Of what it's supposed to be like
An arrogant principle of validation
You're pushing the masochism
We're never to question the hive
I'll be the nemesis of expectation

Narcissistic Cannibal {Korn ft. Skrillex}
THE FAMILY GUILT/GAMBIT (DAD)

Don't wanna be sly and defile you
Desecrate my mind and rely on you
I just wanna break this crown
But it's hard when I'm so run down
And you're so cynical, Narcissistic Cannibal!

What You Want {Evanescence}
BECCA TO GAMBIT (DAD)

Hello, hello, remember me?
I’m everything you can’t control
Somewhere beyond the pain
There must be a way to learn forgiveness

Step Up {Stone Sour}
BECCA TO SINISTER

Broken,
Yeah, you've been living on the edge of a broken dream.
Nothing,
Yeah, that's the only thing you'll ever take away from me.

Figure .09 {Linkin Park}
BECCA TO ROGUE (MOM)

And now you've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear

Before I Die {Papa Roach}
BECCA TO ROGUE (MOM)

From the valley of the dead
I'm hearing every word you said
I'm trying to apologize
But I can't feel my feelings

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Jaina Solo:

mezzasol — Sat, 18 May 2013 14:57:00 GMT

Star Wars is a huge topic to discuss, especially since this mix only deals with a three-four book arc in the Extended Universe, but here's the basics. Star Wars is a space opera that got its start back in the 70s, and has blossomed into a huge extended universe including movies, television shows, books, video games, toys, and comics. I'm dealing with an extended universe character, Jaina Solo, only daughter of the iconic Han Solo and his wife, Leia Organa Solo. While so much goes on in the books that it would be impossible to detail in this short description here, the important things to know are this: Jaina is the oldest of three children; she has a twin brother, Jacen, and a younger brother, Anakin (not that one). She is a Jedi. She is a fighter pilot in the Republic fleet... at least as far as I'm prepared to deal with.

The setting for this mix is brutally simple: the galaxy is at war, and Jaina is the only one of her siblings that has returned from an important mission. She is sure that both her brothers are dead; she's right about one of them. She is a woman afloat, without much of a purpose. She has a brief flirt with the dark side, but then she casts that off and turns her abilities and her position into a weapon. She is, after all, the Sword of the Jedi, and she lives up to it. She is an intense, strong, powerful woman... and that has nothing to do with her abilities as a pilot or as a Jedi. She got back up after that hit and she freakin' hit back. She doesn't care about being a hero, she cares about doing her damned job.

"We don't need hope. We need more ships. We need better weapons. And we need Jedi. We need to keep on fighting. We don't need you wasting everybody's time on fantasies."

Victimized
by Linkin Park

They're acting like they want a riot, it's a riot I'll give them as the sound climbs higher on this violent rhythm For you snakes in the grass, supplying the venom I ain't scared of your teeth, I admire what's in em Keep 'em waiting in the shadows there, thinking they hidden But the truth is you don't have the stomach to get em Go on already, hit em! Yeah, you gotta be kiddin' Wanna talk about a victim, Imma put you there with 'em!

"I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of surviving... and getting to the end of the war and discovering that I'm all alone. That everyone I knew and cared for is gone."
Hymn for the Missing by Red (Guillotine Remix)	I tried to walk together But the night was growing dark Thought you were beside me But I reached and you were gone Sometimes I hear you calling From some lost and distant shore I hear you crying softly for the way it was before

She went deep within, frantically seeking the place within her that had always been Jacen's. That, too, was veiled.
Get Up! by Korn (ft. Skrillex)	I, I am clearly broken and no one knows what to do Pieces of the puzzle don't fit, so, I pound them into you Itching is the pulse inside Creeping out to come alive It's just doing what it's gonna do Times are looking grim these days Holding on to everything It's hard to draw the line Shut the fuck up! Get up!

"Life isn't what I do anymore," she said. "What I do is death. I kill, and I try not to get killed myself. Anything else-" She waved a hand. "-is a luxury."
Riot by Three Days Grace	If you feel so filthy So dirty so fucked up If you feel so walked on So painful so pissed off You're not the only one Refusing to go down You're not the only one So get up Let's start a riot, a riot Let's start a riot so empty So used up, so let down If you feel so angry Just get up

"Please don't threaten me. I really don't take too kindly to things like that."

Bleed it Out
by Linkin Park

Go stop the show Choppy words and a sloppy flow Shotgun opera lock and load Cock it back and then watch it go Mama help me I've been cursed death is rolling in every verse Candy paint on his brand new hearse can't contain him he knows he works Fuck this hurts, I won't lie Doesn't matter how hard I try Half the words don't mean a thing and I know that I wont be satisfied So why try ignoring him Make it a dirt dance floor again Say your prayers and stomp it out When they bring that chorus in

"The Vong kept Jacen alive after they captured him. For a long time. They kept him alive so they could hurt him. I could feel it. I never even told Mom and Dad what they put him through. What happened to Anakin... that was better. That was clean."
Save Yourself by Stabbing Westward	I know that you've been damaged Your soul has suffered such abuse But I am not your savior I am just as fucked as you I am just as fucked as you I can not save you I can't even save myself So just save yourself Please don't take pity on me My life has been a nightmare My soul is fractured to the bone And if I must be lonely, I think I'd rather be alone I think I'd rather be alone

It was so easy to mistake the signs of self-destruction for battle scars.
Seven Nation Army (Glitch Mob Remix) by the White Stripes	I'm gonna fight 'em off A seven nation army couldn't hold me back They're gonna rip it off Taking their time right behind my back And I'm talkin' to myself at night Because I can't forget Back and forth through my mind Behind a cigarette And the message comin' from my eyes says leave it alone

"Yours is a restless life, and never shall you know peace, though you shall be blessed for the peace that you bring to others."
Stars Align by Lindsey Stirling	instrumental (mostly)

"You are like tempered steel, purposeful and razor-keen. Always you shall be in the front rank, a burning brand to your enemies, a brilliant fire to your friends."
Titanium by Within Temptation	Cut me down But it's you who'll have further to fall Ghost town and haunted love Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones I'm talking loud not saying much I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose Fire away, fire away Ricochet, you take your aim Fire away, fire away You shoot me down but I won't fall I am titanium

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The flow of time is always cruel.

mezzasol — Sun, 07 Apr 2013 22:12:52 GMT

Ocarina of Time is arguably the best installment in the Legend of Zelda series. It tells the story of the Hero of Time... a boy raised among the forever children forest folk, the Kokiri, but always an outsider because he has no fairy of his own. In reality he isn't Kokiri, he's Hylian, the ruling race of Hyrule. He travels over mountains, under water, and even through time to first collect the spiritual stones, and then gather the Six Sages, to conquer Ganondorf, the King of Evil.

This mix details the journey, the strife, and the people in the Hero's journey. From infancy, to his quest's finale. Thirty six songs that I hope capture the tone of a game that changed my life and really made me into the gamer I am today.

