Tonda Gossa, folks.

Wow! It's been 10 months since I started making these blogs huh?

How was your June? I had too much stormy days here, personally. This month has felt very long for me, for some reason. Perhaps because several really enjoyable things came out this month, so I was using a lot of mental energy in those places.

Curious thoughts...

Have I ever talked about how I realized a while back what drum inspired the visual aesthetic of Panzer Dragoon? I learned about a drum a while back called a Wooden Tongue Drum. If you look up images of this instrument, you'll see that they have remarkably similar patterns and designs of the ancient structures and walls in the Panzer Dragoon games, especially visible in Panzer Dragoon Saga, my favorite in the series. I wonder why I've never heard anyone else talk about this connection.

What media I been watching lately?

I was shown a horror film recently called Hokum that I thought was pretty fantastic! It definitely is not for the feint of heart or for people who aren't into creepy horror stuff, but I love it when done right, and I feel like this film does. The main character is so unlikable to everyone around him that it becomes almost comedic how awful he is (for good reason). The director definitely is a fan of a lot of the same horror media that I am, from what I can see from the movie, it had very strong good Silent Hill feeling to it in a lot of points. Pretty great overall.

Huh, did I forget to talk about this last month? I was taken to see the Backrooms film at the end of last month, and I loved it very very much, I cant really add more to it than that!

I've been interested in finally watching all of Bomberman B-Daman Bakugaidan, maybe ill be able to have the free time to watch it this next month if I'm lucky...?

You hear about Videogames?

Deltarune Chapter 5 has finally arrived. I'm glad my hands were able to play it without much issue, thanks to being able to change the control scheme. I loved it. I heard that a lot of people hated the antagonist of this chapter but I loved him lol. The intro FMV animated by studio kara was so shocking that I had a moment of panic and thought my game broke for a moment and started playing something else, lol. Every scene with him was very entertaining to me and I adored all of the interactions and dialogue this chapter. The misplaced dating sim voice clips, hitting the Heritage For The Future Jotaro pose, the personality and the way he speaks to everyone. How fun! The special gameplay gimmick for this chapter was incredible and felt so good to play around with, and really made the game feel all the more dynamic! The humor felt even better this chapter for some reason, I found myself laughing pretty consistently throughout this chapter.

The music for this chapter was top notch as well, but of course Toby is always going to nail that. The Megaman X track in the upper castle climb was especially fantastic, and the boss theme at the end was so catchy and hype that it made the fight all the more memorable! The secret boss was awesome and I love its design, and even the music that plays with it! I actually had a little trouble on this one for once, as it took me maybe 3 tries to beat this boss. Really funny and impressive battle gimmicks though, and a very cute design, reminiscent of Panel De Pon, among other obvious influences.

Out of the 7 flowers, I think Cyan or Yellow were my favorite in terms of personality and the scenes they appeared in. The bits of lore starting to emerge about the dark fountains and what Ralsei might actually be are getting very very intriguing, and some of my theories about him might be starting to come true. The scene with Suzy and Noelle at the lake was so cute and heartwarming, and the bit where they're listening to eachothers heartbeats made me think my body might explode. I love suzy so much as a character and I find her story so interesting to watch unravel, she's definitely a person I'd hang out with lol. I'm rooting for her to hopefully find a happy ending. The end of the chapter was a total gut-punch, and i am very uneasy!! Time to wait however many more years for the penultimate chapter to come out.

As for Youtube content:

The TADC finale came out this month, and I was absolutely floored. It was everything I could have asked for with the finale, and I'm genuinely satisfied with it all. It gave closure on every major loose end that I cared about, while avoiding a standard happy-go-lucky hollywood ending. The voice acting was phe-nom-en-al from every actor, the performances were each fantastic and so well acted, and the animation and visuals were top-notch. The "I don't want to go" scene was especially heartwrenching, and the following sendoff set to "Isn't She Lovely" was really bittersweet. Just like a real death, it's often sudden and can happen before you've done all you want to do with that person. I'm not ashamed to admit I cried during the ending scene recreating the closing of episode 1, partially out of sadness and partially catharsis or tears of joy. It struck me as a something so beautiful that it made me weep. The whole finale was such an intimate and emotional closing to the series, that it really made me realize how stagnant and isolated my own life has become. Though, I don't have any means or money to make a change unfortunately...

I greatly appreciate that they didn't choose to end the series by fixing everything, but rather by just trying to move forward with what they have. Bittersweet endings are hard to come by these days. If it went the direction of simply fixing you-know-who and making everything all better, that would have felt hokey and cheap and frankly irresponsible. Very appreciated that the creator showed that its not always realistic to be able to recover from grief or trauma, and that there's not a "fix" for that sort of thing.

I can say for sure that this show will stay with me forever and up there in my brain with things like Mother 3 or Evangelion, as pieces of media that moved me greatly and really REALLY resonated with me on a deep personal level. You can tell this was indie because of the subject matter it touches on, the way in which characters speak to eachother, and the heavy real life themes it doesn't hold back on talking about, and I appreciate that so much. I doubt something quite like this will be made ever again, at least one that will mesh with me so much as it did. Goodbye to this story and characters, I will miss them dearly. After finishing the final episode, I actually felt the mild empty feeling of depression that I felt back when I first finished the Evangelion tv series back in high school. Its something I only ever feel when a show I truly connect to and love the characters and world comes to an end, and there's a sort of feeling of loss or emptiness. That said, its a good thing, because everything has to come to an end someday, and ending on a high note will always be far better than fizzling out while trying to prolong a story for as long as possible. I will eventually recover from the doldrums of course (maybe even at the time that this blog gets posted I'll be feeling all better, even, since I'm writing this entry here right after I finished watching the finale) (end-of-month-update nope I'm still going through it lol).

Is that music I hear?

Honestly mainly Ive been listening to a lot of random mixes on youtube of a genre of music I only recently found (and don't really know the definition of yet) called "Rally House", which I've been enjoying in the background while I work.

Hand Pain Update:

Its been really rough this month for some reason, for the first half of this month my hands felt like they're filled with jagged scraps of iron and there's not much I can do about it. I can take painkillers but they don't do much since I'm resistant to all medications. The best I can do is rest my hands and arms and try and distract myself by watching videos or trying to take walks when the weather isn't too hot. We also had really bad storms this month, which flooded a part of our house, and we've been doing what we can to clean the damage so that it doesn't grow more black mold, which we've been dealing with for a while now unfortunately.

Well... in closing

That's all I can think to talk about from this month. If you'd like to help support me and help me pay medical bills and buy groceries, please head over to my Patreon and donate there and see plenty of neat exclusive art and music, or if you know anyone who can help by donating to it, please link it to them. But if you don't or cant, then I understand.

Thanks for reading!