February 14th, 2007

I have a date for today for the first time in, I don't even know how long. I even left work early, to get all pampered at the salon and all. So, I should be excited, right? I should. Except, I'm not.

I can't shake this weird feeling on my tummy, this thing, like I'm doing everything wrong.  George. It wasn't until he sent me the text message that I realized I'd been waiting to hear from him all day. When I received the flowers I thought they were from him, I'd hoped because they are my favourite and the spa and I wanted them to be from him, but they weren't and I can't help but feel disappointed. Great Lavender, just what you need, another case of impossible crush.

Why couldn’t he ring me yesterday? Well, it's because he had other plans, Lavender and even though he remembered his pathetic dateless friend, meaning you, it doesn't mean he wanted to actually see you. Maybe he was even relieved that you have a date.

But I have a date, have to think about that. A date. And Nigel is a good man and he's been interested in me, me, for a long time and why not. I'm not getting any younger. If I don't do something soon, I'll end up as the eternal dateless pathetic friend. And George is a really good friend, the kind I can't lose. Yes, he is a really good friend.