The Kokiri Emerald
The climate of evil is descending upon this realm. PROLOGUE. HYRULE AT WAR.	my good and tender son don't be frightened and don't be scared. my son, I have nothing I can give but this chance that you may live I pray we'll meet again if he will deliver us _{DELIVER US - OFRA HAZA}
The child without a fairy. LINK. A LONELY CHILD.	a boy with a coin he crammed in his jeans then making a wish he tossed in the sea walked to a town that all of us burn when God left the ground to circle the world _{BOY WITH A COIN - IRON & WINE}
The time has come to test thy courage. DEKU TREE.	but it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real so I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do face away and pretend that I'm not but I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got _{FAINT - LINKIN PARK}
I've always known we're so different. SARIA. LEAVING HIS BEST FRIEND.	all of my life I've been in hiding wishing there was someone just like you now that you're here, now that I've found you I know that you're the one to pull me through _{DELIVER ME - SARAH BRIGHTMAN}

Interlude. Hyrule Castle.
No matter how hard it is, just don't get discouraged. TRAVEL. PRINCESS OF DESTINY.	she stands at the shoreline with hands in the air her words pierce the dark night "does anyone care?" and all along they're saying _{HELP IS ON THE WAY - RISE AGAINST}
Listen well to her words of wisdom. NAVI. GUARDIAN.	I am the voice of never never land the innocence, the dreams of every man I am the empty crib of Peter Pan a soaring kite against the blue, blue sky every chimney, every moonlit sight I am the story that will read you real every memory that you hold dear _{STORYTIME - NIGHTWISH}
Are you a fairy boy from the forest? MALON. TOUCHSTONE OF NORMAL.	it's amazing how you can speak right to my heart without saying a word you can light up the dark try as I may I could never explain what I hear when you don't say a thing _{WHEN YOU SAY NOTHING AT ALL - ALISON KRAUSS}
Do you see the man with evil eyes? ZELDA SEES GANON.	half a week before the winter the chill bites before it comes and I'm a child of the pleasure that he brings before he runs he sits behind a desk of mahogany he whispers dreams into my ear and though I've given him his empire he delivers me my fear _{HALF A WEEK BEFORE THE WINTER - VANESSA CARLTON}
My role in the princess's dream. IMPA.	hello darkness, my old friend I've come to talk with you again because a vision softly creeping left its seeds while I was sleeping and the vision that was planted in my brain still remains within the sound of silence _{THE SOUND OF SILENCE - SIMON & GARFUNKEL}

The Goron Ruby
The rising sun will eventually set. KAKARIKO VILLAGE.	instrumenal _{DO YOU EVER FEEL CURSED? - EXPLOSIONS IN THE SKY}
They say that there is no medicine that can cure a fool. DARUNIA.	temper filled with blindness leads this lost and lonely man dragged around your whipping tree a scourge you can`t command so deafen me with silence drown me with your roar scowl me with your hollow eyes still burnin` to the core no door will go unanswerd like so many closed before no vagabond to knock upon this tired and beatin` war when all return to exile free from all once bound decline and brawl old parasites the truth will yet be found _{ANOTHER BAG OF BRICKS - FLOGGING MOLLY}
Now you and I are now true Brothers! DODONGO'S CAVERN.	instrumental _{IMAGINE THE FIRE - HANS ZIMMER}
But you still don't really look like the hero who will save Hyrule. BEGINNING TO GROW UP.	violence is an energy against the enemy well violence is an energy, right bringing on the fury the choir infantry revolt against the honor to obey overthrow the effigy the vast majority we're burning down the foreman of control _{KNOW YOUR ENEMY - GREEN DAY}

The Zora Sapphire
If you're a man, act like one! JABU JABU'S BELLY.	it's just a little bit further - just a little bit more just a little bit harder - just a little bit sore just a little bit lucky - just a little bit good just a little bit funny - just a little bit cruel just a little bit cruel _{LEAVE THE EARTH BEHIND YOU AND TAKE A WALK INTO THE SUNSHINE - BALLBOY}
I should give it only to the man who will be my husband. RUTO.	you know the lies they always told you and the love you never knew what's the things they never showed you that swallows the light from the sun inside your room _{BLACK BALLOON - GOO GOO DOLLS}

Triforce
You want a piece of me, kid? GANONDORF.	now, dear children, pay attention I am the voice from the pillow I have brought you something a bright light on the heavens my heart burns they come to you in the night and steal your small hot tears they wait until the moon awakes and put them in my cold veins _{MEIN HERZ BRENNT - RAMMSTEIN}
An awakening voice from the Sacred Realm. RAURU. SEVEN YEARS.	I came down over the sleeping mountains where our white tones plunged into the weeping shelter tear our skin up out from the bottom leaves our ankles bare don't just wander back and forth and leave it build it into pinnacles and shrines of some some ghastly predicament in mind you'll find leaves us plastered to a bed of hairs we'll be all coiled up near the bottom with my chest, unbare it _{OBEDEAR - PURITY RING}
I've been waiting for you, Hero of Time. SHEIK. THE QUEST.	every word you’re saying is a lie run away my dear but every sign will say your heart is dead bury all the memories cover them with dirt where’s the love we once had our destiny’s unsure why can’t you see what we had let the fire burn the ice where’s the love we once had is it all a lie? _{FIRE & ICE - WITHIN TEMPTATION}
You're the fairy boy, aren't you? MALON, REVISTED.	I was raised tenderly all that was taught to me I will apply, your parents tried but they didn't know how to burning beacon in the night can't feel its heat, or see its light that single solitary guide, it must get lonely there sometimes let me stand by you the honor is mine _{THE BEACON - A FINE FRENZY}

The Forest Medallion
The flow of time is always cruel. RETURNING HOME.	so I walk up on high and I step to the edge to see my world below and I laugh at myself while the tears roll down cause it's the world I know it's the world I know _{THE WORLD I KNOW - COLLECTIVE SOUL}
This place will be very important for both of us someday. FOREST TEMPLE.	I'm looking at you through the glass don't know how much time has passed oh, god it feels like forever but no one ever tells you that forever feels like home sitting all alone inside your head _{THROUGH GLASS - STONE SOUR}
Saria will always be your friend. SARIA. SAGE OF FOREST.	be my friend hold me, wrap me up unfold me I am small and needy warm me up and breathe me ouch I have lost myself again lost myself and I am nowhere to be found yeah I think that I might break I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe _{BREATHE ME - SIA}

The Fire Medallion
You turned out to be a real man. FIRE TEMPLE.	somewhere weakness is our strength and I'll die searching for it I can't let myself regret such selfishness my pain and all the trouble caused no matter how long I believe that there's hope buried beneath it all and hiding beneath it all, and growing beneath it all _{LET THE FLAMES BEGIN - PARAMORE}
This must be what they call destiny. DARUNIA. SAGE OF FIRE	I feel like there is no need for conversation some questions are better left without a reason and I would rather reveal myself than my situation now and then I consider my hesitation the more the light shines through me I pretend to close my eyes the more the dark consumes me I pretend I'm burning, burning bright _{BURNING BRIGHT - DARUNIA}

The Water Medallion
I never forgot the vows we made to each other seven years ago! ICE CAVERN. WATER TEMPLE.	one million crystals not enough to paint your beauty beauty of your soul 300 days I've counted almost a year, one year of missing you ice feathers on my window reveal a single thought a painting of your eyes is a sign that you do know once again waters change winter spell comes to life again _{A WINTER'S POEM - LEAVES' EYES}
I would have expected no less from the man I chose to be my husband. RUTO. SAGE OF WATER.	my hands are searching for you my arms are outstretched towards you I feel you on my fingertips my tongue dances behind my lips for you this fire rising through my being burning I'm not used to seeing you I'm alive, I'm alive _{ALL AROUND ME - FLYFLEAF}

Interlude. Kakariko Village.
Go around and around and around! THE PAST. THE WINDMILL.	hazing clouds rain on my head empty thoughts fill my ears find my shade by the moon light why my thoughts aren't so clear demons dreaming breathe in, breathe in I'm coming back again _{VOODOO - GODSMACK}
The seal of the well broke. SHEIK. THE WELL.	instrumental _{BLADE FIGHTER - TWO STEPS FROM HELL}

The Shadow Medallion.
Here lies Hyrule's bloody history of greed and hatred. SHADOW TEMPLE.	I'm drowning in nothing nothing real nothing left nothing I'm losing myself sinking deeper down silently leaving this behind nothing left but me I'm hating myself hating myself everyone hates me now _{DROWNING - STABBING WESTWARD}
Draw you into the infinite darkness that absorbs even time. IMPA. SAGE OF SHADOW.	bury all your secrets in my skin come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins the air around me still feels like a cage and love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again so if you love me, let me go and run away before I know my heart is just too dark to care I can't destroy what isn't there deliver me into my fate if I'm alone I cannot hate I don't deserve to have you my smile was taken long ago if I can change I hope I never know _{SNUFF - SLIPKNOT}

The Spirit Medallion.
This melody will lead a child back to the desert. SPIRIT TEMPLE.	no matter which way you go no matter which way you stay you're out of my mind, out of my mind out of my mind, out of my mind I was walking with a ghost I said please, please don't insist I was walking with a ghost I said please, please don't insist _{WALKING WITH A GHOST - TEGAN & SARA}
Don't try to act cool, kid. NABOORU. SAGE OF SPIRIT.	god save us everyone will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns? for the sins of our hands the sins of our tongues the sins of our fathers the sins of our young - no! _{THE CATALYST - LINKIN PARK}

Triforce, Revisted.
A mirror that reflects what is in the heart. ZELDA REVEALED. SAGE OF TIME.	ddon't taint this ground with the color of the past are the sounds in bloom with you? cause you seem like an orchard of mines just take one step at a time and you seem to break like time _{ORCHARD OF MINES - GLOBUS}
His dark ambitions were not satisfied. ZELDA CAPTURED. GANON'S TOWER.	I'm not strong enough to stay away can't run from you I just run back to you like a moth I'm drawn in to your flame say my name, but it's not the same you look in my eyes, I'm stripped of my pride and my soul surrenders, and you bring my heart to it's knees _{NOT STRONG ENOUGH - APOCALYPTICA FT. BRENT SMITH}
These toys are too much for you! GANON.	the first rock thrown again welcome to hell, little Saint mother Gaia in slaughter welcome to paradise, soldier _{PLANET HELL - NIGHTWISH}
Where you are supposed to be. THE END.	is it a curse or a fortune? have I been blinded by regret? redemption awaits my soul is at stake will I find a stairway to the skies in the end? _{STAIRWAY TO THE SKIES - WITHIN TEMPTATION}

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Benny/Black Widow [F:NV]: Ring-a-ding-ding

mezzasol — Thu, 21 Mar 2013 13:19:28 GMT

about fallout: new vegas...

Fallout is a video game series by Bethesda (oh, Bethesda, how I love you) depicting a post atomic war wasteland. Humanity has only just begun emerging from the Vaults in the last generation or so, and beginning to carve out an existence in the Wastes. Fallout: New Vegas is the spiritual successor to Fallout 3, though not considered a direct sequel or in any way directly related, and it takes place in the Mojave Wasteland. The game itself is culturally very interesting; though clearly technology has continued to progress, culturally these survivors are generally trying to emulate a mixture of 50s big band swing era and straight up cowboy westerns. A section of the Las Vegas Strip survived the atomic war (they're calling it New Vegas now) and it is the shining beacon of culture, power, and everything glorious. The families who rule the Strip are merciless and brutal, but everyone stands in the shadow of the mysterious Mr. House.

Benny is the leader of the Chairmen, the family who owns and runs the Tops Casino (You'll love us baby, we're the Tops). The Black Widow is one of the incarnations of the Courier--hired to deliver a package to the Strip--which allows you to be more effective at killing and seducing men. Now, as the game opens, literally, Benny stands there in his checkered jacket smoking a cigarette only to pull out a pretty distinctive gun and shoot you in the head. You wake up in Goodsprings, and the only clue you have as to who he even is is his distinctive checkered jacket. You chase him across the Mojave in the first Act of the game, finally confronting him at the Tops... and as the Black Widow you have the option to seduce him. If you seduce him and don't kill him in the night, he runs off... straight to the Fort where he's captured.

Killer Queen by Queen
Benny image song. He's the cool cat leader of the Chairmen, and he put a knife through the heart of the last leader to get there. He takes great pains to be the baddest guy on the Strip, and he's got delusions of a truly independent New Vegas. "The game was rigged from the start."	I'm as blue I'm as blue as the ocean is true, it's just refelctions of the sky I'm as cold I'm as cold as the stories you told but never sick enough to die Note to self: don't change for anyone Note to self: don't die Note to self: don't change for anyone Don't change, just lie

Note to Self: Don't Die by Ryan Adams
Black Widow image song. "You are a courier hired by the Mojave Express to deliver a package..." She's as cold as she can be, but she explodes without warning. She's had a taste of almost every place the Wastes has to offer, but nothing can tie her down.	She's a Killer Queen Gunpowder, gelatine Dynamite with a laser beam Guaranteed to blow your mind Anytime Recommended at the price Insatiable in appetite Wanna try? To avoid complications She never kept the same address In conversation She spoke just like a baroness

Run Devil Run by Kesha

Benny shot her in the head and left her in a shallow grave. When she wakes up she's pissed. She gathers her wits and heads out towards Primm, where they tell her he was last seen. She has a bone to pick with this charming, dangerous man. And she's gonna shove his lighter up his ass when she finds him.

You better run, run, run, run, run
Cause there's gonna be some hell to pay
You better run, run, run, run, run
And that's the only thing I'm gonna say, hey
I wish I know the right from the start
that I was dancing with the dark
You better run
Devil, Run, Run, Devil, Run Run
Run Devil Devil Run Run

Now that your living with a vampires
You better get yourself a gun
I'll make ya sing just like a boy's choir
I'll string you up to have some fun

Black Flame by Xandria
When she finds her, she sees him across the Tops floor from where she's standing, she realizes that she's chased him this far only for something else. She wants him. She always gets what she wants. He's the only man who's ever given her a run for her money.	Immaculate you are In your tender violence And when you touch my heart I'll always lower my defense Don't let me wait too long Cause I don't like to be safe We know we can't go wrong On our way through time and space

Ain't That a Kick in the Head by Dean Martin
When he falls, he falls hard for her. She's so much more than the other broads he's dealt with, the chickies that dance to his tune as the head of the Chairmen. No, she's dangerous, she's beautiful, and she has more connections than even he does. He can't stop grinning.	The room was completely black I hugger her and she hugged back Like the sailor said, quote "ain't that a hole in the boat" My head keeps spinning I go to sleep and keep grinning If this is just the beginning, my life's gonna be beautiful

Sometimes it Huts by Stabbing Westward
It hurts when he leaves the note on the pillow. He's running again, he's got the chip and he's going to use it. But his plans backfire, and he finds himself kneeling, bound, in Caesar's tent, and desperately hoping that she won't come strolling through that tent flap and barely spare him a glance.	I tried so hard to hate you But it only makes it all worse I only end up hating myself And as my hatred grows So do the lies It's hard to face the truth sometimes God I feel so useless God I hate myself When I try to get over you I hate myself Will I ever get over you

Love is a Battlefield by Pat Benetar
She wakes up alone, and curses his name when she finds the note. She knows what he'll find at Fortification Hill, and it isn't what he's hoping for. She's chasing him again, and when she finds him, its in the lair of the Bull. She swallows back the bile, the first real fear she's ever felt, and faces Caesar like she's holding all the cards.	It would help me to know Do I stand in your way Or am I the best thing you've had Believe me Believe me I can't tell you why But I'm trapped by your love And I'm chained to your side We are young Heartache to heartache we stand No promises No demands Love is a battlefield

If I Never See Your Face Again by Maroon 5 ft. Rihana
She's doing favors for Caesar, winning his trust. Time is passing, and Benny knows his days are numbered. Caesar makes no secret of the fact that she's going to decide how Benny dies. But he can't help himself. He still antagonizes her when he can.	Now as the summer fades I let you slip away You say I'm not your type But I can make you sway It makes you burn to learn You're not the only one I'd let you be if you'd Put down your blazing gun

Demolition Lovers by My Chemical Romance

She surprises him when she slides him a switchblade and a stealth boy. She's already moving, already turning, her pistol in her hand as she aims for the guards who already know. He cuts the bonds, and she's yelling at him to run. But he can't. He can't leave her, not now. He feels his own gun in his palm and he turns, too. They'll fall together in a hail of bullets.

But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every

All we are, all we are
Is bullets I mean this

As lead rains, will pass on through our phantoms
Forever, forever
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame we're burning
Forever, and ever
Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun

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Never Easy - Potter kids fanmix

mezzasol — Mon, 18 Feb 2013 23:31:34 GMT

about harry potter (& this mix)...

Iif you don't know what Harry Potter is, I don't know that I can help you too much, but let's get the basics out of the way. Harry Potter is The-Boy-Who-Lived, the penultimate hero of the world, who gets rid of the big bad twice (the second time it's more permanent). At the end of it all, he gets married, settles down, and has a family. This mix focuses on his kids, who while there is very little canonical information about them save their names, have a world of fanon information and potential to explore. The three Potter kids are James Sirius Potter, named after his grandfather and his father's godfather, Albus Severus Potter, named after two headmasters of Hogwarts whom Harry respected (to put it lightly), and Lily Luna Potter, named for her grandmother and one of her parents' friends.

For the purpose of this mix, here's a bit of insight into the Potter kids. James is the popular athletic one of them, the one who treats the secondhand popularity due to their father's achievements like a crown and he has no qualms holding court. Albus is quieter, more bookish, and a bit of the black sheep of the family; he loves his family, but he doesn't know how to connect most of the time. Lily is a no nonsense, take charge, badass who has no qualms kicking ass and taking names, and anyone who thinks she's a damsel in distress has another thing coming. The three truly love one another, they just have the same kinds of problems that every family does... they're family.

james sirius potter

one week - barenaked ladies	it's been one week since you looked at me dropped your arms to your sides and said "I'm sorry" five days since I laughed at you and said "You just did just what I thought you were gonna do" three days since the living room we realized we're both to blame, but what could we do? yesterday you just smiled at me cause it'll still be two days till we say we're sorry
shooting star - bad company	don't you know, yeah yeah, don't you know that you are a shooting star,don't you know, don't you know, don't you know that you are a shooting star, and all the world will love you just as long, as long as you are
for your entertainment - adam lambert	no escaping when I start once I'm in I own your heart there's no way you'll ring the alarm so hold on until it's over oh, do you know what you got into? can you handle what I'm 'bout to do? cause it's about to get rough for you I'm here for your entertainment oh, I bet you thought that I was soft and sweet ya thought an angel swept you off ya feet but I'm about to turn up the heat I'm here for your entertainment
burnin' for you - blue oyster cult	burn out the day burn out the night I can't see no reason to put up a fight I'm living for giving the devil his due and I'm burning, I'm burning, I'm burning for you I'm burning, I'm burning, I'm burning for you
nights like these - lucero	it's nights like these I don't want you anymore and I've only got this one wish that I was good enough to make you forget the only boy who ever broke your heart cause nights like these tear me apart it's nights like these the sad songs don't help it's nights like these your heart's with someone else
best of you - foo fighters	I've got another confession to make I'm your fool everyone's got their chains to break holdin' you were you born to resist or be abused? is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

albus severus potter

you are my sister - antony & the johnsons	you are my sister, we were born so innocent, so full of need there were times we were friends but times I was so cruel each night I'd ask for you to watch me as I sleep I was so afraid of the night you seemed to move through the places that I feared you lived inside my world so softly protected only by the kindness of your nature you are my sister and I love you
best imitation of myself - ben folds five	maybe I'm thinking myself in a hole wondering, who I am when I ought to know straighten up now time to go fool somebody else, fool somebody else last night I was east with them and west within trying to be for you what you wanna see but I can't help it with you the good and bad comes through don't want you hanging out with no one but me
drive - incubus	So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive, oh oh It's driven me before, it seems to be the way that everyone else get around lately, I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself, my light is found whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open eyes yeah whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there
paper tiger - spoon	I'll never hold you back and I won't force my will I will no longer do the devil's wishes something I read on a dollar bill a paper tiger can't tell you where he stands we'll go back tonight the way that we came I'm not dumb, just want to hold your hand
keep the car running - arcade fire	if some night I don't come home please don't think I've left you alone the same place animals go when they die you can't climb across a mountain so high the same city where I go when I sleep you can't swim across a river so deep they know my name cause I told it to them but they don't know where and they don't know when it's coming, oh when is it coming?
epiphany - staind	cause it's always raining in my head forget all the things I should have said so I speak to you in riddles cause my words get in my way I smoke the whole thing to my head and feel it wash away cause I can't take anymore of this I want to come apart or dig myself a little hole inside your precious heart I am nothing more than a little boy inside that cries out for attention

lily luna potter

runs in the family - amanda palmer	I cannot run from my family they're hiding inside me corpses on ice come in if you'd like but just don't tell my family they'd never forgive me they say that I'm crazy but they would say anything if it would shut me up shut me up
she talks to angels - black crowes	she never mentions the word addiction in certain company yes, she'll tell you she's an orphan after you meet her family she paints her eyes as black as night now pulls those shades down tight yeah, she gives a smile when the pain come the pain gonna make everything alright
you wouldn't like me - tegan & sara	I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me I feel like you wouldn't like me if you met me and don't you worry there's still time there's nothing to live for when I'm sleeping alone and I wash the windows outside in hopes that the glare will bring you around sunshine is days away I won't be saved I know all the words I can't say that I'll love you forever I won't say that I'll love you forever
faster - within temptation	I can’t live in a fairytale of lies and I can’t hide from the feeling cause it’s right and I go faster and faster and faster and faster for love and I can’t live in a fairytale of lies I can feel that you’ve mesmerized my heart I feel so free I’m alive, I’m breaking out I won’t give in, cause I’m proud of all my scars and I can see I’ve been wasting too much time
run the world - beyonce ft. nicki minaj	my persuasion can build a nation endless power with our love we can devour you'll do anything for me who run the world? Girls! who are we? what we run? the world
who am I living for - katy perry	I can feel a phoenix inside of me as I march alone to a different beat slowly swallowing down my fear, yeah yeah I am ready for the road less traveled suiting up for my crowning battle this test is my own cross to bare but I will get there it's never easy to be chosen, never easy to be called standing on the frontline when the bombs start to fall I can see the heavens but I still hear the flames calling out my name

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Crash Crash Burn; a sirius black & james potter fanmix

mezzasol — Tue, 25 Dec 2012 21:51:49 GMT

About this Mix... This mix is a gift for sadiesayswhat and I really hope you like it! The focus is Sirius Black and James Potter, specifically as they were being awesome bros and fighting a war together... right through James' death, and Sirius's subsequent breakdown. These two are my epic bromance favorite, and I hope I do them justice. Nothing here is intended to be slashy, but I think that these two did really love one another... as brothers.

About the Subject... This is a Harry Potter mix focusing on James Potter and Sirius Black, covering the end of their student years into early adulthood among the Order of the Phoenix. If you aren't familiar with the two there's a quote I read somewhere once.... "If James and Sirius are even half as hot as they thing they are, they must be pretty damn hot". These two are naturally gifted wizards who KNOW it, and they both have huge egos and big ol' entitlement issues. But they're good guys, at heart.

Young by Hollywood Undead
They are young. Barely out of school and their fighting a war that no one is sure they can win. But nothing has ever stopped these two young men, and nothing now will, either, even as the war begins to jade their innocently arrogant outlooks on life.	We are young! But we have heart Born in this world as it all falls apart We are strong We don't belong Born in this world as it all falls apart

You are a Runner and I am My Father's Son by Wolf Parade
Sirius always wanted to be a hero. But being a hero is a lot harder than he thought, so he watches James and figures that his best friend must be a hero. After all, James has Lily and baby Harry to protect, and a war to fight. It's too much for Sirius.	I got a number on me I got a number Won't make it through the high noon sun I am my father's son I am my father's son His bed is made I was a hero Early in the morning I ain't no hero In the night

The Same Boy You've Always Known by White Stripes
When James dies, more than a little bit of Sirius goes with him. He breaks down. He keeps thinking of his best friend, a brother more real to him than his own flesh and blood brother, and knows he'd never be strong enough to bury him.	Think of what the past did it could've lasted so put it in your basket I hope you know a strong man who can lend you a hand lowering my casket

Murder by Within Temptation
Vengeance is the only way, he's decided. James would want it this way. So Sirius hunts Peter down, murder in his eyes.	I'm about to do it your way I will make your world unsafe I never thought you'd get this far It's insane You don't believe what all the signs say I don't believe in judgment day But you won't be leaving here unharmed

Hurricane by 30 Seconds to Mars ft. Kanye West
Standing in the ruins of that muggle street, the corpses, insanity in his eyes... it's an eternity. Time and enough to reflect, look back on the life that he hadn't realized made up so much of his own. James is dead. But in that moment, he can hear him laughing. He falls to his knees in the street and the aurors are on him. Crash. Crash. Burn. It all burns.	The quiet silence defines our misery The riot inside keeps trying to visit me No matter how we try, it's too much history Too many bad notes playing in our symphony So, let it breathe, let it fly, let it go Let it fall, let it crash, burn slow And then you call upon God Oh, you call upon God

Say You'll Haunt Me by Stone Sour

Azkaban isn't half as bad as they said it would be. It would hard for them to find a torment worse than the one he's already living. If he's a little mad, then who can blame him. He screams. Sometimes it's for James and Lily, and sometimes its to hear something. But he swears that he's haunted by a bespectacled ghost that calls him a "damned flea ridden fool". It's enough to give him an idea... a way to escape.

Little supernovas in my head
Little soft pulses in my dead
Little souvenirs and secrets shared
Little of guard and unprepared
I was never good enough to find
I was never bad enough to mind
In the middle I will do my best
Take me in your arms and leave the rest

Knockin' on Heaven's Door by Guns N' Roses
Death is a welcome reprieve. At the end, he's done what he can for Harry... and he can see James again. His family. His brother.	Mama put my guns in the ground I can't shoot them anymore That cold black cloud is comin' down Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

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TRC fanmix

mezzasol — Fri, 02 Nov 2012 22:48:51 GMT

about tsubasa resevoir chronicles...

Tsubasa is a manga by infamous mangaka CLAMP starring a foursome that become something like a family over the course of the series. What starts as a fairly light hearted adventure to find the memories of the young female character, Sakura, turns into a rather bloody, dark story about consequences and love. The series follows the four main characters (Sakura, Syaoran, Fai, and Kurogane) on their journey from dimension to dimension. Each character's story is intricate, intertwined, and each character has deep scars that eventually come to light.

Sakura is the only female character of the main cast. She is a fifteen year old princess from the country of Clow. She lost her memories in a terrible accident in her home country, and set out on this journey with her childhood best friend, Syaoran. She is always trying to smile even when things are bad. Though the story complicates things later on, the heart of this character remains true: she is a cheerful, loving young woman, and she deeply cares for her companions. Eventually she comes to rely most closely on Fai.

Fai D Flourite is a magician from the country of Celes. He has faced a great deal of tragedy in his life, and due to circumstances beyond his control, he is made to feel responsible for all of them (he was called a curse from birth). Despite his lackadaisical attitude and his general disinterest in his own well being, he is a good person at heart. He deeply cares for Sakura, and comes to see her as his princess, as a focus and purpose in a life that sorely needed one. At his core, he is a loving, kind, protective young man who is simply afraid of bringing pain and tragedy to more people.

about this mix...


This mix focusing, primarily, on the Acid Tokyo, Infinity, and Celes arcs. I do not ship Sakura and Fai in a romantic way. I think that she's far too young for him, and while they are perhaps more than kindred spirits, they could never be romantic. Their relationship is something different, something deeper. A shared misery, but in the same vein, a desperate need to see the other remains happy, safe, content, untouched by the pain in their lives. They become extraordinarily devoted to one another before the end. At the end of it all, they are two terribly broken people who can find some manner of solace with one another when they are at their darkest.	Sakura is Fai's devotion, his princess, his eventual reason for living. She is the only person who continues to get him to keep standing back up after all that's happened in his life. One defining scene for them both is when one of the curses that had been laid on Fai comes to life, and he's forced to stab her because she becomes more powerful than him. It would have killed him, as Sakura foresaw, had others not intervened. The incident forced him to face the fears he'd harbored all along and return home, to save her. And that's important, as Fai has been running away for the entire series thus far. She made him stop running.	Fai becomes the person whom Sakura can rely on after the clone leaves and is replaces by the original Syaoran. She is in danger of becoming a complete recluse, but in the moment that both of them are in danger of breaking, the cling to one another. Sakura is always encouraging Fai to think of himself first, to only smile if he feels like it, and they share some very intimate, soul baring moments in their way. As he is the only one who knew she was a copy herself all along, his deep acceptance of her is even more touching. She is, after all, the only one who dared to tell him that she was glad he was still alive.

Dance with the Devil by Breaking Benjamin
Fai in Acid Tokyo. He wishes that Sakura would not wake up in this world, to see the pain and turmoil of the people, but he senses that the soul of Syaoran is beginning to break. He tries to save Syaoran anyway, knowing that a seal like that could never be repaired. Even when the clone takes his eye, he fights for the good of them both.	Here I stand, helpless and left for dead. Close your eyes, so many days go by. Easy to find what's wrong Harder to find what's right. I believe in you, I can show you that I can see right through all your empty lies. I won't stay long, in this world so wrong. Say goodbye, as we Dance with the devil tonight. Feeling your cold dead eyes, Stealing the life of mine.

The Place I'll Return to Someday by Kate Covington
Sakura longs to change the future she saw in dreams, to spare Fai and the others the pain. So she creates a situation wherein she would become powerful enough to activate the first curse on Fai. She has decided to act alone, to save all of their lives.	Let my voice become the hand that reaches Out to you and leads To my long lost memory Carry me home I close my eyes And cling to you ever dreaming Find me Oh don’t forget The child for whom you are grieving

Orchard of Mines by Globus
Fai is the one cloistered away with her in Infinity. He's the only one who sees her breaking down, and knows why. She longs for the Syoaran who has left her. But even he doesn't know that her powers as a dreamseer have returned. He does what he can to comfort her, what little that is.	And you seem to break like time So fragile on the inside You climb these grapevines Would you look now Unto this pit of me on the ground And you wander through these To climb these grapevines

I Don't Believe in Tomorrow by Lacuna Coil
Sakura understands that Syoaran is longing for "her". Fai sees only her, longs for only her. He becomes a surprising source of strength and comfort, when she won't even look at the others. Infinity is a harder place than any of them expected it to be.	This might long my face is burning I cannot keep it all long enough I want to hide myself in Something that's bigger than me That I cannot control I wanted you to help protect me To keep me saved in my sanity Confronting the evidence to run away from it Just when I needed you more

Who Wants to Live Forever by Queen
In the moment that her magic surpasses his, and she knows what is to come, she still grieves for the pain this will cause him. She wants to save him, even now.	There's no time for us, There's no place for us, What is this thing that Builds our dreams Yet slips away from us. Who wants to live forever?

It Doesn't Matter by Alison Krauss & Union Station
Kurogane has a throwaway line a bit later in the series: "You and the princess have been allowed to do as you please". He is referencing their easy way with their own pain and sadness, for the "good" of the others. To them it truly doesn't matter, as long as the others are happy.	It doesn't matter what I want It doesn't matter what I need It doesn't matter if I cry Don't matter if I bleed You've been on a road Don't know where it goes Or where it leads

The Crow, the Owl, and the Dove by Nightwish
In Sakura's vision, his grief was what killed him and the others. But her final wish to them was to take care of Fai. Fai is left hollow. He has nothing left to lose. It is why he can choose to go to Celes now, to save her.	Got to grieve her, got to wreck it Don’t give me love, don’t give me faith Wisdom nor pride, give innocence instead Don’t give me love, I’ve had my share Beauty nor rest, give me truth instead

Leave Out All the Rest by Linkin Park
The others don't trust him with her after that, not really. Nor should they. Sakura understands him in ways their other companions never could. The others see the truth now, though; that he's not strong at all. He's just too weak to face the promises he's made.	Don't be afraid I've taken my beating I've shared what I've made I'm strong on the surface Not all the way through I've never been perfect But neither have you So if you're asking me I want you to know

This Night by Black Lab
Fai has always known, to some degree, that he has never been more than a chess piece to anyone. It was in the name of saving his brother, restoring him to life. But that dream is as foolish as any other, and he realizes that. He knows that no one could accept what he's done, let alone forgive him. He just wishes for peace, a chance to finally rest.	I know I'm not forgiven But I need a place to sleep So take this night And lay me down on the street There's a game that I play There are rules I had to break There's mistakes that I made But I made them my way

Hear Our Prayer by Kajiura Yuki
The true Fai finally fades into his deathly slumber, and his twin, the one we have always known as Fai, lets him go. The feather that had stopped the body from rotting returns to Sakura, where it has always belonged. Fai, both Fais, find peace and an ending.	Instrumental

May it Be by Enya
They were never both intended to be happy. Fai knew that, deep in his heart, but still he strove onward, trying to change things. Though his own troubles have come to an end, and he is happier than he ever knew he could be... the copy's life winds down. She will not find completion and happiness, as he has.	May it be the shadow's call Will fly away May it be you journey on To light the day When the night is overcome You may rise to find the sun A promise lives within you now

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Round 08; DCU - Raven Roth/Jason Todd

mezzasol — Tue, 16 Oct 2012 03:04:43 GMT

THE SUBJECT... Our subjects both inhabit the sizeable and confusing DC Universe. Jason Todd is the second Robin, the plucky sidekick of Batman. Jason's run as Robin was cut short when he was beaten to death by the Joker, then blown up for good measure. He got better though, but a dip in the Lazarus Pools might have scrambled his broken brain a bit more. Either way, he's got daddy issues out the wazoo. Once he comes back, he takes on the persona Red Hood, and isn't afraid to do the dirty deeds that Batman has always balked away from. Raven Roth, on the other hand, is a typical member of the Teen Titans. She's a half demon empath with relatively good intentions, and she's got very good control of her daddy issues. As a pairing, they're nearly nonexistent. But they've both got a blend of darkness, light, daddy issues, and marrow deep heroism... even if their methods differ somewhat. I still think that they legitimately want the best for the world.

THE MIX... This mix is equal parts hate, love, success, doubt, pain, and rock music. I'm not sure there's is a forever kind of love, but they would be good for each other. Raven has the control to make Jason face his anger, and maybe deal with it (at least cope). Jason has the outlook on life to embrace the darker aspects of Raven's personality and heritage while still forcing her to be human. IDK. YMMV.

	^{CORNER - BLUE STAHLI raven theme} feel me in the corner beside your mouth feel me in the inside of the faintest trace of sound it's the fire underwater breathing while you drown feel me in the saturation when the sun burns out far beyond the bruising something underneath feel me in the aftermath when you learn the world has teeth
^{PAIN - HOLLYWOOD UNDEAD red hood theme} it's the people above you the ones who say that they love you if you care then they drug you and no one's there when they numb you fill you with terror and crush you pretend they care so you look to me to find the truth and what I say is what you do but everyone you look up to is really as fucked up as you
	^{WEIGHT OF THE WORLD - SALIVA honesty & attachment are hard} and I'd tell you this but I don't know how I'm caving in and I'm falling out and I can't resist and I can't rebound with the weight of the world as the world falls down it's the way you thrill me, then pull away the way you seem to kill me a little more each day
^{SAVIOR - RISE AGAINST you can't fix me} so tell me now if this ain't love then how do we get out because I don't know that's when she said I don't hate you boy I just want to save you while there's still something left to save that's when I told her I love you girl but I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
	^{BAD ROMANCE - HALESTORM let's call this what it is} you know that I want you and you know that I need you I want it bad, your bad romance I want your love and I want your revenge you and me could write a bad romance I want your love and all your lovers' revenge you and me could write a bad romance
^{CHALK OUTLINE - THREE DAYS GRACE the dead and the living} you left me here like a chalk outline on the sidewalk waiting for the rain to wash away wash away you keep coming back to the scene of the crime but the dead can't speak and there's nothing left to say anyway
	^{HEARTBREAK - M'BLACK we can do it together} it's a long way back to heaven and we're on our way together I wish I was yours, forever and ever and ever, and ever I hide you, I keep you, I find you and never let it go now it's on my mind and it's bringing me around and it's on my face I'm not making a sound
^{STAY WITH ME (UNLIKELY) - CELLDWELLER you'll just walk away} I don't have much else to say (unlikely) I'd rather you go away (unlikely) I don't need something from you (unlikely) though some say I will heal over time it doesn't seem too likely it seems unlikely
	^{EXHIBITION - FALLING UP have good dreams for a change} while you're sleeping you know I have escaped while you're sleeping you know I've been erased feel this now the healing starts the motion floods your hope, alone you're moving past your home so lift, your thoughts you're letting go of all you used to know and now his blood will flow

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if we weren't idiots (we wouldn't be soldiers) : duo maxwell fanmix

mezzasol — Fri, 21 Sep 2012 00:50:50 GMT

ABOUT GUNDAM WING... Gundam Wing is... well if you've heard of anime, you've probably heard of it. It was one of those "baby's first anime" that aired on Toonami way back in the old days. It's a mecha anime that follows the story of five teenagers who've been given task of piloting five of the best weapons of war that the world has every seen. All five of our heroes have grown up in a world torn by seemingly endless wars between just about every faction that has an opinion. All told, it's a story about war and peace and destruction, and finding a balance somewhere in between.

ABOUT DUO MAXWELL & THIS MIX.... Duo Maxwell is pilot 02, the self styled God of Death (aka Shinigami). He's a war orphan who never even had a real name. He named himself after a kid named Solo who'd died (together they'd be "Duo") and the Catholic priest who headed the orphanage he eventually ended up at for awhile (Father Maxwell). On the surface he's got a devil-may-care attitude about just about everything, and doesn't seem to have much opinion about the war and where its going, but as the series develops you realize that Duo is actually an extremely passionate young man... and also a little suicidal. That doesn't mean he's any less sarcastic, snarky, or skilled at what he does. He chose to pilot a gundam because he couldn't imagine letting it be used as the tool for a massacre. This mix was made as tribute, but also in his style. I can imagine Duo listening to every track on this mix and enjoying it. All of the passages in quotes, but not italicized, are quotes from the manga, and both the dubbed and various subbed versions of the anime.

EPISODE ZERO
The Kids Aren't Alright - The Offspring

"If Solo's with me, then we'll be Duo."
"But this is our home! If you bust it up where are we supposed to go?"
"Then the only God in this world is a god of death."

"Chances thrown
Nothing's free
Longing for what used to be
Still it's hard
Hard to see
Fragile lives, shattered dreams"

Kids With Guns - Gorillaz

"I've never seen any miracles but I've seen lots of dead people!"
"They all used to hate war just the other day! Why go start another one?"

"And they're turning us into monsters
Turning us into fire
Turning us into monsters
It's all desire"

OPERATION METEOR
Holiday - Green Day

"Wars take too many lives away. People never forget the grief, but they also never stop the fighting. Streams of blood and tears are only an ornament for their destructive ritual."

"Hear the dogs howling out of key
To a hymn called "Faith and Misery" (Hey!)
And bleed, the company lost the war today
I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives
On holiday"

Highway to Hell - ACDC

"Anyone who sees me has a date with his maker."
"God of death? Well its a lot better than being the hero of a massacre."

"Look at me
I'm on the way to the promised land
I'm on the highway to hell
Highway to hell"

FACES IN THE CROWD
War - Poets of the Fall (01: Heero Yuy)

"Hey! You're really gonna shoot me!"
"Its Christmas. But someone always get stuck working."
"Why did I even bother to rescue this guy in the first place? He's anti-social, thinks he's Evil Knieval, and hardly speaks. You've got such a gloomy personality, why don't you just give up and stop pretending to be human?"

"Do you remember standing on a broken field
White crippled wings beating the sky
The harbingers of war with their nature revealed
And our chances flowing by
If I can let the memory heal
I will remember you with me on that field"

Sound of Madness - Shinedown (03: Trowa Barton)

"It's just depressing to think that could have happened to a fellow Gundam pilot."

"Another loose cannon gone bi-polar
Slipped down, couldn't get much lower.
Quicksand's got no sense of humor.
I'm still laughing like hell."

Losing My Religion - Lacuna Coil (04: Quatre Raberba Winner)

"If you leave him alone Quatre always takes the blame himself for everything. I wouldn't be surprised if one day he starts saying that his lack of effort is the reason there is no air in outer space."

"Total pacifism... do you really think such a world is possible?"

"Consider this
Consider this, the hint of the century
Consider this, the slip
That brought me to my knees, failed
What if all these fantasies come
Flailing aground
Now I've said too much"

The Good Soldier - Nine Inch Nails (05: Chang Wufei)

"Hey, Wufei, I'm lonely. Keep me company till the end."

"You know a part about life
Is just a waking dream
Well I know what you mean
But that ain't how it seems right here, right now
How can this be real?
I can barely feel
Anymore"

The Devil's Dancefloor - Flogging Molly (Relena Darlian)

"Hey, wait a minute...now I'm the bad guy!"
"Well she's not your average chick, wanting to see the guy who's trying to kill her."

"Her breath began to speak
As she stood right in front of me
The colour of her eyes
Were the colour of insanity
Crushed beneath her wave
Like a ship, I could not reach her shore
We're all just dancers on the Devil's Dance Floor"

For What It's Worth - Placebo (Hilde Schbeiker)

"Why'd you risk your life?"
"You're a stupid fool!"

"For what it's worth
Come on lay with me
'Cause I'm on fire
For what it's worth
I tear the sun in three
To light up your eyes"

DUO MAXWELL: FIGHTING AND SURVIVING

Runaway - Linkin Park

"I may run and hide, but I never tell a lie."

"I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind"

Back in Black - ACDC

"Don't worry about me pal, I have no intention of dying that easily. There's the colonies to fight for. Just watch me, I'll become the God of Death once again... but right now, I need some sleep."

"Back in black I hit the sack
I been too long I'm glad to be back
Yes I am
Let loose from the noose
That's kept me hanging about
I keep looking at the sky cause it's gettin' me high
Forget the hearse cause I'll never die"

Authority Song - John Mellencamp

"If you're joking that's just cruel, but if you're being sarcastic, that's even worse."

"I been doing it since I was a young kid
I come out grinnin'
I fight authority, Authority always wins"

Break Me Down - Red

"You know what they say, 'Evil attracts evil'."
"I'm not asking you to trust me or anything, but right now, I'm the only friend you've got."

"I want to find
I want to shine
I want to rise
Break me down"

Renegade - Styx

"We don't stand a chance unless something pretty drastic happens."

"The jig is up, the news is out
They finally found me
The renegade who had it made
Retrieved for a bounty
Never more to go astray
The judge'll have revenge today
On the wanted man"

69 Tea - Seether

"Hey, wave back to them or something, they're cheering for us, Superstar!"
"Maaan, I'm going to have nightmares over this one."

"Save me smiling Jesus, get off that cross
Hate me screaming masses
I don’t care if I’m lost"

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Round 06; Inception - Arthur

mezzasol — Sun, 12 Aug 2012 05:13:53 GMT

Inception is the 2010 action/sci fi/heist film by Christopher Nolan set five minutes in the future, centered around the job of an extraction team as they attempt to accomplish what is supposedly impossible: inception. Inception being the implanting of an idea into a subject's mind without them realizing it had been planted through the use of a new technology that allows individuals to experience shared dreaming.

That aside, the rich body of characters and their relationships hardly suffer for the action or drama in this particular story. My subject for this project was Arthur, a secondary character, dubbed "The Point Man" in the promotional material for the movie. Arthur is methodical, precise, intelligent. He's the producer, constantly poking holes in the ideas of the others. He's figuring out a way to make their ideas a reality... or, well, a dream.

In this piece we study him... as a her. I'm not going to attempt to rename her. Most of the rest of the male cast go by their last names... i.e. Saito, Eames, Cobb. I've always been convinced that Arthur is also his surname. So for the purposes of this fanmix, we shall say that we're discussing Miss Arthur instead of Mr Arthur.

01. Somnis Nemoris & Roxas as performed by Verdegrand
(Arthur personal theme)

Instrumental

I am the point woman. It is my responsibility to expect everything, to know everything. I have frequently been told I lack vision, but mine is a vision that few understand. I cannot create sprawling, realistic landscapes in the dream. It is frequently apparent when I stand as the dreamer, as my personal taste floods the world. I cannot control that. I can protect them. I can use complex theories to altar the landscape and confuse the projections and security, until they are so turned around that they hardly think of my team. I can use the gift of information seeking to better prepare them for what they are going to see. I can take the brunt of the danger onto my own shoulders. I am the point woman. This is what I do.

02. Not a Pretty Girl by Ani Difranco
(Arthur & the men in her life)

I am not an angry girl
but it seems like
I've got everyone fooled
every time I say something
they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never their own fear

No man, no matter how enlightened, likes a woman to correct him. They like it even better when a woman can do their job better than they can. I have been accused of being angry, of being a hateful person, of being too masculine. I don't think any of this is particularly true, but I dare to be a strong woman in a world that has been dominated by men as long as it has existed.

There are a few who try to understand. Dom is one. He taught me a great deal about extraction. In turn, I taught him about the technology of shared dreaming. He taught me about how the human mind works, and I taught him the value of being prepared. He's always strove to understand that I am simply a facts and figures kind of girl, not a harpy. It's because of him I have a totem. More accurately, his wife... the specter that's always been between us, before and after her death. Mal Cobb, who can be as elegant and beautiful in the dream as in out. I should know. She haunts us these days.

03. Hey Jude by The Beatles
(Arthur & Cobb)

And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder

Mal's death shook Dom to his core. He hasn't been the same. I know why, but he hasn't told me. It was too easy to piece the puzzle together. Her suicide was a direct result of their time experimenting with shared dreaming. If I don't know the precise answer, that is enough for me. What did she see down there that made her do it?

It drove Dom into hiding, and he started working with me full time. Dom is dragging himself into an early grave, but he doesn't listen to me. Why would he? I'm just the point woman, and perhaps a casual friend. I can never tell him that I love him. Surely he knows. I tell myself that to alleviate the burden of responsibility. I just want to see him smile.

04. O Fortuna as performed by The Piano Guys
(Arthur, the dream is collapsing)

Instrumental

The Saito job for Cobol engineering. I saw her and I knew it was going to end poorly. I don't know what it says that Dom's projection of his dead wife usually has it out for me. Jealousy? Hardly. He's more chaste with me than male partners we see come and go. As if I am porcelain.

Regardless, I left Dom to deal with his wife and went after Saito's secrets. This is my dream, I should be able to do this without him. I have barely entered the room when I hear the click of a gun being cocked and my heart skips a beat. Even here, where I know I cannot die permanently, guns make me nervous. It is Mal, come for me, gun leveled between my eyes. I stop, arms raised, but smile at her. Sometimes I wish for some private time with this projection, to destroy her just once, for what she's done to Dom. Little good it would do.

Pain is in the mind. Pain is real, when the wound is not. Having my knee cap blown to bits hurt more than I care to say. Despite that, I'm still a little angry at Dom for shooting me in the head.

05. You Will be my Ain True Love by Allison Krauss
(Arthur & Cobb)

You'll walk unscathed through musket fire,
No ploughman's blade will cut thee down,
No cutless wound will mark thy face
And you will be my ain true love,
And you will be my ain true love

It's hard to think about Dom. Perhaps it's best to realize that Dom has never been harmed in one of my dreams, not under my watch. He is safer there than anywhere else. I want only to protect him. I want him. It hurts so bad to know that he doesn't see me, he looks through me.

06. Sanctuary by Utada Hikaru
(Arthur & Ariadne)

I watch you fast asleep
All I fear means nothing
In you and I there's a new land
Angels in flight
wonk uoy naht noitceffa erom deen I
My sanctuary my sanctuary yeah

Ariadne is a bright star, and I enjoy working with her. She has all of the boundless creative energy that I admire in Dom without the darkness to stifle it. She learns faster than her instructors can follow, and her mind is quick to grasp the theories I throw at her. She is always planning.

But there is a softer side. She smells like sunlight and coffee and spring. She tastes better. After this job, she'll be gone, back to school. I just hope she thinks of me fondly from time to time. That's all I want.

07. To Zanarkand by Nobuo Uematsu
(Arthur alone in the waking world)

Instrumental

We're so close on this Fischer case. The stage has been set. The players understand their roles. My information, so much, has been presented and now its up to the others to use it. This part of any job is quietest for me. They already have my notes. It's a time of waiting. So I rest, thinking of what comes next, and I try to foresee what might go wrong, despite it all. I must always be ready. I am the first and only line of defense they have.

It's lonely. Dom and Ariadne are frequently talking over the finer points of her design. Yosef spends long nights perfecting his compounds, and Eames watches over his shoulder. Saito comes and goes, other business to attend to at the same time. I'm alone. I watch them.

08. Too Afraid to Love You by The Black Keys
(Arthur & Eames)

I just don't know what to do
I'm too afraid to love you
It's heaven on earth
In her embrace
Her gentle touch
And her smiling face

Eames is one of those characters that you don't take home to meet your mother. We've been rivals since before we'd ever met. Our styles so distinctly different, and yet... the top of our respective games. It would be inaccurate to say we were not intimately familiar with one another, and for some time.

After all... there was a reason I could tell Dom where he was.

But Eames is a superstitious man, and I am the figure of all of his ill luck. He won't love me. He can't. I'm a heartache waiting to happen, he's said.

09. Fortune's Fool by Hiatus & Shura
(Arthur & Cobb[/Mal])

I gave my hand
You told me that you'd
Never let it go

It's never comfortable to stumble upon an intimate moment. It's never comfortable to stumble upon an intimate moment between the man of your affections and his dead wife. Ariadne implicated that there was more going on than meets the eye with Dom, as if I wasn't already aware. We were partners. I was aware of the most intimate details of his life.

It still hurts to see him with Mal. I try to look away, but I catch something. He touches her hair. She touches his chest. She may be a vengeful, angry specter, but he still loves her more than he could ever love me.

10. Song of Healing by Koji Kondo
(Arthur, lonely yet content)

Instrumental

I am not supposed to be a lover. I don't have access to that world. Mine is a world of professional contacts, of dreamscapes and of contracts. I have no room for liabilities. With Dom's resignation in the form of the completed Fischer job, I find myself without a team. So be it.

I am made for being alone... and that's fine. What used to fill be with a deep unhappiness, now defines me. I am not unhappy. I am the point woman, on top of my game. I am brilliant. If I am lonely, then at least I am content.

11. Ships in the Night by Mat Kearny
(Arthur & Eames)

We're just fumbling through the grey
Trying find a heart that's not walking away
Turn the lights down low
Walk these halls alone
We can feel so far from so close

If anyone can shatter my resolve to focus on my work, it's him. He was there in the beginning and he's there in the end. Eames. He says he admires me, even if I am a little too cold. I tell him I thought his work on the Fischer case was brilliant. And it was.

We give it a shot, but it doesn't work. The little flat we share in Paris is empty even when we're there. I'm always away. He's gone without notice. Neither of us are good at relationships. We do more harm than good. I leave one day, and it's more than a week later when he calls. The conversation awkward. He apologizes. He wants me to come home. I tell him I don't have one, and disconnect. We'll meet again. We always do. In our line of work, we couldn't avoid one another entirely. But I'll be stronger next time.

12. I'll Follow You by Shinedown
(Arthur, The Point Woman)

I'll follow you down through the eye of the storm
Don't worry I'll keep you warm.
I'll follow you down while we're passing through space
I don't care if we fall from grace
I'll follow you down

I am the point woman. I participated in the only successful job of inception known in our line of work. I have an impressive resume of work, of achievements, of contacts. I am well sought out in my line of work. If I work largely alone these days, then at least I occasionally receive a card from Dom and his kids, or a phone call from Ariandne. Eames and I cross paths, stiff and uncertain. I visit Yosef when I'm in Mumbasa. We have an undeniable connection, but I still work alone. I'm the point woman. That's what I do.

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